Memory's Wake Omnibus: The Complete Illustrated YA Fantasy Series

by Selina Fenech

  “I don’t know. Even if we are safe, any time we spend here lessens our chances to rescue Alward. Shouldn’t we travel on to the Wizards’ Council right away?” Eloryn tried to keep her voice steady.

  Memory looked at her with an exaggerated frown. “But I just warmed up again! Also, no clothes.”

  “At least one night, Princess, so that we can recover and make better time travelling tomorrow,” Roen said.

  “It’ll be OK.” Memory bumped her shoulder against Eloryn’s and wiped the last of the soup from her bowl with a finger. Eloryn looked down into hers and realized she hadn’t even touched it. She put it back on the table. She didn’t have the stomach for it. Memory grabbed the abandoned bowl and kept eating.

  “If you think it’s best, then we’ll stay,” Eloryn said.

  Roen nodded grimly. He lifted the flagon and poured three cupfuls. “Here, I thought there might be some nerves that would need calming tonight.”

  “Understatement,” said Memory, reaching for a cup.

  “You know, sometimes what you say makes barely any sense. The rest of the time it makes none at all.” Roen half smiled and tipped his cup to her.

  Eloryn took a sip, her stomach still uneasy, and coughed when the first mouthful went down. “What is this?”

  “What it is, is just what we need,” Memory wheezed and passed her cup back for more. “Come on Lory, don’t pretend you’ve got no worries to drink away.”

  Roen raised an eyebrow, tilting the flagon to her to see if she accepted Memory’s challenge.

  Between Roen, whom she believed knew a good many worldly things, and Memory, who couldn’t remember anything of the world, Eloryn wondered how, with all she’d learned, she always felt the one who knew the least. She downed the charring liquid and held out her empty cup with a restrained grimace.

  Roen gave her a respectful nod, and poured more for them both.

  Even the first cupful had Eloryn feeling dull and distracted. She wanted to ask why Roen wasn’t finishing his, as he poured for them again, and then again. But she couldn’t do it. Memory could have; she’d say anything, and frequently did. She was currently exchanging scar stories with Roen. Roen seemed to have some interesting anecdotes about his. They wafted in and out to her while the alcohol took effect. All of Memory’s sounded the same-

  “Check this one out, how do you reckon I got that?” Memory leaned forward, pulling her slip down and showing Roen right down the front of her chest. Eloryn turned away in shock.

  Roen blew a low whistle, shook his head and chuckled. He leaned in conspiratorially to Memory. “A flagon to share, two girls in naught but shifts and sheets… any other night and this would have been interesting indeed.”

  Eloryn barely heard him, but even his tone made her blush pink. She wished she wasn’t so prone to that, that she could keep her face under better control. She didn’t feel she could control anything just now. Time seemed to be skipping forward in small jumps. Roen talked on with Memory but Eloryn kept catching him look toward her, small looks, so small she probably imagined them. She stared as the fire consumed logs greedily. Her mind drifted around, exploring dark places where she imagined Alward was held, hurt, or worse. Had he been saved? Was he now looking for her? Had he been tortured? Did he even still live? Was it all really her fault? She’d never meant to use her magic in front of the children, but she couldn’t let them be hurt. Images jolted into her head of the heavy shelf toppling forward, books spinning and re-arranging themselves in mid-air, the wide eyed awe from the children caught underneath, unharmed in a protective space built by ancient tomes. Lucky chance, she had told her young students, back to work and don’t speak of it again. She should have told Alward what happened, but was too scared of disappointing him. Barely more than a week later, the hunters came for them. A feeling of sickness blocked her throat.

  Roen’s laughter drew her attention. “Just devilish, you are!”

  A cheeky smile on Memory’s face disappeared. Her mouth clamped shut, bottom jaw sticking out. “I need some air,” she said and wobbled for the door.

  “You can’t go out, someone may see you,” Roen warned.

  “What’s wrong?” Eloryn stood up.

