My Soul to Win

by Robin Roseau

  “Oh, shit.”

  “So, of course, none of the big firms used it.”

  “But new firms sprouted.”

  “Yep. And with about five million programmers contributing…”

  “They kicked asses.”

  “Totally.”

  I laughed. “That works.” I turned to the demon. “Evaline, I have a passport. Alathea says it’s a real passport. It has my real birthday on it. I also have my social security card and a birth certificate. But I don’t know what happens if I try to use any of them. Can you imagine getting on a plane with ID that says I’m my real age while wearing this body? Besides, I’m supposed to be dead. I don’t want to answer questions about where I’ve been.”

  “I’ll do some inquiries,” she said. “I’m surprised she could do that, but didn’t simply give you a new identity. Somehow.”

  “That would have been lying, and she’s the Goddess of Truth.”

  Sue Ellen laughed. “And yet, you can lie about jumping on my bed?”

  “I thought about jumping on your bed. Maybe that was enough.”

  “Right.”

  “So,” Evaline said. “The point is this: we’re not going to worry about money. If and when you want to pursue a career, we’re happy to discuss options.”

  “I can’t sit around the house all day.”

  “You have a lot of catching up,” she replied. “And then you’re going to get fat.”

  I thought about it. “I suppose there’s nothing I can do.”

  “Maybe settle in for a few days first?”

  At that, I nodded.

  * * * *

  After dinner, we descended to the game room. Sue Ellen was a shark at air hockey, although I noticed Evaline didn’t try to play. While Sue Ellen was beating Marley for another game, I stepped up to Evaline’s side, and she wrapped her arm around me. “Demon reaction times?”

  “Yep. I play other games, though, the ones that don’t give me a natural advantage.”

  “Are you happy, Evaline?”

  “You were the only thing missing,” she said. “I took a pragmatic approach to that.”

  “Missed me, but as long as I was in Heaven, you could make a life work here?”

  “Yes. Please don’t hate me.”

  “I don’t,” I said. “It was the right approach. I wasn’t the only one who spent time in Hell.”

  “Tienbellart didn’t abuse me. Teigan, I should have done a better job protecting you.”

  “Yes, you should have,” I said. “But I don’t believe you engineered or foresaw events. So we’re going to chalk it up to a mistake. We all make them. I was careful a year ago, because I didn’t want this to be too encompassing. But I forgive you for any mistakes you’ve made that have cost me. If you feel a need to talk about it, you need to get it out of your system, because I really want to look forward. I’m sure from time-to-time I’ll talk about my time with Theophania. But everything that happened after she took me from you is her fault, not yours.”

  “I’ll probably feel guilty for a long time.”

  “Is guilt a demonic emotion?”

  “Not normally.”

  “Then maybe you’re turning increasingly human,” I replied. “When I need you, it’s not about anything you did to hurt me. It’s about Theophania and about me. So you work through your guilt, because I’m going to need you, and I need to feel free to be selfish for a while.”

  She smiled. “Be as selfish as you want.”

  * * * *

  Later, four of us ascended the stairs together. At the top, Sue Ellen turned to me and pulled me into a tight hug. But then she whispered, “Oops,” and relaxed.

  “Seriously,” I told her. “I’m two days pregnant. Stop acting like I’ll break from a hug.”

  “I’m glad you’re home, Teigan,” she said. “Please, say it for me.”

  “Say what?”

  “Say you’re home.”

  I thought about it, kissed her cheek, and said, “It’s good to be home.” We separated, but only enough to look into each other’s eyes. “I don’t know if I’m your third mom or your big sister.”

  “Third Mom,” Marley said at the same time Sue Ellen said, “Big sister.”

  “No way,” she added. “I already have two moms.”

  “It seemed to me,” Evaline said, “That it was your idea. You’re the one who said you were the big sister to the twins. You can’t be a big sister to your big sister’s kids. That would make you their aunt. So, deep down, you already knew the score.”

  “You’re going to throw that at me?”

  “Third mom it is,” I said with a grin.

  “Fine, fine,” she said. “But between us, one of us has a driver’s license, and one of us doesn’t.”

  “So she does,” I admitted. “It’s good to be home, Sue Ellen. Thank you for helping me feel welcome.”

  She smiled, and then she bounced away to her room. Evaline took my arm, and I let her and Marley lead us to the master bedroom. Inside, we all looked at each other a little awkwardly. “I want to ask something,” I said.

