Danni to Pieces: Book One: Forced

by L. T. Varner

  He walked over to the bar and asked if I wanted to play a game as he put shot glasses out. I thought, what the hell, and took off my coat, making myself comfortable on a stool across from him. He laughed when he saw my T-shirt was one from his band. After turning a stereo on, he explained that we weren’t doing bad shots like the game we had played at my bar. Instead, we would be doing straight shots, and he wanted to make it interesting. Then he explained the basic game he insisted was a classic, Truth or Dare or Drink. I knew the game, just not his version of it. Answer a question truthfully or take something off, dare someone to take off a piece of clothing, or drink. I liked his way of thinking. It was always about getting someone naked.

  His phone suddenly rang, and he had a brief conversation that amounted to, “Use the side door.” Then he asked if I minded adding a few people to the party and I nodded that it was okay. About ten minutes later, all of these people started coming in through a door by the pool. I saw Rick walk in with his arm around some woman I knew wasn’t his wife. I noticed Jake and his date from earlier come in and sit down on one of the brown leather couches. Most of the people I didn’t recognize and I wasn’t surprised at all by the girls who barely had any clothes on.

  Daniel went first after roughly seven others joined our game, and he had explained it to them. Of course, he picked me to start, and I chose to drink. The next guy dared his date to take off her shirt, and she did with no embarrassment at all. This went on for an hour, and I was the one with the most clothes on, but I was also well on my way to being drunk.

  I noticed Daniel kept looking over at something, and I figured it was some girl he liked. He looked back at me and said, “I dare you to kiss her.”

  I strongly regretted telling him about my bisexuality. He had never brought it up until now, in front of people.

  “Fine,” I said, standing up and walking over to the blond he had his arm around.

  She was pretty enough and had a huge pair of fake boobs, but she was a little too showy for me. She had it all on display for anyone to see as she stood there in her bra and underwear. When it comes to women, I preferred more conservative women, but give me a bad boy any day.

  I stepped in front of the now-smiling blond when Daniel said, “No, no, no, right here.” He pointed behind the bar so he and his little friends could watch. “And it has to be for at least a minute.”

  She walked behind the bar with me, and I mumbled, “Let’s just get this over with.”

  She launched herself at me a little too eagerly. I backed into the wall to stop us from falling over as she kissed me with enthusiasm. She was a great kisser, and I slowly remembered why I played for both teams. Of course, Daniel had to count it down for us, and we even went past the one-minute allotment before I could loosen her grip on me. I finally managed to pull back from her, and that’s when I realized that perhaps she knew me.

  “I can’t believe I just kissed Danni Brisco. Can I take a picture of us to show my friends?” she asked in a high-pitched screech. Just like that, she had lost her appeal, and I went to sit back down.

  I played the game and continued drinking. At one point I thought I saw Collin and wondered if I had had too much to drink. I looked more carefully and, sure enough, it was Collin and Steph. She appeared to be yelling at him with her finger in his face. Collin glanced at me as I watched their fight progress. I toasted him with my shot of whiskey, just like he had done earlier when Steph grabbed his face and made him look at her. Their argument was drawing quite a large crowd. Then, over the crowd, I watched Collin yank her out of the room by her arm. She looked fuming mad.

  Daniel pounded his hand on the bar and told me to pay attention. He then caught sight of Collin, rolled his eyes, and mouthed, “Sorry.” I shrugged it off, and we went back to playing our game.

  A few too many shots later, I asked, “What am I doing?”

  Daniel pointed at me and said, “Your turn on the pole, dirty girl.”

  We had already witnessed three drunk girls pole dance, and one was pretty good, but I wasn’t drunk enough to do it. I was the only one still fully dressed in our little game. In no way was I going to show anyone my naked body.

  “What else you got, dirty boy?” I asked, Daniel already knew I wouldn’t do it.

  “How about a private lap dance?” Collin asked from behind me. I could feel his warm breath on my neck.

  Daniel looked at Collin and said, “Both of you need to cool off, game’s over.”

