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by Lexi Buchanan


  “The night of the disastrous date with Deacon. He told me to do this. Said you wouldn’t be able to ignore me if I’m naked in your bed. So here I am, and you’re certainly not ignoring me.”

  My head is spinning while my arousal pumps heavily in my groin, but nothing prepares me for the feeling I get at looking into the eyes of the woman I’m in love with. I can’t tell her that because as much as I want her, I don’t want to encourage her. Except I don’t want her leaving me to go across the country where other men will be after in her panties.

  Violet exhales and suddenly the sheet is pushed to the foot of the bed and she’s on her side looking at me. Her eyes caress over me from head to foot, focusing on my hands cupping my junk.

  I do some admiring of my own, my eyes trailing heatedly over her womanly curves. The moon casts enough light so that I can just make out a narrow landing strip on her pussy, which has my mouth watering. I slowly move my gaze further upwards and groan when my eyes focus on her plump boobs and the tight buds of her nipples.

  “You’re making it very difficult for me right now, Violet,” I growl, reaching out with one hand to caress her hip. My hand slides over to her ass, bringing her closer. “I have a feeling that neither of us are very sensible right now.” I meet her gaze. “Because the moment you landed in my bed, I lost all reasons why this between us isn’t a good idea.”

  She swallows and dips her gaze until I touch her chin and bring her face back up to mine. “I always want you close, but today … there was something making me want you there with me. I couldn’t take my eyes off of you. I was worried sick about my sister, and all I needed was you Violet.”

  As I talk she’s gradually gotten closer to me, so before I continue, I remove my hand from cupping my junk and wrap both arms around her, tucking her head into the crook of my neck. I breathe heavily, and sigh in relief while my lower body throbs against her belly.

  Bringing my thoughts back together, I continue, “You were amazing you never once forgot about me. You made sure no one had to wait for me. You just knew that I needed to be with her. You stayed with me.” I plant a kiss to her forehead, wanting her to feel my gratitude.

  “When you were sitting on my lap while I held my niece, I’ve never regretted pushing you away, as much as I did right then. I’ve been an ass to you.” I kiss the tip of her nose “I hate that I’m not a whole man and I hate even more that I can’t offer you what you need.”

  “What the heck?” Her head snaps up and there is no mistaking how pissed she is with the glare in her eyes.

  She prods me in the chest. “How do you know what I need? You’ve never once asked me! You just decided without any consideration for what I want.” Her hand is suddenly wrapped tightly around my erection causing my eyes to roll back in my head. “This,” she jerks me off so quickly that I tremble my breaths heavy, but then she stops, “feels to me, like you’re a man.”

  I’m not sure what else she planned on shouting at me, but in the next second my mouth is covering hers. I growl as I grip her head with one large hand, angling her just right for me to eat away at her mouth. I nip at her bottom lip. Nothing has ever tasted as sweet as Violet’s mouth against mine. I can’t get enough and gripping her ass, I bring her roughly as close as possible. Her leg hooks over my groin and all I can think about is sliding deeply inside of her.

  She has the same idea because in the next instance she’s broken from our kiss and straddled my thighs. My cock jerks as she grasps me tightly, her thumb rubbing the precum around the head.

  “You are so fucking sexy,” I admit, my voice rough. “Naked, sitting astride me, with my dick in your hands.” She trails her fingers lightly from root to tip and I act like a horny teenager, quivering under her touch.

  “I want to taste you,” she whispers, her head slowly moving toward my throbbing shaft while her eyes stay connected to mine. Her blonde hair brushes against my stomach.

  Heavy breathing fills the air as I watch her lick her lips mere inches from the head of my dripping cock. My balls are so freaking heavy that I’m afraid this isn’t going to last more than two seconds. Her nipples graze my thighs and then I feel her wet tongue pressing and caressing my balls before slowly moving up my uncontrollable cock.

  My fingers twist in the sheet under me and my ass clenches causing my dick to go rock solid as my release rushes forward. “Violet,” I groan. “I’m gonna come … oh God!”

  “Watch as I suck you dry.” She moans.

