Hold Me If You Can (Mancini Way 2)

by Jordan Silver

  How could life change on a dime like this? In my world life was about order, everything in its place. There was no room for mistakes and second-guesses. What if I’d pulled the trigger? What if I’d led with anger, as was my first intent? I could’ve harmed her.

  I squeezed her hand with a quick look at her sleeping face and settled myself. It was over, she hadn’t betrayed me, she was still my woman; I don’t have to destroy her after all. I hope to fuck I never experience anything like that shit again. Too close, too fucking close. I’d learned one thing though, since it seems I can’t handle the idea of her with someone else, I’m going to have to make moves to claim her completely before too long.

  She came fully awake as I was pulling into the underground garage of my apartment. Awake and spitting mad if the look she threw me was anything to go by. “Did you just bust into my house and hold a gun to my friend’s head?” She tried tugging her hand out of mine but I wouldn’t let go, just looked at her as if seeing her for the first time. As if the last hour hadn’t happened.

  “Later!” I leaned over and took her lips before she could argue with me farther. Once I’d softened her with my tongue in her mouth, I released her. I couldn’t resist the soft caress of my finger down her cheek before climbing out of the car and going around to her side to get her.

  She was still glaring at me but I resigned myself to soothing her ruffled feathers later once I got her behind closed doors. Right now if I didn’t do something with all this energy I had pumping through my veins I’d blow a fucking gasket. I knew for a fact that when I finally get my hands on her the first time it wasn’t going to be nice and soft. I needed to fuck the residual anger out of me first.

  I covered her mouth and pushed her back against the glass side of the elevator as soon as the doors closed. A very un-Mancini-like thing to do, since I’m always conscious of my surroundings; of being watched. I couldn’t help myself though. It seems I can’t be around her and not touch her in some way.

  I whispered those words in her ear before attacking her mouth again and grinding my cock into her heat, spreading her legs with mine. I’d only meant to tease her but she clung to me and her tongue followed mine as she sunk into me. When her heartbeat slowed against my chest, I pulled our lips apart to give her some much-needed air.

  “Missed me?” She was as hungry for my touch as I was hers. She pulled my head back down to hers in her first show of passionate aggression. I pressed my hard cock into her center as she clutched at me as we fed on each other’s lips. It was a toss up as to who was the more aggressive now in our fervor.

  The elevator doors slid open into my foyer and I started tugging at her robe as she fought with the buttons on my shirt. We barely made it to my bed before I had her under me.

  The fever was back full force. The need to get inside her rode me hard and I was almost blind with lust. I never imagined that being away from her for such a short while would unleash this kind of hunger in me. “Too fucking long.” The feel of her warm flesh beneath my hands felt like coming home. My whole being came alive and it was as if I hadn’t been whole while we were apart, but now I had my heart again.

  “Look at me.” I reared back on my heels as I straddled her. Her eyes were wide open and awake as she stared up at me. “Don’t ever betray me Cierra.” Something flashed in her eyes but it was quickly gone. She kept her eyes on mine as she shook her head. “I won’t I promise.” She lifted her arms up to me and I answered, choosing to ignore for now the shadow that had been in her eyes for that split second.

  I fed on her mouth until my need became unbearable and I pulled away once again to undress her.

  I lifted my stolen shirt over her head and tossed it before looking down at her. “Fuck.” I’d almost forgotten how perfect she is. Her plump mounds on her tiny frame were unharnessed, and I couldn’t resist palming them even as my eyes roamed the rest of her body.

  She was left bare except for the slip of silk covering her between her thighs, which I made quick work of removing before finally stripping myself. I ran my hands over her body slowly, softly, until her nipples were hard points and her thighs writhed against my bed in need.

  I thought I was in a rush to fuck her, but now that I had her here beneath me, I found that I wanted to take my time, to savor. I ran my hands over her, taking her in with each pass of my fingers over her heated flesh. I let my fingers play between her thighs, dipping into her pussy’s wet heat and finger fucking her until her juices coated my hand.

