That Holiday Feeling

by Debbie Macomber, Sherryl Woods

  “Never dream of it,” Trace said, winking at Hannah.

  She winked back, then giggled. “Never,” she agreed.

  Savannah looked from one to the other. “I’m going to regret this eventually, aren’t I?”

  “Could be,” Trace said. He took a step closer, reached out and tucked a flyaway strand of hair back behind her ear. “But you’ll never see it coming.”

  Her gaze locked with his, and suddenly the tables were turned. The desire to kiss her, to taste her, slammed through him with enough force to rock him on his heels. He hadn’t seen that coming, either.

  “We are never in a million years going to get this tree into the house,” Trace said, eyeing the giant-size pine that Hannah had picked out. “What about that one over there?” He pointed to a nice, round, five-foot-tall tree. It was cute. It was manageable. Hannah was already shaking her head.

  “No,” daughter and mother replied in an emphatic chorus.

  “I suppose it’s also a tradition that the tree has to be too big to fit inside,” he grumbled as he began to saw through the trunk. He’d worked for a lawn service one summer and had some skill at sawing down trees and branches, but nothing this size. He should have brought along a chainsaw.

  “Exactly,” Savannah said, grinning and apparently thoroughly enjoying his struggle with the tree.

  “I think my mother had the right idea after all,” he said. “A ceramic tree that lit up when she plugged it in.”

  “Oh, yuck,” Hannah said. “That’s so sad.”

  As he breathed in the scent of pine and fresh, crisp air, Trace was forced to agree with her. Despite his grumbling about the endless search for the perfect tree and his protests over the size of their choice, he hadn’t felt this alive in years. Something that might have been the faint stirrings of holiday spirit spread through him. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt like this.

  “Stand back, you two. When this thing falls, you don’t want to be in the way,” he warned as he heard the crack of the wood and felt the tree begin to wobble. One hard shove and it would hit the ground. Before he could touch it, the tree began to topple…straight at him. It knocked him on his back in the deep snow. He found himself staring straight toward the sky through a tangle of fragrant branches.

  “Uh-oh,” he heard Hannah whisper.

  Her mother choked back a giggle and peered through the branches. “Are you okay?”

  “What the devil happened?” he asked, frowning up at her.

  “I gave the tree a teeny little push to help it along. I guess I pushed the wrong way. You aren’t hurt, are you?” The twinkle in her eyes suggested she wasn’t all that worried.

  Trace bit back his own laughter and scrambled out from beneath the tree. “You are in such trouble,” he warned even as she began backing away, her nervous scramble hampered by the deep snow.

  “You wouldn’t,” she said, regarding him warily.

  “Oh, but I would,” he responded quietly. “Nobody pulls off a sneak attack on me twice in one afternoon and gets away with it.”

  She tried to escape, but she was no match for his long legs. He caught up with her in a few steps, scooped her up and dropped her into the cushion of snow.

  Hannah’s laughter mingled with theirs. He whirled on her. “Okay, young lady, you’re next. Don’t you know better than to injure a man’s pride?”

  Hannah was quicker to scamper away, but Trace still caught up with her, grabbed a handful of snow and rubbed her face with it. Just then he felt himself being pelted with snowballs from behind. In seconds all three of them were engaged in a full-fledged snowball fight.

  “Oh, my,” Savannah said a few minutes later, collapsing into the snow. “I haven’t laughed that hard in ages.”

  “Me, either,” Trace said, his gaze clashing with hers. In fact, he could barely recall ever laughing that hard.

  Or wanting a woman as much as he wanted the virtual stranger lying beside him in the icy snow right this minute. With all the heat crackling between them, he was surprised they hadn’t melted the snow right out from under them.

  He started to reach out to touch her cheek, but recalling Hannah’s presence, he drew back. “Do you know what I’d like to do right now?” he asked, his gaze locked with Savannah’s.

  She swallowed hard at the question and shook her head.

