Mad About You: A Box Set

by Pamela Ann

  “I couldn’t wait to come home. I had to have you, or I would’ve gone out of my mind,” he said as he slowly pushed in his half-mast length that was still lodged inside of my wet channel.

  His member was regaining its strength as it gradually grew inside of me. And when he took me a second time, though he was still rough, there was tenderness to his kiss and the way those eyes held me.

  When I emerged from my deep slumber with an ache between my legs, there was no sign of him, but there was an indention from his head on the pillow, telling me he had slept with me until he’d had to go to school.

  With his school, work, and social activities, did he even have time to study? I mean, I knew he’d had a perfect GPA in high school, but college was a whole different league.

  For the first time in a long time, I sported an easy smile, as if the sun were shining down on me, as if my soul were finally happy. Everything felt great, and I rode the high all day long … up until I realized I was home alone, went to bed alone, and woke up the next morning with no Drew in sight.

  Jackson came in and out of the apartment, but nothing from Drew. Out of my mind with worry, I tried to call him, but it went directly to voicemail. I sent a message, asking him to contact me, but by Friday, the sound of crickets had grown louder.

  It was in the wee hours of Sunday when I got a response from him, extinguishing our one-week affair in two sentences.

  Thank you for granting me the most amazing time, even though it was short-lived. You’re the greatest anguish I’ll forever bear.

  He had to end it sooner or later. I hadn’t been fooled into thinking that it could last forever. However, I had hoped he would change his mind.

  You’re the greatest anguish I’ll forever bear. My heart constricted because he was mine.

  “I know,” I whispered out loud, “that maybe someday … You’ll come to your senses.” But that wasn’t going to be anytime soon; that much was obvious.

  Weightless, that was the word that fully described how I felt after learning he could easily dispense of me through a simple message. He could have at least done it through a civilized conversation! I wouldn’t have objected. We could have at least ended the affair with some form of respect.

  I was more pissed than I cared to acknowledge. After seeking out Manolo and Chuey for some good company and drinks, though, I realized he was a coward. And no matter what excuse he could come up with, I wouldn’t ever forget how he had unfairly treated me.

  Manolo, Chuey, and his lover Jordy were great distractions. They knew I was out of sorts. What I cherished about them was that they didn’t pressure me to divulge anything, which made it easier to drink and dance the night away. Besides, I had gone over it all once way back when I had first met them. There was no need for me to keep harping on the same old story.

  This was aptly called growing pains. I kept telling myself that, a year from now, I would be dreaming and dealing with other things, and this painful memory would remain in the past. We all had one, after all. Each heartbreak, each relationship, shaped each and every person, molding us into a unique individual.

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  Four Jack and Cokes, two body shots, a dirty martini, and an Irish car bomb later, I had a perfectly massive, pounding headache the next morning. I had never drunk so much in my life, and the thought of seeing sunlight made me want to vomit.

  And just as I was about to doze off, my phone rang, torturing me.

  “What do you want?” I growled into the phone without checking the caller I.D.

  “Who pissed you off, Red? Give me the name and address, and I’ll take care of it for you,” Cori’s teasing voice broke into my brain fog.

  Even though half of my face was shoved into a pillow, a grin slowly made its way onto my lips. “Hey, you,” I managed to say. “No one pissed me off.” Not in that sense. “It’s just a hangover. Nothing life threatening.”

  Our conversation flowed without any problems. If he was disappointed that I hadn’t joined him in California, he didn’t mention it. Consequently, when he offered to bring me food, reasoning that it was already past lunchtime, I gratefully obliged him.

  It took Cori about an hour to get to the apartment, and since it was Monday, no one was home except me.

  For a brief moment, I felt a twinge of guilt for inviting a male guest into our home, but after reminding myself how callously I had been dispensed by Drew, that feeling instantly went away.

  Luckily, Cori didn’t mind seeing me in my boy shorts and the loose shirt I had slept in while my eyes still had last night’s hint of makeup because I was too plastered to properly wipe it all away.

