One With You

by Sylvia Day

My breath caught right along with the live audience’s gasps. “Wow,” I murmured. “He outed us.”

  I barely caught the rush of conversation that followed the reveal, too stunned by what he was doing to process everything. Gideon was such a private man. He never gave personal interviews, only ones focused on Cross Industries.

  The photo of us changed to a series of shots taken inside the same nightclub where the leggy brunettes had climbed all over him. When he glanced at the audience and suggested that some of them might be familiar with the location, there were a few shouted affirmatives.

  “Obviously,” he went on, looking back at the hosts. “I couldn’t be in New York and Brazil at the same time. The photo that went viral was digitally altered to remove the club’s logo. You can see that it’s embroidered into the curtains of the VIP lounge. All it took was the right software and a couple of clicks to make it disappear.”

  “But the girls were there,” one of the hosts countered, “and what was happening with them was real.”

  “True. I had a life before my wife came along,” he said evenly and unapologetically. “I can’t change that, unfortunately.”

  “She had a life before you, too. She’s the Eva mentioned in, um, a Six-Ninths song.” She squinted slightly. “ ‘Golden Girl.’ ”

  The host was obviously reading the information from a teleprompter.

  “Yes, that’s her,” he confirmed.

  His tone was neutral. He seemed unruffled. While I knew the show was never as spontaneous as it seemed, it was still surreal to see our lives used to boost the morning ratings.

  A photo of Brett and me at the “Golden Girl” video launch in Times Square popped up and a portion of the song played for a moment. “How do you feel about that?”

  Gideon gave them one of his rare smiles. “If I were a songwriter, I’d compose ballads about her, too.”

  The photo of Gideon and me in Brazil appeared on the screen. It was quickly followed by the photo of us in Westport, and a series of shots taken while we’d walked the red carpet at various charity events. In all of them, his eyes were on me.

  “Ooh, he’s good at this,” I said, mostly to myself. My mom was busy shutting down her laptop. “He’s sincere, but still aloof and confident enough to seem like the legendary Gideon Cross. And he gave them a ton of photos to work with.”

  It was also a good choice to go with the talk show format of multiple female hosts exploring female-focused topics. They weren’t going to give him a free pass for alleged infidelity or even tiptoe around the subject. It was going to clear the air in a way an interview with a male anchor might not have.

  One of the hosts leaned forward. “There’s a book coming out about you, too, isn’t there? Written by your former fiancée?”

  A photo of Gideon and Corinne at the Kingsman Vodka party came up on the screen. A collective murmur arose from the audience. My teeth ground together. She looked stunningly beautiful, as always, and complemented Gideon’s dark handsomeness so well.

  I chose to believe the show had dug that image up on their own.

  “Ghostwritten, actually,” he answered. “By someone with an ax to grind. I’m afraid Mrs. Giroux is being taken advantage of and can’t see it.”

  “I didn’t realize that. Who’s the ghostwriter?” She looked at the audience and quickly explained what a ghostwriter was.

  “I’m not at liberty to say who’s actually writing the book.”

  The host pressed the point. “But you know him? Or her? And they don’t like you.”

  “That’s correct—on both counts.”

  “Is it an ex-girlfriend? A former business partner?”

  The one host who’d been mostly listening switched gears. “About Corinne … Why don’t you tell us what the story is there, Gideon?”

  My husband set down the mug he’d just taken a sip out of. “Mrs. Giroux and I dated in college. We were engaged for a time, but even then, the relationship wasn’t going anywhere. We were immature and, truthfully, too ignorant to know what we wanted.”

  “That’s it?”

  “Being young and confused isn’t very interesting or salacious, is it? We remained friends after she married. I’m sorry she feels the need to commercialize that particular time in our lives now that I’m married. I’m sure this is as awkward for Jean-François as it is for me.”

  “That’s her husband, right? Jean-François Giroux. Do you know him?”