  Trace realized that her thoughts had drifted down the same dangerous path as his own. “Not that,” he protested, deliberately teasing her.

  Her cheeks, already pink from the chill in the air, turned an even brighter shade. Another woman might have called his bluff, but she merely kept her gaze on him, apparently waiting to see just how deep a hole he intended to dig for himself.

  “What I’d like to do,” he said, “is go back to the house, build a nice warm fire in the fireplace, and…” He deliberately let the suspense build. He saw the pulse beating a little more rapidly in her neck. He permitted himself a hint of a smile, then said softly, “Take a nap.”

  She was still blinking in confusion when Hannah plopped down between them and said, “Grown-ups don’t take naps.”

  “Sure we do,” Trace told her. His gaze went back to Savannah. “In fact, sometimes when adults take naps, we have the very best dreams ever.”

  Savannah shot him a knowing look, then rose gracefully to her feet. “Well, by all means, let’s get home so you can get some sleep,” she said testily.

  She muttered something more, something obviously meant for Trace’s ears, not Hannah’s. He caught her hand and held her back until they were well out of Hannah’s hearing.

  “What was that?” he inquired.

  She leveled a look straight at him. “I said, I hope you have nightmares.”

  “No dream with you in it could ever be a nightmare,” he said, locking gazes with her once more. “Then again, you could take a nap with me.”

  “In your dreams,” she retorted.

  He winked at her. “Exactly.”

  She stopped in her tracks and scowled up at him. “Is this some sort of game with you?”

  There was a hint of anger behind the question that threw Trace completely. “Game? I’m not sure what you mean.”

  “When you found me at the inn, did you decide I was Aunt Mae’s gift to you or something? Because I am here to tell you that hell will freeze over before I fall into bed with you just because it’s convenient.”

  With that, she whirled away and stalked off as gracefully as the deep snow permitted, leaving him to deal with the tree. He considered running after her, trying to explain, but maybe it was better to give her time to cool down.

  So he struggled with the monster tree, finally getting a firm grip on the trunk, then dragging it through the snow. The trek took forever. By the time he reached the car, Savannah and Hannah were nowhere to be seen. Since the inn was less than a mile down the road, they’d probably decided to walk.

  Trace wrestled with the tree and finally got it half in and half out of the SUV, cursing at the mess it was making of the car’s interior. He tied it securely, then climbed into the vehicle and turned the heater up full blast.

  He was still stinging from Savannah’s tongue-lashing as he drove back to the inn. Granted, he’d only been teasing her, but she didn’t know him well enough to understand that. He’d deserved every bit of scorn she’d heaped on him.

  As he pulled up in front of the house, he noted that the lights were blazing and that smoke was curling from the chimney. Dusk was falling rapidly, and along with it, the temperature was dropping.

  He lugged the tree onto the porch, then left it there to be dealt with after he warmed up with a cup of coffee or maybe some of that hot chocolate Savannah and her daughter were so fond of.

  Inside, he stomped the snow off his boots and tossed his jacket over a chair, then headed for the kitchen where he could hear the low murmur of voices. He found Savannah at the stove stirring a pot of spaghetti sauce. The weathered older man to whom she was talking caught sight
of Trace and gave him a wink.

  “You must be Trace. Savannah here’s been giving me an earful about you,” he said. “’Course, it’s not exactly the same high praise I was used to hearing from Mae.”

  Trace saw Savannah’s back stiffen, but she didn’t turn around. Obviously, the walk had done nothing to cool her temper. She was still royally ticked at him. The apology he owed her would have to wait, though. The man regarding him with such amusement had to be Mae’s longtime lover.

  “You must be Nate Daniels,” Trace guessed at once. “I heard a lot about you over the years, as well, all of it good.”

  “Only because Mae never had a sharp word to say about anyone,” Nate said. “Maybe that’s because she brought out the best in people.”

  “I know she did in me,” Trace said solemnly, his gaze on Savannah.

