G is for GUMSHOE
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“He’ll be with us shortly,” I said.
She clung to my arm while Dietz brought up the rear. The double doors slid open automatically as we approached. We passed into the reception area, which was deserted as far as I could tell. I was struck by the silence. Somehow I’d expected activity, urgency, some sense of the medical drama that plays out in every ER: patients with broken bones, puncture wounds, cuts, insect bites, allergic reactions, and superficial burns. Here, the rooms felt empty and there was no indication of acute care of any sort. Perhaps it was the hour, perhaps an unpredictable lull in the ordinary course of events.
Irene and I waited at the curved front counter, a C-shape enclosing a desk papered with forms. To our immediate right were two patient registration windows, shuttered at this hour. On our left, there was a room divider with two pay phones on the near side and a waiting area beyond. I could see a color television set, turned to a news show, the sound too low to register. Everything was done in muted blues and grays. All was in order, tidy and quiet. Through an open doorway, I caught a glimpse of the nurses’ station, ringed by examining rooms. There was no sign of the police officer or hospital personnel.
Dietz was restless, snapping his fingers against the palm of his hand. He ambled over to the interior door and peered in, checking the layout, automatically eyeballing avenues of escape in case Messinger showed up again. The receptionist must have spotted him because she emerged from the rear moments later, smiling at us politely. “Sorry to keep you waiting. How may I help you?”
“We’re here to see Agnes Grey,” I said.
She was a woman in her forties, wearing ordinary street clothes: polyester pants, cotton sweater, rubber-soled shoes. A stethoscope, like a pendant, dangled from her neck. Her eyes were a rich chocolate brown, lending warmth to her face. She checked some papers on her desk and then looked up at Irene. “Are you Mrs. Gersh?”
“That’s right,” Irene said.
The woman’s tone was pleasant, but I could see her smile falter. Her attitude suggested the carefully controlled neutrality you’d merit if the actual test results were not what you’d been led to expect. “Why don’t you come on back and have a seat in the office,” she said. “The doctor will be right with you.”
Irene blinked at her fearfully, her voice close to a whisper. “I’d like to see Mother. Is she all right?”
“Dr. Stackhouse would prefer to talk to you first,” she said. “Would you like to follow me, please?”
I didn’t like it. Her manner was entirely too kindly and benign. She could have made any one of a number of responses. Maybe she’d been advised not to discuss medical matters. Maybe she’d been chastised for offering her opinion before the doctor could offer his. Maybe hospital policy forbade her to editorialize about the patient’s condition for complicated reasons of liability. Or maybe Agnes Grey was dead. The woman glanced at me. “Your daughter’s welcome to come with you…”
“You want me to come?” I asked.
“Yes, please,” Irene said to me. Then to the receptionist, “My husband’s parking the car. Will you tell him where we are?”
Dietz spoke up. “I’ll let him know. You two go on back. We’ll be right there.”
Irene murmured a thank-you. Dietz and I exchanged a look.
The receptionist stood by the open door while we passed through. She led the way while we followed along a corridor with high-gloss white flooring. She showed us into an office evidently used by any doctor on duty. “It won’t be long. Can I get you anything? Coffee? A cup of tea?”
Irene shook her head. “This is fine.”
We sat down in blue tweed chairs with upholstered seats. There were no exterior windows. The Formica shelf-desk was bare. There was a gray leather couch showing doctor-size indentations in the cushions. As an impromptu daybed, it was slightly too short and I could see where his shoes had scraped against the arm at one end. A white Formica bookcase was filled with standard medical texts. The potted plant was fake, a Swedish ivy made of paper with curling vines as stiff as florist’s wire. The only pictures on the wall looked like reproductions from Gray’s Anatomy. Personally, I can do without all the skinless arms and legs. The saphenous vein and its branches looked like an overview of the Los Angeles freeway system.
Irene shrugged her coat off and smoothed the lap of her skirt. “I can’t believe there weren’t any papers to fill out. They must have admitted her.”
“You know hospitals. They have their own way of doing things.”
