by K E Osborn
“Indi,” I call out.
Still nothing.
I knock again and now I’m getting frustrated that she won’t answer the door.
“Indi it’s me. C’mon, please open the door,” I say loudly and one of the neighbour’s lights turns on.
Still nothing.
I knock again louder this time. “Indi!” I call out and the neighbour opens their door and looks at me scowling.
“Do you know what time it is, young man?” she calls out sounding annoyed.
“Yeah, time you mind you own damned business. Indi! Open the door,” I yell this time and bang forcefully while the neighbour pulls out her mobile phone and starts to dial what I can only assume to be the police.
Great!
“Indi, please. Your neighbour is going to have me arrested. Answer the damn door. Please!” I yell and then her door swings open and she looks at me flaring her nostrils, her face bright red. Her eyes are puffy from crying and my heart breaks at the sight. She looks miserable and as angry as hell.
“Shut the hell up, Caleb,” she says stepping through the door to look at her neighbour. “Sorry, Mrs. Latham, no need for the police.” She grabs my arm and drags me inside her home while I try to hide my smile that she’s actually answered the door and that I’m now where I want to be.
Caleb – 1. Mrs. Latham – 0.
“Caleb, what the actual fuck?” Indi slams her front door and glares at me.
I immediately stop my internal victory dance and concentrate on her tired and miserable face. She looks so lost and I know I’m the reason for the way she looks right now, and it’s breaking my heart.
“Indi, I don’t know what happened to make you so angry with me, but we need to sort this out right now.”
She huffs and turns away walking into her lounge room and sits on the lounge suite. “It’s late, Caleb, I’ve had a big day,” she says sounding really lackluster and emotionless.
“Indi, look, I know what I said on the card might have scared you. I know I’ve pushed you too much. I know you don’t want a relationship—”
“Then why ask for one, Caleb?” she yells staring at me as I cautiously approach the lounge suite and sit down next to her.
“Because, Indi I forgot. It’s so easy to just be with you. I know your reasons, and I know that you hate the idea of us loving each other so much that it will break us if something happened to either one of us, I get that. But why can’t we just take a step back and see how things go? Can’t we just let things progress naturally. I can tell by how upset you are that something doesn’t feel right to you, and I’m guessing that that something is us being apart, right?” I ask and she huffs and looks at me her dull blue eyes brimming with tears.
“I don’t want to be like this, Caleb,” she admits, but I’m at a loss as to what she’s referring to.
“Like what, baby?” I ask taking her hands in mine and looking into her eyes letting her know that I’m here for her.
“I don’t want to be the one always saying no to us. It breaks me, Caleb. Every time I’m with you it feels so right, and then the moment you’re gone I remember all the bad stuff and I break a little more. I have to remember my parents and Maddie and all the horrible things you’ve done—”
“Wait. What? Maddie?” I ask confused as to who she’s talking about.
She goes quiet and looks away from me.
“Indi, what’s Maddie got to do with anything?” I ask and she exhales, then the tears flow down her face.
“I saw you with her.”
I rack my brain trying to think of a Maddie that I’ve been with since seeing Indi again. I am drawing a blank. “I’m not following,” I reply and she looks back up at me her expression is tight.
“The day I left, the day after we slept together, I saw you with Maddie by the back building after our exams. She was bending down about to give you a blow job, the day after we had sex, Caleb! That’s why I can’t trust you! I couldn’t watch, so I ran off and packed my things,” she says and my head is spinning as I try to remember back to that time so long ago. Then it suddenly clicks into place.
“No, wait, Indi…Maddie. Shit! No, it didn’t happen like that. She wanted to, but I pushed her away and then came home to find you, but you’d already gone. I swear nothing happened with Maddie. I promise,” I say tightening my grip on her hands.
“You’re not lying,” she whispers as she looks into my eyes intently and I shake my head and bring my hand up to wipe away the steady stream of tears that are falling down her cheeks.