  With her eyes held with mine I pulled them out of her and licked them dry. She moaned deep in her throat and spread her legs wider, enticing me to come to her.

  I didn’t let her touch me while I was teasing her, afraid she’d unman me. One touch of her hand and I knew I’d shoot off prematurely. Now I lowered my head and sucked her nipple into my mouth while rubbing the leaking head of my cock up and down her wet slit.

  She tried forcing the issue, digging her nails into my ass. “Behave.” I nipped her lip before soothing it with my tongue as I continued to torment her pussy and clit. I wanted to slam my rod into her hard fast and deep, from her wild harsh moans she wanted it too, but in the end I switched up, easing my cock into her nice and slow instead.

  Her pussy gripped me like a second skin. So tight I could feel the rippling of her inner- walls. I wanted to see with my eyes what we looked like joined. “Stay.” With a hand on her chest I held her in place beneath me as I looked down between her spread thighs at where my cock pierced her.

  I stroked into her hard and deep, as I teased her clit with my thumb making her pussy juice even more and I saw it all. I could see the bulge of my cock as it split her, the way her pussy lips clung tightly around me. The way her pink flesh eased out around my cock as I slid out of her and disappeared when I fucked back in.

  I kept up a nice slow deep tempo although it almost killed me. My dick bottomed out in her pussy time and time again while her body grew more heated. “That’s it, move on my cock.” Her responsiveness was a thing of beauty. The princess of cool reserve that I admired so much was gone; in her place was a sensual woman pleading for her man to fuck her to orgasm with her eyes.

  There’s nothing more powerful than the feel of taming my strong, brave woman on the end of my cock. Something inside me that had barely shown itself in the past was set free, unleashed as I stroked my cock into her receptive cunt. Total and complete domination was on my mind. I’d never cared to own anyone this completely before in my life. Never wanted to possess a woman the way I now did with her.

  “Look at me.” I helped her with a hand wrapped tightly around her throat. Her pussy tightened and I felt my cock jump and spit as I looked into her eyes. I fucked, she answered with the wild movement of her hips and the heat built as the tempo picked up speed.

  She was perfection. We were perfection together. Her pussy grabbed my cock like it was made to fit me, only me. The thought of losing this, giving it up for any reason was anathema. All the rash emotions I’d felt earlier came rushing back and I appreciated just how close I’d come to losing her before we’d even had the chance to…

  I stopped moving and waited until she did the same. I had something to say and I needed her full attention so there would be no mistake going forward.

  “If you ever give what’s mine to someone else I’ll kill you. If you ever even think of it it’ll be the same. I came damn close tonight and, I don’t ever want to visit that place again in this fucking lifetime. So I repeat, don’t ever betray me Cierra. Nod your head so I know you understand.” I eased up on my hold around her neck and waited for her to obey.

  She nodded her head and I leaned over to take her lips, pushing my cock deep inside her while playing her clit with my thumb. Her pussy was extra wet around my hot cock and she lifted her ass and wrapped her legs around me.

  I was too close too soon so I pulled back. I wasn’t anywhere near ready to leave the warm comfort of her body. Instead I pushed the thumb I’d been diddling her cl
it with past her lips. “Suck.” She sucked on my thumb while looking into my eyes with a look of wanton heat and my dick grew even harder.

  “Fuck!” It was on the tip of my tongue to ask her if the bureau had taught her that shit but there was no way it wasn’t real. No way she could’ve learned that shit, it was all, natural. When she bit my finger I pulled it out of her mouth and replaced it with my tongue.

  She growled and sucked it into her mouth while squeezing my cock with her pussy muscles. I fucked into her tight little pussy harder until her arms and legs held me tighter and she ground her pelvis into me, begging me without words for more. I gave her what she wanted, pounding into her until the bed shook. When I felt my seed rising in my sac I held her close to my heart and off loaded deep inside her.

