UnTouch Me

by Dawn Martens

  “I think maybe this needs to stop,” I tell her quietly.

  “Yeah.”

  “I can’t keep running to you whenever Lilly and I break up. It’s not fair to either of you.”

  “I know, but letting you go completely is hard too,” she says quietly with tears leaking down her face. “Just hold me? You can leave in the morning. I just want one more night.”

  “Yeah, I can do that,” I say softly and put my arms around her, bringing her body into mine.

  *~*

  I’m sitting on Lilly’s couch waiting for her to get home. I left Kayla’s house last week before she woke up because I didn’t really want to deal with her tears. Of course, I still feel like shit. Kayla isn’t a horrible person, but she’s just not for me. Yeah, I’ve been stringing her along, giving her false hope, but I just can’t anymore, especially now that Lilly’s coming home.

  Fuck, do I miss her. I hope she missed me! I really hope I don’t have to beg too hard to get her back.

  I hear her car pull into the driveway and start getting nervous. What if this time away has been bad? What if she doesn’t want me? This time apart could have really made her think, made her not want to be with me at all. What if she met someone else?

  I won’t let that happen. I need her—she’s my life. I push all of that negative shit to the back of my mind. Only thing that matters is she is here now, and I am going to get her back.

  The front door opens, and Lilly steps in, looking amazing; her hair grew out some while she was away. “Vinny? What? What are you doing here?” she asks, sounding and looking confused.

  “You’re home,” I say shrugging.

  I see her gulp and bite her bottom lip; still so sexy, already making me hard.

  “I missed you, Lilly-pad,” I tell her, walking slowly toward her. I’m unsure of how she is feeling toward me.

  “I missed you too,” she says quietly. “But you shouldn’t be here.” My heart feels like it has been ripped out of my chest.

  “What?” I whisper out. She can’t mean that she doesn’t want me here. I tug on my beanie anxiously.

  “I don’t think I can keep doing this, Vinny. I love you so damn much, but this time away from you, with no back and forth, I’ve enjoyed it. I feel at peace,” she says sadly.

  “I’m not living without you, Lilly. Please don’t give up on us,” I beg her. I’m ready to get down on my knees and plead.

  “We can try, Vinny, but I want to take this slow,” she whispers while looking away from me.

  Hope fills my chest. “I can do slow. I promise, Lilly, things will be different.” I can change. For her, I can and will do anything to make it work. I can’t lose her again. My life isn’t the same without her by my side.

  She nods. “Okay.”

  I rush to her, pulling her into my arms and hugging her tight against me. It isn’t long before her mouth latches onto mine and we end up in her room in bed together. Lilly is naked and writhing beneath me, right where she is meant to be. I’m looking down at the most beautiful woman, and she’s all mine. I pull out, and she frowns at the loss of our connection. I slam back into her and pull back out slowly. She bites her bottom lip, knowing I want her to beg for it hard and fast just like she loves it. I push back in a little faster, and she bucks her hips.

  “What are you biting that lip for, Lilly-pad?” I drawl in a cool even tone as I draw my cock out and push back in. She just smirks and closes her eyes. “Open your eyes and tell me what you want.” I begin rocking into her, picking up the tempo. She moans and arches her back up from the bed.

  “Fuck me, Vinny. I want it hard and fast. Now!” she lets out in a whispered breath, breathing hard. I can’t keep up this slow pace any longer, and I lay into her, pumping into her faster and faster, slamming the headboard against the wall so roughly I think I may have made marks.

  Lilly lies on her back, breathing hard. “Um, I don’t think that was taking it slow.” She giggles.

  “That’s as slow as you’re gonna get, Lilly-pad,” I say, grinning at her.

  “I love you, Vinny.”

  “I love you too.” I kiss those sweet, sweaty lips and nip at her bottom lip. Fuck, feels good to have her back in my arms.

  Years later

  I’m hanging out at the clubhouse tonight, just hanging around with the guys when I get a text.

  I need you home. Please – Lilly

  I smirk; she either wants me for sex or to help her get something from a shelf she can’t reach—my short pixie. Thinking of her reaching for something with the hem of her shirt rising up, exposing her skin above her tight ass, has me ready to hurry home.