  “What’d ya got there?” My eyes were glued to the white paper bag in his hand, smelling of grease, melted cheese, and juicy meat.

  “Mouthwatering goodness, it looks like,” he muttered with that cheeky look on his face. “Here, Red. Eat your heart out.” He handed me the bag, and I gratefully snatched it, running into my bedroom, sitting on my bed, and beginning to dig in.

  “This is the sexiest thing I have ever seen,” I heard Cori somewhere while minding my own business, picking at the fries then placing them on top of the burger before biting into it like no one’s business.

  A low, satisfying moan came up my throat as the flavor unfurled on my tongue, sending my senses into a whole different frenzy. This was my ambrosia, and I deserved every delicious bite of it.

  Halfway through the burger, I managed to look up and found him leaning against the doorframe with a can of soda in his hand, studying me with curious wonderment.

  “What?” My brows rose up in question before taking another mouthful of food.

  “I love a woman who loves to eat meat.” He snickered, strolling over toward the bed and placing the can of soda on my bedside table. He then sat right across from me with that wicked gleam in his eyes as he watched me gobble on the small feast.

  Cori and his sexual innuendoes aside, he wasn’t all that bad. It had taken some getting used to, but once I had, his words had become just that—mere words. He was attractive, but he didn’t affect me like Drew did, and in some ways, that was good. I could only handle dealing with that kind of upheaval from one man. Two would be suicidal.

  After I finished the meal, Cori discussed the highs and lows of his weekend, detailing it in his own quirky way. We got comfortable, laughing one second then kissing the next. His kiss was punishing, and it took me a few seconds to finally realize what we were doing.

  At first, I was reluctant to give in, but the more he pressed his body against me, the more my senses and judgment became impaired. Maybe it because of the mixture of despair, heartbreak, and the thought that there was this hot blooded man who wanted me. I mean, after being so callously rejected by Drew, I needed some validation to feel good about myself, to know I was worthy and wanted, desired not just for my looks, but everything else. All these emotions washed over me, and it didn’t help that Cori was too good at this game.

  “Red,” Cori groaned as he kissed me, sliding his hand under my shirt and to my breasts. I was helpless against his expert ministrations.

  At one point, Drew’s face flashed in my mind, but I justified going forward by reminding myself that maybe this was what I needed to move on, to finally know what it felt like to know another man’s touch, to make memories that didn’t include him. And so I did.

  Cori had come prepared. I barely noticed him putting on protection. Before I could utter anything, he had already impaled me. And just like the man, he took me, hard and unforgiving.

  It was different than what I knew with Drew. With Drew, there were a lot of different elements involved, but with Cori … It was pure, unadulterated sex, no more, no less. He served it sizzling hot, and God help me, it felt good to feel free, though my heart was slowly dying. Aside from that part of my body, everything else was enraptured.

  We lingered in bed, and Cori eventually fell asleep, holding me. While he dozed, I was wide awake, my brain not willing to shut off.
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  For a moment, I took a good look at him and felt a small smile cross my face. Then I slid off the bed and put on the abandoned shirt that had been flung on the foot of the bed, in need of some ice-cold water.

  Why had I been so against having sex with other people before? I had missed out on what dating was really all about.

  Just before reaching the kitchen, I almost died of a heart attack when I saw Drew leaning against the counter. How long had he been here? Why was he home?

  My mind went numb. The thought of him being here while things had gone on with Cori in the bedroom … Fuck.

  Gazing up at him, I saw his eyes had shadows around them, as if he hadn’t slept a wink.

  “Drew …” I choked out, unsure what to even say.

  “Don’t.”

  One word. He uttered one word, and I felt like he had stabbed me in the heart a thousand times. It couldn’t be helped; my tears fell, and while I quietly sobbed, he simply stared at the floor, as if he were reeling, as if he were trying to grasp what had just happened between us, between Cori and me. And in that moment, I honestly didn’t know what to do.

