Amor Meus

by Tracy Cooper-Posey

  “He is not here in Southampton,” Nathanial pointed out. “Did you kill him?”

  Sebastian found he could smile at the jest. “He tried to fool the wrong man. I was seventeen by then and just about as tall as I am now. Einrí met what he thought was a gentleman, which he judged purely by his manners and speech, which is ironic when he used my accent and my manners for exactly the same thing.”

  “The gentleman was a fellow swindler,” Nathanial guessed.

  “He was a gentleman in fact. Lord Rueben Monday Montgomery lost his lands and his fortune because he liked to gamble and had risked it all on a hand that he thought was unbeatable. Rueben knew more about schemes and plans and tricks than anyone I have ever met. I suspect you know more, Nathanial, but you’ve had time to collect them. What I learned from Rueben was how to use a victim’s wants and pleasures against them. His swindles nearly always worked and it was only bad luck that caused the occasional scheme to go astray. I learned as much as I could from him. He used...well, sex, as one of his tools. The seduction of women and men, to lull them into thinking you could be trusted....I found it ridiculously easy,” he confessed.

  “With your looks, and your manners and speech, that is not difficult to believe,” Nathanial replied. “You eventually parted, though,” he added.

  “Reuben liked to travel. He had been everywhere, and for ten years we plied our trade around Europe and the east, as far as Constantinople. We never did go to Rome, though. I suggested it occasionally, but I think Rueben was a known thief there, for he refused to even consider Rome, or anywhere on the Italian peninsula. But after ten years of it, I wanted to return to England. Reuben did not, so he set me up with a stake of my own, and I arrived in Dover four years ago. I have been on my own since then.”

  “You were in dire straits when we met. Were you just down on your luck, Sebastian? I would have thought, with such experience and skills, you would be very well-heeled indeed.”

  “I grew tired of it. I didn’t simply want to return to England. I wanted to stop it all, just for a while. I wanted to stop and think and spend time being just me. But eventually, the money started to run out. I waited far too long because I was so reluctant to return to the life.” Sebastian shrugged. “But I know nothing else, and I do not have an income, so I did eventually return. Lady Wandsworth was to be my first victim.”

  Nathanial pushed himself up so he was resting on one elbow and looked at him. “You know you can be yourself, with me.”

  “I know that now,” Sebastian agreed. “It is...”

  “Refreshing?” Nathanial suggested.

  “A relief,” Sebastian told him, and kissed him.

  It was only later, when they were bathing and dressing that Sebastian realized that nowhere in the night had either of them raised the question about the necklace and why the thugs had pressed Nathanial for its location.

  Sebastian thought of Anne and her request that he help her steal it from Nathanial and was glad the subject had been put aside in favor of discussing Nathanial’s true nature. He was more than happy for it to remain unspoken forever.

  * * * * *

  Lady Wandsworth’s parlor was an ode to very expensive and very bad taste. It was dark, for the drapes remained closed over the windows, and the carpet smelled and was badly in need of beating. There was only one sofa, which the lady herself used, while other guests propped themselves upon hard, upright chairs, balancing their teacups upon their knees, with no place left to perch plates.

  But Sebastian had been in far worse places, and this room at least was warm and held no drafts to chill the ankles. The tea was surprisingly good. He wrapped himself in patience, waiting for the moment when he could further his plans with Mercy Wandsworth. The portfolio of his false friend’s considerable business affairs in Spain was sitting in his coat pocket, ready to be produced at the proper moment. Nathanial had proved to be a remarkable forger.

  The doors to the salon opened and were held aside. Anne Beecham glided into the room, a delicate-looking maiden with her eyes downcast, and her waist cinched in to a hand’s width, under the pretty cotton dress.

  Anne gave Lady Wandsworth a smile and a gracious and modest nod of her head, but Mercy was busy talking to her pair of friends, and merely lifted her hand in acknowledgement. Anne did not seem to be offended by the dismissal, which had been identical to the way Mercy had waved off Sebastian. Instead, she moved around the chairs and settled on the empty one next to Sebastian, folding her hands on her lap.