  8

  Mancini

  “Where do you think you’re going?” She rolled out of bed the next morning after wearing me out. I thought I’d missed her but it was obvious she’d missed me just as much. Her ardor was just as strong and I had the scratches down my back to prove it.

  “I have to get to work.” That shadow flashed in and out of her eyes again but again, I didn’t think too much of it. Plus she wasn’t looking much better than I felt after the night we’d had. I’d kept her up well into the early morning hours until we rolled away from each other, too exhausted to do more than draw her into my arms protectively to sleep.

  “I thought I was your work. I’m taking the day off, so are you.” I reached out and grabbed her hand, pulling her back down beside me. I pressed my morning wood into her leg and let my hand roam between her thighs.

  “We have to talk about that soon. As much as those fucks you work for are always on my ass it won’t be long before they sniff out the fact that you belong to me…”

  “What do you mean belong to you?” She gave me a sassy look, something I hadn’t seen from my stalwart agent before. “It doesn’t need explaining. Now how do you want to handle this?” She seemed extra nervous now and I put it off as her angst over her precarious future now that she’d slept with the enemy.

  I can’t believe I’d thought for even one second that she had used me to get closer, that she’d let them talk her into selling her body to achieve their goals. “I don’t know how I can. I’m not ready for that yet.” She wouldn’t look at me, and the hand I had cupping her pussy tightened. Huh! I don’t believe for a minute that she hadn’t given it some thought.

  “Meaning you plan to continue investigating me while sleeping in my bed.” I knew the situation was going to take some thought and maneuvering but somehow I didn’t see that as an option. I guess I’d underestimated her commitment.

  I had to throttle back some, something I’m not good at, but she deserved to at least think she had a choice. I knew maybe better than anyone else why she was really with the bureau. It was a good cause. Something I would probably have done myself if I were in her position. It was too soon to tell her that I planned to take over the search for her family’s killer for her. Her response convinced me she had no idea who the man she’d let into her bed really was.

  “You do know you’re not going to find what you’re looking for right.” I didn’t give her a chance to answer. I already knew how this was going to end anyway so her capitulation wasn’t necessary. I’ve never been beaten by the bureau before and I wasn’t planning on losing to them this time either. Not when it was this important.

  “We’ll talk about it later.” I pulled my fingers from her body and slipped them into her mouth as I eased my stiff morning wood into her going deep with one stroke.

  I had to let her go later that evening after keeping her with me all day. “I’ll have the driver take you home.” Until we came to an understanding as to how to handle the situation it was best not to be seen together. I didn’t plan on leaving things that way for long though, but she seemed nervous as hell and I didn’t want to make things harder for her.

  Sooner or later she’d have to come clean. I didn’t see them letting that shit slide, so I’ll be killing two birds with one stone. I want her out of there. Her stubborn ass won’t give into me that easily though, so I’ll let the assholes do it for me.

  It took me ten minutes to let her go after calling down to the driver. Something inside me was very averse to letting her out of my sight. It helped that she didn’t want to leave me either, clinging to me at the door as if I were leaving her again. “I’ll come to you soon.” With one last kiss and hug we parted, and I watched her on the monitor until she got into the car and they drove out of sight.

  “She’s turned me into a damn sap already.” I felt listless, like something was missing after she left. The place where I’d lived for so long, now felt strange and empty once she was gone. I stood looking down at the street below lost in my own head.

  I needed to call in to headquarters and ma is going to skin me alive for all the missed calls. Now that she wasn’t here to distract me I could think a little more clearly. But I still felt empty. I can’t say I like the feeling. Something’s gonna have to be done and soon. I want her with me all the time.

  We hadn’t spoken of her job or mine since I brought it up earlier in bed, but now I had to think seriously about how to proceed. For whatever reason, our paths have crossed. I wasn’t expecting her, this, anymore than I guess she had. But now here we were. A more fucked up situation it couldn’t be. I guess if this love shit was going to bite me in the ass it couldn’t go easy. For a man like me there was never a chance it would to be that simple.