  That’s it.

  Her mouth wraps around me and I’m coming. Semen squirts into her mouth while she continues to suck and swallow. Before I finish coming, I pop free, and she wraps her hand around my cock, continuing jerking me off. It excites me all the more when semen lands on her boobs, dripping off a nipple.

  It takes a good few minutes before I feel like I can breathe again, my breaths coming in deep pants. My eyes find Violet’s, and take in the small smile on her beautiful face before moving slowly down her body.

  Seeing her coated with my release causes a primal response within my body, widening her gaze. I smirk and tug her into my arms. I growl as her chest meets mine, feeling her dark nipples dragging across my skin as she slithers against me. “You are so fucking sexy,” I comment, pushing the head of my cock into the opening of her sex.

  She’s so wet and tight that I hiss through my own pleasure. This time it’s about Violet. Her body only takes half of me before she stills and slowly rocks.

  It’s driving me crazy feeling how tight she is around me, knowing that I’m not yet all the way inside of her. “I have never experienced anything like you before.” My fingers dance over her skin and grip her thighs as she rises above me, her hips slowly rocking.

  Her hands rest on my chest while she twists my nipples between her fingers. “You’re so damn big.” She gasps taking the rest of me, falling forward to my chest.

  I chuckle. “I’ve been saving myself for you, so I don’t think Kasey knew exactly what he was suggesting, or you, when you followed through … because I have no intention of letting you get dressed any time soon.”

  Clenching her hips with my hands, I slowly move her back and forth. With how my body reacts to hers you’d think I was a teenager again instead of a grown ass man. But I didn’t lie to her. I really haven’t experienced anything like Violet before. No one compares.

  Her breath hitches against my neck and her inner muscle twitch, telling me she’s close to coming. Pushing her upwards, she immediately becomes frantic, squeezing and massaging my cock. My fingers find her little bundle of nerves and rub as quickly as she’s fucking me.

  She throws her head back and screams my name, convulsing on my dick so hard that I roar with my own release.

  10

  Violet

  Hoarse from screaming Blake’s name, I collapse on top of him while his penis continues to spill. It’s the hottest thing, but I’m too spent to even lift my head from his shoulder to watch him now.

  His chest goes up and down with heavy breaths as the grip he had on my hips slowly loosens. One hand presses on my lower back, his index finger resting in the crevice of my bottom. His other hand tangles into my hair and tugs my head back so that our gazes lock.

  “Violet,” he whispers, licking his lips. He pauses, a smile curving his lips. “You’re a fucking wet dream.” His lips reach for mine in a kiss that is soft and sweet, bringing tears to my eyes. “Don’t you dare tell Kasey how his plan worked.”

  I’m shocked at his words then I start laughing, gently moving against him. A large hand clamps on my bottom. “Don’t keep doing that. It feels so good and I want to talk.” Blake moans deeply.

  “Since when do guys want to talk when they have their penis in a wet pussy?” I tease.

  “Fuck!” he curses, snapping his eyes shut, said penis thickening inside of me. “Stop saying shit like that to me.” He groans. “I had no idea you had such a filthy mouth.” His eyes open and they’re heated, becoming more so as he watches the
gentle sway of my breasts.

  I pull all the way back until only the tip is hidden, dipping my head to see him. He’s long, thick and glistening with our release and arousal. I watch him watching me as I slowly slide him all way back inside. My fingernails drag down his chest to his navel.

  It thrills me that I can turn this big strong man into a quivering mess with my body. As much as he’s broken my heart, after tonight I’m going to make sure that doesn’t happen again.

  The minute he touched me today, I’d known that I wouldn’t be able to stay alone in my room any longer.

  Holding his gaze, I say, “If you hadn’t kept pushing me away you’d have found out sooner.” I bend and bite a nipple, tugging the rigid peak into my mouth, lapping it with my tongue before moving to the other. “Imagine every night spent with me, naked, doing all kinds of wicked things to you with my mouth.”

  His hands tremble as I lift myself off him before licking down his chest. My tongue snakes out and swirls around his navel while his penis nudges my chin, begging for attention.