  Memory waved limp-wristed at them. “I just, I… bah. My trains of thought are leaving the station too quickly,” she slurred and pushed her way outside.

  Eloryn took a step after her, but found herself going down instead of forwards. The world slipped around inside her skull. She awaited the ground’s impact with numb clarity, but instead felt the hold of Roen’s arms around her, lifting her back to her feet. Her sheet slipped down off her shoulders, and he reached to pull it back up. Her bare skin ached pleasantly where he brushed it. She’d never had this much to drink before, and wondered if it always had this effect.

  “Careful there,” Roen said. She continued to sway and he held her steady, just the barest space between them. He smelled of cloves and mossy stones, a scent that intoxicated her as much as the alcohol. She felt queasy with guilt. What had she been thinking about before? She couldn’t remember.

  “You’ve had well enough to drink, delicate thing you are. Time to rest. I need to bring Mem back in,” Roen said, something worrying his expression.

  “You do not enjoy my company.” The words escaped Eloryn’s mouth before she could make the distinction between speech and thought.

  “That’s not true.” Roen’s voice was gruff, as though caught off guard and choking out a lie. It hurt Eloryn more than logic could account for.

  “I know I’m a cause of trouble for you. Is this why you don’t like me? I see how you can be such easy friends with Memory, and it seems to me you enjoy the company of women, and yet I cannot even bring a smile to you.” Eloryn’s heart beat too hard, pushing all her blood up into her face. She dropped her head and let her hair fall to hide the shameful color.

  Roen inhaled deeply. Eloryn didn’t want to look, sure he’d be frowning at her again. One of his hands dropped to the side and curled into a tight fist. She felt every muscle in his other hand tense where it held her steady.

  “I’m sorry if I’ve made you think that. All I can say to explain my behavior is that there are times when I feel no great value in myself. It is… easy for me to be with women, and take comfort in the value they have of me. Memory, she is special, I must admit. But you, El,” he breathed. The way he said her name made her shiver. “You are a princess.”

  Eloryn shook her head, confusion coming out in words. “I am hardly a princess. I’ve grown up in a small house by woods and never known a throne or kingdom, and that kingdom which was to be mine is not, even if I had want-”

  Roen gently interrupted her rambling. “It’s no matter. You are everything a princess should be: kind, clever, brave, beautiful. If I behave differently for you, it’s only because whatever I was, whatever I am, I need to be better for you.”

  Eloryn lost her ability to breathe. A racing dizziness overwhelmed her. Her head bowed, she stared at his clenched fist. She wanted to say something in return, but had no words left in her. Gently, she unwrapped his hand and held it with shaking fingers, lifting her head to give him a timid smile. Roen’s eyes met hers, frowning and questioning. His mouth was set and troubled and a soft noise like a moan escaped from his throat.

  Then the small distance between them vanished and he kissed her. His mouth closed around her bottom lip, firm and soft in the same moment. Her heart rushed and her eyes snapped wide open. Her hand squeezed around his and he kissed her harder. One of his hands slid up her shoulder to the base of her neck, fingers twined into her hair. His other hand broke free of hers and moved behind her waist, pulling her body into his. She brought both hands up and placed them against his flat stomach, some polite voice inside telling her she should push him away. Once there, feeling his smooth muscles beneath the thin silk fabric, she ached to think of the touch breaking. She gasped breathlessly, lips parting, and he pulled her body up toward his with a strength that lifted he
r off her feet.

  Memory sat on the steps of their room, staring out into the endless twisting trees around them. They swayed in her half closed eyes. She tried to remember why she’d gotten angry. Her brain played over recent memories like a faulty video, all slow motion, slurring voices and skipping frames. Devilish, that was it. Why did he have to say something like that? They were all getting along so well, she’d almost forgotten she was probably a spawn of Hell.

  The air was icy, but the alcohol provided enough fuel to keep her warm. Everything smelled of earthy wood smoke. Somewhere inside her she knew there was something she ought to be aware of, frightened of. She ignored the feeling, mentally filing it into her “Everything So Far” folder, and let her eyes glaze over.