  Corinne and Jean-François in evening wear at some event appeared on the screen. They were an attractive couple, although the contrast between the two men wasn’t flattering for the Frenchman. He couldn’t compete with Gideon, but then, who could?

  Gideon nodded. “We’re in business together.”

  “Have you talked about this with him?”

  “No. I don’t discuss it all, usually.” That faint smile touched his mouth again. “I’m a newlywed. I have other things on my mind.”

  I clapped my hands together. “Yay! That was my idea. I told him to keep reminding people she’s married and that he knows her husband.” And he got a dig in about Deanna, too. Well played all around.

  “You knew he was going to do this?” my mom asked, sounding horrified.

  I looked at her, frowning when I saw how pale she was. Considering the tan she’d gotten over the last two weekends, that was worrying. “No. I had no idea. We talked about the Giroux thing a while ago. Are you okay?”

  She pressed her fingertips into her temples. “I’ve got a headache.”

  “Hang on till this is over and I’ll get you something for that.” I looked back at the TV, but they broke for a commercial. I ran to the bathroom medicine cabinet and came back out rattling a little bottle of pills, surprised to find my mother packing up her stuff. “You’re leaving? What about lunch?”

  “I’m tired, Eva. I’m going home to lie down.”

  “You could take a nap here in the guest room.” I figured she’d like that. After all, Gideon had precisely replicated her design of my apartment bedroom right here. A misguided but thoughtful effort to give me a safe haven in his home at a time in our relationship when I hadn’t known whether I should fight for us or just run away.

  She shook her head and slung the carrying strap of her laptop case over her shoulder. “I’ll be fine. We covered the most important things. I’ll call you later.”

  She air-kissed both my cheeks and left.

  Sinking back onto the couch, I put the pills on the coffee table and watched the rest of Gideon’s interview.

  12

  “Mr. Cross.” Scott stood up behind his desk. “Will you be in today after all?”

  I shook my head and opened my office door, waving Angus inside before me. “I just have to take care of something. I’ll be in tomorrow.”

  I’d cleared my schedule, redistributing my meetings and appointments throughout the rest of the week. I hadn’t planned to come to the Crossfire at all, but the information Angus had been sent to gather was too sensitive to risk disclosing anywhere else.

  Taking a moment to close the door and make the glass opaque, I followed Angus to the seating area and dropped into a chair.

  “You’ve had a busy few days, lad,” he said, his lips twisted wryly.

  “Never a dull moment.” I exhaled roughly, fighting off fatigue. “Tell me you have something.”

  Angus leaned forward. “Little more than I had to start with: a marriage license with a fictitious hometown and Jackson Tramell’s death certificate, which has Lauren Kittrie listed as his spouse. He was dead less than a year after they wed.”

  I homed in on the most important information. “Lauren lied about where she was from?”

  He nodded. “Easy enough to do.”

  “But why?” Studying him, I saw the tension in his jaw. “There’s something else.”

  “Manner of death is listed as undetermined,” he said quietly. “Jackson took a bullet to the right temple.”

  My spine stiffened. “They couldn’t dec
ide if it was suicide or homicide?”

  “Aye. It couldnae be determined conclusively one way or the other.”

  More questions without answers, with the biggest issue being whether Lauren had any relevance at all. Maybe we were chasing our tails.

  “Fuck.” I scrubbed a hand over my face. “I just want a photo, for God’s sake.”

  “It’s been a long time, Gideon. A quarter of a century. Maybe someone from her hometown would remember her, but we dinnae know where that is.”

  Dropping my hand, I looked at him. I knew the inflections of his voice and what they signified. “You think someone went through and tidied things up.”

  “It’s possible. Also possible that the police report of Jackson’s death was truly misplaced over the years.”

  “You don’t believe that.”

  He confirmed my statement with a shake of his head. “I brought in a lass to pose as an IRS agent looking for Lauren Kittrie Tramell. She questioned Monica Dieck, who said she hasn’t seen her former sister-in-law in many years and to her knowledge, Lauren is deceased.”