  “I’m out, guys. Gotta get home to the misses,” I say grinning.

  I have stayed away from Kayla, somewhat, but I was with her again when Lilly and I got into a rip roaring fight and broke up for three weeks about two months ago. Since then, though, I haven’t seen her once. I even told Kayla that I can’t keep doing this, and she understands. She has even gone out on dates herself, saying she’s moving on, gave me the riot act that I can’t do this to Lilly. “It’s not cheating. We both know that, but still, how would Lilly feel if she found out?” she’d told me, and fuck, she was right—Lilly would hate me.

  But in the five years since we got back together, I only went back to Kayla once. That’s saying something. I promised Lilly we would be okay, and I kept that promise, until, of course, a few months ago when I fucked up.

  I make it home and walk in the house. I see Lilly sitting on the couch with her knees to her chest, arms around them, looking upset.

  “Lilly-pad? What’s wrong?” I ask her. Fuck, did she find out about Kayla? Her expression has me freaking out. My palms break out in a cold sweat. She stays quiet for a minute, almost looking like she is sick. She isn’t dressed up like she normally is when I get home, but has on one of my t-shirts and a pair of sweats. Her wild curls are hanging down her back.

  “I’m pregnant,” she whispers to me. Her eyes are searching mine with caution.

  A huge smile lights up my face. “Really?” I ask excitedly.

  Shock covers her entire face when she looks up at me. “You’re…um…You’re happy?”

  “Of course I am! I’m with you, and we’re having a baby. Why wouldn’t I be?”

  “Maybe because we break up like, all the time,” she says, rolling her eyes.

  I let out a laugh. “Babe, we’re good. We’re so good.” I go to her, pulling her off the couch, and wrap her up in my arms. “Fuck, I love you.”

  I feel her tears land on my shoulder. “I love you too, Vinny.”

  “We’re really doing this, Lilly- you, me, and a baby. I’m going to make you so happy, baby. I promise.” Things are turning around for us. We’re finally going to do this. I’m going to make Lilly my wife. I don’t want to ask her right this minute, because she’ll say no, thinking I’m only asking because she’s carrying my child. But I know Lilly’s meant to be my wife.

  I kiss her softly, and she surprises me by taking the lead. Aggressively, she jerks me onto the couch with her. I’m loving this possessive side to Lilly. She goes to her knees on the floor in front of me. Taking a band from her wrist, she pulls her hair back, chewing on her bottom lip—so damn hot.

  She is rubbing over my cock in my jeans. I yank her closer to me by the collar of her shirt. Our mouths collide, so full of desire. Lilly’s kisses are becoming more fevered, more frantic. She pushes my shirt up, and I lift it over my head as she kisses down my chest, making her way down my happy trail. I slump down further into the couch as she pulls down my zipper, freeing my cock, her tongue swirling over the tip of my growing erection. She licks on me like I’m a damned lollipop.

  I was so damn nervous about what Vinny would think when he found out that I’m pregnant, but I guess I didn’t have to worry at all. He’s happier than I am, which has me shocked as shit.

  I haven’t even told Eden we’re together, so I’m worried what she’ll think. It’s not t
hat I want to keep this from her, but I know how she feels about Jasper. Plus, I’m worried if she finds out about us, that she’ll think I’m going to tell Vinny she’s back in town.

  Vinny comes up behind me when I’m at the counter chopping onions and wraps an arm around me. “Hey, babe.”

  “Hey,” I say, smiling.

  “I love you,” he tells me, kissing my head.

  “I know,” I say, smirking.

  His arms move from my waist, and he grabs my hand, causing me to put down the knife. “What are you doing?” I ask, confused.

  “Marry me?” he asks me.

  “What?” I say, turning around in his arms.

  “Will you marry me?” he asks seriously, slipping a beautiful princess cut diamond on my finger.

  “Oh my God. Yes!” I screech, wrapping my arms around Vinny’s head, pulling him in for a kiss.

