Hotel Ruby

by Suzanne Young

  I open the door wider and Daniel walks in. He sits on the edge of my bed and rubs his hand over his hair. “I had the craziest night, Aud,” he says. “This hotel is awesome.”

  “Did you go to the party?” I grab my duffel bag from the floor, tossing it next to Daniel. I sort through the mix of clothes, finding nothing I want to actually wear, and then turn the bag over and dump the contents.

  “Is that what that invitation was?” Daniel asks. “I just saw it this morning. Did you go? Why didn’t you call me?”

  I laugh. “Uh, because I only stayed for a minute before they kicked me out.” I see a red racer-back tank top and set it aside while I search for a clean-enough pair of jeans. “You got an invite?” He nods and I glance around the room, looking for my own invitation. I don’t find one. “Well,” I say, grabbing my clothes. “It was in the ballroom—the music was playing when we got here. Not sure how you missed it.”

  “I wasn’t really paying attention,” he admits. “And after you got on the elevator, I went to see if they had a gym.” He grins. “Met a girl instead.”

  “Please don’t tell me about it.” He always tells me, though, especially since Mom died.

  My chest tightens and I cross to the bathroom with my clothes. I tell Daniel I’ll be out in a second, and he looks offended that I’m not falling over myself to hear his story.

  The bathroom door clicks closed, and I rest my forehead against the wood. Lately I’ve taken to blocking out all thoughts of my mother, distracting myself when she tries to surface. But this time I can’t, not with Daniel’s puppy-dog expression on the other side of the door, waiting for me to pat him on the head and tell him how great he is.

  Daniel and Mom were best friends. Sometimes I’d come home and find them at the kitchen table, just talking. Laughing. He told her everything. He wants me to take her place, and when I understandably cannot, he hates me for it.

  I straighten, blinking my eyes quickly to keep back the tears. I have to be stronger than this. The porcelain sink is cold against my fingers as I grip the edge, staring at my reflection until my pulse calms. Daniel’s here and he needs me. So I have to be better.

  I grab the hotel-provided toothbrush and paste and turn on the faucet. The taste is chalky, like baking soda, and I rinse out my mouth. My reflection stares back at me and I’m surprised by how well I look. Last night was probably the best sleep I’ve had since—

  “Audrey,” Daniel whines from the other room. “I’m dying here.”

  My brother is spoiled, but not altogether terrible because of it. I pull on the jeans and slip the tank top over my head. Now that Daniel’s here, I realize I’m hungry too. I haven’t eaten since yesterday afternoon.

  Daniel’s lounging back on his elbows and still grinning. “So it all started with this gorgeous blonde,” he says the minute I walk in, as if we were still in midconversation. “I was lost in the hallway—have you walked around yet?” he pauses to ask. “It’s like a fun-house maze. Anyway, I’m just trying to find my way back to the lobby when this girl stumbles out of a room and the door slams in her face.”

  “Sounds promising.” I lean down to lift the bed skirt, trying to find my flip-flops. There they are.

  “Right?” Daniel laughs. “So she’s crying, black shit all around her eyes. But she’s beautiful, and I don’t mean everyday attractive. She’s like a classic painting.”

  I put my hand on my hip and scoff. “Seriously? Are you drunk?”

  Daniel sits up, his eyes wide and earnest. “I’m not kidding, Aud. She was . . . perfect. Blond hair, nice dress—a classy girl,” he adds emphatically. “And even with the smeared makeup, her skin was like one of those creepy dolls that Nana used to send you.” He motions his hand for me to remember.

  “A porcelain doll?” I ask.

  “Yes!”

  “Daniel, she sounds horrible. I used to lock those dolls in my closet at night so they wouldn’t kill me. You sure you weren’t hallucinating?”

  He shakes his head, smiling to himself. “Naw. She was real. I went up to her and asked if she was okay. Then she stared at me for a long while, and I thought maybe she was having some sort of a breakdown. Then she told me I was pretty.”

  I curl my lip. My brother has always had awful taste in girls. It used to be the around-the-dinner-table joke. But this one might be in a category all her own. Obviously someone was kicking her out of the room. She has baggage. “And you responded by . . . ?”

