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Put Your Hands In

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by Chris Hosea


  stop it again tickle

  BIG RED BOOSTER

  Dusting the pantry nobody washed but all touched

  chair where the man of the house sleeps fist-handed

  traveled all his days so as never to save the Earth

  suspended supermodel at his side actually a scholar of Proust

  opium a La-Z-Boy predator joystick operator

  needs to sleep like a tumor beside his woman

  we don’t need fields to fill the drug store only plants

  uniform wings sweat socks

  pixels slump Arizona sky never shows

  hedges empty of natural birdsong

  retired officer watch suburban streets fill with deer

  the empty streets of my home town almost mute

  the deer out of it at noon as if in one headlight

  ALL YOU CAN

  This is so good it’s fucking disgusting I want

  to eat these fries until I die of it just spooning

  garlic aioli out of a rubber tub damn I like

  the taste of your spunk your sperm your juices

  down another taco I eat I’m going to burst

  get me a tongue one with everything

  and some rice to stick to my face like a girl

  on a UNICEF coin box mid-eighties fucking ice cream

  mainline ice cream with pickles and pork

  mixed right into the scoop dirty pizza Halloween

  slices like swallowing a row of crumpled ones

  another helping of tartare tuna or steak

  if I stop talking call 911 but if not let’s hit

  the meatball shop and BYO Bailey’s

  bags of coke buds that goddamn cake

  at the wedding was insane let’s order another

  and never get married just have it for a week

  let zits fester what may this is end times

  I’ll see your pot brownies and raise you

  every variety of oyster at Prime Meats

  dim sum tomorrows

  wanting you wanting you never full

  of wanting you wanting me wanting you

  know I know you want I want to you know

  I want you

  FOREVER BACKPACKER

  Leash me lead me to Miami

  vinyl singer signs a lover waits for me

  it gets heavier when we talk about wives

  what we talk about is veins

  funny come in stories where a stranger

  injects romantic heroin

  between sheets staining them

  opium green nobody understands anything

  they are baffled by dreamy fascination

  but we think it’s not a transaction after all

  it’s person person you know you’re getting warm

  we’ve crossed into slave

  states French history French kissing

  tongue wrestling triangle trade

  crotch honey palm sugar simple syrup lip

  sell it all at South of the Border

  if you can find it and drag it back

  and you can because I’m a boner with a rental

  the motel room’s distracting blaze

  I wanna be your dog but a terrier room

  perhaps a Great Dane Pit Bull service

  strong dignified and dumb and proud of my pride

  practicing lost national anthems under the breath

  our Rough Guide so so out of date

  THE GREAT-UNCLE DEAD

  Poetry is the cruelest month

  posters by thousands folded by machine

  mild reminders to take note

  of something harmless and bland

  as sugar packets, restaurant mints are free

  April, May, Tiffany, Annie

  it’s that time of the month

  hand in your virgin efforts neatly typed

  not the first you ever

  but you can count on your fingers

  would be hitting send even now

  the lately dead the recently not with us

  it is hard to rhyme dementia with

  she was the sweetest woman

  not training me all the time like mom

  do you know what I mean by training

  it can be the littlest thing

  sometimes I was surprised a specialist even existed

  like posture but with Gram I rode bareback

  skied the steepest slope at Gstaad

  she is so dead now probably rotten or rotting still

  it’s been almost a year she’s not here

  it’s easier to love her now she’s gone

  remembering the strange Belgian candy

  even her snuff habit seems cute

  or well quirky she was from another time

  she said she snorted cocaine in the fifties

  and I believe her she looked so tiny

  in that outsized diaper bikini by hotel pool Havana

  the pictures she kept in a gold box

  just fool’s gold leaf on an ordinary wooden box

  the oils and drawings were more demure

  a bit off compared to the moldings

  dust on the hard candy

  once she tried to get me to shout delightedly German words

  but I couldn’t pick them up I mean that’s not me

  I’m as modern as they come

  I sent Topher a pic of my pierced clit

  just shaved and immediately regretted it

  half of his school knows I have a ring

  if they knew I took it out the next day

  and the skin grew back I look at it and you can barely tell

  it feels different still if you know what I mean

  I don’t think Gram would have done that

  if she were my age, now, or maybe

  she would have but she would have taken a real picture

  and put it in her gold-leaf box and would never ever

  have shown Topher with the lights on unless he was especially nice