  “Sure.”

  I gestured to the bed, and then to each of us. “Are you both sure this is what you both want?”

  “Why are you asking?” Marley asked.

  “Because if it’s what everyone wants, why am I still wearing any clothes? But if you guys are feeling awkward about it, I could sleep in the guest room.”

  “Well, you know the demon will take anyone to bed who looks remotely willing,” Marley said. “So this is really about me.” Then she took two steps forward and began unbuttoning my blouse. Evaline stepped behind me, just acting as an unnecessary wall, but I pressed against her for the comfort.

  Marley finished the buttons, gazing at the exposed skin for a moment before lifting her eyes to mine. “Is this what you want, Teigan?”

  “No. Why are you still wearing clothes?”

  She smiled. “Can you answer me seriously?”

  “It won’t be the same,” I said. “I’m not the same. I don’t know if I’m ever going to want… half of what we used to do.”

  “Our old sex was fabulous,” she said. “But it was never about hedonistic pleasure.” She took a half step closer and lifted a hand. She traced lines on my skin, pushing the blouse open a little more widely to do so. “Tell me what you want, Teigan.”

  “I want to be selfish,” I said. “And I want to be held. And…”

  “And?” She moved even closer. “Do you want to watch?”

  “Yeah,” I said.

  “There’s something I didn't do earlier, and I’ve been kicking myself for hours.”

  “What?”

  “This.” She set a hand on the back of my head and pulled me in for a kiss. Her free hand found my breast, still in a bra.

  I wrapped my arms around her, but then behind me, Evaline pulled them back to draw the blouse from me. I cooperated until she got the bra off me, and then I went back to wrapping my arms around Marley’s neck.

  She could still kiss. Oh, it hadn’t been 26 years, as we’d shared a bed with Grace. But it had been a year, and even then, this was different.

  “Don’t stop, Marley,” Evaline said. And then she wrapped her arms around me and went to work on Marley’s clothing.

  Marley and I kissed, and kissed, and kissed. I stopped thinking about more than how much I loved her.

  Evaline had to move around some, but she got us both entirely naked while not removing a stitch of her own clothing. But then she whispered, “Help me get her to bed, Marley.”

  While still kissing me, Marley got us moving. I let them push, pull, and prod me to the bed, sitting up, partly under the covers. And then Marley pulled away. She was flushed, and I was panting. “What do you want first, Teigan?”

  “I want to watch,” I said.

  “Okay.” She gave me another kiss, a quick kiss, and then she turned to Evaline.

  The two of them together were so hot, so hot! Evaline let Marl
ey undress her, and she was every bit as stunning as she’d always been. The two kissed, and from time to time, they gave me some attention, too.

  Then Evaline took some of the pillows and made a nest for Marley, lying crosswise along the foot of the bed. And then, as I watched, she made long, slow, and very, very thorough love as Marley writhed and moaned and called out her name. She clutched the bedding and gave out a gentle wail as she came, the shudders shaking the entire bed.

  Evaline paused, then she collected Marley in her arms and pulled her up so she was cuddling with me. Evaline made adjustments, and then we made a little sandwich, with Marley on her side facing me, her head on my shoulder.

  I kissed her forehead. “That was so hot,” I whispered.

  “I want you so much,” Marley whispered back. “Teigan, in this bed, we lay our claims. But it’s not like…”

  “I know it’s not,” I said. “Claim me, Marley. Both of you.”

  She smiled broadly, and a little predatorily before lowering her lips to my nearest breast.

  I gave a little gasp before closing my eyes. Evaline shifted, and then I was receiving attention from both of them.

  From watching the two of them, I was already pretty worked up. They got me a lot worked up, and then Evaline crawled her way up my body, her hand teasing my sex. “I know what I want us to do to you, Teigan, but maybe it’s something you never want again.”

  “What?” I whispered.

  “A very, very long tongue, right…” She slipped two fingers inside me. “There.” Then she moved for a minute, and I began panting.

  “Yes,” I said finally. I opened my eyes. “I’m not letting bad things from the past make these decisions. I love both of you. I love all sides of you.” I shifted my gaze. “You’re stunning either way.”

  Evaline smiled, and then she shimmered, and I was looking at her demon form. “Are you sure?”

  “Yes.”

