Rising Up: Finding Me book 1

by J J Harper

  I never brought trouble home or got pregnant, shit I don't think I was ever drunk at home, so why have they done this?" Her voice hitches in her throat and I lean down to kiss her forehead.

  "I don't know babe. I really don't. Can you tell me about how you met Jake and your life with him before all of this?" My voice is low and quiet and for a very long time Ginny stays quiet.

  "It was about two and a half years ago....

  “Melanie you won't believe who's called me for an interview. Well not actually him but his secretary. Are you ready? Jake Bloody Williams!!" Mel shrieks back at me I can almost see her jumping up and down.

  "What about Mr. Stares-a-lot Jenkins? I thought you had a cushy job with him?"

  "It was him that recommended me, he said he could 'see a lot of potential' in me and thought I'd enjoy it more at Jake Williams' production company. I'm seeing him tomorrow so get yourself over here and help me sort out what to wear."

  "I'm already on my way sweetie. See you in a few."

  "The interview obviously went well and I was offered the post. My parents were ecstatic, and we now know why, they had already been approached by Peter Jenkins. But I can't believe they knew what sort of person he is.

  "Heidi, Mr. Williams would like to see you in his office right now please."

  I was a bit scared of his secretary she always seemed to look down her nose at me, but I pick up my notebook and head in.

  After knocking on the door he calls me in.

  "Ah Heidi, I'm so glad you came to join our happy team but I have a rather difficult problem, my date for the TV Awards has let me down, some sort of family emergency shit, anyway I need a date tonight and I would like you to be it. If that's okay with you?"

  "Er.. Well thank you but really I don't have anything suitable for that sort of evening, and I do have to catch up on all the notes left by predecessor." I can hear my voice getting higher as the panic sets in.

  "Oh don't worry about that, I'll get something sent over for you to wear and we'll get someone else to do the notes. Thank you so much Heidi you have got me out of quite a jam. Celia out the front will fill you in on all the details."

  Picking up the phone I call Mel first and she whoops at me down the phone calling me the luckiest bitch under the sun, then I call my mother and she is equally thrilled for me.

  “It was the first of many evenings he cajoled me into going to, sometimes they were important events but others it was just dinner at a restaurant that had become a popular place for celebrities to hang out, and he was always up for a photo in a gossip mag. At first it was scary but exciting, but after a month or two I heard him tell a reporter that I was his girlfriend and what my name was. This bothered me but what could I say he was my boss after all.

  "Why did you tell them I'm your girlfriend Jake when we both know this is purely publicity for you?"

  "Because Heidi precious, I would like you to be my girlfriend and I think you like me too. Look, why don't we go back to my place and spend some time together and get to know each other some more. I'm sure we have many things in common, so what do you say" He holds his hand out for me to take and off we go.

  "Jake, why would you want to be with me? I mean there are so many beautiful famous women who would look much better on your arm than me." We are sat in his penthouse overlooking the river and when I turn my head away from the stunning view I can see he looks angry with me. "Jake what's wrong? I'm sorry if I've upset you, I just don't understand what you see in me."

  "Precious, look at me. When I look at you I see innocence and frailty I just want to take care of you, if you would let me." Walking over to me his hands cup my face and leaning down he places the softest kiss on my lips pulling away without taking it any further. "So Heidi, would you do me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?"

  A giggle escapes me and I nod an affirmative. Then he kisses me properly and my legs go weak, this is nothing like the drunken fumbling’s I’d had at college. This was a 100% all man jelly-legs kiss, and that was it I knew he had me now.

  “The next three or four months were perfect he treated me as any boyfriend would, he was kind and attentive. I was introduced to his close friends and we both know who they are. But it started to go wrong after I'd been out to a Christmas party at Maddie's firm.

  I was late getting back and although I wasn't drunk by any standards I'd had a couple of drinks. We weren't living together then but he had me move in after this.

