Eleven Days of Hell

by Yvonne Bornstein

  Even that was a risk, since the pond was full of hungry leeches. We didn’t care. We’d flick them off of us and keep swimming. We’d also do things like send Marilyn’s puppy, an Australian Blue Heeler named Digit, into the scrub, or bush, to encourage the big red kangaroos to come out and chase us. This isn’t as innocuous as it sounds. Some of those big reds grew to nine feet tall, one swoosh of their tails could kill you instantly. Marilyn and I would have competitions to see who could run the fastest away from them!

  We played ‘Survivor’ before the concept became a TV show, pretending to be Aborigines digging for food. A prize find was a witchity grub. The insides of these big white caterpillars consisted of live, wriggling maggots. For us, that was bon apetit. Other times, Marilyn’s rotten little brother, Ross, would be my foil. He liked to throw rocks at my head for fun, and one time, knocked me unconscious. When I came to, I told Mr Collard. He looked at me for a second, then said, ‘Why isn’t dinner on the table?’

  With that kind of empathy, Mr Collard readily agreed to let me take the wheel of his big Land Rover one day when I was twelve. I did pretty well, maneuvering on a dusty country road like I owned it. Then he said, ‘I’ll take it now.’ I didn’t know how to work the clutch or how hard to hit the brake, and the Rover crashed into a ditch. Miraculously, we weren’t hurt, though I crawled out from the wreckage shaking like a leaf. But I was aglow, too, because I’d driven a car!

  Like me, my mother could hardly sit still. When she was eighteen, she walked into ABC radio studios in Perth, told the station manager she wanted an acting job and demanded an audition on the spot. That won her a job in a radio play for five pounds. Soon after, she was given her own show—an exercise program for pregnant women—and later performed on the stage.

  I was not far behind. At twelve, I had taught myself the guitar, and I could play forty songs and sing them in an unusually deep voice for a female, though my speaking voice is normally high-pitched. If you don’t know me, hearing me sing you’d think I was a black soul singer—something that was fairly radical in Australia. At fourteen, I entered a talent competition on a TV show called Spotlight. I sang and played the Cat Stevens song ‘Sad Lisa’ and took first prize.

  Then, at seventeen, I entered the New Faces competition, a TV talent show which had sent on to stardom Olivia Newton John, among others. The competition played out for over a year, but I got to the final round, where I sang and played ‘The Windmills of Your Mind’ in front of a big, lush orchestra. When I sing, I get very emotional, and when the flute began to play, it was so beautiful that I nearly came to tears. I guess the judges were touched by that because when they voted, I was the one left standing.

  So, now I heard the calling. I would be a big star. With my $500 in prize money and an expenses-paid trip to Sydney, I waited for a big recording contract. Everyone, it seemed, was promising me one. A New Faces judge was a TV personality named Stuart Wagstaff. He had an office in Sydney and invited me up. ‘We’re going to make a star out of you,’ he told me. I loved Stuart, but I’m still waiting for him to come through. After I went back to Perth, nothing happened.

  Not that I didn’t give it my best shot. A few years later, after I had moved to Melbourne, I, at my own expense, cut several demo records, in a kind of funky Motown style. One was a raunchy tune called ‘Emergency Love,’ which was written and produced by a very talented guy named John St. Peters. John arranged a record deal for me, a big deal that would have my records distributed by Polygram.

  Everything was ready to go. We had a release date and plans to record an album. We were all giddy, and one night a bunch of us went to a nightclub called Billboard. One of the men in the party was a record-company executive, who at one point backed me into a dark corner and began rubbing his body against mine. Drunk and slurring his words, he mumbled, ‘Sleep with me, Yvonne.’

  I was completely shocked and disgusted. Recoiling from him as quickly as I could, I said, politely but firmly, ‘No way.’

  He turned vindictive.

  ‘If you don’t, the deal is off.’

  I didn’t know if he was being serious or just issuing an empty threat. I was in business—and I was about life. This was one course in which I was not going to get an ‘A’. I’d been clear, and the guy backed off. I hoped that would be the end of it.