  “Have you thought about my proposition?” she asked him softly.

  “When I have been able to spare a thought, yes,” Sebastian said truthfully.

  “Did you arrive at a decision?”

  “There was no need to make a decision,” Sebastian replied.

  She looked surprised. “Why not?” she asked.

  Sebastian gave the tiniest shrug. “Because I do not believe you. I do not believe the necklace is in England and I most certainly do not believe that Nathanial has it. He would be far more circumspect in his behavior if he did have such a notorious and costly jewel.”

  Anne’s expression did not change an inch. She sat staring ahead, her face sweet and innocent and her posture that of a modest young woman. After a moment of contemplative silence, she gave a small nod. “You are quite right,” she said. “He would most likely behave differently if he really did have the Queen’s stolen necklace.”

  “Thank you,” Sebastian said dryly.

  “I lied when I said he had the necklace.”

  “Obviously.”

  “I lied, but not the way you think. The necklace Nathanial has is a duplicate, made of glass.”

  Nathanial, who was so good at forging things. Sebastian’s chest tightened. It had been Nathanial’s idea to create business documents that would suggest to Lady Wandsworth that his friend’s business affairs in Spain were legitimate.

  Sebastian tried to ignore the suspicion curling through him and instead sifted carefully through Anne’s words, looking for falsehood, for anything that would proclaim Nathanial’s innocence. The affair of the stolen necklace was a sensation across Europe. There were people on trial for their lives, right now in Paris. Nathanial could not possibly be a part of such an international conspiracy.

  But he has the experience and the skill to manage such a delicate matter.

  Sebastian shook his head. “Why would you tell me you wanted to steal the thing, if you knew it to be a copy?”

  “For the same reason that Nathanial had the copy made. I want to sell it to someone who doesn’t know the difference between diamonds and glass.” She waited while the butler handed her a teacup and saucer and filled it from the big silver teapot he carried. Once he had moved out of earshot, she said, “I have a fool who wants the necklace. He will pay five thousand for the thing.”

  “For a copy with no real value?” Sebastian asked in disbelief.

  “It has extreme value to the person who thinks it is real. Every day the newspapers report about the trial, the necklace grows in importance in the eyes of the beholder. You know this as well as I do.”

  He could not dispute her. But he could deny her. “I will not help you steal from Nathanial,” he said flatly. “You must find another way if you intend to do this.”

  “You will not help me, but you have not told Nathanial what I plan. Does that mean you believe me?”

  Sebastian kept his teeth together. To answer at all would make him feel like he had betrayed Nathanial.

  Anne smiled as she sipped her tea. “He intends to saddle you with the necklace, you know.”

  Sebastian’s heart squeezed. “I am not nearly rich enough to buy that bauble, even if it is not real. I am not Nathanial’s target.”

  “Oh, he’s not going to sell it to you. He’s going to give it to you.”

  “Why would he do that?”

  “Think, Sebastian!” she whispered harshly. “The French police – the Marechaussee – will be turning England upside-d
own, looking for the real necklace. Queen Marie's reputation hangs in the balance, so they are determined to the point of obsession to find the necklace, no matter what obstacles present themselves. What do you think they might do, if they were to find that necklace in your possession?”

  “The Marechaussee will be able to tell it is a copy. They’ll bring in experts to determine it is genuine and will know immediately it is not.” But his heart was thundering unhappily, anyway.

  “And why would an honest man want a copy of the most notorious jewelry in Europe?” Anne asked. “You will be detained and questioned until your gums bleed. Then, if they are feeling kindly, you will be thrown into the Bastille and not decapitated for whatever crimes they might imagine you have committed. The Marechaussee want to produce results to show their queen. They want someone they can point to and say ‘he is to blame’. Nathanial is not a stupid man, Sebastian. He knows that to be found in possession of that necklace would be the equivalent of crying aloud his guilt. He is looking for a way to rid himself of it and you are the perfect victim, with your career as a professional swindler.”