  Nate looked from him to Savannah, then stood up and began pulling on his jacket. “Think I’ll be going along now.”

  Savannah whirled around at that. “I thought you might like to stay for dinner.”

  “Not tonight,” Nate said, shooting a commiserating look toward Trace. “I’ll be around next time you’re interested in having company. Meantime, you two need anything, you give me a call. I’ll be happy to do what I can. You both meant a lot to Mae. I know she’d be happy that you’re here together for the holidays.”

  Savannah regarded him with a disappointed expression. “Come by anytime,” she said, her voice husky, her eyes shimmering with unshed tears. “I want to hear everything you can tell me about my aunt.”

  Nate clasped her hand in his. “Come on now, girl. Don’t you be crying for your aunt. She’s at peace.”

  “I know. I just wish I’d been here for her.”

  “She understood why you couldn’t be here,” Nate assured her. “And I was here. She wasn’t alone.”

  “Thank you for that,” Savannah said.

  “No need to thank me. My place was by her side,” he said simply. “I only wish I’d been able to give her more. Now let me get out from underfoot, so you folks can have your dinner.” He regarded Trace with a stern expression. “And a nice long talk.”

  Trace accepted the admonishment without comment. “I’ll walk you out,” he offered.

  Nate shook his head. “No need. I know the way. Seems to me like you have better things to do,” he said, casting a pointed look at Savannah, who’d deliberately turned her back again.

  “Yes,” Trace agreed.

  He waited until he heard the front door close before attempting his apology. “Savannah?”

  “What?”

  “I’m sorry if I offended you earlier.”

  “If?” she asked with a hint of disdain. She faced him, eyes flashing heatedly. “You all but propositioned me in front of my daughter!”

  “I made sure that Hannah was out of earshot before I said a word,” he reminded her, but she didn’t seem the least bit pacified. She turned away and began stirring the spaghetti sauce with a vengeance. “Okay, I’m just plain sorry. I never meant to give the impression that I seriously thought you and I ought to be back here tumbling around in bed together.”

  “Oh, really?” she asked skeptically. “Then exactly what did you mean?”

  “I was just teasing. Your cheeks get all flushed and your eyes sparkle when you get indignant. That was the only reaction I was going for. I was out of line.”

  She turned slowly and studied him. “Apology accepted. I probably overreacted, anyway. It’s been a long time since I’ve flirted with a man.”

  “You’ll get the hang of it again.” He reached for her hand and tugged lightly until she was standing directly in front of him. “I only think it’s fair to warn you, though.”

  “Warn me? About what?”

  “Next time I might not be teasing.”

  She gulped visibly, then nodded. “I’ll keep that in mind.”

  “Is it all right if I stay here, or would you rather I go?”

  She seemed startled—perhaps even dismayed—by his offer to leave. “Aunt Mae invited you here. I’m certainly not going to kick you out.”

  “I know what Mae wanted,” Trace said. “What do you want?”

  She drew in a deep, shuddering breath, then stiffened her shoulders as she looked straight into his eyes. “I want you to stay.”

  The satisfaction that swept through Trace felt a lot like the exhilaration he felt when a difficult business negotiation ended well. “Then that’s what I’ll do,” he told her solemnly.

  She muttered something that he couldn’t quite make out.

  “What was that?” he asked.

  A flush crept up the back of her neck. “I said, like I really had a choice.”

  “Of course you have a choice.”

  “Not if I want that tree to get put up tonight,” she said, facing him with a renewed sparkle in her eyes.

  Trace laughed despite himself. “I do love a woman who’s always working an angle.”

  “Of course you do,” Savannah said. “Makes you feel more at home, doesn’t it? I’ll bet you spend most of your time with female boardroom piranha types.”

  Trace chuckled at the all-too-accurate assessment. “True enough,” he admitted. “But something tells me that’s about to change.”