  I laughed and said, “I am pretty sure I can handle it because I am a whore.”

  Collin was the absolute last person I was going to back down from. He started this war, and I was ending it.

  “Come on guys, let it go,” Daniel said, frustrated.

  Collin said, “No Daniel, let the whore work.”

  Daniel put his hands up and said, “This is not a good idea. But, do whatever the fuck you two idiots want to do.” Then he walked back to his blond, and the two disappeared down the hall.

  Collin pulled me down the hall to another room and, after knocking and finding it empty, we went in. Alone. He flipped on a small light, pulled a chair over, and then sat down.

  “Okay, whore. Strip and let’s see what you got,” Collin said, placing his drink on an end table.

  Hearing the word “whore,” again just made me even more determined to get the better of him. I would show him exactly what I could do. Collin pushed a button on the remote he was holding, and music started. Surprise, it was one of his slower sexy songs. I looked at him watching me as I started taking off my clothes. It was funny how watching him see me naked turned me on. My scars didn’t even register in my mind when I was with him.

  I straddled his lap and put my arms on his shoulders so that he could see my breasts. I would give him the best lap dance anyone could ever receive. I started grinding on his lap, remembering how he had said he liked that when I had moaned that day during the video shoot. I ran my finger down his chest as I leaned into his neck and moaned in his ear. I was trying to get him to give up, but he only leaned further back. Okay, what next? I wondered. I pulled his shirt over his head, and he didn’t hesitate to lean forward so I could pull it off. I ran my fingers through his hair as I circled my hips against his lap. Finally, I heard him groan as his hands gripped my hips. Maybe I’m on the right track.

  Slowly I put my hands in my hair and continued moving my hips back and forth when he suddenly stood up with me attached to him. Pushing me up against the wall, he started kissing me like he never had before. It was pure need on both of our parts as we gripped ahold of each other, each trying to control the kiss.

  After moving away from the wall, we fell on a bed as I was trying to unbutton his pants. The way his body felt was something I had never experienced until this moment. He was so passionate about the way he touched me. All I could think was, wow, he’s beautiful! The heat coming off of my skin felt like fire as he sat up and pulled off my underwear. I prayed this was real and that I wasn’t dreaming. When he stood up and took off the rest of his clothes, it was clear that this was not a dream. I’ve had so many fantasies but never thought I would see something like this come true.

  As he lay down on top of me, both of us were now completely naked, and I couldn’t help but wonder if this was the biggest mistake of my life. That thought didn’t last long, due to his returning kisses and the feeling of our naked bodies pressed against each other. I wrapped my legs around him with my hands in his hair as he made that sexy-sounding groan again.

  Finally, he did the one thing I most desired from him as he entered me in one fluid lunge forward. It was better than I could ever imagine. Even though he kept rocking against me and moaning, I just wanted more of him. The way he kissed me, touched me, put his mouth on me, it was the most incredible moment of my life, and I didn’t want it to end.

  “Oh, fuck, Danni, you feel so fucking good,” he groaned in my ear as the first orgasm ripped through me. Soon he followed me with his.

  Time s
tood still as we both had another orgasm and the kisses, touching, and breathing grew more frantic.

  He rolled off of me as we laid there trying to catch our breath. After a couple of moments of not speaking, he sat up and grabbed his pants. He couldn’t get off the bed fast enough as he started putting his clothes back on. Then, without looking at me or saying a word, he left, slamming the door behind him.

  I lay there trying to process everything that had just happened and as much as it was everything I could have imagined with him, the way he left hurt tremendously. I couldn’t help myself as I started crying, questioning what the hell I had just done.

  The following afternoon I sat in a chair getting my hair done for the benefit that evening. I couldn’t help going over everything in my head for the millionth time. Again, I touched my lips as they were sore from the way Collin had kissed me.

  “Hello, hello,” Mike said, trying to get my attention. I glanced at him, and I knew he could tell I had something on my mind, but I hadn’t mentioned last night with Collin and me. More than likely he assumed I had taken things a step further with Nick. Oh God, Nick was going to hate me. I groaned, still trying to get my head around the whole thing. I hadn’t even told Daniel, because when I left his place this morning, he was still sleeping next to a very naked blond.