  It made horrible, nausea-inducing sense. Sebastian swallowed as coppery-tasting saliva filled his mouth. His temples prickled with cold sweat and he wiped at them with a shaking hand.

  “I do not believe you,” he said weakly. “You have not been in communication with Nathanial since we met – not alone with him. You could not possibly know what he plans, even if he does have the necklace.”

  Anne smiled. “I was there last night,” she said flatly. “Very late. You were sleeping. Nathanial told me of his plans for you, all of them.”

  Sebastian bit back a moan, forcing himself to silence.

  Anne’s smile grew larger. She tilted her head as she looked at him. “We had sex,” she added. “It was very good. Afterwards, he put on that robe of his and saw me to the door. He arranged another meeting, too.” Her eyes narrowed. “You were never going to be enough to satisfy him.”

  Nathanial had been wearing the robe when Sebastian had seen him, just after awakening.

  Sebastian held up his hand, just enough for her to see it. “Stop,” he whispered, his voice hoarse. “Please, just stop.”

  “I can sell the necklace,” she said, “then you will no longer be useful to him and you can go back to your life. Nathanial asked me to meet him in his rooms tonight. That is when I will steal the necklace.”

  Chapter Six

  Three days later.

  It was Sunday morning, and the park was very busy, with families strolling and taking in the air. Sebastian walked with a shortened gate to accommodate Mercy Wandsworth’s tiny steps. Her hand was curled about his elbow, tugging downwards as she walked. She was scanning the title deeds and contracts held in her other hand, reading with an absorbed air that told him she knew far more about the intricacies of business than she liked to pretend. It didn’t worry him. The documents were very good forgeries.

  “Lady Wandsworth!” came the call from behind them. “A moment, please!”

  Sebastian stiffened. He knew the voice.

  But Mercy Wandsworth halted and looked over her shoulder. “Oh, dear,” she said, very quietly. “I do hope this won’t be unpleasant.” For Nathanial was striding toward them.

  Three days ago, Mercy had invited Sebastian to dine at her house, an invitation he had accepted, only to find that Anne was no longer living there. It took some delicate questions to elicit the facts. Beatrice had returned to her family home near York, in disgrace because she had failed to marry. Her engagement to Lord Smythington had been abruptly broken off, with no explanations from Smythington.

  Anne’s absence had been a relief for Sebastian, and he had doubled his efforts to win Mercy’s confidence. He tried not to assume anything about Anne’s departure. Certainly, he did not linger over the most obvious conclusion; that she had stolen the necklace as promised, and left Southampton with all haste after selling it to her buyer.

  So why was Nathanial here, now? It didn’t make sense. Like Mercy, Sebastian also hoped that the next few minutes would pass peacefully and quickly. As Mercy had halted, he was forced to turn and face Nathanial as he strode up.

  Nathanial lifted his hat as he drew closer. “Lady Wandsworth, I am pleased to find you here. I had hoped I would come across you in the park this morning.”

  “Then you consider this encounter more fortunate than do I,” Mercy replied, her voice a little cold. “Beatrice is no longer a guest in my house, Lord Smythington. You have broken her heart and besmirched her reputation. I do hope you consider your reasons for such a callous act well worth it?”

  Nathanial blinked and for a moment, Sebastian thought he was genuinely puzzled. Then he gave Mercy a stiff bow. “The circumstances warranted a broken engagement, Lady Wandsworth. I discovered that Beatrice’s reputation was sullied long ago. I did not seek you out this morning with retribution in mind. Beatrice’s departure was a relief to me.”

  Mercy’s mouth dropped open and her eyes widened. Then they narrowed again as she considered him. “Then why do you wish to see me?”

  “Actually, I was wondering...would you mind losing your companion for a moment while I speak to him? I promise we will leave you unattended for only a few moments, then we will both escort you home to make up for the desertion. Is that agreeable to you, my lady?”

  Say no! Sebastian begged her in his mind.