“Clyde has the insurance information in his wallet. Blue Cross, I think, though I’m not sure she’s covered.”
“Bill the nursing home,” I said. “It’s their responsibility.”
We sat for a moment saying nothing. I wondered if this was what it felt like to have family. Geriatric crises, accompanied by homely discussions about what should be done with Granny. We heard footsteps in the hall and the doctor came into the room. I was half-expecting the receptionist with Clyde and Dietz in tow, so it took me a second to compute the expression on this guy’s face. He was in his early thirties, with carrot-colored curly hair and a ruddy complexion. He was wearing an unstructured cotton shirt in a hospital green, V-neck, short sleeves, matching cotton pants, soft-soled baggy shoes. He had a stethoscope around his neck and a white plastic name tag that read, “Warren Stackhouse, MD.” With his red hair and freckles, the surgical greens gave him a certain Technicolor vibrancy, like a cartoon character. He smelled like adhesive tape and breath mints and his hands looked freshly scrubbed. He was holding a manila folder, which contained only one sheet. He placed that on the desk, lining up the edges.
“Mrs. Gersh? I’m Dr. Stackhouse.” He and Irene shook hands and then he leaned against the desk. “I’m afraid we lost her.”
“Oh, for God’s sake,” Irene snapped. “Can’t anybody keep track of her?”
Uh-oh, I thought, Irene wasn’t getting it. “I don’t think he means it that way,” I murmured.
“Mrs. Grey went into cardiac arrest,” he said. “I’m sorry. We did everything we could, but we weren’t able to revive her.”
Irene grew still, her face blank, her tone of voice nearly petulant. “Are you saying she’s dead? But that’s impossible. She couldn’t be. You’ve made some mistake. Clyde said her injuries were minor. Cuts and bruises. I thought he talked to you.”
I was watching the doctor and I could see him pick his words with care. “When she was first brought in, she was already showing symptoms of cardiac arrhythmia. She was confused and disoriented, suffering from exposure and stress. In a woman her age, given her fragile state of health…”
Irene let out a sigh, finally taking it in. “Oh, the poor thing.” Her eyes filled with sudden tears, which spilled down her cheeks. Blotches of color had come up in her face and neck. She began to tremble uncontrollably, quivering like a wet dog in the midst of a bath. I grabbed her hand.
Clyde appeared in the doorway. From the look in his eyes, he’d been told what was going on. The receptionist had probably informed him as soon as he came in.
Irene turned beseechingly. “Clyde… Mother’s gone” she said. She reached for him, coming out of the chair and into his arms. He seemed to fold her in against him. For the first time, I realized how tiny she was. I looked away, not wanting to intrude on their intimacy.
I saw Dietz through the open doorway, leaning against the wall. His posture was identical to my first sight of him. Cowboy boots, his tweed coat. The hospital down in Brawley. All he needed was the toothbrush in his pocket, sticking up like a fountain pen. His gaze moved casually to mine, moved to Irene, came back to mine and held. The look in his eyes was quizzical, perplexed. His expression shifted from self-assurance to uncertainty. I felt an unexpected flash of heat. I broke off eye contact, feeling flushed. My gaze drifted back. He was still looking at me, with a wistfulness I hadn’t seen before.
We all waited uncomfortably for Irene’s tears to pass. Finally, Dr. Stackhouse moved toward the d
oor and I followed. The two of us withdrew, moving out into the corridor. As we walked back to the emergency room,
Dietz fell into step with us, placing his hand on the back of my neck in a way that made me feel curious and alert. It was a gesture of possession and the physical connection was charged with a sudden current that made the air between us hum.
Dr. Stackhouse shook his head. “God, I’m sorry. It was a lousy break. Are you her granddaughter? Someone’s going to have to talk to the police officer.”
I focused on the situation as if coming up for air. “I’m a friend of Mrs. Gersh’s. Kinsey Millhone,” I said.
He glanced at me. “The one she was asking for.”
“So I’m told,” I said. “Do you have any idea what it was?”
“Well, I can tell you what she said, but I don’t think it means much. She kept saying it was summer. ‘Tell her it used to be summer…’ Is that significant?”
