“I feel such a fool Robbie and I don’t know why I did that but it was lucky that you came along when you did. You’re my hero you know. Why are you here anyway?” It hadn’t occurred to me that she had just appeared at the right moment.
“Well I wanted to see you to thank you in person. It was a little strange at the airport, I could feel the uneasy atmosphere between everyone and I know that you have been a big help to Kate and to me as well, you’re my hero too.”
“Thank you; I appreciate your acknowledgment on my new super skills. I’ve had a lot of fun with Kate and I hope that I can continue to do so, if that’s alright with you?” She was now one of my many new best friends and I didn’t want to lose that.
My eagerness to please Robbie was itching to explode but I knew that I had to play the role of the martyr and be patient with her and I could see that she wanted to say more to me but something was preventing her.
“Sarah, Kiera is just a friend I want you to know that. I’ve known her since I was five years old and she has been a rock to me when I’ve needed stability in my life; she just needed a holiday and kind of invited herself along. Her role in my life is purely innocent.” Her eyes were like watery pools of blue Safire and I wanted to kiss her full red lips, as in my mind they would taste of the finest sensual essence I could ever wish to experience.
“Robbie I’ve missed you so much!” I blurted out then slapped my hand over my mouth to stop any more words from foolishly leaving my lips.
“I’ve missed you too Sarah, and if I’ve hurt you, well I just want to say I’m sorry. I’m sorry for completely misjudging you and assuming that you were just like all the others in my past.”
I could feel myself longing to hold her, to put everything on the line and to hell with the consequences. “Oh Robbie I’ve been a lost cause without you. I’m not sure who I am anymore.”
“You’ll be fine Sarah; you’ve changed a lot in the past few months. My girl has grown up.” She said as she stroked my hair away from my cheek.
“And I’m sorry about your mother; I never really got a chance to say anything to you earlier.”
She patted my knee and gave me a sympathetic look but I could see sadness enveloping her as the thought of losing her mother was beginning to sink in.
“My mother was more like a friend to me, she was great and I miss her tremendously. My brother and sister can’t wait to get their hands on the money from the sale of the house. I despise them so much for that and they were the reason for my early return.”
She began to explain to me the history of her family background and how her brother and sister turned their backs on her when she came out. And that her mother accepted her lifestyle and even had in depth conversations about her current girlfriends. They had maintained a close relationship as mother and daughter and Robbie had always listened to her advice even if she didn’t use it.
We had a light hearted conversation about when I introduced Charlie to my parents at Christmas and how worried I was about telling them and how relieved I was to find that they too accepted it quite easily. It was getting extremely late and my tiredness began to take its toll on my body. I yawned several times during our conversation trying hard to keep it from happening.
“I’m sorry Robbie that’s so rude of me; it’s been a long day.”
“Sure I had better make a move Kiera will be wondering where I’ve got to.” She got up to leave but I felt the need to stop her in her tracks.
“Why don’t you stay?” I shrilled like an excited teenager. “It’s late and not safe to be out on your own at this time of night.”
“No Sarah I couldn’t, I have to get back.” She was determined to leave but I wanted more of her.
“Please Robbie, it’s so lonely being me these days, your company would be so refreshing. Please, I’m begging you.” I gave her a sad puppy expression so that she would feel sorry for me. That seemed to do the trick quite nicely. Not that I was being sneaky or anything.
“Oh Sarah what is it about you that I can’t say no to.” I knew from the way that she smiled that she was glad to be staying over.
The tiredness that had empowered me suddenly left leaving me with a surge of energy so I jumped up immediately and grabbed two beers from the fridge and plonked them down in front of her on the coffee table.
“I’ll be back in just a sec. Just gonna get changed into something more comfortable.”
Practically running to the bedroom I chose to put on a long tee shirt that just covered my arse and also revealed my nipples allowing them to protrude and a black lacy thong finished off the sexy look I was going for. I was only gone momentarily and quick stepped it back to join her on the sofa.
“Are you enjoying your beer? I have others if you’re not.” I felt awkward at not knowing what to say to her and found myself twiddling my hair into ringlets as my nerves were beginning to take over. “Would you like crisps? Or I have crackers and cheese.” Or me I thought? Oh god crisps, crackers, cheese, what was I thinking? Quick think of something intelligent to say, I’m gonna bore her to death and she’ll soon be reminded of why she left me.
“So I have a feeling that Kiera doesn’t like me, but that’s ok she doesn’t really know me, not like you and Kate do.”
“I don’t think it’s like that Sarah, she’s just looking out for me, but I’ll have a word with her if she’s making you feel uncomfortable. I would like us all to be friends. She really has no need to have a problem with you, and everything I told her about you was all positive. I haven’t bad mouthed you at all I promise.” I could see her glancing at my body every now and again and I knew that I was starting to win her over.
“Are we just friends Robbie?” I asked as I snuggled my head into her shoulder.
“Yes Sarah we are.” She wrapped her arm around me sending a tingle of arousal right through my body.