  Walking in the door I drop my bag on the floor and walk through to make a cup of tea when a hand grabs me and pushes me against the wall. "Oh God! Please don't hurt me." Then my light switches on and I see it's Jake. "Jesus Jake, you scared the crap out of me. What are you doing here I thought we weren't seeing each other tonight?"

  "I can fucking tell that! What are you wearing? You look like a whore in that dress. Who were you sniffing around tonight? How many men got to stare at your tits hanging out, Eh?"

  "I don't know what you're talking about Jake, honestly honey. I was at Melanie's works party I told you about it weeks ago and you said you were fine with it. God it's not even late." The grip on my throat has loosened and I'm pulled towards my bedroom and thrown on the bed.

  "You know what if you're going to dress like a slut then I'm going to treat you like one!" He's sneering at me with a look of contempt in his face. Leaning over me on the bed he reaches up to my dress and rips the front open causing my boobs to fall free. "Christ! You're not even wearing a bra. You are such a slut I'm going to teach you a lesson." His fist comes up and smacks me in the eye causing me to see stars.

  "Oh God Jake. Stop! That really bloody hurt. What the fuck is up with you?" Tears are pouring out of my eyes even though the one he hit is already closing.

  "I'll show you what's up with me." He's tearing my dress off completely now and rips my knickers off. "You're my girlfriend and I wanted to be with you tonight but you'd fucked off with that bitch friend of yours!"

  Climbing on top of me he is biting my boobs and forcing my legs apart with his knees then he's ramming himself inside me and his hand comes back up to my throat and starts squeezing.

  "Jake I can't breathe, stop. Shit Jake I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you. I'm sorry." As soon as I say that he stops choking me but doesn't finish his assault on my body until his orgasm rips from him.

  "Good. I'm glad you've realized this is all you fault. Don't do it again. I don't want you seeing your friend again." Getting up off the bed he pushes me to the floor and stamps hard down on my hand. "Oh, you look like shit so you'd better stay away from the office this week. I'll send your work in an email."

  That was my first and last visit to the hospital."

  "Is that the time I heard you talking to Maddie about?"

  "Yeah, the photograph was taken by someone waiting for some friends but recognized me and sold it to a trashy newspaper."

  "So he blacked your other eye. Shit Ginny I don't know what to say? Was that when he broke you fingers too?" Ginny's fingers are winding themselves through the ones on one of my hands, my other hand is stroking her hair and my fingers twist in and out of the soft curls trying to offer some sort of comfort.

  "Yes, the next time was a few months later and I happened to be talking to a colleague at a gallery opening, and Jake decided that I was shagging him. I think that was two broken ribs and a dislocated shoulder.

  It was after that that, he decided to change tack and was all loving again and so apologetic and contrite that I forgave him, and life was good for another good few months, we had a normal loving relationship and that's when he started to introduce tying me up, which as you know I enjoy."

  Looking up at me with a devilish glint in her eye. I don't know how she can bear to let me touch her after what he has done to her. But I'm so glad she does. I kiss her nose. "I enjoy that too babe."

  I'm so glad everything is good again, in fact it's better than good, the sex has become so exciting I never thought I'd like being tied up but hell i
t’s pretty damned good.

  "Hey Jake I'm home." Walking into the main room I can see Damien and Marcus are with him. "Oh, sorry guys, I didn't realize you were coming round tonight. I'll leave you all to it." Leaning over to give Jake a kiss he sweeps me off my feet and onto his lap and continues to kiss me passionately. I can hear the other guys talking about me and try to wriggle away.

  "Oh no you don't precious. The guys are just leaving so you go and get showered and I'll be in."

  "Okay, bye you two see you soon." Waving I walk into our room but hear one of them mumble 'not if we see you first'. Ignoring it I hit the shower, Jake walks in a couple of minutes later and joins me.