  “Don’t try to use him,” a hesitant voice said from nearby.

  Memory turned around so quickly she slipped off the step down to the next with a bump. A dark shape sat hunched on the small roof above the doorway. A flickering sprite hovered around, casting just enough light to show a body covered in animal furs.

  “Ah, he speaks. Doesn’t make much sense though,” Memory slurred.

  No reply. The sprite had vanished and only the shadow of a hunched figure remained. Memory squinted to see if it really was her savage guardian, and shook off a wave of nausea. “Ugh, is this real life?”

  “The dragon.” His voice sounded real, real enough to sound frustrated. “He’s under a man’s control. He can’t do what he wants.”

  “If it catches and kills us, it doesn’t matter to me if it wanted to do it or not,” Memory said. “Were you eavesdropping?”

  The savage’s voice took a hard edge. “It’s a living thing, not a weapon. The men use a flute-”

  “Knew that.”

  “-made from bone of the dragon’s soul mate, that they killed. You have to understand.” The wild man’s voice dropped back to a whisper. “They make him belong to them.”

  “That’s…” Memory drew quiet, the smug smile falling off her face, “really sad.”

  The cold crept into Memory’s skin. She watched the curling mist match the frost on the air that she breathed. With each breath, her frown deepened.

  “Why do you keep helping me?” she asked after a while.

  Nothing, again. He was gone. She stood up quickly, a little too quickly. She felt as if she left her head behind her, too heavy to follow that fast. She could only remember every second thing. Swearing, she fumbled her way back inside, swiftly plummeting into a woozy black sleep.

  The sound of scratching at the door latch froze Roen and Eloryn in place, his nose still pressed against hers and uneven breath brushing over her lips.

  “Pray pardon. It was wrong of me,” Roen said. The frown had never left his face. He backed away from her and turned around as Memory stumbled inside.

  Eloryn’s legs conspired to collapse beneath her. She dropped in slow motion and found herself on the edge of the bed. Eyes closed in a slow blink and she filled her breathless lungs. She shook her head from the alcohol and emotions but could not clear it.

  “Why the hell did I go outside? It’s cold out there. You ‘k Lory?” Memory flopped belly first onto the bed.

  Eloryn put a palm to her forehead, blinking through her shock. “I don’t… don’t know.”

  Memory said something that was muffled by her face in the bed.

  “Sleep well. I’ll see you in the morning, hopefully with good news.” Roen took the flagon and left the room without looking back.

  Eloryn fell onto the bed next to Memory. Her heart beat hard enough to shake her whole body.

  Chapter Sixteen

  His knuckles split as he hit the rough bark of the tree. Leaves above rustled in protest.

  A giggle rang out like the sound of chimes in a soft wind. “My sweet pet, come here, let me make it better for you.”

  “She was drunk,” he growled low.

  Mina appeared behind him. Her fingers stroked around his neck and she spun herself in a pirouette to his front. She bent into his chest with a smile. “Of course she was, blind drunk. Why else do you think I let you prattle on how you did?” Her voice lowered as she spoke, both sultry and cruel.

  Prattle on. Saying even a word to her was the hardest thing he’d done for a long time. He wanted so badly to tell her everything, and when a chance finally came to speak to her without those others around, she was wasted. Absently, he pushed a hand up into Mina’s fiery hair. The corner of his mouth pulled into a mockery of a smile. Never before had he been so aware of how little control he had over his own movements when close to Mina. Her hair felt like warm water between his fingers, and he bent his face toward hers.

  A sharp thump-click sounded through the icy silent night, and he leant back into the shadow of a tree, pulling Mina in closer to him. She nuzzled into his shoulder and he turned to watch the thief boy slinking out of the room at the inn. Roen brought a large flagon up just away from his lips and held it there for a few moments as though stopped in time, then tossed it angrily aside. Clear liquid spilled through the air and fell like rain, and the bottle thumped into nearby bushes.