“Nothing happened, Indi. You’re the only woman I want. I swear on my life,” I say and she bursts into full on tears bringing her hands up to her face. I move in and wrap my arms around her body and pull her into my chest to comfort her. All this time she thought I let Maddie suck me off after we had sex? I remember I was going to, but Indi meant too much to me and I’d never let that happen.
“God Indi, is that what this has been about all these years? Is that why you left?” I ask and she nods her head slowly against my chest.
“I thought I couldn’t trust you. That mixed with the fear of us losing ourselves in each other and then something terrible happening was too much for me. I had to leave.”
I bring my hands to her cheeks and force her head up to meet mine. “Indi, I would never cheat on you. I’d never break your heart. And if you let me in, I will be able to take care of you and treat you the way I should’ve been treating you for the past six years. I know you don’t want anything fast, and I know you’re scared of us falling so hard we can’t escape it, but Indi, I love you. I’m not asking you to marry me, although if I thought you would say yes I would. All I’m asking is that you give us a shot. We deserve to be happy and being together makes us happy, Indi. Don’t worry about the what if’s. They won’t happen, baby. If I’m with you, I’m with you forever. I’ll never leave you. I promise.”
She sniffs as her tears continue to trickle down her face. Her eyes dart from side to side like she’s trying to figure out what she wants or what to do next. I know she wants this. I know she wants me. She’s just too damned scared and I hate her parents right now, and I hate Maddie for making Indi this way. I hate that I can’t do anything but wait for her to make up her mind, and I hate that with every passing second it looks more and more like she’s going to say no.
She brings her hand up and rests it on mine that’s against her cheek. She nuzzles into my hand and my heart beat speeds up dramatically.
“I can’t promise I won’t freak out again,” she whispers and my heart thumps in my chest like a jackhammer. I smile widely as I lick my lips.
“I can live with that—”
“And I can’t promise that even if we go slowly like you say we can, that your version of slow and my version will be the same—”
“We can take it as slow as you need, baby. Just tell me that we can try, that’s all I’m asking for, Indi. The chance we should have had six years ago. We belong together, my sweet Indi, you know that.”
She swallows hard and I see her bottom lip tremble. “I swear to God Caleb if you cheat on me—”
“That will never happen, baby—”
“Or if you hurt me—”
“Not going to happen either, Indi. I love you, I always have. Nothing is going to happen that will cause me to fuck this up. I won’t lose you again.”
A slow smile spreads across her face, which in turn makes me smile.
“You should have talked to me instead of leaving six years ago. We could’ve avoided all this hurt,” I say and she nods and swallows hard.
“I’m sorry. I just saw you with Maddie and all my trust went out the window. I was so hurt, Caleb. I was already broken. I had one part of my heart that was holding on and seeing you with her shattered that last remaining piece. I wish I’d stayed. I wish I knew that nothing happened back then. I wish a lot of things hadn’t happened, but I guess we can’t take it back now. All we can do is make up for the last six ye
ars,” she says and I smile brightly.
“We have a lot of time to catch up on.”
“So we’re doing this then? But very slowly?”
I nod and lean my forehead against hers. “As slowly or as quickly as you want, Indi. I’m in this, I just need to know you’re in this with me now? I know you’re still worried about us turning out like your parents, but we won’t let that happen to us, okay?” I ask needing a little more reassurance.
She nods and bites her bottom lip as she stares at mine. “I’m in this, Caleb. Today after hanging up on you, I couldn’t pull myself out of the endless despair I was feeling. I wanted to be with you so badly, but my trust issues are making me question everything. I couldn’t trust you, but now knowing that nothing happened with Maddie well, that changes everything. I trust you, Caleb. I can see in your eyes that you love me just like I love you, and being with you always felt right. It feels right now, and I just feel stupid that I could’ve avoided all this heartache if we’d have just talked to each other sooner.”
“Say it again.”
