Vortex s-3

by Robert Charles Wilson

  Turk seemed reassured by Bose’s reaction. “This way,” he said.

  Bose had no choice but to follow him around the corner into the back lane, where they would almost certainly be spotted… but no, there was a narrow gap between a green steel Dumpster and the ledge of a loading bay, just big enough for the two of them to squeeze into. Bose tried to get a good look around during the brief moment he was exposed. The bays of the Findley warehouse were half a block to his left. Three cars were parked in the alley and a white unmarked van had pulled up to one of the bays. The loading bay door had been rolled up, spilling a rectangle of light into the darkness. Bose tried to fix the scene in his mind, calculating relative distances and possible avenues of escape. Then he hunkered down next to Turk, who was shaking like a wet dog.

  The two guards came up the alley and into the open. Bose caught a glimpse of their yellow rain jackets as they passed the Dumpster, heading back to the open loading dock. The presence of the van explained what was going on at the warehouse, Bose thought. Findley had gotten nervous and was cleansing the building of contraband. There were boxes stacked floor to ceiling in the back of the van—probably chemicals from Lebanon or Syria, bound for black-market bioreactors.

  Bose decided he needed a better look. He went from a crouch to a kneeling position and then down onto his belly. The asphalt under him was wet but still warm from the heat of the day; it smelled like some kind of oil-drenched animal. He snaked forward and peered past the rim of the Dumpster. All he had for camouflage was his dark hair and dark skin.

  He got a good look at the man supervising the loading, a middle-aged man with a haggard expression and a flashlight in his hand. Bose recognized him as the elder Findley. “Your father’s here,” he whispered.

  After a pause the kid said, “You know my father?”

  “I know him when I see him.”

  “Are you going to arrest him?”

  “I wish I could. But I’m not a cop anymore. I can’t arrest anybody.”

  “Then what are you doing here?”

  “Helping out a friend. What are you doing here?”

  No answer.

  Bose was about to suggest that they attempt to head back the way they had come—dangerous though that might be—when a fourth car pulled up by the van. The driver got out and climbed onto the concrete loading bay and approached Findley, who gave him a what now? look. The driver said something inaudible, pointing back down the alley. Suddenly Findley clapped his hands and began to shout loud enough to be heard over the rattle of the rain, telling the loading crew to finish up and pull in the security perimeter.

  Bose checked his watch. The next bus was past due: it would have arrived minutes ago. Orrin, he thought. His best guess was that one of Findley’s security men had spotted Orrin Mather and brought the matter to the boss’s attention.

  The elder Findley climbed into a car with one of his security guys. The car rolled down the laneway, its wheels splashing Bose and Turk where they crouched in the shadows. Bose saw Turk blinking at the ripples left by the car in the pavement’s skin of rainwater, aware that his father had passed within a few feet of him. Much of the rage that had carried him here seemed to have collapsed into confusion.

  More footsteps down the alley behind them: the lookouts had been called in.

  “We need to get out of here,” Bose said. He added, “We might need a distraction.”

  The kid turned up a near-tearful face. “What are you talking about? What distraction?”

  Bose said, “You happen to be carrying anything flammable?”

  Chapter Twenty-eight

  Allison’s Story

  Our aircraft could have flown days more without exhausting its supply of fuel, but there was no point in circling aimlessly. Turk found a small, steep island off the southern flank of what had once been the Indonesian archipelago and landed us there. The island was far enough south to be out of range of the falling fragments of the Arch and high enough to protect us from any resulting tsunami. The aircraft came to ground on a fairly gentle slope. The land around us was as blank and poisoned as any other part of the planet, but we could see the ocean to the southwest of us. We could have left the ship and gone outside—there were masks and protective gear in the storage lockers—but there was no reason to do so and it might have been dangerous to attempt it: gale-force winds were blowing steadily, maybe as a result of the monstrous impacts farther north.

