The Bride of the Immortal

by Auriane Bell

Mairin slightly inclined her head. It was seemingly something she often did in certain situations, and Adrijan was wondering what was on her mind.

  “They came to my room threatening me with torture. I had reckoned that, so I bravely – or foolishly – held fast to my declaration of innocence and when they realised that there was no point in verbal threats, they decided to put them into action.”

  His charming audience was still focusing on his words but this time Mairin didn’t dare to ask any questions. She had assumed a rigid body posture that made her uneasiness obvious.

  “It seems that they weren’t keen on seeing me naked. I was allowed to keep my clothes on during most of the... procedures.”

  It was meant to be a joke but Mairin didn’t ease up in the least. Was it better to keep the worst to himself after all?

  “Should I skip that part?”

  Mairin shook her head.

  “I want to know you and I want to know what turned you into the man you are today. Even if your memories aren’t like a fairy tale and more horrid than the diary entries that describe Jonathan Hawker’s despair in the nights spent in Count Dracula’s lair, I want to hear them.”

  She seemed to notice that he was surprised about her outburst and embarrassed she tried to avoid his gaze, meekly adding: “That is... if you want to share them with me.”

  Adrijan suppressed the silly smile that was about to appear on his face. He shouldn’t be happy about a reason to revive his past or about something as small as a reference to a book he had recommended.

  “Well... first they showed me what I had to expect.”

  His mood reverted abruptly with the memory of the shackles that tied him to the wooden chair. He almost felt the hardness of the material and the cold that had crept into his bones the moment realisation set in – but Mairin couldn’t read his thoughts and he forced himself to put them into words.

  “I was led into one of the torture chambers. The ones who had taken me there left, and others, who would continue, fastened me to a chair. My feet were bound by shackles and my arms tied to the armrest so I couldn’t move.”

  Panic had taken hold of him the moment the door had been closed. It had been like a switch, turning off every last bit of hope he had had to escape. He struggled and tried to break free, but...

  “There was no possibility of escape – even the chair was attached to the ground.”

  Sweat had started to trickle over his skin, yet he felt cold as ice and shivers went down his spine. He had a lump in his throat and his guts were churning.

  ‘Look at the poor bastard. Haven’t even started and he’s almost wetting his pants!

  Won’t you tell us your name, lad?’

  Was it possible to remember a person’s voice over hundreds of years?

  “I panicked. They asked me for my name, yet at that moment to me even this simple task was like pronouncing a word in a foreign, never before heard language.”

  ‘Winther... my name is Winther,’ he finally managed to reply.

  ‘Look here, Winther. Do you know what this is? We’ll put it around your scrawny legs and tighten the screws. By doing this, the spikes will be drilled into your flesh and – God knows – something else might happen if we tighten them too much. Something like this.’

  The man demonstrated his toy on an animal bone. As it cracked, it created a dreadful crunching sound. It was thoroughly unpleasant, triggering pain in his legs as if the leg screws had already been applied.

  “I answered them and they started explaining their tools to me. That was already sufficient to make me feel the pain they threatened to inflict. What a hero I was...”

  Adrijan was surprised by his own choice of words. Why had he avoided to tell her his real name? It certainly reminded him of so many things...

  More tools followed, eliciting yet more made-up pain. It was curious how imaginative one’s own body could be. His fingers had turned stiff and cold, and he had lost control over his breathing. In-Out. In-Out. In-Out. Too fast, too heavily. Why wasn’t he able to draw breath? He was suffocating!

  Adrijan wasn’t able to suppress a cough and cleared his throat. Before continuing he took a deep breath.

  “Back at Sunflower Garden you have probably experienced what it’s like to be committed to panic. You feel the adrenaline rush – you’re given all that energy to fight, yet bound like I was there was nothing I could do. With horror I realised that I was at the mercy of maniacs.”

  A bucket of water was emptied over his head, shocking him and drawing his attention to his tormentors.

  ‘Winther, dear boy, we’re not done with you yet!’

  His heart was going to jump out of his chest. How much harder could it possibly beat?

  “There was still more to come. It was the first day, so they weren’t actually planning on doing much to me. It was all about showing me the possibilities. I knew that, but even so my own doubts nearly drove me insane. Wasn’t it possible that they’d make an exception after all? With the help of some cold water, they drew my attention. When they were certain that I was listening again, one opened the door and they stepped outside. I could hear them enter another chamber and I was wondering if I had made it through the ordeal. Then I heard them ask the occupant of the adjacent chamber that odious question in a purposely loud voice:”

  ‘Do you wish to confess?’

  He couldn’t hear the answer but its content was revealed to him in the scream that followed. Were they going to come back to do the same to him? The outcries continued, a yell, a piercing shriek but instead of feeling worried he felt relief. As long as they were busy with the accused, they couldn’t torture him.

  No, it was wrong to feel that way. Wasn’t he here because he had decided to put the lives of others above his own?

  “Adrijan? What did they ask?”

  Mairin’s inquiry made him realise that he hadn’t revealed the content of the question to her.