  I smirk and kiss the dripping tip, blowing on it.

  “Fuck!” His hands tangle in my hair. “Let me get this out of the way.”

  “I love you getting it out.”

  He bursts out laughing. “I love giving it to you.”

  When I raise my face from his groin, he groans, and continues, “This isn’t just one night, Violet. I don’t want to put a name to what we are yet, but it isn’t one night. You’re worth so much more to me than that.”

  My heart fills with joy even if my head is telling me by morning he could change his mind once again. I’m here with him now and not a moment is going to be wasted talking when I have him hard and aching beneath me.

  His eyes dance and then he says, “Get your pussy up here. I’m going to eat you so damn hard that you won’t ever let another guy touch you.”

  I blink not knowing what the heck to do. The truth is, I’ve never had anyone put their mouth to me before. In fact, I’ve never been like this with anyone else before. My one sexual experience was certainly nothing to ever mention, but with Blake he makes me lose all inhibition. With him I want to get down and dirty—the filthier the better.

  “Up here facing the headboard. Knees on either side of my head,” he demands, wiggling his brows.

  “Hmm,” I mumble.

  Reaching for another pillow, I place it under his head and then turn, placing my face right between his legs. Okay, I may have lost my momentum and ended up here. But Blake sure as hell likes me like this.

  He smacks my bottom and yanks my legs up until I’m straddling his face with my mouth level with his thick penis. “I like you this way so much better—” I take pride in cutting off his words when I use suction with my mouth to take him inside of me.

  My tongue rubs the sensitive underside while I close my eyes and concentrate on the things that his talented tongue is doing. There’s no easing me into it. It’s a full onslaught of tongue fucking until he gets his thick fingers involved and then I’m full of Blake.

  I bob my head on his twitching erection, suckling hard, but the minute I start pulsating on his tongue and fingers, I scream around his penis, which swells and starts pumping streams of thick cream into my mouth. I have to move before he chokes me because I can’t catch a deep enough breath to fill my lungs.

  By the time he’s finished, we’re a mess. His release is all over my chest while I feel the wetness between my thighs.

  Blake kisses my pussy before helping me roll onto my back, my feet to his head. “I don’t think I can move,” I admit.

  “I never thought I’d say these words, but … I’m done in.” Blake pushes himself into a sitting position and winces when he sees the mess I’m in. “God, I wish I could walk right now. I’d be carrying you into the shower and starting all over again.”

  Our fingers intertwine, and I hold on. “I thought you’d had enough.” I giggle, raising an eyebrow at him.

  He shakes his head, smiling. “I haven’t had enough of you by a long shot.” He smirks. “The image of you and me in the shower with my hands all over your soapy body is giving me another erection.” I follow his eyes to his groin.

  “I hate to say this, but I think I’m too sore to take you again right now.”

  A lump of material, which I think is Blake’s shorts lands on my chest and then he’s wiping me clean. “We’ll shower in the morning … and change the sheets.”

  Tossing the dirty shorts to the floor, he helps turning me around, and then spooning me, he wraps his arms around my body.

  My face nuzzles into the hand on the pillow as I’m cocooned in his warmth, and I ask something that’s on my mind, “Are you starting to get a bit of feeling back in your legs?”

  I sense him still behind me and then he exhales against my shoulder. “I don’t want you to get your hopes up, which is why I haven’t said anything.”

  Turning in his arms, I cup his rough cheeks. “Will you please accept that I want to be with you regardless of whether or not you walk again? I don’t know how to make you believe me. You’ve never asked me what I want. Well, what I want is you. Tonight surely has proven to you that we’re more than compatible, and earlier in the day should have proven to you that we are a team. You and me, Blake.” I kiss his lips. “We don’t have to put a name to it if that scares the crap out of you, but tonight has shown me that you do care. So, there is no way that I’m going to let you shove me away ever again.” Tears hover on my lashes but I’m not hiding them this time.

  I’ve hidden so much since I’ve met Blake and I refuse to do that anymore. He can see the happiness when I’m feeling it, and the sadness, no more hiding.

