by K E Osborn
He brings his hand up to my chin and forces my head up so my eyes stare into his. I bite my bottom lip because his gorgeous face is too much for me to take in right now.
“What’s going on in that beautiful head of yours?” he asks inching our now naked bodies closer together, so every part of us is touching.
“I just…”
“Indi, talk to me. Am I going too fast?” he asks suddenly looking very unsure.
“No, no, it’s not that—”
“Then talk to me, Indi. You know what happened last time you kept something from me,” he says, the pain of the past stings my eyes.
“It’s just…I want this to be…perfect. I want you to feel as good as I know I will. I just don’t know if I’ll be as good at this as you are,” I admit and his intense gaze softens and he leans down so we’re face to face.
“Indi, just being here with you like this is perfection for me. Being inside you will be pure bliss. You don’t have to worry about being as good at this as me because Indi, we were made for each other. This is only awesome when it’s with you.”
“You’ve only been with me once though?”
“Once was enough to know that making love with you is the only way I want to make love from now on. Indi, like I said we fit together perfectly. You don’t even have to try because we were made for each other. Anything you do will be perfect,” he says leaning in and kissing me strongly.
I kiss back with the same enthusiasm and move my hand down to take his rigid cock in my small hand. He moans as I grip onto him tightly, but not so it’s painful. I start to move my hand up and down trying to make sure that he knows I want to pleasure him as much as I know he will me. His kisses become less controlled and he starts to move his hips in time with my hand. I love that I can make him feel this turned on. I enjoy the control I have over his pleasure. He moans into my mouth and moves his hand down my waist and over my hip. Then he dips inside my thigh and I step my legs apart so he has easier access. He gently moves his hand against my pussy rubbing which instantly causes a tingle to run all over my body as I continue to stroke his length. He runs his finger inside and puts pressure on my clit causing me to jolt slightly at his touch. It’s a lot harder to concentrate on pleasuring him while he’s pleasuring me, but at least we’re in this together. Our kissing is less focused as were both trying to focus on our breathing, but our lips are still touching as we work each other up. He circles on my clit and my whole body is swaying with the movements trying to work with his rhythm. It feels so good. A tingle shoots up my spine and my muscles start to tighten then I moan into his mouth.
“Come for me, baby,” he whispers against my lips and I whimper in response.
He presses and circles harder on my clit, and it’s tougher for me to stay focus on pleasuring him. I want to so badly, but he’s making it very difficult to concentrate. He takes my hand from his cock and puts it on his chest. I open my eyes and look at him wondering why he stopped me from stroking him.
“Was it bad?” I ask and then he presses harder on my clit and I moan out again.
“No baby it felt too good and I was going to come, and I only want to come inside you. But I want you to come. Now,” he demands as he increases pressure on my clit, then moves his mouth to mine forcefully. He flicks his finger against my clit in such a way that sends a shiver all over me. My back arches and my eyes clench tight trying to ride the wave of agonising pleasure. I grab hold around his neck to steady myself because my knees feel weak as my whole body tenses. I see stars behind my closed eyelids and I clench everything so tightly while I hold my breath. He flicks one more time and a wave of ecstasy rolls over me like a tsunami. The waves of pleasure hitting every surface of my skin erupting into an inferno of desire as my body explodes into a massive, all-consuming climax. My knees buckle and Caleb chuckles as he wraps his arms around my back and holds me to him to stop me from falling.
“Oh God, Caleb,” I whisper still with my eyes closed as he carries me to the bed.
“I know, baby. Now let me make love to you?” he asks as he crawls over the top of me.
I open my heavy lazy eyes and look into his that are bright and full of lust. “Please,” is all I can manage. He smiles then leans in kissing me, pressing his weight on top of me. I kiss him back, but suddenly he pulls back and looks into my eyes again. Panic starts to wash over me that he’s changed his mind.
“Are you on call?” he asks and relief floods me as I giggle.
“No, not tonight. I’m all yours,” I whisper.
He slowly pulls back again and I bite my lip wondering what question he has this time.
“Do you want me to use a condom?” he asks and I smile biting my bottom lip.
Chuckling and nodding in understanding at my facial expressions, he gets up and walks over to his jeans and pulls one from his wallet. He actually grabs a couple and comes back over to the bed placing one packet in his mouth and ripping it open with his teeth.
God damn that’s a sexy move!
He looks at me one last time and I know another question is coming, but this time I think I know what one it is, so I intercept first.
“Yes, I’m sure. Now please make love to me,” I say and he smiles as he rolls the condom on and throws the spare on the bedside table. He crawls his way up over me and I grin as he leans down and kisses me. I run my hands up his arms and one into his hair while the other stops on his shoulder blade. He positions himself at my entrance and I open my eyes to watch him staring down at me. I smile against his kiss and he slowly eases inside of me. As we look into each other’s eyes, something passes between us. Unmistakable love and devotion and a feeling that everything is going to be okay. It sends a shiver down my spine and joy runs through me like nothing I’ve ever experienced before. My whole body is shaking, but in a good way as I’m now connected with Caleb, just like all those years ago.