  "I fancy tying you up and doing rude things to you tonight what do you say to that?" His hands are rubbing soap over my breasts and stomach and getting me very turned on

  "I say 'Yes please Mr. Williams, Sir." And giggle and get out of the shower after drying off he lies me down and ties my hands up above my head and spreads my legs apart and ties them to the base of the bed. I can already hear his heavy breathing and then his hands start to caress my legs and lead up to my thighs and then cupping my sex he rubs his palm over my clit. It feels so good.

  "Precious can we have a fifty shades moment? I want to play music to you while I worship your body."

  "Yeah that sounds like fun, are you going to blindfold me too?"

  "Too damned right, so enough talking now just listen."

  My world is plunged into darkness and my ears are filled with one of my favourite playlists. His hands are all over me, his tongue is on my breast while his fingers pinch and tweak at my other nipple and his other hand reaches down and slips inside my soaked sex.

  He slowly and leisurely make love to me and as he climbs back up my body and straddles my chest I feel his dick on my lips darting my tongue out I can taste myself on him opening up more I take him deeper into my mouth as he leans over me.

  Suddenly I feel another set of hands on me and start to struggle but Jake doesn't move from over me and keep slowly pushing himself in and out of my mouth

  The strange hands become more persistent and probing my clit is being rubbed and pinched while two fingers slide in and out of me. Then the music stops and I can hear Jake.

  "Just go with the feelings precious, you look and feel amazing. I love watching my cock sliding in and out of your mouth so suck me hard Heidi, make me come while you enjoy the feelings you are experiencing, you make me so happy."

  The fingers are replaced by a mouth and even though I'm frightened and horrified I can feel my body reacting to the ministrations of an expert tongue. Suddenly an orgasm tears from me as my assailant continues to lap at me. Jake has pulled back slightly and I can hear him stroking himself to climax, soon he lets out a loud groan and pours his release into my mouth and over my face.

  Moving away from me he starts stroking my breasts again and then the other man moves away from between my thighs and I feel him over my face and his dick pushes against my lips.

  "Suck him precious, just like you did to me, I am so proud of you I'm going to give you another orgasm. I know you are loving this as much as I am, your cunt is swollen and pulsing waiting to pour it's juices over my tongue, so make me happy and suck him hard and swallow his cum for me."

  I can't believe this is happening to me, I want to shut myself away and never see or speak to anyone ever again, I'm sure they'll be able to see my shame all over my face. But I know Jake will hurt me if I don't do this. Opening up I let the unknown man fuck my mouth. I know I'm crying but Jake doesn't notice or care he is running his tongue in and out of me his thumb and finger are rolling my clit and I can feels my body tensing and I know I'm going to come again and at this moment I hate my body.

  "She's going to come mate so you'd better finish up soon." Jake is laughing. "Suck him harder precious there's a good girl." He goes back to licking and stroking me then as my back goes rigid he bites down on my clit and I start to come. The man above me hardens and then starts to pour into me, he also pulls out so he can spray my face and neck.

  Leaning back over me he chuckles and says. "Best blow job I've ever had I'll be sure to come back for more."

  "I told you she was good! See yourself out mate." He unties my legs and arms before removing my eye mask. "Well done precious, I knew you had that in you and look how much your body enjoyed it, how many times did you come? I think I lost count, I think next time I’ll just watch them take you." He gets up and walks back to the shower without a backward glance.

  Pulling my knees up to my chest I sob and sob till I lose track of time. Jake got dressed and told me he was going out and not to wait up. Left alone I rushed to the bathroom to shower and scrub every inch of my body before brushing my teeth and rinsing my mouth out at least twenty times but I don't think I'll ever get the taste out of my mouth.

  “I packed a bag and walked out never intending to go there again."

  "Why did you then?" I don't think I can take much more of this, Ginny's voice is so empty and monotone that I don't know if I'll ever get her back again and this is breaking my heart. "D'you know what babe, it's nearly one o'clock why don't you rest now, and if you want to tell me some more tomorrow, or another night, even if you don't want to mention it again then that's fine with me too."