I closed my eyes and lightly mouthed the words, I love you, not knowing whether she heard me but at least my feelings were out there now. We sipped our beers as we reacquainted with each other until 3am. That was when I suggested that we carry on our conversation in my bed. Just in case we should happen to fall asleep I pointed out.
We lay on top of the duvet facing each other and holding hands. I watched her eyes with intense fascination as my mind raced with thoughts of; touch me, kiss me now.
She had removed most of her clothing apart from a tee shirt and a pair of her favourite boxer shorts and I was desperate to feel her rippling muscles that were just calling out for my hands to wonder over them. The temptation was teasing me to the point of torture and I had to know how she felt about me.
I stroked my hand down her arm and put the words out there. “Robbie, how do you feel about me?”
“I’m very fond of you and I think you’re a wonderful person. You were kind enough to put your life on hold to help out with Kate at such short notice and I really appreciate that.”
I had expected a more intimate response than that but then my reality check kicked in and made me realise that I wasn’t going to get the information that I wanted to hear. Not yet anyway.
The daylight started to seep through the gap in the curtains and our tiredness took its toll on us. We fell asleep around 5.30 am and my dreams were sweet as I slept peacefully into the morning.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN: PINK HEARTS AND A NEW MAKEOVER
It turned out that I had slept heavily until noon, so heavily that I hadn’t heard Robbie get up and leave. She had written me a short note and put it on my pillow for me to find when I awoke. The note read: “Thanks for a relaxed evening. Sorry I had to leave before you woke up and I promise that we will have an exciting night together soon just the two of us. Keep wearing that beautiful smile that I love. Robbie X.”
My spirits were lifted as I felt a glimmer of hope that there might possibly be something between us after all. My tangled feelings of lust and love had grown stronger than ever and I just prayed that she felt the same way towards me. I had to share
my exciting news with Jessica so I called her immediately.
“Hi it’s me, your local idiot.”
“Hey babe what’s up?” She replied, not dismissing my claim to stupidity.
“Well I thought I should tell you that I got stuck on a swing last night and my hair got tangled. This all happened after you guys dropped me off.”
“What do you mean? I mean how did you? I mean, I don’t know what I mean.” She stammered her words whilst still trying to process how this could have happened.
“Well I went into the neighbour’s garden and my hair got caught up in the ropes as I spun round in a circle, you know, the sort of thing we did as kids. But that’s not the end of it. Guess who came to my rescue?” I knew she wouldn’t be able to guess she was never any good at that game.
“Oh my god who was it?” She squealed in excitement.
“Robbie! She heard my cries of help. She was on her way over to see me, so that she could talk to me alone to thank me properly. Jessica she ended up staying the night! I think there might be a chance for us to reconcile after all.” I could feel the joy returning back into my life just at the mere prospect that there might be a possibility she would want me once again.
“So you two are back on then. Did you get intimate, was it better than before? Come on give me some details.” She was just as excited as I was at my news.
I wished that I had more to tell her but the time wasn’t right yet. “Not quite yet, but I don’t think it will be long before we are. Oh god Jessica I can’t believe she’s back.” I could hear Charlie talking in the background and I asked Jessica how things were with the two of them.
“Oh Sarah she’s wonderful. She also spent the night but we did more than just sleep if you know what I mean.” I knew exactly what she was saying the dirty cow.
“So you two fucked?” Maybe pregnancy did have its advantages after all.
“Oh yeah, but she was so gentle and caring about my needs. At first I was so conscious of my bump but she put me right at ease and made me feel that I was special. Are you ok hearing this? I don’t want to upset you if you still have any feelings for her.”
“God no, we’re just good mates now. You’re the one I have concerns for and you have a bump already?”
She whispered into the phone that she came twice within minutes and that no one had ever done that to her before, not even Jen possessed the powers that be to do that. Sarah if this is what love and passion is all about then I want this forever.” Her voice sounded full of vibrant sparkle as she filled me in with the intimate details of her love making, and I had a feeling that Charlie was going to be faithful with Jessica as she wouldn’t be the sort of person to crap all over a pregnant woman’s emotions.
“I’m pleased for you both, but you do have to get things sorted out with Jake. He is an unpredictable sleazebag, but as the father of your child he will have legal rights. Be careful Jessica, that’s all I’m saying.” I had a nagging feeling that he wasn’t going to leave as gracefully as she was hoping for and that she was going to be in for quite a bumpy ride.
“I do understand where you’re coming from Sarah, and I agree with you, he is scum, that’s why I don’t want him in my life any more, or the baby’s for that matter.” Yep definitely not seeing this from the point of reality is she.
“Ok well the way I see it is that you don’t have to have any dealings with him until the baby is born, so you do have time to set down some ground rules. Maybe you should handle everything through a solicitor and keep your stress levels down.”
“I know babe, and if Charlie has her way I’ll be getting plenty of rest. Anyway let’s get back to you and Robbie in the house of love.” I liked the sound of that.
I explained about the note and that I was ecstatically happy that things had happened between us emotionally, and how I looked forward to our next rendezvous.
“Well girl I think that might be an excuse for us to go girlie shopping. Get your arse over here; I’m sure Charlie can give you some good advice on what would turn Robbie’s attention once and for all.” That was the first sensible thing she had said today.