  The food I was preparing is long forgotten. Vinny and I become tangled up in the excitement of his proposal, and before I know it, he has my pants around my ankles and I’m bent over the kitchen table with him kissing his way down my fevered spine.

  “Fuck, I love the way you get so wet for me, baby.” He is massaging my clit with the hand he has snaked around my waist. His other hand is rubbing over my bare bottom. He surprises me with a playful smack, then grabs my cheek, pinching me aggressively. “Can’t wait to make you mine officially,” he says, rubbing his throbbing erection between my folds.

  The anticipation of feeling him inside me is almost more than I can take. He has my face pressed against the wooden table; it isn’t the most comfortable position, but I don’t care. I just need him pleasing me. I reach around to help Vinny ease into me, and just as he’s getting ready to fill me completely…

  We’re interrupted when Vinny’s phone starts going off.

  “Fuck, I gotta get this. Could be important,” Vinny says, moving off me and reaching for his phone. I whip my head around to watch and wait for him to get back to what he started.

  The blood drains from his face, and he clenches his jaw. He moves toward his clothes and quickly puts them on, leaving me totally confused as to what the hell just happened.

  I get a text from Kayla telling me that I need to come over, that we need to talk. Fuckin’ hell, I’m spending time with Lilly after I just proposed to her, so I let Kayla know that.

  Either you come here and talk to me now, or I’ll show up there

  Fuck! I vowed this time that I wouldn’t let stupid shit keep Lilly and me apart anymore. No more Kayla. No more back and forth shit. I want a life with Lilly, especially after learning we’re having a baby together.

  “Lilly, babe, club stuff, I gotta go,” I tell her, hoping she doesn’t figure out I’m lying.

  Her face falls. “Okay,” she says quietly.

  “I’ll be back later, okay? I promise, and we’ll pick up where we left off,” I tell her grinning.

  She nods. “Sounds good. Text me, and I’ll call in a pizza or something.” She kisses me goodbye, and I leave and make my way to Kayla’s.

  She’s already at the front door when I walk up. I push past her into the house, turning around to face her. “What? I just proposed to my woman. What the hell do you want?”

  Her face pales when she hears I asked Lilly to marry me. “We have something important to discuss.”

  “Yeah, like what? Look, I’m not doing this with you anymore. I already told you that months ago. Lilly is pregnant with my kid now. It’s done, for good this time.”

  “Yeah? Well, so am I,” she says, glaring at me.

  “What?” I whisper out, feeling the blood rush from my face.

  “We both know I don’t sleep around. I’ve only been with you the last few years, so something must have happened,” she says, shrugging.

  “What about the new guy you’ve been dating?” I ask her, hoping he’s a possibility.

  She shakes her head. “We only went out three times. We never got close to having sex.”

  I fall back, sitting on her couch. I pull my beanie off and bring it to my face. How could this have happened? How am I going to face Lilly? She’s gonna fuckin’ hate me.

  “Look, okay, I know this isn’t what you want. It isn’t what I want either, since I know you love her and all, but it’s happened. We need to figure things out,” she says.

  “Get rid of it,” I bark out, voice muffled into my hat.

  “Oh, fuck no!” she screeches. “Look, I get it, okay? You love her, but, Vincent, I love you. I always have. I’m not giving this child up. No mother fucking way! Considering this is most likely the only piece of you I’ll ever truly have.”

  “Look, shit, just give me some time, okay?” I tell her when I take my hat away from my face, looking her in the eyes.

  She must see the pain in my face, because her face softens, tears welling up. “I’m sorry. I know you wanted to finally make this right between you two, and this just fucked it all up.”

  “I gotta go. I’ll contact you later,” I say while getting up from the couch and rushing out the door. What the hell am I going to do?

  I wait for Vinny to come home, but by about midnight, he still hasn’t shown up... No call or text, which isn’t like him. He always calls or texts me.

  I finally reach for my phone and text Jasper.

  Do you know where Vinny is? – Lilly

  No, haven’t seen him tonight – Jasper

  He lied to me. Where the hell is he? I try calling Vinny again, but it goes straight to voicemail. So instead I text.