  She kissed her way down my body. Then, with Marley whispering in my ear, nibbling at my ear, Evaline found me.

  “Yes!” I screamed, several minutes later. “Yes! Yes!”

  * * * *

  It was sex. Mind-blowing sex. And being able to enjoy that meant a lot to me.

  But it wasn't just sex. It was also love, and acceptance. I knew, beyond any doubt, they both loved me, and I loved them.

  And that was the source of real magic.

  Cover Art

  The cover art is by the very talented Simon Zhong. You can find more of Simon’s work at https://www.deviantart.com/montjart.

  About the Author

  A writer by avocation, Robin has a renaissance interest in many areas. A bit of a gypsy, Robin has called a few places home and has traveled widely. A love of the outdoors, animals in general and experimenting with world cuisines, Robin and partner share their home with a menagerie of pets and guests, although sometimes it is difficult to discern who is whom.

  Robin can be reached via email as robin.roseau@gmail.com. Robin's web site is http://www.robin-roseau.com.

  Works by Robin Roseau

  The Madison Wolves Series

  Fox Run

  Fox Play

  Fox Mate

  Fox Afield

  Fox Revenge

  Fox Dish

  Fox Lost

  Wolf Watch

  Wolf Ways

  Wolf Women

  Fox Fate

  Jaguar

  Omega Born

  Omega Life

  Omega Choice (coming soon)

  Fox Short Stories

  Hunting Pups

  Fox in the Water

  Fox Rematch (set after Fox Mate and Fox Afield)

  Fox Opponent

  A Foxy Valentine

  Other Books in the Madison Wolves Universe

  Familiar

  Kitty Cat

  Poor Little Witch Girl

  Seer

  Seer: Thrall

  Seer: Guardian

  The Selected Series

  Collected

  Taken

  Volunteer

  Candidate

  Recruited

  Galatea

  Beginnings

  Lottery

  Selected Roommate

  The Games People Play Series

  Stories that ask a simple question: do you want to play a game?

  Do You Want to Play a Game?

  My Soul to Play

  My Soul to Lose

  My Soul to Win

  The Five Kingdoms

  Privateer

  Searching the High Seas

  The Pawn Series

  Pawn

  Bishop

  Rook

  Queen (Coming Soon)

  Ressaline

  Encircled (Claary)

  Delegation (Allium)

  Ambassador

  Princess

  Crown (Ahlianna)

  Other Novels and Novellas

  Anonymous Bidder

  Blood Slave

  A Charming Brew

  Emergency Claus

  Encircled

  Fitting In

  Fluid

  Free to Love

  Galatzi Trade

  Galatzi World

  Galatzi Joy

  Galatzi Life

  In Custody

  Lace

  Lost in the Words

  Metabrain

  Mind Wipe

  Outside The Box

  Red Paws Inn

  Reluctant Host

  Stark's Dell

  Submission

  Sugar Baby

  Surprise

  The Interrogation

  Tresjolie

  Trust

  White

  The Ski Bindings Shorts

  Short stories of love and lust amongst the slopes.

  Snow Fox

  Short Stories

  Cooking for Love

  Southern Night

  Captured by the Raptor (writing as Rosetta Robins)

  My Soul to Win

  Copyright 2019 by Robin Roseau

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, places, businesses, characters and incidents are either the product of the author's imagination or are used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons living or dead, actual events or locales is purely coincidental.

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  Table of Contents

  Cast of Characters

  Dancers from Club Vixen (And Family)

  Demons of Hell

  Gods

  Credits

  Bearings

  Labor of Love

  Searching

  Evidence

  A Few Answers

  Sue Ellen

  Evaline

  Angel and Fae

  Wings

  An Army

  Part Two

  Portal

  Bound Demon

  Bound Human

  Quentaslart

  Rising

  Recovery

  Part Three

  Nifili

  Pentagram

  Preparations

  Tienbellart

  Part Four

  Home, Or Something Like It

  Divinity

  Time

  Decision

  Fall: Revisited

  Hello

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  About the Author

  Works by Robin Roseau

  The Madison Wolves Series

  Fox Short Stories

  Other Books in the Madison Wolves Universe

  The Selected Series

  The Games People Play Series

  The Five Kingdoms

  The Pawn Series

  Ressaline

  Other Novels and Novellas

  The Ski Bindings Shorts

  Short Stories