The emotion and rawness I felt back then is here with me again now. I love him, he loves me, and everything about this moment, as I stare into his beautiful chocolate brown eyes, is perfect. I moan into his mouth as he moans right back into mine. The filling feeling hits me and I wrap my legs around his waist and pull him in deeper. He kisses me slowly as we start to move in unison. The wave of pleasure strokes over me immediately and feeling him inside of me is unquestionably pleasurable. Sure when we were younger we did this, but this time it’s different. There’s more meaning behind it now. We’re together, and this is our first time as a couple and it couldn’t be any more perfect. He grinds into me slowly and sublimely. This is definitely making love. This is nothing like the fucks I’ve become so accustom to from other guys. Obviously, this is what being in love feels like. Slow and passionate, slow and steady, as our bodies move together both striving to please each other, the feeling of love is flooding the room.
“Oh God Indi, you feel so good,” he murmurs against my lips.
I move back in kissing him as he moves in deeper rocking gently against my core.
“I love you so much,” I murmur.
He groans and pushes just at the right spot to make me shudder. We’re working effortlessly together and this couldn’t be more faultless. Every thrust inside me makes me feel alive, more alive than I have all my life. Being with Caleb ignites something within me. Something that makes me believe in a happy ever after. I could have that with him, and as he strives effortlessly to bring me to climax I realise that I have wasted all my time worrying about the past instead of concentrating on my future. My future is with Caleb. I know that now, and as he thrusts into me again a jolt surges right through my core making me gasp as my back arches upward while I clench my toes up tight. My body is trembling as he kisses me passionately. Then a wave of pleasure rolls through me making me see little white stars, it takes my breath away. My body tenses and then releases as he thrusts once more hitting just the right spot. I relax against the bed, but keep moving in time so he can have his release.
“Oh God, Caleb, I love you so fu
cking much,” I murmur against his lips and dig my nails into his back as he works himself up inside me.
“I’m close, baby,” he says and I bring my lips to his forcefully and kiss him passionately as I tighten my core muscles to milk him for all he’s worth. He groans and I can feel him quivering against my body as he thrusts a little faster. Then he stops kissing me and moves his head into the crook of my neck and groans loudly while he stiffens and unloads inside of me. I run my hands all over his back working him down after his release. He relaxes his body against mine putting his weight on me, as we both breathe quickly trying to catch our breath. I run my hands up into his hair and close my eyes reveling in the afterglow. A smile crosses my face and Caleb lifts his head from my neck and then I hear him chuckle. I open my eyes to see him looking right at me.
“What?” I ask.
“Why are you smiling?”
I smile wider. “Because I’ve waited six long, disastrous and torturous years for this exceptional moment. What the hell was I thinking?”
He just smiles his gorgeous smile the one that caresses his eyes.
“I should’ve been doing this with you. You amaze me. I’ve wasted so many years, Caleb. I didn’t know anyone could make me feel so…”
“Alive?” he asks and I smile and nod.
“Exactly,” I reply. “Caleb.”
“Yeah, baby?”
“Can we stay here forever?” I ask being half serious.
He smiles again and nuzzles his nose against mine. “Indi, for the rest of tonight I’m all yours, and then for the rest of forever. Your wish is my command.”
I giggle and lean up to kiss him, he slowly pulls out of me and rolls onto his back pulling me on top of him. I giggle as he wraps his arms tightly around me, and I feel safe for the first time in my life. I’ve never felt like I’ve been in any sort of situation where I felt at home. But right now, in Caleb’s arms, I couldn’t feel more like I’m finally there. A place to call home…my home with Caleb.
Resting on my back under the sheets of Indi’s bed, I’m completely naked with her also completely naked snuggled into my side. Just the way I like her. She’s trailing featherlight strokes up and down my chest as we lay here and bask in the wake of our confessions and admittance that we want to be together and then followed by our love making. It surely can’t get any better than this moment right now. My arm is underneath her as she is nuzzled into my side, so I bring my hand up and gently caress the back of her hair. She is far more beautiful than I deserve, but if Indi is willing to give this a shot with me, then I sure as hell am not going to stuff this up in any way.
“I’m so relaxed right now,” Indi murmurs.
Turning my head nuzzling into her flowery scented hair, I plant a kiss on her head.
“I honestly had no idea letting go of all that bad energy could feel so…cathartic. I feel incredible right now,” she says and then tilts her head looking up at me.
“I know, I never understood why you left like you did. I couldn’t understand where the trust thing even came from. Now I get it, and I’m extremely sorry that you saw what you did with Maddie. I just wish you’d stayed ten seconds longer to see me push her away, but I guess we can’t change the past we can only think about the now and our future. And Indi, I always knew you were meant to be a part of my future. You’re part of all the songs I write, every lyric is for you,” I admit and she smiles and looks like she’s going to cry. I race my hand to her cheek to comfort her.
“Hey, I’m sorry. Did I say something wrong?”
She looks away blinking rapidly. “No, not at all. There’s something I need to tell you,” she says and I tense up at the seriousness of her tone.
“Okay.”
“Well, you know how I came to your concert?”
I continue looking at her even though she’s avoiding looking at me. “Mmm.”