  Where are you? Jasper said he hasn’t seen you tonight. Why would you lie to me about that? – Lilly

  Since his phone is off, I know he won’t text me back, so I put my phone back on my night stand and turn out my lamp.

  I don’t know how long I’ve been asleep when I feel Vinny’s body wrap around me. “I love you, Lilly, so fucking much,” he says softly, kissing the back of my neck.

  I open my eyes and see it’s still dark out.

  “Where were you?” I ask quietly back.

  “It was just something Reaper needed me to do.”

  Instantly, I believe him. I have no reason not to trust what he says.

  Sweeping my hair from my neck, Vinny begins to plant more kisses down the base of my throat. His hands make their way down to my stomach. His cool hands snake underneath the cotton fabric of my tank top. He cups my breasts, massaging tenderly with his thumb as he whispers sweet nothings in my ear. Goosebumps form across my skin as his hand sweeps down my torso until he reaches my thong.

  “Fuck, Lilly.” He pinches my ass hard and disappears under the covers. His hands are touching me anywhere and everywhere at once. His fingers make quick work of removing my thong, and I roll to my back and Vinny comes up from under the sheet with a lazy grin. He pecks me on the lips sweetly and goes straight to my pussy. His tongue is on me fast, and my body is humming as my thighs squeeze his head. His teeth graze over my clit, his need to please me is primal.

  “Okay, I’ll see you when you get home next week,” I say sweetly to Vinny before hanging up. He went to Banff to testify against another monster that preyed on a child. I love the changes I’ve seen in the club since Jasper took over. When I came back from beauty school, Vinny decided to sell his house, the house his father left him when he passed away, and just move in with me.

  What shocked me was Momma B and Mona both joined up when Jasper allowed women to join. My mom was going to join, but she didn’t exactly want to ride a bike, so she mostly takes care of the books and scheduling appointments for the guys; on top of working in her little salon in her house.

  I’ve been living in my own house since I finished high school. Not many teenagers can say they own their house outright, but my dad had a lot of money. The second my trust fund came in, I went out and bought this house. Dad left my mom when I was just a kid. They never married, so it was pretty easy for him to just leave. He’s actually one of four partners in the firm that Hilary works at.


  She doesn’t see him much, since he’s always so busy. I guess he’s busy; I haven’t even seen him in years. I just get cheques sent or money deposited into my account every few months. At least he has the time to do that.

  With Vinny and the rest of the boys away, I’m finally able to sneak over and spend some time with Eden. When I first found out she had decided to move back here, I was freaked. How could I help her with this move with Vinny around? Thankfully, the weekend she moved in, Vinny was in Devon on a charity run. Since she moved back here a few months ago, she’s done everything in her power to avoid ever stumbling across someone that would recognize her, and more importantly, Jasper.

  Two weeks ago, she was working at Rachel’s diner when Vinny, Mason, and Jasper walked in. Rachel saw them right away as they were getting off their bikes, and had Eden go into the back so she could avoid them.

  I wish she would just get it over with and just face them. Keeping her secrets for all these years has been a strain on my relationship with Vinny. Just over five months ago, I thought I was going to combust and blurt out that Eden was back. I ended up starting some stupid ass fight, and we broke up for three weeks.

  Considering Vinny and I found out I was pregnant just two months ago, the stress is getting to be too much. I also haven’t told Eden about Vinny and I being together. It’s not that I am ashamed of the relationship; it’s just that I don’t want the dynamics of our group to change.

  Vinny also didn’t want his mom to find out about us. It’s always been hard with her, considering my mom got pregnant by a guy Vinny’s mother was also dating at the time. And since I look a lot like my father, she’s always been so damn hateful toward me. I’ve been the constant reminder of why her life was fucked up.

  While I’m sitting on the couch watching some cheesy TV show, there is a knock on my door. I get up and open the door, coming face to face with Monica. Her and Jasper have been on and off over the last few years.

  Whenever she would start to feel as if she was being compared to Eden too much, she would break it off. About a year ago, though, they finally got back together, and it looked like things were going strong for them.