  and what’s wrong with that nothing

  what’s wrong with being rich and overqualified

  for the second-tier philanthropic society you chair

  the best of everything my father said really shouting

  the best of everything I’ll give you

  no one plays his hi-fi anymore

  except me when I’m alone in the place

  it’s clean as anything Maria cares for

  but you can tell the knobs are stiff

  the platter creaks when you settle a record

  we have everything Fleetwood Mac ever

  including white label bootlegs

  and all the Stevie Nicks solo

  when I lie there I like to wear one of my father’s hats

  my feet on an ottoman

  just singing don’t blame it on me

  blame it on my wild heart

  Gram had a wild heart she did

  some people thought she had a cold heart

  and maybe that’s true and it was a wild heart too

  NO KEY TO THIS ONE, NO TUNE

  falling slumped into grown bones hurt can’t stop

  stretching contacts thinner by night

  a sour sound greeting jokes mimic of drum kit

  to say you got it is to say not enough

  make dance to postcard spill apple rebus

  clean clean hardwood the cherry trim

  stirs appetite but one knows no food gift

  will go uninspected unjudged the wistful fool

  scorned into the taller grasses or gazing grain

  tripping macchiato at door next morn

  don’t knock rooms around and raise no dust

  let it hide in the most positivist tomes

  there there a little rain gets Irene higher

  she seems to want a part I have

  beyond good and bad actors a part is a part

  hysterical rhythms lift tail ends of lines

  she’s not laughing not not laughing

>   so old but better to be mellow with a sting

  go wash the floor more stories later

  just drafts words blow here there

  bowlike lips on my cock aghast tomorrow

  her face so composed no one in the pub knew

  a secret life long contemplated burns away just smoke

  giving off a last puff of purple

  what towels stack neatly in dust

  what tattoo ink finally dries

  dissolve to a far shore where money multiplies

  and we are starving crawling living

  like flies apparently open to warmth and dung

  bring us drugs they do then they bring us food

  the brain of the jukebox a little addled

  complex person what emotions he hides

  his orange face in green green eyeshade

  douchey guys make clatter at the bar

  a Taurus spills reggae at the curb

  a schizophrenic college friend comes to mind

  posting photo of an iris on Facebook not his own

  someone Photoshopped the fuck out of that big blue eye

  we’re all wet with sweat and so is the most annoyed

  girl pasty white hot and bored the world the end

  HOW TO GET TO APRIL BLUE

  enter gentle mantles varnish an apology

  we’re here we’re orange falling engines bless the streets

  just living for no one reason livid computable silent

  digital wrist can’t get off tiled steps

  arcing paths of lives so storms can break

  fast rocks and pop conference room garnish

  projects launch with a sigh doing lines on a CD

  these games I spy must tonight be fun it must

  many will suffer and die do not know why

  lens yourself for change you carry good curves

  private joker say it out loud do a pole dance on the train

  it takes forever to get an ice cream too heavy to carry

  you just give up stranded foreign accents make pass

  so you compose yourself against your face your lies you know

  too well aluminum countertop pots stand on foreigners

  youthful introspection just a slab of neck

  a ruler to measure the poem for a prison frock

  or a heavy bass guitar strap filigreed

  moist moist moist moist moist vagina upside-down cake

  make it white whiter correct bias darkly

  trajectories in gulfs or suburbs for you

  down down down down the red carpet stairs to the loo

  pay by hand and get away through airport fast food

  and white cube galleries the point if there ever were one

  when it is right to cry during the camera interview

  seemed to me the best reply blank paper

  ROOF GARDEN HERITAGE SITE

  brutal concrete struts

  take us down

  orphan’s homes

  sharing beds I think thinking you

  you and you

  woke later hungover fed clam cake

  crowds know how you make it why be specific

  bound to slither into dry carcasses

  becoming no mummy but Braille nonsense

  because you can’t even grasp getting-around Braille

  to teach us of outlying suburbs stores spots

  finding no radiation curse leave it

  feed servers’ children nothing just steak tartare

  or gather to loiter not talk grip cold gloves

  you are a squeaky gate pretend you’re Gertrude Stein

  but thin and sexy will fuck anybody

  as one season melts the street literally

  it brings other purer kids to soft park

  picture cleaners pouring cleansers in gutters

  a few weedy lots what bounce in the wind

  you stand at the fence a Camel in your pucker

  wolf man poster rained straight into a timber pole

  what is a serviceman a servicewoman