  "Mason?" Her head turns to face me and even in the dark I can see the brilliance of her emerald eyes.

  "What babe?"

  "Do you still want me, I mean are you able to love me and love my body now that you know this? I wouldn't blame you if you didn't want to touch me again."

  "Imogen, you've asked me this before and my answer is the same now as it was then. I love you and I love your body and always will."

  "Will you show me?"

  "Anytime babe, anytime." I roll her over onto her back and cover her body with mine and slowly and gently enter and love her thoroughly until we are both quietly panting and satiate. Falling asleep with our legs tangled together and our faces close.

  "I want to finish telling you what happened, if that's okay?"

  "Sure, but babe I'm not sure how much more I can take."

  "I'll keep it short then..

  I get back home and see that it's only my mother in the house. "Where's Dad?" I hate being alone with her she's always asking about Jake.

  "He's at the college, he'll be back later. What are you doing here? Is Jake with you?"

  "No he's not and if he calls will you please tell him I'm not here." Walking away I start going up the stairs to my old room. Half an hour later the doorbell goes and I can hear my mother talking, shit! She's telling him I'm here. There are footsteps running up the stairs and my door flies open.

  "Heidi, precious. Come on darling it's time to go home. I'm sorry if I upset you, and really you know you enjoyed it otherwise you wouldn't have come." His face is looking at me serenely but I know it's just to appease my mother.

  "Go on Heidi, go home with Jake. You shouldn't have made him come here, you know how busy he is." My mother is virtually panting at the sight of him, but I get up to go.

  "You should be ashamed of yourself Mother, you look ridiculous." I'm pulled by my arm out of my room and down the stairs. Jake is cursing at me quietly all the way out of the house.

  "When we get back home I get thrown against the wall and crash to the floor, my head was bleeding but he doesn't care, he kicked me hard in the stomach and in the ribs before trying to choke me again.

  "Don't you ever walk out on me again bitch? I fucking own you!" Standing over me I'm curled up into a ball but he kicks my back. "Will you fucking look at me when I'm talking to you? I shouldn't have to do this but you bring it on yourself." Looking up at him he's masturbating over me, he comes hard and sprays all over my face. "Get up and get into bed bitch."

  "I had three broken ribs that time, so things just carried on, every three or four weeks I would be tied up and raped by him and a friend or two. I think he enjoyed beating me in to submission as much as he did fucking
me. I knew if he'd hit me about his apology would lead to him inviting a friend or two round. Sometimes they would just watch him fuck me or hurt me, and they would take photographs of it all."

  "What happened before the final attack?" My voice sticks in my throat but I think I need closure on this as much as Ginny does.

  "Again that was nothing really. I'd been out for a couple of drinks with Maddie because we had just had these jobs confirmed, keeping all of this secret was so hard but he only ever thinks about himself, so I was lucky that he never questioned my mail or things like that, and he found out so after beating and abusing me he went out and just said he'd be bringing his friends back with him.

  I never thought he meant all of them and well you know the rest. It was Vanessa, my doctor friend, who originally persuaded me to leave and Maddie was amazing too, she was ready to start afresh too so we changed our names by deed poll and applied for jobs over here and you know the rest."

  "Oh babe, I love you so much, you are the bravest person I have ever met.

  *

  A loud banging on the door wakes us both up and we grab something to wear before answering.

  "Hey Mase, open up it's important." Lucas is shouting through the door. "I've already got Lake up but I've got something you need to see."

  Opening up Luc is standing with his laptop open in his arms. "What've you got Luc?" I can feel Ginny walk up behind me and puts her arms around my waist resting her head on my back. I revel in her touch and the confidence she has in me. Pulling her round to face me I kiss her.

  "The shit is most definitely going to hit the fan now. Look what I got sent last night by one of my undercover team then read the headlines on today's paper."

  Lake and Maddie have joined us now and we sit at the dining table to see the screen. "Holy shit!" Lake grabs his cell and starts to call the cops.