She looks me in the eyes and furrows her eyebrows. “Which bit?”
“That you love me,” I reply and she smiles and wraps her arms around my neck pulling me to her, so we’re only inches from each other.
“Caleb, I love you, I always have.”
I bite my bottom lip to stop myself from sobbing like a fucking baby. I don’t want to seem weak in front of her right now, so I lean in moving my hand to the back of her head and pull her in so her lips are just touching mine.
“I love you, Indi,” I say and then crash my lips to hers finally. She opens her mouth, and I slide my tongue in as she inches forward and moves onto my lap straddling me and pinning me to the lounge. My hand runs up her back under her pyjama top and the other through her hair holding her to me.
Kissing her, knowing that she loves me just like I love her and that she’s now mine, fills me with so much joy I want to explode. Every inch of me is tingling and as Indi makes out with me on her lounge suite, I know that tonight is the start of something absolutely, earth-shatteringly incredible.
The beginning of the Caleb and Indi’s story...
As I’m making out with Caleb on my lounge suite, I can’t help but feel like a massive weight has finally been lifted from my shoulders. For six long years I thought Maddie and Caleb had a fling behind the building at school and that was what I based my trust issues on. Now, as it turns out, I know that he didn’t actually let her suck him off at all, and it changes everything. I know he’s telling the truth because I can always tell when he’s lying. His eyes tell me everything I need to know. I’ve been so utterly stupid all these years. I could’ve been with him this whole time. We could have been happy. And it is my own stupid fault for leaving before talking with him. I don’t know if I will ever forgive myself for that. But right now, as Caleb is kissing me so passionately that my knees feel weak, I can’t help but be thankful that we finally talked this through. Without me breaking down and being honest with him, we could still be tiptoeing around this whole, do we–don’t we dance, that we both do so well. And my God am I happy that we’re both in this.
Caleb is mine, as he should have been six years ago. But I thought he didn’t love me the way I loved him. Now I know because of the way he’s behaved over the last few days since we reconnected, that he feels just as much for me as I do for him. He loves me. I just have to make sure we don’t depend on each other so much that it could cause us issues. I couldn’t stand it if that happened. I’ll need to watch him with the band. Make sure he doesn’t make bad decisions when it comes to drugs and alcohol. But my Caleb is smart, and he’s never been one to really want those vices, so hopefully I won’t have to worry too much. But why am I thinking of all this right now? I should be in the moment with him and concentrating on his passionate kiss.
I run my hands through his hair as I sit straddling him on the lounge suite. His hands move under my pyjama top and against my skin clenching onto me like he can’t believe this is happening. Our tongues dance with each other as we kiss passionately and powerfully. But I need to make this real. If I’m going to be Caleb’s girl, then we need to make this official and after running out on him last night, he deserves this.
I pull my mouth away from his as we both pant trying to catch our breath. He looks at me and smiles so broadly it stuns me for a second.
“You’re breathtakingly beautiful, Indi,” he whispers and moves in to kiss me again, but I pull back and remove my hands from his and place them on his shoulders and push up standing. He furrows his brows like he’s scared I’ve changed my mind about us. Poor guy.
“I love you,” I whisper and put my hand out for him to take.
He looks at it, taking it in his and stands up. “Are we going somewhere?”
“I think we have something we need to finish,” I reply.
His eyes light up as he smiles and leans down picking me up by my waist and throwing me over his shoulder. I squeal as he starts to rush toward my bedroom and we both laugh when he slaps my arse on the way. Running through the bedroom door, he slows his pace pulling me down his body so my front rubs along his gradually until my feet meet the floor. He looks into my eyes and all playfulness has left and now only lust-filled tension fills the air. He brings his hands up to my face and caresses both my cheeks. The warmth of his skin ignites a fire inside my belly that’s making it harder to breathe just from looking into his smouldering eyes. He leans down and gently places his lips on mine and this kiss is gentle yet full of desire. I can tell he wants to take his time. I want this to last all night. The way I’m feeling right now, I’d be happy if it were just me and Caleb in my bedroom for all of eternity.