  “You texted me, saying all of that—I thought—”

  He cut me off with a slash of his ice cold eyes. “You fucking thought wrong! To think that I fucking came here to make amends, to fucking apologize for my mistake, to—” His lungs heaved out, gasping for air as he stared me down, making me feel like a tiny, irrelevant fly. “I thought you were better than this, Chloe. Never in my life has a person disappointed me like that. My mother, I expected it from her, but from you? What a fucking joke. You almost had me, but thank God I came here to witness what you truly are.”

  I became numb as my ears rung. “What are you saying?” My voice came out in a mere croak. My tears streamed, past caring that they possibly were making a tiny pool on the floor.

  “You had me fooled. Thank fuck I didn’t fall in love with you.” He shook his head before looking at me with unmasked disgust in his eyes. “Go back to him; it’s where you belong.”

  His parting words cut me as I watched him walk away. It all had happened so quickly I felt as though I were living a horrible nightmare.

  A major part of me wanted to chase after him, beg him to reconsider and take me back again. However, even my idiotic heart knew he wouldn’t forgive me, not after he had said I had disappointed him more than anyone else in his life, more than his own mother. That revelation eviscerated me.

  His mother was the worst kind. She was selfish and only cared about herself. The idea of caring for her son had never crossed her mind, and Drew had been left with his grandmother. And on the days his grandmother wasn’t there, he came to our home to eat meals with us.

  His words rang in my head. How viciously grateful he was that he didn’t fall in love with me … I mean, why had he brought that up? It was obvious it had been me who had loved him ceaselessly throughout the years. I had gotten fed up, though. In my mind, I was fighting that love. It was my fight to survive, but it all had backfired, and now Drew loathed me more than anyone. There was no recovering from this.

  After shedding so many tears my tear ducts ran dry, I gathered myself and began to wash my face in the powder room next to the kitchen. My strength and will lasted long enough to give a lame excuse to Cori that my brother was coming back soon from school and he needed to be out of here, because Jackson wouldn’t be pleased that I had brought a guy home.

  Cori, bless him for being so understanding, didn’t realize what had taken place while he had been out cold in my bed. He immediately gathered himself to leave. But before he stepped out the door, he kissed me, and not a chaste quick one, but the thorough kind, the one that was supposed to leave a lingering impression. It would have, but after that encounter with Drew… He was all I could think about.

  When Cori left, it was as if all the energy were drained out of me. It took every ounce of my power to get to the living room couch. I couldn’t bear to be in my bedroom, not after what I had done.

  Even though I knew he wouldn’t take my calls, I still tried leaving voicemails and text messages to no avail. As the hours ticked by with no response from Drew, I became hysterical. It was then my brother found me curled up in a ball on the carpeted floor, hurting like never before.

  “Chloe?” he said just as he spotted me, and when he got a clear view of my face, he fell to the floor with me, cradling me in his arms. “Jesus, what happened to you?”

  “I fucked up. He hates me.” I sobbed harder into his shoulder, uncaring that he might know what had happened between his best friend and me.

  “Shh …” He gently and carefully stroked my head. “No one hates you, sis. It’s okay. Whatever it is, you can tell me. We’ll fix it somehow. I promise, we’ll fix it together.”

  Shaking my head, I knew there was nothing left to fix. I had committed the greatest of sins in his eyes. “There’s no fixing this. Drew hates me.”

  I could feel his body tense before he blew out a laborious breath. “Drew won’t be able to hate you, Chloe. The man cares for you. He always has, and he always will. I doubt that would ever change because you pissed him off. Whatever it is, he’ll get over it. Don’t worry, okay?”

  “Not this time. He caught me with another guy in bed.” Saying it out loud made it all the more real.

  For weeks, I had begun to think I was ready to move on, but the moment I realized I had lost Drew forever, my soul had been gutted. It had torn me up so badly I knew I was a changed woman, and those scars would never heal. It wouldn’t ever leave me. It would shadow me wherever I went, whatever I did.