  And it was the end of it—my music career, that is. The next day, I was informed that the deal was indeed off. And in the coming weeks, I found that I had been blacklisted all over Melbourne. I went to every record company I could find looking for a deal, only to be told, ‘We’ve got too much on our plate,’ and other such nonsense.

  So that was the end of my illustrious singing career. It was a pity, too. I have convinced myself I could have gone where no woman had in show business—a white, Australian Aretha Franklin. That dream dashed, I turned to other, more fundamental matters, such as home, family, and going where no woman had gone before in a very different—and very dangerous—business. Most everything I would do from then on, in fact, would require some form of risk-taking and prepare me to survive horrific events.

  4

  MELBOURNE, 1975–1990

  What brought me cross-country to Melbourne wasn’t music. It was love. In the summer of 1975, I was at a barbecue in Perth when I met a man named Avi Samuel, who had lived a fascinating life.

  Born in Libya, he had lived in Israel until 1965, when he immigrated to the east coast of Australia. He was a dark, swarthy, charming man, short of stature but long on the work ethic. Laboring sixteen hours a day, he had amassed a small fortune by carving a niche for himself by doing business with India. On his first business trip there, he had bought stacks of women’s plastic bracelets, which he sold to department stores in Australia. That began an India-Australia commercial lane through which he imported clothing and other goods. He invested the profits wisely in the stock markets.

  At thirty-one, he was twelve years older than I, but I found him smart and suave, with a conniving side that intrigued me—in other words, someone who could nourish me and my own ambitions. Clearly, he found something intriguing about me, because he fell madly in love, and even after he went back home to Melbourne, he began pushing hard for me to visit him. As it happened, I was going to be in Melbourne over the Christmas holiday to visit my oldest sister, Jan, and her husband, Colin, who lived there. So I said yes. A few weeks later, he proposed to me. Sudden as it was, I felt compelled to say yes. I believed I’d fallen madly in love with him. When I went home to Perth, I began packing to move to Melbourne. I also told my parents, whom Avi flew back to Perth to meet.

  As soon as his plane landed, Billie, Wally and I greeted him at the airport. They took one look at him and seemed less than ecstatic, sensing something smarmy and threatening. Later, my mother took me aside.

  ‘Yvonne,’ she said, ‘do not marry this man.’

  Me being me, however, I didn’t listen. I was ambitious and stubborn, and Avi seemed to be a perfect match. Within a month, Jan had organised the wedding, which took place on March 22, 1976, at the Toorak Synagogue. It may have been an omen that at the reception I stood too close to a candelabra and my wedding veil caught fire. For one year, we had a relatively calm and loving relationship. In March 1977, almost one year to the day after we married, came the blessed birth of our daughter, Romy. That’s when the marriage seemed to go up in smoke.

  It was as if Avi grew jealous of that beautiful little girl for taking my attention from him. For him—as for many Israeli men—love wasn’t an emotion; it was a possession, something of finite value that couldn’t be divvied up between people, even for someone of his own blood. Rather than dealing with his pathological sickness, he began to lash out at me—literally. The hands that once held me lovingly became weapons, flailing in anger and frustration.

  One of the most common, yet least understandable of human foibles is women staying in abusive relationships. I was no different. I wanted more than anything else in the world to believe love was alway
s salvageable if it was real, and that Avi wouldn’t have treated me that way unless he loved me. I even found ways to blame myself—maybe I pushed him to it. Because I was so much younger and had my own worldly curiosities, maybe I couldn’t be what he wanted me to be.

  Avi no doubt sensed this when I asked to come with him on his business trips to India. He had always been a lone wolf on those treks, on which he could fancy himself the macho world traveller. And I could see how he could feel that way, because it was an exhilarating experience, one not incidentally fraught with danger, which only seemed to whet my appetite.