  I could fool myself that this thing with her was no different than all the rest, but I knew in my gut that it was. I knew that for the first time in my life something else mattered. Instead of the things that use to keep me up at night, the cares and worries of the corruption I sought to stamp out, my mind was now consumed with thoughts of her.

  For someone who’d always looked at love and people’s variations of it as nothing more than fables, it’s quite a shock to find out that shit is real. I’ve seen grown ass men, men I respect, namely my brothers; lose their fucking minds over their women. I love my nieces and nephews, even my sisters in law and of course my parents, but it was nothing compared to what had been unleashed inside me these last few weeks.

  I knew without a doubt that I would fight heaven and earth to keep her. I won’t let anything stand in my way, I couldn’t. Not like I had a choice, it didn’t feel like I did. Being new to this fucked up game, I feel like I’m playing keep up or some shit.

  There is only one thing I am absolutely sure of, that she’s mine. I’ve never been more certain of anything in my life. With that said, there’s only one course of action; making that shit real and that means telling her boss to get fucked. I have no problem doing just that, but my prickly pear would most likely have my balls. So for now, I’ll let her handle things at her own pace. Not sure how long this magnanimous feeling would last though.

  Then there was the question of whether or not she’d be able to make the choice. As far a she knows she needs them to fulfill her own personal agenda. Would she put our relationship, what we had come to mean to each other before everything else? Or would she fold? Like fuck.

  I refuse to accept that anything could go wrong. I also know that I will not allow her superiors to mistreat her in anyway for coming to my bed. If they really want something to put me away for, let them try. The more I thought of the situation, the more I realized what a tough spot she’s in. It was also surprising that her feelings in the matter meant more to me than just having my way.

  I guess that’s another one of those hiccups that comes with being in love. You actually think more about the other person than your own personal needs. Well fuck! No one told me this shit was going to rearrange who I was, who I have been my whole fucking life.

  No matter how much thought I gave it, there didn’t seem to be a ready answer. There was no danger to my own position. I didn’t have to ask anyone’s permission. I’ve never let anyone tell me how to run my pers
onal life and I was fucked if they were going to start now.

  But I knew very well the danger she faced if we were found out. That is why whatever she was going to do would have to be soon. I’m not about to hide our relationship and I’ll be fucked if I’m going to have my woman, the one in my bed, spying on my ass for those fucks. Talk about conflict of interest.

  9

  Mancini

  When my own thoughts got to be too much, I decided it was best to get the hell out of the house. I made a trip to see my boss and gave him a full report of what went down with the operation. Though he’d already been briefed the second it was over, the old man likes a thorough accounting once I get back to the home front. This was the first time since I joined the organization that I’d been remiss. I should’ve been here hours ago.

  Once business was out of the way I could tell by his mannerisms that he had something on his mind. I didn’t need ten guesses to figure out what it was, and he didn’t keep me waiting long. “How are you?” That’s a first. I don’t think he’d asked me that question since my first year working with him. My raised brow was all the answer he got, but I didn’t kid myself that it’d end there.

  “You’re playing with fire my boy.” He studied me like an indulgent grandpa who’d long learned to live with the escapades of one younger than he. Cute!

  “Concerning what?” As if I didn’t know. I sat back in my chair unconcerned. He’d been my superior for many years. In fact he was the one that had recruited me into the organization all those years ago.

  I had a certain respect for him, because of what he stood for, what he and the men with him were trying to achieve. But I’m pretty sure he knew there was no way in hell I would let him or anyone else interfere in my personal life. Fuck that.

  “That young lady that works for the bureau, the one they sent to take you down. Are you sure you know what you’re doing? I’m sure I don’t need to tell you how dangerous this affiliation can be.” I took some time before answering. The situation was tenuous, and I understood his position well. But I’m no one’s boy to be told what to do. You’d think he’d know that by now.