  We discussed the possibility that the Arch might still be functional, that even in its fractured condition it might still be able to detect Turk and allow us passage to Equatoria. That was almost certainly wishful thinking, however, and it would have been insanely risky to try an approach. As soon as we had landed, the ship detected two more fragments inbound from orbit. We couldn’t see them through the cloud deck, but the impacts created a shock wave that rattled the vessel’s hull even these many hundreds of miles away. An hour later the sea receded from the shore of the island, revealing ancient dead corals and black sand, then came rushing back in a surge that would have been catastrophic had there been any living thing in the path of it.

  We could go back to Vox, I pointed out. The aircraft would do that anyway, automatically, once its fuel supply was nearly exhausted.

  “There might be nothing left of Vox,” Turk said. The Hypothetical machines would have reached it by now.

  Maybe. Probably. But we didn’t know what had caused the Arch to fail—maybe the same thing was happening to the Hypothetical machines; maybe they were disintegrating at the shore of the Ross Sea. If Vox was intact, it would still be capable of harvesting enough protein from the ocean’s bacterial blooms to support a small population.

  “In that case they’ll be fighting each other for food,” Turk said. “And if all the Hypothetical mechanisms are breaking down, that’s still not good news.”

  He was right, of course. The one Hypothetical technology we all took for granted was the intangible barrier that protected Earth from her swollen, aging sun. If that failed, the oceans would boil, the atmosphere would cook off into space, and Vox would end up as a dispersed cloud of superheated molecules.

  But I was still in favor of heading for Vox Core when the time came. It was where (as Treya) I had been born. It would be a suitable place to die.

  * * *

  That night we witnessed the biggest impact yet. The ship alerted us to a large incoming object, and Turk adjusted the window so we could monitor the northwest quadrant of the sky. Despite the heavy cloud cover we could see the fireball as a moving blur of red light, followed by a sunset glow on the horizon. A substantial shock wave was inevitable, so we instructed the ship to anchor itself to the island by means of high-tensile cables fired into the bedrock.

  The shock arrived as a solid wall of wind and hot rain. Our aircraft was pressure-tight and well anchored, but I could hear it straining against its cables—an agonized groaning, as if the Earth itself were in pain.

  I went to bed when the winds had calmed some, and that night I dreamed of Champlain—Allison’s Champlain. In my dream I walked Allison’s streets and I shopped at the mall where Allison had shopped and I made conversation with Allison’s mother and Allison’s father. All this seemed intimately real, but it took place in a world drained of color and texture. Allison’s mother served chicken pot pie and baked beans for dinner and I was Allison and I loved chicken pot pie, but the meal she put in front of me was indistinct, a diagram of itself, and it tasted of nothing at all.

  Because these weren’t really memories. They were details extracted from a dead woman’s diaries. I had learned a lot about myself and the world I lived in by masquerading as Allison, but in truth I had never stopped being Treya. Oscar had been right about that. Allison was simply the tool I had used to pry Treya away from the tyranny of Vox. For whatever that was now worth.

  I climbed out of my cot and went forward. Turk was still awake, keeping a pointless vigil. The wind continued to rage but had lost some of its ferocity. Acco
rding to our sensors, the rain beating against the hull was as hot as steam.

  I told Turk about my dream and what it meant. I told him I was tired of pretending to be Allison. I didn’t have a name worth wearing, I told him. I was going to die on an empty planet, and nobody would know who I was or had been.

  He said, “I know who you are.”

  We sat together on a bench opposite the window-wall. He put his arms around me and held me until I was calm.

  That was when he told me what had happened back at Vox Core before we escaped. He said he had talked to Oscar and, through Oscar, to the Coryphaeus. He had confessed a truth about himself.

  “What truth?”

  I thought I knew the answer. I thought he meant the truth he had been evading ever since we had plucked him out of the Equatorian desert, the terrible and obvious truth about himself.

  But he told me a different story. He told me how he’d killed someone, back when he was a young man on the living Earth. He spoke stiffly and with a grim restraint, his face turned away and his fists clenched. I listened carefully and let him finish.