  “I kissed her,” he says, like it’s the only logical response. “I don’t get called pretty every day, Audrey.”

  Now I laugh. “Oh, please. You were voted Best Looking in the yearbook. How much more validation do you need?”

  “I’m needy.”

  I slip on my sandals and grab my purse from inside my backpack. I didn’t pack much to go to my grandmother’s. One duffel bag and one backpack. My entire life could fit in an overhead compartment. Daniel jumps up from the bed, intent on finishing his story.

  “So we kissed, and her skin was ice cold. I asked her if she wanted my hoodie.”

  “Gross, the dirty one?”

  He shrugs and holds open the door for me. “She didn’t take it. She said she had a shawl in her room.” The door slams behind us, rattling the frame. Daniel and I both glance down the hall at the other rooms, the silence so ominous it automatically makes my shoulders tense. “Uh . . .” Daniel pauses, seeming to sense the same thing, and then continues. “And then she took my hand and led me through the halls. God, it felt like we walked for hours.”

  When we get to the elevator, Daniel reaches past me to push the button a bunch of times. Although his stories are rarely this bizarre, the last few months there’d been a rush of desperate girls. Ones who needed him, when really he was the one in need.

  “Then where’d you go?” I ask. The elevator doors open and we step inside. Daniel pushes the lobby button, and I glance in the mirror and smooth down the flyaway strands of hair from my part. I should have grabbed a ponytail holder. What if I bump into Elias?

  “We didn’t go anywhere,” Daniel says, leaning against the shiny gold railing. “That’s the thing—we just walked the hallways all night.”

  “Morning,” I correct, and then apologize when he gives me the Don’t be a know-it-all look.

  “Then we were at her door and she asked if I would come in.”

  “Stop there,” I warn, holding up my finger. I’m grateful when the elevator doors open to the lobby. There are guests milling about, chatting and alive. The creepiness of the thirteenth floor fades, and I’m once again amazed by the beauty of the Hotel Ruby. Daniel and I start toward the busy restaurant, and Daniel waves when he sees our father already waiting at a table.

  “Relax,” my brother tells me when we take our seats next to my father. “Nothing happened. I know how to play hard to get.”

  I laugh, and my father raises his eyebrows. “Do I want to know about this conversation?” he asks. I turn to him, shocked by how awake he sounds. The dark circles that have become constants since my mother’s death have faded.

  “Daniel met a girl,” I say, gauging his reaction. Mostly to see if my father will just brush us off like usual. Hum a noncommittal reply.

  “Surprising,” he responds sarcastically, and then smiles. It just about knocks me off my chair. Daniel and I exchange a glance, and then we both turn back to our father to make sure we aren’t imagining this. He’s . . . Dad. “What’s her name?” he asks.

  Daniel’s eyes light up like a little kid, and it breaks my heart how much he wants our father’s attention. “Catherine,” my brother says. “I didn’t catch her last name.”

  My stomach clenches. “Catherine?” I repeat. Daniel nods and then begins to reshare the story with our father. I take a sip from the glass of water on the table, knowing exactly who he’s talking about. She is the girl who came up to Elias. She was rude and threatening, and Elias called her a psychopath.

  So of course my brother had to go
and hook up with her.

  I have two options, really. I can tell Daniel she sucks and to stay away, or I can keep my mouth shut. What would my mother do? I think back to the bits of conversations she and Daniel shared. She’d make a joke, but in her jokes would be some truth. Some hidden advice that my brother swallowed down because it came with a spoonful of sugar. Then again, we’re leaving today. It probably doesn’t matter.

  “Tell Dad the part where she looks like a killer porcelain doll,” I say, making my brother laugh. He doesn’t realize that I mean it kind of literally. Daniel continues the story, sparing us none of the details, including the fact that her hair smelled like peaches. I’m thankfully distracted when the server comes up to take our food order.

  “I ordered you a coffee,” my father says, pointing at the cup in front of me. There’s a sinking feeling as I thank him and turn to the server.

  “Can I have a juice instead?” I ask. “I hate coffee.”