  On one trip, for example, we were in a car with Romy and two friends, Vinod and Vina Chopra, on our way to Agra to visit the Taj Mahal. We were cruising through a small town when suddenly a teenage boy came out of nowhere and hurled himself against the front of the car, hoping to be struck—something poor kids in India do routinely. They’re great stuntmen, knowing how to maneuver themselves to get hit lightly and go down in a heap as if they were killed. They then struggle to their feet and limp around crying, and the driver is so relieved he’ll slip the kid money to forget the whole thing.

  We were not about to be scammed, and within minutes, the car was surrounded by about three hundred people from the town, who began banging their fists on the hood and rocking it back and forth like a toy. We were petrified. Vinod, thinking quickly, grabbed a first-aid kit from the glove box and somehow managed to get out of the driver’s side door. He threw the kit into the mob along with approximately a hundred dollars. When the crowd dispersed to pluck up the money, Vinod jumped back in, floored the gas pedal, and drove us safely away.

  Avi and I owed Vinod our lives, though there is a very sad postscript to that story. Some years later, this brave man faced a terrible tragedy when his sixteen-year-old son, Vikram, died of a brain hemorrhage. Vinod and Vina were devastated.

  Avi came to believe my place was strictly in the kitchen and the bedroom. The problem was, he did not ease off his own business trips. Romy and I saw less and less of him. He would be gone for up to eight months out of the year, leaving us alone and usually without enough money for me to buy food or pay the gas and electric bills. I believe he did this intentionally, to keep me in my place. By now, though, the abuse and the absences made it a marriage in name only. I plucked up the courage to take Romy and move to a nearby apartment, which must have seemed like the ultimate insult to Avi.

  Romy was just starting kindergarten around this time, yet he still would leave us high and dry. I had to apply for a separated-wives pension, which, even though was very little money, it kept Romy and me fed. Her paternal grandparents were still in Israel at the time, so I asked my parents for some monetary help, though out of some form of guilt and shame, I could not tell them about the details of why the marriage had fallen apart.

  Through all this, Avi would not let go of me as a possession. He was always trying to get me to come home, albeit in some rather bizarre ways. One night, he came to the apartment, and I swear I thought he was going to kill me. He bashed in the door like a raging bull, and he was delirious. He grabbed me by the throat and hurled me against a wall, nearly choking the life from me. His gaze was fixated on a gold bracelet that his mother had given me, and he tried yanking it off my wrist, not stopping even after my forearm began to bleed from the metal clasp digging into it. Not knowing what to do, I took the bracelet off and threw it out the open door. When he went to look for it, I slammed the door and called the police—not for the first time. And not for the first time, they did nothing. The drama ended when Avi couldn’t find the bracelet in the dark and, in a complete personality turnaround, knocked on the door and said softly, almost like a child, ‘I can’t find it,’ then trailed away into the night.

  At a different time, Avi had organised two men to come to my apartment to practically tear my car to pieces. They put sugar in the petrol tank, smashed the carburetor, and pulled the seats out. I knew Avi was behind it, though I couldn’t prove it. For one thing, he was less than surprised about the incident, and even though I had no car to drive Romy to school for days, he seemed not to care one whit. In his mind, I was convinced; this campaign of violence and threats was all part of a plan that would eventually get me to come back home.

  Finally, he knew there was not going to be a reconciliation. In 1981, he agreed to a divorce and gave me a very stingy settlement—though he made me go through hell to get it out of him. While he was ordered by the court to pay me a lump sum, he pleaded poverty on the matter of child support and was allowed to pay the least possible amount. I had just enough to buy a small house—which I nearly lost when Avi conveniently disappeared to England when I needed the settlement money to close on the house—and some furniture. I would hear little of or from him over the ensuing years. And yet, in October 2002, when I was notified that he had died of cancer, I felt an ache in my soul. Mostly, I ached for Romy, whom I had tried to shield from the bad events of the marriage. She hurts because he’s gone. I hurt because he never knew how much he was hurting her, though, gladly, he did make a genuine effort to get closer to Romy after the divorce and treasured her until the day he died. For that, I was proud of him.