  Maybe he didn’t want me to say anything in response. Maybe silence would have served him better. But there was no real future ahead of us now and I didn’t want to die with an important truth unspoken.

  After he had composed himself I said, “Can I tell you a story in return?”

  “I don’t see why not.”

  “This is an Allison story,” I said. “It happened back on Old Earth. Otherwise it’s not much like your story at all. But it’s something that weighed on her conscience for a long time.”

  He nodded, waited.

  I said, “Allison’s father was a soldier as a young man. He served overseas in the years before the Spin. He was forty years old when Allison was born, fifty the year she turned ten. On her tenth birthday, he gave her a present—a painting in a cheap wooden frame. She was disappointed when she unwrapped it—what had made him think she wanted an amateur oil-color portrait of a woman holding a baby? Then he told her, almost bashfully, that he’d painted it himself. He’d done it a few years ago, working nights in his study. He said the woman in the picture was Allison’s mother and the child was Allison herself. Allison was surprised, because her father had never seemed artistic—he made a living managing a shoe store in a strip mall, and she’d never heard him mention literature or art. But having a baby daughter, he explained, was the best thing that had ever happened to him, and he had wanted to remember that feeling, so he’d made the painting to remind himself of it. Now he wanted Allison to have it. So Allison decided it was a pretty good gift after all, maybe the best she’d ever gotten.

  “Eight years later he was diagnosed with lung cancer—no big surprise; he’d been a pack-a-day smoker since he was twelve years old. And for a few months he tried to behave as if nothing was wrong. But he got steadily weaker, and eventually he was spending most of the day in bed. When it got to be too hard for Allison’s mother to look after him—when he couldn’t eat, when he couldn’t get up even to use the bathroom—he had to go to the hospital, and by then Allison understood he wouldn’t be coming home. He was in for what they called palliative care. Basically, the doctors were helping him die. They gave him drugs for the pain, more every day, but he was pretty clear-headed up until the last week, although he cried a lot—the doctors said he was ‘emotionally labile.’ And one day when Allison was visiting he asked her to bring him that painting, so he could look at it and call back the old memories.

  “But she couldn’t do it. She didn’t have the painting anymore. At first she had hung it on the wall above the headboard of her bed, but at some point it had begun to embarrass her—it seemed crude and sentimental, and she didn’t want her friends to see it, so she put it in her closet, out of sight. If her father noticed, he never said a word. Then one day when she was cleaning out her old stuff—her baby things, dolls and toys she was never going to touch again—she put the painting in a box along with everything else and carried it down to the Goodwill store as a donation.

  “But she couldn’t bring herself to admit that, not when her father was gaunt and yellow and breathing with the help of an oxygen tank. So she nodded and said she’d bring the painting next time she came to the hospital.

  “Back home, she went through her closet as if she expected to find the painting still there, knowing all the time it was gone. She even went to the thrift shop and asked about it, but the painting must have been sold or recycled long since. So when she came to the hospital the next day her father was disappointed, and she made some excuse and promised she’d remember to bring it tomorrow, a lie that only compounded her shame. And she came back to the hospital room every day, day after day, and every day he was weaker and more frightened, and every day he asked about the painting, and every day she promised she’d bring it to him. Of course he died without seeing it.”

  There was no sound but the groaning of the ship’s hull. Fragments of the Arch were coming in more often now, their radar tracks rolling across the display like bright blue raindrops. Turk was quiet for a long time. Finally he said, “That’s Allison’s grief—the original Allison. She lived and died with it. You don’t need to carry it for her.”

  “No more than you need to carry the burden of that old killing.”

  “You don’t see any difference?”