“Ok then I’d like that. I’ll be over shortly. Bye.” Maybe it was time to improve my image although I found it hard to improve on perfection once perfection had been reached, and that was exactly what I was looking at in the mirror.
We ended up going into several stores including my own, where I tried on different types of jeans and skirts. Charlie advised me on a hot pair of jeans with leather pockets on the back. They gave my ass a heart shape appearance, they were a definite purchase. I matched them up with a sleeveless black tee shirt that showed my arms off well, my workouts had paid off. A leather belt with a large pewter buckle and an embossed cross gave a masculine look to the set up, but still that touch of femininity.
“Now all you need are a great pair of boots and you’re done.” Jessica implied as she spun me around to check that every curve was being shown to its fullest potential.
Charlie knew the exact place to go as boots were her forte. My look was complete and my part in the dyke world was becoming clearer as the meaning of my journey began to make more sense.
As we walked out of the store Jessica made a suggestion that I would look good with a tattoo and that there was a tattooist just across the street. I was a big chicken when it came to needles so it was a great surprise to find myself saying yes to the idea. As we entered the huge glass doorway that span the entire front of the store we were greeted by a young girl with long black hair tied up in a pony tail allowing her neck and shoulders to show colourful visions of cherry blossoms and orchids. She presented us with an album full of different pictures and portraits but I wanted simplicity with meaning. So I chose to go with a pink heart to go on the back of my neck. It meant to me that I had been kissed there by a beautiful woman and I wanted the memory of it to stay with me forever.
The tattoo artist understood how nervous I was so he put on a DVD for us all to watch whilst he got on with his artwork. The film began and then I felt this tremendous surge of scratching at my skin which immediately threw me into a major sweat fest. What seemed like an eternity lasted for twenty minutes before the announcement; “I’m done, would you like to take a look?” He had used a deep pink ink that really showed well against my skin tone and as simple as it was I felt like I had just had the most amazing tattoo that anybody could ever have chosen.
I had to wear a patch over it for a few hours but once I was able to show it off I felt a little special having done something so different to myself.
We went back to Charlie’s place and I gained the approval from Jez and Jules and at the suggestion that my hair needed a makeover they were on the case, and before I knew it I had blonde highlights and burgundy lowlights on my under layers.
“Oh girl she had better love this look.” Jessica announced proudly as she flicked and played around with my locks.
Charlie held my hand and said that any woman would be a fool not to fall for me. My new look was impressive and I now had a powerful image with a touch of innocence. I loved everything about my new makeover.
We celebrated my new sensational style by going clubbing and Charlie was right; I pulled several times that night. I was very flattered by the whole idea of being every woman’s fantasy, but my goal was set and I wasn’t about to fuck up any more. My confidence had been re-established and the hunt was on, and I had become the hunter.
Jessica had arranged that we would go round to Kate’s in the morning, giving me the excuse to show off my fit assets, so I kept my drinking to a minimal. Then we all danced the night away and it felt strange to stay sober when the others were getting completely wrecked around me.
The next morning couldn’t have come soon enough; I put the straighteners through my hair creating a glossy sexy look and slipped into my new gear. My make up was kept to a light natural look giving me a fresh youthful glow.
We arrived at Kate’s in no time and standing outside h
er door Jessica reassured me on how hot I looked. “Now Sarah, keep your composure and make sure you calm down a little with that smile. You don’t want to scare the woman off do you?” She giggled.
“Oh god I’m making a twat out of myself before I even see her. Jessica I’m acting like an idiot, let’s go before I make a huge mistake.” This was not a good time to have a meltdown; again I found myself making stupid decisions that could have reverse consequences.
“It’s ok Sarah, just focus, now breathe slowly and brace yourself.” She began to breathe slowly herself showing me that I too should join in.
At that comment she knocked on the door and rang the bell at the same time, making sure our arrival was heard by all.
I smoothed my shirt down over the top of my jeans and when I looked up expecting to be greeted by a friendly host we found ourselves being faced by no other than bloody Kiera. I had temporarily forgotten about this nemesis.
She stood there, put her hand to her mouth and let out a loud laugh before making a spiteful comment. “What the hell have you done to yourself? You look so left behind in the 90’s.”
I could have slapped her right there. Who the fuck did she think she was.
“Hi Kiera we’ve come to see Kate.” Jessica politely informed her.
“Yes come in quickly, I don’t want you embarrassing me anymore in front of the neighbours. Come on hurry.” Bitch was too good of a word for her right now.
My fists were clenched as I barged past her in the hallway, just one punch from me and she would have been out for a week, but that wasn’t on the agenda, not today anyway but definitely on my; I owe you list.
“Is that you Sarah?” I heard Kate call from the lounge.
“Yes Kate, I’m here with Jessica.”
Upon entering the lounge I saw Kate sitting on the sofa with Robbie at her side. They were entering data onto her laptop and it seemed that they were quite grateful for the interruption as they hadn’t taken a break from it all morning.
“Well hello there ladies.” Kate said with an inviting smile on her face.
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