  to the pure joy of hopped-up children

  flinging overhead rags or plastic bags

  it takes parks and muscles I suppose

  to sit seeing patterns hardly random

  hardly plain come closer sit near us

  feeling wrung turn pixel knobs

  AUTO-BRIGHTNESS

  weather vanes piled by curbs

  mirrored in café glass

  gone scavenging noon

  plastic witches I am wanting

  cleavers left in the Halloween sky

  my hands reach to house mother blue

  effectively only in gesture

  such trash as hits you

  when yesterday’s toxic fluid

  your digital watch fades to

  blank warm Casio again now the mute is on

  dog pissed sidewalk come down

  you bringing this neighborhood aura where you are

  from where daylight taps cornices

  dust on closed blinds where was

  a law firm a campaign a psychic

  turn toward country in any direction

  to step directly into earth

  stairs here go every way

  apocalypse gets a sick day

  files updated on a soap bubble’s skin

  calendar page objections roll

  the down your neck back sticks

  in my palm if you have time

  in the clean quiet room a man said

  keep doing this just this this

  and that man was me

  cover your love in pleasantries

  ink up your back and the girl at the party had

  an frightening cartoon killer there

  it works like baseball or thinking of your aunt

  gestures gaits to say surrender

  hardly enough for solid

  sleep or pants she and you are so hard

  your teeth are so fragile

  that you are easy

  BUFFALO NICKEL, TOOTHBRUSH, CRUDE

  hardly have I always worked fall

  gymnasiums down tinier

  townships eventually tears up

  over underlip of Shirley boss

  knew she was pulling clambering bodies

  sweat rope damp mats energy drink

  hung walls there to disappear

  behind but still at center

  hub puberty strife fuck my life

  I own a share of lugubrious gropes

  fade gray milk mulch what that bubble

  blew its pop bought round this world

  blaring terror I terrorize others

  families languages nobody understands

  suburban towns fade to digits

  by baring all and terror I

  go where memories go over into fear

  the instant a head snaps

  making way for adroit photonegative

  Instagram settings saplings weeds

  kernels seams are the common enemy

  if the world is going to end

  you come eat poison and it is

  pills and preparations you take

  I am talking about myself

  in an empty room

  when nobody’s looking

  listening to a seventies album

  momentarily impossible to get right

  chirping beetles helicopters rats

  fields need be gone fallow

  to fertilize even a ten-foot plot

  without the smallest gift to science

  let it go make yourself look cool

  the last person afraid of the lens

  I will be a spokesperson then

  shoving shameful carts and eye charts

  crispy snacks coasters and gin

  late precarious learning you can’t scratch

  any other way is another short wait

  for a ticketed dancer a big win

  the next day finds you splashing blue

  from a still pail


  dumping some crude oil

  on top of it to prove it

  slotting in toothbrushes past prime

  finer use for neon green

  slot some loose change there

  it is your coined coin

  NEW MAKE

  what comes next is

  possible to theorize one

  period emerging now

  explore late ailments

  see shells or pounds of ruler

  also a lecture at Choate

  spurred her ken for new

  nests that break ice

  got the germ of moribund style

  what is it that Joe wants

  to free poetry from

  deliberate space of wail

  conveys a need for hugs

  one more future among none

  not quite forgotten now

  easy to get heated at a lectern

  after drinking television looks

  better be stumping for ease

  that offspring will steal

  like lovely stickers peeled

  from white shapes that held

  tells you she was born built

  as much as born to slip

  into a car driven by a diver

  you and she do not yet

  perceive as form critique allows

  for just some laughter not waste

  pretense unforgiven hidden patience

  every tentative second awaiting buses

  means you are wanted

  like a wanted man is wanted

  eyes deliberate blur past posters would I

  lick off your lipstick and rouge

  HOPSCOTCH SMUDGES

  The day you left

  Do not leave

  I cried out why

  Any unsolicited female

  My heart froze numb

  Advertising material

  My mind blank as

  On this property

  It were baked Alaska

  Newspapers and magazines only

  Vanilla noggin rocking

  No dogs allowed

  You stuck kiss to my ear

  Do not feed

  As if caught in a conch

  The sea will not make any more

  Passionate whispers

  Boring art

  I locked those secrets by a slide

  Security provided

  Hung with ripped phone cords

  Guardian solutions

  Rippled abs

  Long gone forever

  We deliver

  For you

  To you

  For you

  GAME SHOW THEME MIX

  Orange and violet chipped

  Here and there milk might damp

 

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