  He swallows hard and tries to turn away, but I don’t let him.

  “I want to be able to give you the moon, Vi.” He smiles softly when he calls me ‘Vi’. “I don’t know if I’ll feel anything more than I do now in my legs, but I’m sick and tired of being lonely. Every time I’ve pushed you away has hurt me too. It nearly killed me when I told you to start dating.”

  Closing his eyes, he tips his forehead to mine. “Seeing my sister so happy with Kasey, and now that she’s a mom, it makes me want those things too.” He gives an embarrassed laugh. “I think I really need sleep if I’ve just admitted that.”

  Because I know he’s embarrassed, I let him pull me to him, his chin on the top of my head.

  “I want those things too, Blake,” I whisper as we slip into a sated sleep.

  11

  Blake

  The view out the back of the house that Violet and I share, is one that never gets old. The snowcapped mountains go on for miles and it’s beyond peaceful. I’ve spent many days passing my time in this exact spot—semi reclined on a lounge chair. I just don’t ever remember sitting here with a stupid wide grin on my face.

  Even the throat being cleared doesn’t wipe the smile from my face. I try but it’s immediately back. “Why are you lurking in the back?” I ask Kasey. “Shouldn’t you be with your wife and daughter?”

  “I’m lurking because I wasn’t sure if anyone would be up at this time. And I’m not at the hospital because Felicity insisted that I come home and have a few hours of proper sleep before going back.” Kasey drops onto the lounger and closes his eyes. “I’m fucked, but hell, I didn’t want to leave them.”

  “You’ll be no help to my sister if you’re as shattered as she is. Sleep. Shower. Then go back to them,” I suggest. “I’m hoping to visit her after lunch.”

  “Morning Kasey,” Violet says, popping out through the door, looking fresh as a flower carrying mugs of coffee. “Do you want a coffee?”

  He yawns in response, shaking his head. “I need a few hours.”

  When Violet meets my gaze, I stare hoping she’ll sit close. She’s looking really hot in my hockey jersey and team socks. The jersey comes to her knees and my fingers twitch to touch her.

  Since yesterday, I’ve needed to be able to see her and if I can touc
h her then all the better. She puts our mugs of coffee down on the table beside us, and then gently positions herself on my lap. A gentle sigh leaves her lips when she settles, her face buried in my neck.

  Peaceful silence with this woman in my arms has me believing in the future I spoke of last night. I’m not sure why the hell I’d blurted it out, especially after telling her I didn’t want to label what we had. I’m an idiot and if I’m truthful this woman in my arms scares me to death. Because she’s already in my heart and after last night I’m not sure I’ll ever be able to let her go anywhere without me.

  I grin at the thought of Roger, my best friend, seeing me like this. He’d laugh his ass off.

  “What the fuck?” Kasey shoots up in his chair. “When did,” he waves his hand between Violet and I, “this happen?”

  Rolling my eyes, I groan when Violet sits up, but when she goes to move, I hold her tightly and nuzzle into her neck. “Stay,” I whisper and glare at Kasey.

  Kasey laughs and smacks his thigh. “I can’t wait to tell Felicity. She’ll be so damn happy.”

  “Can we please, not take out a notice in the Great Falls daily?” I grumble.

  Violet shakes her head and grins. “I’ll go and make breakfast.” She looks at Kasey. “Why don’t you go home and put together whatever Felicity needs. Take a shower and then come back here for breakfast on your way to the hospital.”

  “See you in thirty minutes.” Kasey dashes off.

  I grab Violet’s wrist and pull her back down. “I was enjoying sitting here with you in my arms until Kasey opened his mouth.”

  “He was just surprised at seeing us like this in the morning, and excited about his daughter. Worried about his wife as well,” Violet says. “But I mean it about breakfast. Are you going to stay here or come inside?”

  “I’ll come inside.”

  Violet gets the door while I wheel into the kitchen. “What can I do?” I offer.

  “You can sit right where you are and watch me.” She grins. “It turns me on having your eyes on me.”

  Raising a brow, I grin. “Is that a fact.”

 

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