  The thief looked carefully around, and slipped into the shadows himself.

  Standing next to Mina, the savage breathed deep through his nose. “He smells of her.” Even from this far away, he could smell him, and her on him. And even in the dark, as well as the thief moved, it was easy to see where he went. His time spent with Mina and the other fae had its benefits. He was no longer what he once was, no longer weak.

  “Enough about Her!” Mina’s eyes glittered like sparking flint and her nails dug into his chest. Like the sun passing out from behind a cloud, her face shone with a smile again, but her nails remained clawed in his skin. “My sweet little boy. Who saved you when you were too lost and hungry to survive?”

  “You did,” he said, dropping his forehead onto hers.

  “Who has shown you wonders greater than you could have ever imagined?”

  He knew these words, knew the answers he had to give, but they hurt now, as they came through his mouth, more than they ever had before. “You.”

  “Who is the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?”

  “You.”

  “Who do you love above all else, even your short mortal life?”

  He looked across to the inn. The window to the small back room was now dark, and the thief boy worked his way into someone else’s. Through the chilled night air, the familiar scent of cheap packet hair dye, blood and crushed flowers drifted to him. She still smelled just the way he remembered, the way she did back before they both came to this world. He breathed the fragrance deeply, holding it in his chest. His lips pressed hard against Mina’s forehead and when he whispered they moved against her skin.

  “You.”

  “You took your time. I started to think you had perished in the waters after all.”

  “I was just dreaming about this weird guy on a roof, telling me things about soul mates or music or something. It’s all fuzzed up and skippy.” Memory talked to herself. She was nothingness, floating in a thick, comforting dark. Shapes were forming all around. A horse skeleton of rusted metal and chains swam past. Sprites fizzled like fireworks. Streams of golden light flowed in the distance.

  “Sometimes we confuse dream for waking, and real for dream.” The voice came from everywhere and nowhere, from inside herself, deep, sad and forceful.

  “Am I asleep now, or awake?” Memory grew a hand, followed by the rest of her body, and reached out to pull a silk tasseled cord. It caused a ribbon of silver to fall which became a road paved in glass. She walked along it.

  “You’ve only just begun dreaming, but I am real. We share this space as we did the dream yesterday morning. I mistook it as only a dream myself until I met you while waking.” A tall figure strode out from amongst the condensing shapes.

  “You?” Memory said, marching onwards. “I don’t want you here.”

  “You have no choice. I was told we would re
main connected, by time and space forever, but never thought I’d see you again for it to matter.” Thayl drew a black velvet and ebony throne from the shadows and sat in front of Memory. He shimmered, his eyes less tired than in the real world, but still haunted. “Don’t fret. I’m not here to harm you, and don’t know if I could here, regardless. This is your mind, not mine.”

  She kept walking away from him but he remained right beside her in his throne. “That chair isn’t mine.”

  “Well, it is somewhat sparsely furnished here.” Thayl gestured to the black. “Where are you going?”

  Memory stopped on the path. “It’s all empty.”

  Thayl tilted his head toward a grey alleyway in the distance.

  “I don’t want to go there.”

  “Why?” His voice teased.

  “Don’t remember.” Glass cobblestones rearranged under her motionless feet. They lifted and flew, a flock of invisible squares floating around her.

  “You don’t remember anything.”

  “I remember you said I was a devil.”

  “My mistake. Forgive that I startled you. I was simply shocked to see you after the dream we shared. I mistook you to have come alive from my nightmare. That is all. I think it must have scared you too.”

  “I’m not a devil?” She couldn’t help sounding hopeful.

  “Of course not. That first dream we shared was… just a mix of strange visions.”

  “But...” Your hand, she thought.

  Thayl cut her off. “But I do know what is real. I even know who you really are and where you are from.”

  Memory floated, her path entirely gone from beneath her. Her stomach dropped away but she didn’t fall.