  I just wanted to get this benefit behind me and go home. After sitting through hair and makeup and listening to Mike and Mark go on about the bar they had gone to last night, I finally got dressed. I couldn’t focus on anything as I fought with the stupid straps on my dress. Mike was starting to get mad at me for not listening to him. I tried to pay better attention to what he had been talking about, and I nodded, acting as I was listening.

  I hadn’t told Daniel about the benefit and figured I would just call him when I got home. Otherwise, he would want to be my date, and I was already feeling guilty enough.

  Finally, Nick kissed me on the cheek and smiled, whispering in my ear that I looked stunning. I am such a bad person. I chanted in my head over and over again. I didn’t have the heart to tell him what I had done, so I smiled back and returned the compliment.

  Inside the grand hotel, we found our table and sat down. I quickly ordered a drink, and Mike elbowed me, saying that this was a benefit, not a bar. I rolled my eyes at him as Mark started laughing while handing me a glass of champagne.

  Nick leaned over and asked, “Is everything okay? You seem distracted.”

  I smiled at him with tears in my eyes and said, “Just having a bad day.”

  After a wonderful dinner of steak and shrimp and little conversation on my end, I was asked to pose for pictures. I didn’t mind donating to the music programs, but I didn’t do it for the recognition and preferred to remain in the background. I usually let my dad handle this stuff because he didn’t mind the attention.

  Mike and Mark posed for pictures with me. I had never felt prouder of the two of them in my life as they didn’t hesitate to mention their upcoming wedding to the line of reporters. I posed by myself as reporters shouted questions at me regarding the assault, new songs coming out, and the most hated question they always asked, “Who are you dating?” I answered a few about my work and a movie I was working on, but I wouldn’t look at the reporters who asked the other questions.

  All of a sudden, I heard someone ask, “Can I be in the pictures with you?” I turned around and saw Daniel in a tux, reaching out for me.

  “What are you doing here?” I asked, hugging him.

  “Jim insists we attend this benefit every year to support the community. It’s cool. The kids are fun to work with,” Daniel said, smiling at me as Collin, Rick, and Jake walked up next to us. Wow, all of them in tuxes: doesn’t get much hotter than that, I thought.

  I posed for pictures with Daniel and Collin at my side as flashes went off like crazy. I felt my heart beating hard as Collin’s hand wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I couldn’t understand any of the reporters as they grew loud trying to talk over one another. After pictures, Collin stepped closer to them and started calmly answering questions.

  I sat back down with Mike and Mark, looking around and wondering where Nick had disappeared to. Talking to the press was not my thing, and I had pretty much abandoned Daniel as he tried to get me involved with the reporters.

  For the closing performance of the night, Daniel, Collin, Rick, and Jake were going to do a song Daniel had written. It was his first attempt at writing, and I had helped him a little as he put it together. He was good at it when he paid attention and didn’t try to make it dirty.

  I watched them all take their place as the lights dimmed and Mike stopped my hand from tapping on the table. It was a slow song about healing and finding the strength to keep going; it was beautiful. Collin’s voice was amazing as he closed his eyes and sang. I could see a softer side to him as he moved his hands to the words, almost like he could feel it, too.

  There was an enormous standing ovation at the end as they all came to the front of the stage and bowed. Daniel was handed a mic and asked me to come to the stage. I wanted to crawl under the table, but the spotlight found me first. Mike laughed and stood up to help me not fall over as I cussed under my breath. I was going to kill Daniel for this.

  I walked up on stage and stood beside Daniel. He grabbed my hand and said, “This is my inspiration for writing this song. Danni has endured more than anyone should have to, but through it all, she has kept moving forward. I admire her strength and I am glad I was lucky enough to meet her and have her become my best friend.”

  I was frozen to his side as Daniel handed the mic to Collin and he talked briefly about how the proceeds from the song were going to the music organization to help others keep moving forward. I could tell he had prepared for this as he sounded knowledgeable regarding the organization.