“Not to me,” I said. In her mind, it was probably connected to the long rambling tale she’d told me down at the desert. Emily and the earthquake, the Harpster girls and Arthur James. “That’s all she said?”
“That’s the only thing I heard.”
“Will there be an autopsy?”
“Probably. We put a call through to the coroner’s office and a deputy’s on the way. He’ll talk to the pathologist and decide if it’s warranted.”
“Which pathologist? Dr. Yee or Dr. Palchak?”
“Dr. Palchak,” he said. “Of course, the deputy may just go ahead and authorize us to sign the death certificate.”
“What about Agnes? Can we see her?”
He nodded. “Of course. She’s just down the hall here. Whenever Mrs. Gersh is ready, the nurse will take you in.”
Agnes had been moved temporarily to a little-used examining room at the end of the hall. Once we were gone, she’d be wheeled down to the basement and left in the refrigerated darkness of the morgue. Dietz waited in the hall with Clyde while Irene and I stood silently beside the gurney on which her mother lay. Death had smoothed many of the lines from her face. Under the white sheeting, she seemed small and frail, her beaky nose protruding prominently from the peaceful folds of her face.
There was a discreet knock at the door. A young uniformed police officer came into the room and introduced himself. He’d brought Agnes in and he talked to Irene briefly about his encounter with her mother. “She seemed like a very nice person, ma’am. I just thought you might like to know she didn’t give me any trouble…”
Irene’s eyes brimmed. “Thank you. I appreciate that. Was she in pain? I can’t stand to think about what she must have gone through.”
“No, ma’am. I wouldn’t say so. She might have been confused, but she didn’t seem to be in pain or anything like that.”
“Thank God for that. Did she ask for me?”
Color tinted his cheeks. “I couldn’t say for sure. I know she mentioned somebody named Sheila.”
“Sheila?” Irene said blankly.
“I’m pretty sure that was it. She did cry some. She said she was sorry to be a bother. I kept talking to her, telling her everything was fine. She quieted down after that and seemed all right till we got here. I know the staff did everything possible to save her. I guess sometimes they just go like that.”
Irene’s chin began to quiver. She pressed a handkerchief to her mouth while she shook her head, whispering. “I had no idea she was dying. My God, if we’d only hurried we might have been here in time…”
The officer shifted uneasily. “I’ll step out in the waiting room and finish filling out my report. I believe the sheriff’s deputy’s out there now. He’ll need some information as soon as you’re up to it.” He moved out into the hall, leaving the door ajar.
After a moment, Clyde came in. He put his arm around Irene’s shoulder and walked her out toward the reception area. Before the door closed again, I caught a glimpse of the sheriff’s deputy in the corridor, conferring with his STPD counterpart. I gathered the city police had reported the death to the county coroner’s office since Agnes was listed as missing and the last hours of her life were still unaccounted for. The coroner would make a determination as to the circumstances, manner, and cause of death. If she should be classified as a homicide victim, the city police would assume responsibility for the criminal investigation. I was guessing the death would be considered “nonreportable” in coroner’s terms, but that remained to be seen. An autopsy might be done in any event.
Alone with the body, I lifted one corner of the sheet, reaching for the cool, unyielding flesh of Agnes’s left hand. Her knuckles were scraped. Two nails were broken. On her ring finger and her pinkie there was soil impacted under the nails. The receptionist came into the room behind me. I slipped her hand under the sheet again and turned. “Yes?”
“Mr. Gersh said to tell you he’s taking his wife out to the car. The other gentleman is waiting.”
“What happened to her personal effects?”
“There wasn’t much. Dr. Stackhouse set aside the articles of clothing for disposition by the coroner. She didn’t have anything else with her when she was brought in.”
I scribbled a note to Dr. Palchak, asking her to call me. I left the message with the ER nurse as I passed the desk. Dietz wanted to call a cab, but Clyde insisted on dropping us back at my place. Irene cried inconsolably all the way home. I was grateful when Dietz finally unlocked the door and let us in. In the backseat of the Mercedes, he’d placed his hand beside mine, our little fingers touching in a way that made me feel my whole left side had been magnetized.