  I shook my head, trying to make sense of it all and getting nowhere.

  “Monica was scared, lad. When she heard Lauren’s name she went white as a ghost.”

  Pushing to my feet, I began to pace. “What the fuck does that mean? None of this is getting me any closer to the truth.”

  “There’s someone else who might have the answers.”

  I came to an abrupt halt. “Eva’s mother.”

  He nodded. “You could ask her.”

  “Jesus.” I stared at him. “I just want to know that my wife is safe. That none of this poses any danger to her whatsoever.”

  Angus’s features softened. “From what we ken of Eva’s mother, protecting her daughter has always been a priority. I cannae see her putting Eva at risk.”

  “Her overprotectiveness is exactly my concern. She’s been tracking Eva’s movements for God knows how long. I assumed it was because of Nathan Barker. But maybe he was just part of the reason. Maybe there’s more.”

  “Raúl and I are already working on revised protocols.”

  I raked a hand through my hair. In addition to their security duties, they were dealing with the problem of Anne and finding whatever records her brother had kept, as well as trying to identify the photographer who took the photo of me and unravel the mystery of Eva’s mother. Even with their auxiliary teams, I knew they were stretched thin.

  My security detail was used to managing only my affairs. Now I had Eva in my life, which effectively doubled their duties. Angus and Raúl were accustomed to rotating shifts, but lately they were both working nearly round the clock. They had standing orders to hire whatever support they required, but what we needed was another security chief—maybe two. Experts whose sole charge would be Eva and whom I could trust as implicitly as I did my existing team.

  I’d have to make the time to get that done. When Eva and I returned from our honeymoon, I wanted everything in place.

  “Thank you, Angus.” I exhaled harshly. “Let’s head to the penthouse. I want to be with Eva now. I’ll figure out the next steps after I get some sleep.”

  “Why didn’t you tell me?”

  I looked at Eva as I stripped out of my clothes. “I thought you’d like the surprise.”

  “Well, yeah. But still. That was huge.”

  I could tell she was happy about the interview. The way she’d tackled me when I came home had been a good indication. She was also talking fast and hopping around all over the place. Which, come to think of it, wasn’t too different from Lucky, who was darting under the bed and rolling out again, yipping happily.

  Stepping out of the closet in my boxer briefs, I went to the bed and sprawled. God, I was tired. Too tired to even make a pass at my beautiful wife, who looked adorable in a strapless short romper thing. That said, I was certainly able to rise to the occasion if she propositioned me.

  Eva sat on her side of the bed, then leaned over the edge to help Lucky, who tried to scramble up and couldn’t quite make it. A moment later, he was on my chest, whining in protest as I held him off from slathering saliva all over my jaw. “Hey, I get it. I like you, too, but I don’t lick your face.”

  He barked at that. Eva laughed and lay down on her pillow.

  It struck me then that this was it. This was home. In a way it had never been before. Nothing had really felt like home since my dad died. But I had it back, now, better than ever.

  Tucking Lucky against my stomach, I rolled toward my wife. “How did things go with your mother?”

  “Good, I guess. We’re pretty much ready for Sunday.”

  “You guess?”

  She shrugged. “She got a headache during your interview. Seemed like she freaked out a little.”

  I studied her. “About what?”

  “That you were talking about our personal stuff on television. I don’t know. I don’t get her sometimes.”

  I remembered Eva telling me about how she’d discussed Corinne’s book with Monica and using the media to our advantage. Monica had cautioned her against it, told her to value our privacy. At the time, I agreed with Eva’s mother and—today’s interview aside—I would continue to agree with her. But in light of what little I knew about Monica’s identity, it seemed probable that Eva’s mother was concerned about her own privacy as well. It was one thing to appear in brief mentions in the local society papers. Quite another to gain the attention of the world.

  Eva had her mother’s face and some of her mannerisms. She also had the Tramell name, which was a curious error. It would have been better cover to give her Victor’s last name. Someone might be looking for Monica. If they knew at least as much as I did, having Eva’s face on national television would put an X on the map.