  After all of that was over, I finally relaxed, feeling the effects of the drinks Daniel and I had ordered. The music started, and couples headed for the dance floor. I smiled seeing Mike and Mark dancing together, looking completely enamored with each other.

  “Where did you go this morning?” Daniel asked, looking more at his drink than at me.

  “You were asleep with the blond, so I thought I would let you be.”

  “Now, dirty girl, you know what I’m asking. What happened between Collin and you?” Daniel asked, now grinning at me.

  I sighed and said, “I. . .”

  We both nursed our drinks and looked around at the growing crowd on the dance floor as the music sped up.

  “I think your date is hitting on someone else,” Daniel said as he pointed at Nick exchanging numbers with some girl.

  I laughed and said, “It wasn’t going anywhere anyway.”

  He chuckled and said, “Yeah, we already guessed that.”

  The rest of the night was fun, as we danced and visited with others. I was ready to go back to the room and get some sleep since we had an early flight the next morning. Daniel insisted on staying with me, and I was grateful.

  We got back to the hotel room laughing like little kids as he was helping me pull off the double stick tape. It hurt like hell to rip off, but Daniel said it would hurt less to get it off fast. I think he liked pulling it off as I screamed a little with each tug. There was a knock at the door, and I told him to answer it so I could finish.

  Through the bathroom door, I heard Daniel talking to someone and then I heard him say that he would be back in a little bit. I was too late asking where he was going when I heard the door shut.

  “Daniel?” I asked.

  “No, it’s me,” Collin said as my heart sank to the bottom of my stomach.

  “What do you want?” I asked without opening the door, thinking a closed door would make the awkwardness go away.

  “Come out here and talk to me,” he asked more than said.

  I gave one more good pull and finally got the bra unstuck, mumbling a few choice words. I pulled the straps of my dress back up, took a deep breath, and
opened the door. I walked out and saw Collin sitting on the bed looking nervous. I had never seen him nervous before, it was touching.

  “What are you doing here?” I asked as I took off my shoes.

  “I’m not sure.”

  I threw my shoes over by my bag, and finding another piece of tape I had missed. I cursed to myself.

  “What’s wrong?” he asked as I started to tug on the tape running around my ribs.

  “I found more tape.”

  He stood up, moved behind me, and said, “On the count of three. Ready? One, two, three.”

  Then I felt the sting of the tape being ripped off, and he quickly started rubbing my side where he had pulled it, it helped. I tried to pull away from him, and he didn’t let go of me. I froze not knowing what to do. He slowly slid the straps of my dress off my shoulders and it fell to the ground.

  “Turn around,” he whispered, leaning into my neck.

  I turned, knowing it was the worst thing I could do for myself at that moment. He leaned down and kissed me slowly, but then the fire started, and we both grew passionate, fighting for control of the kiss. I found myself in the same moment like last night. I wanted him and wouldn’t stop him. It grew very intense very quickly, and I found myself undressing him. He was kissing me all over like he had done last night. My body was once again on fire as I watched him push his slacks and boxers down before sitting on the bed and pulling me onto his lap. I crawled on top of him eagerly as our kissing grew heated again. I slowly pushed him back and he lay back and watched me. I ran my hand over his muscled chest and stomach. He closed his eyes as he took a quick breath. Leaning forward I planted kisses on his stomach before I slowly licked my way further down. He groaned, and I looked up at him as I took him in my mouth and finally tasted him. He was perfect. His eyes slowly opened as he weaved his fingers into my hair. He didn’t let me continue much longer before he sat up and rolled me over. I wrapped my legs around him as he kissed me again. We locked eyes as he pulled back and slammed into me. I moaned as my eyes closed feeling such intense pleasure. He started thrusting into me while kissing my neck. It was unbelievable, and we couldn’t get enough of each other. All I could do was feel him. My mind shut off as we fucked each other. It wasn’t romantic or special. It was letting our needs control us. He was my need, and I was finally accepting it.