  “They asked if the woman wanted to confess and when she didn’t, the tormentors continued with the torture. I heard the screams and feared for the worst. I’m ashamed to admit it, but I was more worried about my own skin than about the other person’s well-being.”

  There. He had admitted it. By now she had to be thinking ill of him and there was still more to come.

  The noise stopped and soon after they stepped into his chamber. ‘Well, Winther, it seems that your companion won’t say anymore today. Interestingly though, she told us that your name sounded familiar. Can that be coincidence?’

  He saw the blood on their hands and his world turned black as ink.

  How pathetic he had been…

  “They returned with proof of their torture and I fainted. When I came to, I was surrounded by darkness.”

  Cold. It was cold. He couldn’t see where he was, where they had put him. Was he still alive? He had to be. His body was hurting all over and it took him some effort to stand on his feet. He hadn’t been lying on the floor, it was more like he had been stuck. He carefully reached out his hands, trying to make up for his missing eyesight. Long before he could fully extend his arms he hit the wall on both sides and the palms of his hands told him of its wet and slippery surface. Slowly he let his fingers run over the stone wall, making out the almost non-existent gaps between them. His feet were wet, his habit damp and the air was heavy with the stench of excrement.

  “They had let me down into the old, dried-up well of the monastery. The pain I felt substantiated my assumption that they hadn’t been very gentle, but luckily I hadn’t suffered any fractures. From the smell I could easily tell that I wasn’t the first person to be put there and the fact that I wasn’t able to touch any bones reassured me that they would sooner or later get me out again. I was hoping that I would still be alive then.

  For a short time I called for help but nobody answered.”

  It was hard to tell which was the worst, the cold, the stench or the narrowness that constricted him. Even though his body hurt all over he was unabl
e to sit and rest. Panic had to be suppressed at all cost.

  “There wasn’t enough room to make myself comfortable and nothing to protect me from the cold. My own clothes were thin, torn and on top of it damp. My bare feet just added to it. Needless to say that I had to... well... there was no toilet either.”

  He despised the humiliation, but he had no choice if he didn’t want to wet himself. Time passed, how much he didn’t know, but it passed so slowly. Soon enough he had to struggle to stay awake. The cold stone wall was used as a backrest – the ‘opposite’ site of course, if it could be called that in this small hellhole – yet he didn’t find repose. Countless times he startled just after dozing off, finding himself caught in a nightmare. Then he noticed that he wasn’t alone. Spindly legs travelled over his skin, not caring who he was or why he was there.

  “I spent the night awake, dozing off from time to time. My only companions were spiders and insects who resided in the unused well and their presence made me cherish the absolute darkness. If you’re locked into a narrow space with no way out, it’s better not to know what creeps about.”

  Mairin moaned in disgust even though he was trying so hard to make it sound less unpleasant.

  Some of them did more than just walk over him but he told himself that their company was preferable to the one of snakes or rats.

  When the sun rose, the opening of the well delivered the light of a new day to him, and along with it the promise of yet more pain.

  “They came to me not long after sunrise and brought a bucket of water. My lips were dry and I thirstily awaited its arrival at the ground. I took a sip as soon as it was in reach and before I could finish taking another they started pulling it up again. Without having said a word they left and once again I was alone.

  I spent another day in solitude but even though it was everything else than pleasant it was probably better than enduring a day in the torture chamber. I had expected them to ask me for a confession and after they had left, I was glad they hadn’t. What if they had asked and I had given in? I was getting closer and closer to doing everything just to get out of the well.

  Night came and went, and the following morning I was reaching not only my physical limits.”

  He couldn’t move away from his own filth, he couldn’t sleep, he couldn’t eat, he couldn’t drink and he was surely unable to keep his mind occupied any longer. If he had at least been able to die... When desperation mercilessly overwhelmed him, one of the tormentors roped down to fetch him.

  “Just in time they came to get me and took me to the abbot.

  Hmm. There is something I have to explain to you before I can continue with my story. Around the same time I decided to free some of the accused, Vivian won the struggle for the throne. After his father had passed away, the queen had attempted to usurp his power but in the end Vivian had emerged successful.

  Righteous as he had always been there had been no way he could have tolerated the wrongdoings of the local clergy and so his next move had been to declare war on them.

  Going against the church required a lot of diplomacy, but after restricting his refusal to the inquisition of the local clergy – without at the same time denying the church and turning himself into a heretic – Vivian was allowed to do as he pleased.

  The only problem with that was, that the abbot knew of my connection to the king. He didn’t know specifically who I was, but he thought he could take revenge on Vivian by hurting me.”

  “Revenge? What did they do to you?” she quietly asked.

  “Hmmm.”

  ‘Should we take him down to the chamber or crack his head here?’

  He was surprised that he was still able to feel fear and panic rising within him. Even though it hadn’t been necessary, they had bound him and dragged him along at the rope around his wrists. He was standing bent over and raised his eyes so he could see the abbot’s face. Disgust. There was only disgust. The old man turned and whispered into the ear of his assistant who then relayed his orders.

  ‘Idiot! You can’t spill his guts on the fine carpet! Take him downstairs!’