  Five

  Savannah sent Trace in search of Hannah, while she got dinner on the table. She also needed the time to compose herself. She knew precisely why she had overreacted to Trace’s teasing. It was because she had actually been tempted to take him up on his offer to slip away for a so-called nap. Even if they’d actually done no more than crawl into bed together and snuggle, it would have satisfied the yearning that had been building in her ever since he’d arrived earlier in the day.

  Of course, she doubted a man like Trace would have settled for simply holding her in his arms. He would have wanted much more, and while she was tempted by that, she didn’t want to wind up with her heart broken when he left in a few days. It was better that she’d made her position perfectly clear. If she was lucky, there would be no more temptations.

  Next time I might not be teasing.

  Trace’s words suddenly came back to haunt her. How convenient that she had forgotten the warning.

  At the sound of his laughter as he and Hannah came toward the kitchen, Savannah’s pulse raced a little faster. The same wicked yearning that had gripped her earlier teased her senses now. She sighed. Resisting him was going to be a whole lot harder than she’d ever imagined. She’d just have to keep reminding herself that he was cut from the same cloth as her workaholic ex-husband.

  “Mom, can we put the Christmas tree up tonight?” Hannah pleaded as they finished up bowls of ice cream after the best spaghetti Trace had eaten in years.

  “According to tradition, we never put it up till Christmas Eve,” Savannah told her, but she sounded regretful, as if this were one tradition she could be persuaded to change.

  “Maybe it’s time to start your own tradition,” Trace suggested, earning a high-five from Hannah. “Besides, the sooner the tree is in its stand and has some water, the better it will be, right? It’ll last much longer, and it will fill the house with the scent of pine. Why not start enjoying it now?”

  Hannah studied her mother, clearly trying to gauge her mood. “Please,” she begged finally. “I’ll go up in the attic and bring down all the decorations you said are up there. Trace will put it up and string up the lights. You won’t have to do anything.”

  “Except keep the carols going on the CD player and the hot chocolate flowing,” Trace corrected. “What do you say, Savannah?”

  “I say that you two are a formidable team,” she said, feigning an air of resignation that was belied by the spark of excitement in her eyes. “Go on. Bring in the tree.”

  “Do you know where you want it?” Trace asked. “Once it’s up, I don’t want to be hauling it all over the house.”

  She frowned at him. “It goes in front of the window in the living room. That’s where it
’s always been.”

  “And you’re happy with that?” he persisted.

  “Why wouldn’t I be?”

  “Since you’re starting new traditions and all, I just thought you might want to go for broke and pick a new location.”

  “I think the old one is just fine,” she said. “That way, anyone driving up to the house will be able to see the lights on the tree.”

  Trace resigned himself to moving the sofa that normally sat in front of that window. “Where should I move the sofa?”

  Savannah regarded him blankly. “The sofa?”

  “The one in front of that window.”

  Her eyes suddenly lit with understanding. “So that’s why you were so eager to have me put the tree somewhere else. You’re going to be stuck moving furniture.”

  “Hey, I’m not complaining.” He glanced at Hannah. “Did you hear me complain?”

  “No,” she said at once.

  “I’ll put that sofa just about anywhere you want it except the attic,” he insisted.

  Savannah regarded him with a wry expression. “I think on the wall facing the fireplace will do.”

  “Got it. Tree in front of the window. Sofa in front of the fireplace. And the easy chairs currently on that wall? Where should they go?”

  A chuckle erupted from deep inside her, lighting up her face. “Maybe Hannah and I can rearrange the furniture while you get the tree in its stand.”

  “No way,” Trace protested. “I’m providing the brawn here. Just give me instructions.”

  By the time Savannah finished with the instructions, he was pretty sure that not one single piece of furniture in the living room would be where it had started out. He figured he could live with that, as long as she didn’t change her mind a million times.

  “That’s it?” he questioned. “You’re sure?”

  “As sure as I can be before I see what it looks like,” she said.

  Trace sighed. “I’ll get started. You might want to hunt for some painkillers and a heating pad in the meantime.”