  My heart began to pound. Was my wife in danger? I had no idea what Monica might be hiding from.

  “Oh!” Eva bolted up. “I didn’t tell you … I’ve got a dress!”

  “Jesus. You damn near gave me a heart attack.” Lucky took advantage of my startled state and pounced, licking madly.

  “Sorry.” Eva caught up the puppy and rescued me, pulling him into her lap as she sat cross-legged beside me. “I called my dad today. My grandmother asked him if I’d want to wear her wedding dress. He sent me a picture of it, but it’s been in storage so long, I couldn’t really make it out. So he scanned a photo of her wearing it on her wedding day and it’s perfect! It’s totally what I didn’t know I wanted!”

  I rubbed my chest and smiled wryly. How could I be anything but captivated that she was so excited to marry me again? “I’m glad, angel.”

  Her eyes sparkled with excitement. “My great-grandmother made it for her, with the help of her sisters. It’s a family heirloom, how cool is that?”

  “Exceptionally cool.”

  “Right? And we’re about the same height. I get my butt and boobs from that side of the family. It might not need to be altered at all.”

  “I love your butt and boobs.”

  “Fiend.” She shook her head. “I feel like it’ll be good for the relatives on that side to see me in it. I’ve been worried that they’ll feel out of place, but now I’ll be wearing the dress, so they have to feel like they’re included in a big way. Don’t you think?”

  “Agreed.” I crooked my finger at her. “Come here.”

  She eyed me. “You’ve got a look.”

  “Do I?”

  “Are you still thinking about my butt and boobs?”

  “Always. But for now, just a kiss will do.”

  “Hmm.” Leaning over, she offered her mouth.

  I cupped the back of her head and took what I needed.

  “It’s impressive, son.”

  I’m looking up at the Crossfire from street level, but the sound of my father’s voice turns my head. “Dad.”

  He’s dressed like me, in a dark three-piece suit. His tie is burgundy as is the handkerchief tucked into his breast pocket. We’re the sa
me height and that startles me for a moment. Why does that surprise me? The answer hovers in the back of my mind, but I can’t grasp it.

  His arm comes around my shoulders. “You’ve built an empire. I’m proud of you.”

  I take a deep breath. I hadn’t realized how badly I’d needed to hear him say that. “Thank you.”

  He shifts, turning to face me. “And you’re married. Congratulations.”

  “You should come to the penthouse with me and meet my wife.” I’m anxious. I don’t want him to say no. There are so many things I want to say to him and we never have time. Only a few minutes here and there, snatches of conversation that can only scratch the surface. And with Eva there, I would have the courage to say what I needed to. “You’ll love her. She’s amazing.”

  My dad grins. “Beautiful, too. I’d like a grandson. And a granddaughter.”

  “Whoa.” I laugh. “Let’s not move too fast.”

  “Life moves fast, son. Before you know it, it’s over. Don’t waste it.”

  I swallow past a hard lump in my throat. “You could’ve had more time.”

  That’s not what I want to say. I want to ask him why he gave up, why he checked out. But I’m afraid of the answer.

  “All the time in the world wouldn’t have seen me build something like this.” He looks back up at the Crossfire. From the ground, it seems to reach to infinity, an optical illusion created by the pyramid at the top. “It’ll be a lot of work, keeping this standing. Same with a marriage. Eventually, you’ll have to put one before the other.”

  I think about that. Is it true? I shake my head. “We’ll keep it standing together.”

  He slaps a hand on my shoulder and the ground reverberates beneath my feet. It starts out faintly, then builds, until glass begins to rain down around us. Horrified, I watch as the distant spire at the top explodes outward, then radiates down, windows bursting under the pressure.

  I woke with a gasp, breathing hard, pushing at the weight on my chest and feeling warm fur. Blinking, I found Lucky climbing over me, low whimpers rumbling in his chest.

  “Jesus.” I sat up and shoved my hair back.