  She smiles, but it doesn’t reach her eyes. My mother told me you can tell if someone’s really smiling if it wrinkles the skin around their eyes. She jots down a note. “May I also recommend the ham,” she says, opening a menu to point to it.

  I crinkle my nose. “Ham tastes too much like pig.” I smile. “How about pancakes?” I ask, pretending it has nothing to do with my mother. Pretending it’s not an attempt to feel close to her. The server scans the menu like she’s not sure they have them listed, and I glance at her name tag—TANYA.

  “Great choice,” she says, snapping the menu shut. It sends a breeze over my face and hair. “And a side?”

  “You pick,” I say as a peace offering. She stares at me like I’ve said the wrong thing. The hairs on the back of my neck rise, and I begin to fidget with my napkin to distract myself.

  “Fruit, then,” she says, and rounds the table toward Daniel. I’m unsettled, but I watch as she takes his order. Her short, curly black hair is pulled back in a headband, her dark skin complemented by red lipstick. As if sensing me, she glances over and I lower my eyes.

  “You all right?” my father asks, startling me. “You look pale.”

  “Just hungry,” I say, spreading my napkin on my lap. When the server is gone, I pull my chair closer to the table, to my family. “Did you know this place is supposed to be haunted?” I ask.

  Daniel rolls his eyes. “Yeah, Catherine mentioned it last night. I guess it’s how they stay in business. We’re in the middle of nowhere.”

  “I’ve been thinking about it,” our dad says between sips of coffee. “How about we stay another night?”

  “Really?” I ask, a smile spreading across my face. Another night at the Ruby would be a dream. Not only does it postpone my misery, it’ll give me a chance to check out the cute guy from the party.

  “How about two nights?” Daniel asks. “I’ve got plans, Dad. Even I’m not good enough to pull them off in a mere forty-eight hours.”

  “Until Friday, then,” he says, holding up his cup. “We’ll be together until Friday.” Daniel and I exchange another glance, but I don’t let the comment drag me into the possibilities of after. This moment is too good. “Now,” my father continues. “Tell me more about this Catherine girl.”

  Daniel launches into his thrilling plans to woo Catherine, and it’s fifteen minutes later when Tanya sets a plate in front of me. There are scrambled eggs with garnish, and on the side is a steaming slice of ham, bright pink against the white plate. I lift my gaze to Tanya’s and she smiles.

  “Bon appétit,” she whispers, handing me a steak knife. I swallow hard, taking it from her hand. I could argue, cause a scene. But Daniel and my dad are so happy right now. I wouldn’t ruin this moment for anything. Not even for pancakes.

  I saw into the slab of meat, thinking I’ll have to choke it down if I hope to curb my growling stomach. I shove a thick chunk in my mouth, readying my hand on my glass. Tanya turns to grab another plate off the tray, and a flash of red catches my eye. I drop my silverware with a loud clang, terrified. Tanya’s bleeding—on her side she’s got a fist-size splotch of blood. My mouth is full of food as I try to get the words out, pointing my shaking finger in her direction. My father furrows his brow when I get his attention.

  “Is it not to your liking?” Tanya interrupts, sounding concerned. I turn back to her; the blood is gone. Her crisp white shirt is stain-free, pressed and neat. My hands are shaking, and I flick my stare between the missing spot and her face. “Is there something wrong?” she asks, her left eye narrowing slightly as she studies me.

  “No,” I say, putting my palm on my forehead. I run my hand down my cheek and then shake off the nerves. “I must have been imagining things.”

  Tanya bites her long bright-red fingernail like she’s thinking. Then she smiles politely. “It happens to the best of us,” she responds. “Enjoy your breakfast.” Then she leaves to grab the other plates.

  Chapter 3

  After I finish eating, I decide to check out the gift shop I noticed when we checked in. I’m thrilled to be staying an extra two nights as I peruse the shop, which is more like a department store than a hole-in-the-wall filled with an array of tourist tchotchkes. There are key chains and shot glasses, of course, but there are also sets of delicate glasses and plates, linens, and plush robes—everything you’d need to re-create the Hotel Ruby experience at home. Weird, sure. But I’m kind of obsessed with the woven scarf hanging on the coatrack.