  “I didn’t realize he liked you like that,” Jackson stated in a way sounded like he was confused, as if he didn’t understand anything.

  “He hasn’t been picking up my calls. I doubt he’ll ever speak to me again.”

  Pulling me from his shoulders so we were facing each other, he looked me in the eyes with determination. “Go change. We’re going somewhere.”

  How could he fathom that I would want to go anywhere? If he thought taking me out to eat would make me feel good, he should think again. Also, I didn’t want to leave, just in case Drew come back. This was his home, too, after all.

  “I’m staying put. He might come home tonight.”

  “I’m taking you to him now,” Jackson said, surprising me. “Talk to him. I can’t bear to see you crying like this. It hurts me to see you so broken, Chloe. If he’s mad, he’ll forgive you. I know him, and I know for a fact that he doesn’t get so pissed off unless he really cares about a person. So go change so we fix this.”

  He didn’t need to say more, I was on my feet, gunning for the bathroom to wash up, trying to fix my blotchy skin.

  In less than ten minutes, I was dressed in jeans and a simple white top, and shortly after that, we were in a cab.

  My brother didn’t say much. He simply took my hand and gave it a tight squeeze, trying to give me reassurance.

  Before my mind could go into playing more horrid scenarios, the cab dropped us off at the same hotel Drew had taken me to, the Mandarin Oriental. What was going on?

  Chapter 54

  “Why did you take me here?” Nothing was making sense … unless this was where Drew worked. Then everything fell into place. “If he’s in the middle of his shift, I don’t want to bother him, Jacks.” Even if I was in shambles, I wasn’t the kind of woman who would pester a man when he was trying to make a living. Whatever it was I had to say to him, it could wait.

  Jackson opened his mouth then shook his head in frustration. “I’ll let him explain it to you. I think that’ll be for the best.”

  He guided me toward the entrance, and dazed, I followed. It wasn’t long before we reached the elevator where I saw him press the button to take us to the fiftieth floor. He seemed to know his way around here, too, which was odd. I didn’t realize friends were occasionally allowed to hang around someone’s work place, but I guessed it was different for them. Who knew anymore? My mind was co
njuring up all sorts of things, and none of them added up.

  “Don’t be nervous; it’s just Drew. He won’t bite.” Jackson gripped my shoulder before planting a reassuring kiss on my head.

  He didn’t know Drew all that well, then. The guy I had seen earlier was unforgiving, and I very well knew he wouldn’t give me a chance to explain. At least I was trying, though. That was what counted the most.

  When the elevator dinged, indicating that we had arrived, I was surprised to find Jackson staying put. For a brief moment, I was terrified at the thought of being left alone with Drew.

  “You’re leaving?”

  “I love you more than anything, little sis. I’ll be here for you, always, but I can’t fight battles for you. If you want me to wait for you, I’ll be at the bar.”

  Giving him a wry smile, I wrapped my arms around his neck. “Thank you, but no. I’ll see you at home.”

  “You can do this,” he whispered into my hair before setting me free

  Jackson had already pointed to where I should be heading, so with shaky steps but determined mindset, I began to make my way, hoping for another chance.

  It felt like forever until I reached the door and rang the buzzer. Was this an office for someone? I wasn’t sure, but I supposed I would know any moment now.

  My body froze when I heard the door latch before it was yanked open by Drew, casually dressed in his jeans, barefoot, and not much else. For a moment, we just stared at each other.

  “What are you doing here?” he asked in an almost hissing tone.

  Nervously, I licked my lips as I tried not to melt into a puddle of goo as he stared me down with his famous ice-cold wintery look. “I came here to say I was sorry,” I finally managed.

  “Is that the strawberries and champagne?” a British woman’s voice echoed in the background.

  I gulped for air. Fuck, he was with a woman. It didn’t take much to understand what he was in the middle of doing.

  “No, it isn’t,” Drew called out before shutting the door behind him. He then took a few steps and threw me an impatient look. “There’s nothing to say. Go home, Chloe.”