  On my own, I tried to revive the dormant music career that had eluded me at age eighteen. I took a job at Mushroom Records in Melbourne as a personal assistant to the top executive there. I had seamlessly fit back into the music scene and even got up enough nerve to market my demo tapes to people in the music industry. Then, of course, came that deal with Polygram—and the horrific incident at the Billboard Club that put me back in my place again.

  Fortunately, I was able to get to my feet again after my divorce and quickly find another man. And what a man!

  Meeting him was the work of the father of one of Romy’s kindergarten mates, who invited me to his New Year’s Eve party. A few days after, he saw me at school picking up Romy and told me there was a guy at the party who was anxious to go out with me. Reluctantly, I agreed to meet him. At my door appeared a tall, elegantly handsome, bespectacled man carrying red roses. His name was George Jozef, and from his first smile I was hooked on him, and he on me.

  George, whose roots were Romanian Jewish, was young but seasoned at age thirty-four. Like me, he was recovering from a marriage that ended in ashes—his wife had tragically died of cancer at twenty-eight, leaving a four-year-old son and an eighteen-month-old daughter. Unlike me, he was well to do, the owner of Ultimo Menswear, and had six retail shops in and around Melbourne. He lived opulently in a sprawling, three-level, million-dollar home in a molto affluent section of Toorak.

  Things moved fast for us. Within three months, he asked me to marry him. I agreed, and we planned a honeymoon in Hong Kong. We left the date open, and Romy and I moved into his house in April of 1982—though not ‘officially.’ I still kept my apartment. For all intents and purposes, we were a married couple, very much in love.

  Then came the night of May 14.

  It was a Friday, the end of the work week, when George would take all of the money from the safe in his office and bring it home and keep it there until he could get to the bank on Monday. On those nights, I would usually hire a babysitter and drive to the office, and we would go out to dinner. I would also harangue him for carrying all that cash with him, telling him that he should keep it in the safe. He would just laugh. ‘Who’s going to rob me?’ he would say.

  On this Friday night, however, the babysitter couldn’t come over, so I stayed home with George’s kids—by an act of providence, Romy was staying with her father that weekend. And because I was to be at home, I wanted to do something different, something that would surprise him. George always had a rule when it came to the kitchen: It was not to be used in any grand manner for cooking; mainly, it was for show, just to say we had a beautiful kitchen. That night, though, I decided to cook him a sumptuous Shabbas dinner. I had lit the oven when the phone rang. It was George, on his last stop before coming home. He asked me if I needed anything. I smiled to myself,
knowing the surprise that awaited him.

  ‘Only some orange juice,’ I said with a little giggle.

  That was at around 8pm, and he said he would be coming right home. An hour later, I heard the sound of his Mercedes turn into the driveway, as I always could because of the vroom of the turbo engine. After a few minutes, he still hadn’t come through the door. I thought he may have stopped at the bottom of the driveway to check the mailbox. I was then jolted by the sound of a loud boom.

  It was as if somebody had thrown bricks at the front door. Instinctively, I panicked. I was on the top floor, in our bedroom, and I ran to the window overlooking the driveway. I could see right down to the garage. The Mercedes was parked just outside of it, next to my car. The interior light was on. The driver’s door was open. Nobody was inside.

  I knew in my gut that something bad had happened, but what I didn’t know. Just then, my eyes caught sight of three figures sprinting down the driveway and out into the well-lit street.

  I felt my feet carrying me down the stairs and out through the back door to the driveway. As soon as I hit the asphalt, I saw George crumpled on the ground. He was lying in a gathering pool of blood that was streaming down the driveway. His body was full of holes. He was lifeless. His eyes stared vacantly ahead.

  I dropped to my knees and began to shake him. ‘George! George!’ I wailed, my words echoing in the still night.

  Hearing and feeling nothing, I somehow managed to get to my feet and ran back upstairs, where I dialed the police and blurted out to an operator what had happened. She told me not to go back downstairs in case someone was watching for me, so I cowered in the corner of the bedroom until I heard police sirens outside and fists pounding on the door with voices saying they were cops. I shakily went downstairs to let them in, whereupon officers began roaming through the house. Without one word of comfort, plainclothes detectives began questioning me.