  In Arizona I didn’t wear scarves very often, at least not sensible ones. A decorative one here or there with skinny jeans and boots, but this—I pick it up and wrap it around my neck. The fabric is as soft as cashmere, but thick and warm. It’ll be perfect for Elko’s long winters, the cold days I’ll be spending in some converted attic, locked away like my father’s forgotten past.

  The thought of moving to my grandmother’s fills me with dread once again, and I unwind the scarf and loop it on the rack. I walk along a little farther and skim the T-shirts, pausing at a dark red one with THE HOTEL RUBY embroidered on the front. I smile and start to search through the sizes for an extra-large. When I find it, I hold it up, measuring if it’s big enough for Ryan. Lately his arms have gotten massive, and whenever I buy him a large, it—

  Ryan. I drop the shirt onto the pile and take a step back. I’ve been on autopilot, mine and Ryan’s relationship so ingrained in my head at this point that I shop for him without thinking, that I save up my observations and funny stories to share him with later. Even though I have no intention of calling him. For so long I wanted to be free, and now that I am, I don’t know who I want to become. I’m not sure what kind of person I really am.

  I leave the T-shirts and head toward the candies near the register. There’s an older woman behind the counter, reading through an issue of Entertainment Weekly, and a guy restocking bookshelves on the far side of the store. The woman glances up from her magazine and smiles.

  “Hello there, hon,” she says in a faded Southern accent. “Are you looking for something in particular or just browsing?”

  “Just browsing,” I respond. She nods, but sets her magazine aside like I’ve captured her attention instead. She’s a little older, about my mother’s age, polished and put together in an ivory suit with shoulder pads. She looks like she just walked off the pages of a JCPenney catalog. Her smile is wide and genuine, and her perfume reminds me of a grandmother’s—albeit a hip, rich grandmother who wears blazers to work a cash register. “Actually,” I say, hoping for conversation, “I might want to buy something for my ex-boyfriend.”

  She chuckles, and slaps her palm down on the counter, startling me. “Now you’re talking.” She rounds the counter to stop in front of me. I read her name tag: ASTRID. “Thought I’d be spending another afternoon ready to kill myself,” she says. “Have you seen these people?” She waves her arms, gesturing to the Ruby itself. “They may as well be dead, they’re so boring.”

  “Now tell me,” she continues, her dark eyes round with excitement. “Is this an ex
you’re trying to win back, or is the gift more of an apology?”

  “It’s definitely an apology,” I say, embarrassment quieting my voice. Astrid’s smile fades slightly, and she leans in closer.

  “Then I have the perfect thing,” she whispers, and starts walking in the direction I’ve just come from.

  I follow her, doubting I’ll send Ryan any gift I pick up. But since my mother’s death I haven’t had another woman to talk to. Maybe for a moment I can pretend that I do. I blink quickly to avoid the onset of tears, sniffing them away before Astrid stops in front of the decorative jars and chocolate boxes.

  “He’s not really the vanilla-candle sort of guy,” I say, glancing sideways. Astrid reaches past me to grab a white box of chocolates from the shelf and then holds it out. I take the box hesitantly but shake my head. “Ryan won’t eat these,” I tell her. “He’s super anal about his diet. High protein. Low carb. No sugar.” I put the box back on the shelf and am surprised to find Astrid smiling at me.

  “They’re not for him,” she says, grabbing the box again and heading toward the register with it. “They’re for you.”

  “Me?”

  Astrid slides behind the counter and pulls out a paper bag with “The Hotel Ruby” written across it in red. She slips the chocolates inside and then rings them up. I stare at her like she’s crazy. When I don’t take out money to pay her, she leans against the register.

  “You have nothing to apologize for,” she says, in way of explanation. “Just let it go, hon.”

  “Not to sound rude,” I begin, “but I actually do owe him a lot. A hell of a lot more than a box of chocolates.”

  “That may be,” she says, her expression growing serious. “But life has a way of balancing things out. Is he here with you?”

  “No. I doubt I’ll ever see him again.”

  Astrid reaches to put her hand over mine. “See?” She turns back to the register like she’s just made a powerful statement, but I’m a little confused. Forcing a bonding moment with a random cashier probably wasn’t an inspired idea.