“Well, I listened to ‘Saving Grace’ and I fell apart. I knew it was about me and I couldn’t handle it. It brought up way too many painful memories, of us, of my issues, and I had to leave.” She looks up at me through tear soaked eyelashes. “I’m sorry I lied about the headache. Just seeing you up on stage, performing like I knew you always would. Then watching that girl throwing her shirt at you, and the way you reacted, it just—”
“Hey! The way I reacted was the way I’m supposed to. Not because I wanted her to throw her clothes at me. I’m expected to work the crowd, Indi, it’s my job. I don’t do it because I want all the women in the front row,” I reply honestly.
“No, I know. In my heart, I knew that, but seeing it and being unprepared for it was something that threw me. My trust issues came back full force and I guess I will still have issues with fan girls and groupies when you are seriously famous. And you will be famous, Caleb, I know it. But I want to work through it…with you. If you’ll let me?” she asks as a tear falls slowly down her cheek.
“Hey, stop that. There’s no need for your tears, baby. I’m willing to do anything to make this work. Even give up the band! If you’re not comfortable with all the female attention—”
“No fucking way, Caleb! You’re never giving up your dream. You’re made for the stage and I know you are going to make it huge. I just know it. Plus, I’m your biggest fan, so I get all the perks, right?”
I lean down and peck her soft lips then pull back and look at her softly. “Indi, you are amazing. Without you, this whole band thing probably would’ve only been for fun. But because you believed in me, I wanted it to be something worth putting the effort into. You made me who I am and Staked is only here because of you. The other members of the band just don’t realise that ” I say honestly and she rolls her eyes and shakes her head.
“It’s not all because of me. The passion for music must’ve been there for you too. Not just because I encouraged it, Caleb. You wanted this as much as I did. I just wish the girls would leave you alone.”
“I don’t care about the other girls, Indi. There’s only one I care about, only one that I’m madly in love with, and she’s right here with me now. And I swear I’m going to shout it out from the rooftops.” I instantly feel her body tense up against mine and her face turns into a frown while she bites her bottom lip. “Or not?” I say furrowing my brows at her sudden change in demeanour.
“It’s not that I’m ashamed to be with you or anything, so please don’t think that—”
“What are you saying?” I interrupt.
She exhales and moves up on her elbow so she’s looking at me directly. “Caleb I love you, there’s no doubt of that—”
“But?”
“But, I don’t like the spotlight like you do. I want to be your girlfriend, yes definitely, but I don’t want all the attention that comes with it. If you know what I mean?”
“So you want to keep this quiet then?”
“If you’re okay with that? It’s just with my past, I know what the tabloids are like. They’ll dig up everything, and I really don’t want my parents’ history through the papers bringing you and Staked down, you know?”
I can see where she’s coming from. I really don’t want all that brought up for her either. The memories are bad enough, but having it forced in her face again is something she doesn’t need.
“Okay. I’m happy to keep this between us…for now. I get where you’re coming from.”
“Thank you…um, can we not tell your family either?” she asks really quietly in almost a whisper.
I raise an eyebrow and exhale feeling a little like she might actually be ashamed of me. I scratch my head and crack my neck. “Can I ask why?”
She swallows hard and looks me in the eyes. “I didn’t want to say this, but I guess honesty is the best thing for us right now.”
I tense up and nod.
“Okay, well, Hux and Macy are like second parents to me. And I feel sorry about the way I left without saying goodbye. Sure, I saw Hux a few times after I left, but I feel dreadfully sorry about how I left things with them.”
“Okay,” I say slightly confused as to what she’s getting at.
“Right, well, I love them, and I love you. But I don’t want them back in my life just yet, in case something happens with us and then I have to lose them all over again as well as you. Does that make sense?”
I relax my body and nod. She doesn’t want to see them in case we don’t work and she gets too attached. I understand her logic, I guess. “Yeah, makes sense. I know what you mean, and I understand, Indi. I just hope that even though I’m aware we’re starting out really slowly and we’re not telling anyone about us, I just hope you know that I’m going to make this something worth fighting for…for both of us. I won’t lose you again.”
She smiles and leans down pressing her lips to mine softly, and I run my hand to the back of her head and pull her closer and deepen the kiss opening my mouth to let her tongue slide in. She always tastes so sweet, and I know I can never get enough of her. She pulls back slowly and looks down at me.
“Are you sure you’re okay with this?”
“Baby, I want you to be comfortable in this relationship, and if that means us keeping it on the down low, then I’m fine with that.”
She laughs and rolls onto her back on the bed beside me. “Did you really just say on the down low?”
I turn on my side and look at her and smirk. “Yeah”
“I have to rethink this whole relationship now. I don’t think I can be with someone who’s from the ghetto,” she says with a laugh, so I roll on top of her body pinning her to the bed as she continues to laugh.
“You know laughing at a man will give him a complex.”
She slows her laugh and looks at me in the eyes. They’re glistening brightly with happiness and love, and I adore how vibrant she is right now.
“Well, maybe he shouldn’t be such a dork then,” she says and I chuckle again.
“Right, that’s it.” Leaning down, I take her earlobe into my mouth and bite tugging on it making her laugh as I growl like a dog.