  He was still avoiding the truth and he had missed the point of my story. So I tried to lead him to it more bluntly:

  “Think about that temporal Arch, back in the Equatorian desert. It’s not like the Arches that connect the worlds—the temporal Arches were never meant for human beings. They’re a device the Hypotheticals use to preserve information over time. Preserve it by duplicating it. The Hypotheticals took you and they remembered you and eventually they re-created you, and that means the real Turk Findley is as dead and long-gone as the real Allison Pearl. You’re a convincing replica, but you were born in a desert with another man’s memories—you’re no more responsible for that man’s sins than I am for Allison’s.”

  Turk stared at me. For a moment he looked violently angry. And for a moment I was afraid of him.

  Then he stood and walked into the aft section of the aircraft, down among the shadows, leaving me alone with the roaring of the storm.

  * * *

  Debris impacts began to diminish over the following days, and after a week the ship’s radar registered nothing above the atmosphere but a scattering of dust and fragments. All that remained of the Arch on Earth were two fractured stumps projecting from the Indian Ocean, the tallest rising five thousand feet above sea level. The Earth was entirely isolated now—as alone in the universe as it had been in the long millennia before the Spin.

  Turk and I didn’t talk about what we had said to each other that difficult night. Instead we took solace from simple words and simple warmth. We may have been false and inauthentic things, but at least we understood each other. Each of us made a presence for the other’s vacancy. We tried to pretend time wasn’t passing.

  But it was. The ship’s stores began to run low. And when it was impossible to delay any longer, Turk unmoored us from our rocky island and took us up above the highest clouds, up where we could see the stars.

  I didn’t want to stop there. I wanted to go where our airship couldn’t take us. I wanted to range out among those distant suns and worlds. I wanted to take giant steps from star to star, the way the Hypotheticals did.

  Of course I couldn’t. We couldn’t even go home. We had no home. All we had was Vox, if there was still a Vox. So we flew south, dawn to starboard and the ruins of history behind us and nothing ahead but strangeness and faint hope.

  Chapter Twenty-nine

  Sandra and Bose

  The minutes tracked past like boxcars in an endless train as Sandra sat at the restaurant window, waiting for Bose. Fifteen minutes. Then thirty. Then forty. We’re doing this insane thing, she thought, and now it’s going wrong. Outside, the storm eased and then gathere
d strength again. It was the price paid for all those weeks of remorseless dry heat, a terrible karmic balance being struck.

  Across the street, a bus pulled up. It idled briefly, then cleared its throat and ambled off into the sheeting dark. At first Sandra thought no one had gotten off. Then she saw the figure standing outside the halo of the streetlight, dressed stupidly for the weather: a yellow short-sleeved shirt that stuck to his skin like a coat of paint. A skinny kid, all ribs. It was Orrin, of course.

  She stood up without thinking and ran from the restaurant, the counter clerk calling after her in alarm: Ma’am? Ma’am?

  “Dr. Cole,” Orrin said when she reached him. He didn’t seem surprised to see her. His expression was mournful. “I got lost,” he confessed. “I should have been here before now. I guess you know I mean to stop Turk Findley from doing what he means to do.” His lip trembled. “But I think I’m too late.”

  “No, Orrin, listen, it’s all right.” The rain had gone through her clothes as if they didn’t exist, and she hugged herself to keep from shivering. “I understand. Turk got here a little while ago, but Officer Bose went after him.”

  Orrin blinked. “Officer Bose is with him?”

  “Officer Bose won’t let him set that fire.”

  “You mean that?”

  “It’s the absolute truth. He ought to be back any minute.”

  Orrin’s shoulders slumped with relief. “I thank you for coming here,” he said, his voice barely audible over the hammering of the rain. “I really do. I suppose you read what I wrote in my notebooks?”

  Sandra nodded.

  “It’s not happening the way it did. But I guess that’s to be expected.”

  “How do you mean?”

  “It’s not just one thing,” he said solemnly. “It’s the sum of all paths.”

  Sandra wanted to ask what he was talking about, but not while they were standing exposed at the bus stop. “Come across the street with me, Orrin. We’ll wait for Bose over there. He won’t be long.”