His tongue slides into my mouth and dances against mine effortlessly. We always fit so perfectly together. One of his hands slides around the back of my head and into my hair holding my lips to his. I move in closer so our bodies are touching in every way as I run my hands up under his leather jacket and slowly pull down. His arms drop to his sides and I pull his jacket off, but our lips stay connected as it falls to the floor. I run my hands up along his strong muscular arms, the ones I love so much. He has no tattoos, but he doesn’t need them to look like a bad boy rocker. He looks perfect to me. I grip hold of his bulging biceps and he moves his hands to my pyjama top and lifts. Begrudgingly I part lips with him as he pulls it up over my head and I see him exhale and smile as he looks down at my exposed breasts. I step in closer and pull his vest up and over his head more forcefully than he was with me. I just need to feel skin on skin. Caleb chuckles at my show of impatience and I rush to him as his vest falls to the floor and press my naked chest against his. He smiles at me bringing his hand up and tucking some hair behind my ear.
“So beautiful,” he whispers staring at me.
I giggle and smirk at him. “Shut up and kiss me,” I say while stepping on the tips of my toes to reach him.
“Only ‘cause you asked so nicely,” he teases and then presses his lips to mine. I run my fingers through his hair. I love doing that. I feel like I can hold him to me and have more control over the kiss. Plus, his hair is awesome! His tongue moves with mine in perfect rhythm as we run our hands all over each other. His hand comes down to my breast and he massages it gently sending a shockwave straight through my core. I want him and I can’t wait to feel him inside of me.
He rolls my nipple between his fingers and then tugs on it slightly which makes my breath catch. He notices my pleasure and stops the kiss and moves his mouth down my collarbone and toward the nipple he’s playing with. In all my life, no one has ever made me feel like Caleb does with just a simple touch. He takes my nipple into his mouth and gently sucks, I gasp at the warmth surrounding my sensitive bud and run my fingers through his hair again. He twirls his tongue around the now erect flesh and suddenly but gently bites down. I gasp out loud as the shock sends a surge straight to my clit causing it to throb. I’m already wet for him and he’s hardly
touched me. I clench my thighs together to try and dull the ache between them, but it hardly works. I’m getting so worked up and we’ve hardly even started.
He moves his mouth from my breast and kisses down my exposed stomach to the waist of my pyjama bottoms. I look down at him while listening to my breathing which is now rushed and harsh. The anticipation of him making me feel the way he did last night is growing, and I can’t wait to feel the ecstasy of his touch again. He kneels down so his face is in line with my pussy and he looks up at me with a smirk. A smirk so delicious that if my pants could melt they would surely be running down my legs.
He runs his hands up my legs and I feel like I’m starting to shake with anticipation. Bringing his fingers to the seam of my pants, he places one finger down either side of them. I swallow hard as I watch him watching me.
I wish I knew what he was thinking?
I bite my bottom lip as I try to control my ragged breathing. He looks right down at my pussy and then his fingers pull my pants and panties down in one swift movement. I’m standing here in front of him looking straight into his eyes as he taps my ankle for me to step out of my pants. I do as he suggests and then stand back in front of him completely bare and he looks back up at me and blinks his eyes a few times.
“You are…I have no words,” he says and then leans forward planting a chaste kiss on my pussy. I swallow hard as the warmth of his lips sends a tingle straight through me. He stands abruptly and presses his lips to my forehead and moves his hands to his jeans to unbutton and undo the zip. His jeans fall down freeing his rock solid cock and I desperately want to reach out and pleasure him, but for some reason I’m stuck to the spot.
Nerves I think.
Last night, I wasn’t nervous at all. But tonight, now that I’m his girl and we’re doing this for the first time as a couple, I want it to be perfect. I need him to feel as good as I know I’m going to. I just want everything to be perfect.