Chapter 19
*
The minute I was inside, I headed for the loft, too exhausted to bother with social niceties.
“You want a glass of wine?” he asked.
I hesitated. I looked back at him, caught in midflight. I had one foot on the bottom step, my hand on the curved railing of the spiral staircase. “I don’t think so. Thanks.”
There was a pause. He said, “Are you all right?”
We were suddenly talking in ways that felt unfamiliar, as if each exchange had a hidden meaning. His face seemed the same, but there was something new in his eyes. Where before his gaze had been opaque, there was now an appeal, some request he couldn’t quite bring himself to voice. Sexuality stirred the air like the blades of a fan. Exhaustion fell away. All the danger, all the tension had been converted into this, mute longing. I could feel the lick of it along my legs, seeping through my clothes: something ancient, something dark, humankind’s only antidote to death. The heat seemed to arc through the space between us like a primitive experiment, born of night. This is what I understood: this man was like me, my twin, and suddenly, I knew that what I saw in him was a strange reflection of myself – my bravery, my competence, my fear of dependency. I’d been with him three days, separated by externals, neutered by survival instincts. Only desire could render us brave enough to cross that distance, but which of us would risk it?
I watched him lock the door. I watched him flick the lights out and cross the room. I started up the spiral staircase, turning at the third step. I held the railing, sank into a sitting position as he approached. Dietz was before me, his face level with mine. The room behind him was dark. Light spilled down from the loft, illuminating his solemn face. He leaned into the kiss, his mouth cold at first, his lips soft. My craving for him was as tangible as a finger of heat driven up through my core. I was lying on the stairs, metal risers cutting into my back until pain and desire had blended into a single sensation. I stroked his cheek, touched the silky strands of his hair while he buried his face against me, nuzzling my breasts through my cotton T-shirt. We moved together in mock intercourse, clothes on, bodies arching. I could hear the sound of fabric on fabric, his breathing, mine. I reached down and touched him. He made an inhuman sound, lifting away from me, pulling me after him as he moved up the spiral staircase. The bed was better and we undressed by degrees as we kissed. The first shock of heat w
hen he laid his naked flesh along mine made him say, “Oh… sweet Jesus,” very softly. After that, there were no words until the moment of oblivion. Making love with this man was like no other lovemaking I’ve experienced… some external chord resolved at its peak, ageless music resonating through our bones, the spilling of secrets, flesh on flesh, moment after moment until we were fused. I fell into a deep sleep, my limbs wound into his, and never knew a waking until daylight came. At six o’clock, I stirred, vaguely aware that I was alone in bed. I could hear Dietz moving around downstairs. He had the radio on and I caught strains of a Tammy Wynette tune poignant enough to rip your heart out. For once, I didn’t care.
At some point, the doorbell rang… the UPS man (a real one) with the box I’d shipped up from Brawley. Dietz took delivery, as I was still dead to the world. Soon after that, the smell of perking coffee wafted up the stairs. I roused myself, made my bed, fumbled my way into the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I showered, washed my hair, and then got dressed, slipping into the jeans and shirt I’d worn the night before. No point in contributing either to the laundry pile just yet. I went downstairs.
Dietz was perched on a bar stool at the counter, the paper open in front of him, empty juice glass and cereal bowl pushed to one side so he could read. He reached a hand back. I put my arms around him from behind. He kissed me with a mouth so fresh, I could taste the cereal. “You okay?” he asked.
“Yes. You?”
“Mmm. Your package arrived.”
The box was sitting just inside the door, addressed to me in my own writing. “Have you inspected this for incendiary devices?”
His tone was dry. “It’s clear. Go ahead.”
I got a paring knife from the kitchen drawer and slit the strapping tape. The articles were packed as I remembered them, my all-purpose dress close to the surface. I pulled it out and inspected it, relieved to find it in better shape than I’d hoped. It was only moderately encrusted with mold, though it did smell of swamp gas, a scent that hovered somewhere between spoiled eggs and old toilet bowls.