  “The abbot ordered them to continue with the procedures and they took me downstairs to the torture chamber. I was hardly able to walk. My legs were rigid and hurting, I hadn’t eaten and they kept yanking the rope they had bound me with.”

  ‘Hurry up, Winther! We don’t have all day! Well… we do, but you don’t! He He.’

  Struggling to keep up he even lacked the energy to despise the man for the crude joke. Every step he successfully took equalled a small wonder.

  “It’s really ridiculous to force yourself to keep walking when your destination is a torture chamber, but I lacked options.”

  Mairin nodded.

  “Did Vivian come in time to save you?”

  Was that what she had expected? Adrijan was reluctant to tell her the truth.

  “Well… no. My ‘favourite’ chair was already waiting for me. They tied me to it and started the procedure. First they took something that looked like a pair of pliers and started to pull out my fingernails one by-“

  Mairin cringed, clenched her fists and drew her hands to her chest as if it were the most important thing on earth to hide her fingernails from everyone. She didn’t attempt to stop him from talking but it was obvious what his words were doing to her. There was no point in continuing this kind of torture.

  “When they were done they loaded me onto a cart and tossed me near the castle grounds. In the state they had left me there was no possibility for me to survive and I was very lucky they decided to dump me near Mondstein castle to send Vivian a message. Only because of this I was soon discovered and still alive when I was brought to him. I don’t remember it but Vivian said I was a terrible sight. I had lost a great deal of blood and was suffering from various fractures, burns, cuts and contusions. I fell in and out of consciousness and I very faintly remember seeing the face of an angel. Her smile was divine and her silky golden hair was so long, part of it rested on my bed. The sight of her convinced me that I had died and somehow managed to find my way to heaven.”

  Mairin’s facial expression had changed from worry and disgust to something else and he realised that it might have been better to keep his thoughts about Magdala’s appearance to himself.

  “Anyway, it wasn’t an angel at all but Vivian’s wife, who was praying next to me, holding my injured hand.”

  ‘Hilf, Maria, es ist Zeit, Mutter der Barmherzigkeit...’ Magdala had repeated the same prayer over and over.

  “When she noticed that I was conscious, she didn’t lose any time and made me promise that I’d look after Vivian, no matter what. I thought it strange, considering that I was the one dying. After assuring her that I would follow her wish – a simple nod was all I was capable of – I passed out again.”

  “Magdala asked that of you?”

  What had Vivian told her about Magdala?

  “Mhm. Those were her last words. When I came to again I felt absolutely revived and after pulling off my bandages I saw that my wounds were healed. Even my fingernails had grown back. If it hadn’t been for various scars I would’ve thought it had been a nightmare. And then...”

  “And then?”

  “Instead of Magdala there was an old woman whose head was resting on the bed next to me. I tried to wake her to ask her to fetch Vivian so I could show him the miracle. When she didn’t react I moved closer just to find out that she wasn’t breathing anymore. The old woman was dead.”

  “Dead?”

  “Magdala had used the hour glass to give her remaining time to me. All of it. And by doing so she had turned into the old, lifeless woman in front of me.”

  Mairin was wondering about the reasons for Magdala’s gracious deed. Adrijan couldn’t have been more than a stranger to her then. Had she done it for Vivian or out of sheer altruism? Or could the cause have been guilt?

  “So the hour glass initially belonged to her?”

  Adrijan nodded.

  “
Along with the device she had left a letter, roughly explaining how it worked and asking Vivian to take care of it. Viv was absolutely devastated about Magdala’s passing and to this very day I sometimes wonder, if he hadn’t preferred to see me dead instead.”

  “You mustn’t say that,” Mairin scolded him. “You are his brother and even I know that you are very important to him.”

  “She was his love. Believe me, I should have died – not the pure and innocent Magdala.”

  Not knowing how to respond Mairin stayed silent. She had never met the woman who to her mostly consisted out of the sweetest angelic smile she had ever seen.

  “Would you mind if I went to get something small to eat? I skipped dinner and I’ll have to leave in a few hours.”

  Mairin hadn’t noticed the time and felt bad for depriving Adrijan of the opportunity to have a meal and rest.

  “Of course not, I’m sorry,” she mumbled and slipped out of bed. Adrijan’s mood was everything else than good.

  “You are coming too?”

  Only now Mairin realised that he had excluded her from his plan. She wasn’t particularly hurt about it but she was unwilling to leave him alone after he had shared so much of his past with her. For a moment she considered making up a reason for accompanying him but then she chose to stick with the truth.

  “I don’t want to leave you and I’d like to know what happened after.”

  The words sounded strange, spoken hastily and too fast, but Mairin had wanted to make certain that she couldn’t change her mind before she had finished what she had to say. It was peculiar how being honest was the most difficult choice at times like these.

  “You make it hard to say no,” Adrijan remarked and led the way to the kitchen. He behaved like a gentleman, walking in front of her in narrow staircases and offering her his arm when there was enough room, yet he didn’t speak at all. When they finally arrived at the kitchen, Mairin held him back.

  “Adrijan?”

  “Mhm?”

  Nervousness made it only harder for her to find the right words but she felt there was something she had to say to tear him out of his world of dark thoughts.