  “Both of you? Why, that would be delightful, Lord Smythington. If only you promise to tell me more about France.”

  Sebastian’s heart sank. He glared at Nathanial, making no attempt to hide his feelings. “You should ask him about Italy, my lady. That is his true expertise.”

  Nathanial’s expression didn’t change. “He exaggerates, of course. I know Rome a little.” He picked up Mercy’s hand, the one she had untucked from Sebastian’s elbow, and bowed over it. “We will return to your side quite soon,” he promised. Then he glanced at Sebastian. It was the first time he had looked at him directly since he had halted in front of them. “Richard, would you mind stepping over here, please?”

  “I would, rather,” Sebastian said shortly.

  “Nevertheless, I insist.” His expression was polite enough, but there was a glitter in Nathanial’s blue eyes that told Sebastian he would resort to physically hauling him out of Lady Mercy’s earshot if he had to.

  Sebastian sighed and moved off the footpath, onto the close-cropped lawn. Nathanial was a pace ahead, and halted only when they were thirty yards from the path where Mercy stood watching them curiously.

  Nathanial rounded on him. “I don’t care about Anne’s abrupt departure, but you...”

  Sebastian stared at him, puzzled. He didn’t care about Anne? Was Nathanial really that good a liar? “You care nothing about the necklace?” he demanded.

  “I care that you failed to meet our last appointment and have been missing for three days since then. Damn it to hell, Sebastian! You left no word! Not a single explanation!”

  Sebastian was confused and puzzled. A dozen responses occurred to him. As always, every time Nathanial spoke, it only raised more questions. “Why do you even care?” he asked at last.

  It was Nathanial’s turn to stare. His hand curled into a fist and Sebastian belatedly realized that he was not nearly as calm and collected as he had first appeared.

  “You really must ask why I care?” he said, his voice thick with emotion.

  Sebastian held up his hand. “Don’t,” he said flatly. “Do not carry on with this pretense. You are a liar, a thief and a swindler and your morals are as loose as hers. Or mine -- but I’m the victim this time, aren’t I?” He grimaced. “Anne understood your character far better than I did, but I can see it clearly now. My usefulness is at an end, Nathanial. There is no need to play the wounded lover. There is no need to knot any trailing threads. Anne took care of that by giving me the truth.”

  “What truth would that be?” Nathanial asked, his voice very low.

  Se
bastian threw out his hands. “The necklace!” he said, fighting to keep his voice low so his words would not travel. “You were going to foist that unwelcome piece of fakery onto me, then let me hang for the crime.”

  Nathanial simply looked at him. His anger, or whatever emotion had been boiling inside him, was gone. Then, finally, he stirred, his feet shifting. “I see,” he said, glancing over to where Mercy stood waiting. “Well, then.” There was a note of finality in his tone. He looked back at Sebastian. “Where are you staying?” he asked quietly.

  “That is most certainly none of your business.”

  Nathanial shook his head. “You’re curling up on park benches again,” he said flatly. Then; “My rooms are paid for until the end of the month. The landlord has the key. Why don’t you use them? I certainly don’t need them. Not anymore.”

  A cold, invisible hand squeezed Sebastian’s heart, slowing it and making it hurt. “You will not?” He swallowed. “You’re leaving Southampton,” he concluded.

  Nathanial inclined his head. “We must play out this charade with Mercy Wandsworth,” he said stiffly. “But after we have returned her safely home, I will bother you no longer.”

  Nathanial turned away, back toward Mercy.

  Sebastian wanted to throw out his hand and halt him, but Mercy would see the telltale movement. “Just like that?” he demanded, his voice hoarse. “You would leave...without trying to defend yourself?”

  Nathanial spun to face him. “There is no defense I could give that you would believe. As you pointed out, I am a liar. You have tried and sentenced me. There is nothing I can say in return. So I will not.” He did not say the words with anger, or any emotion that Sebastian could detect. He simply spoke them.

  “Let’s get Mercy home,” Nathanial said, his voice still flat and lifeless. “Then we can both put this behind us.”