Moon Craving

by Lucy Monroe

  Really. She was accustomed to being ignored by her family, but this was getting out of hand.

  For good or ill, Talorc gave her his full regard. “Niall is not my second-in-command. His brother holds that place.”

  “But …” She did not understand. “Which one is his brother?” She looked at the other warriors, not seeing any that looked like they could get away with ordering Niall about.

  “Barr has command of the clan while I am away,” Talorc replied.

  “I see. So, Niall is your second-in-command at present.” She nodded, satisfied by her ability to reason that out in her current state of exhaustion.

  Talorc did not reply. No doubt because he did not wish to admit she was right.

  “I will look forward to meeting him, then.”

  “Why?”

  “Because he is your second, and I like his brother. I am bound to like him.”

  “You like Niall?” Talorc asked.

  “You needn’t be so incredulous. I do not hate the Scottish as you do the English.”

  “Most in our clan find Niall intimidating.”

  “Then they must find you positively terrifying.”

  That had Talorc looking pleased and Niall laughing, which from the shocked expressions of the other soldiers, must not happen often.

  Abigail decided she had had enough of the discussion and attempting to be awake when all she wanted was to sleep. So, she curtsied and excused herself before ducking into the tent. Bright moonlight filtered between the edges of the plaids draped to make the walls of the tent and soon her eyes adjusted.

  She had barely removed her shoes so she could settle on the furs when Talorc joined her, making the already small quarters feel overwhelmingly crowded. She scooted to the very edge of the tent to make room for him.

  He handed her an apple. “Eat.”

  She thought of arguing, saying she just wanted to sleep. Only it would probably take more effort to convince the big warrior than to eat.

  She accepted the apple and took a bite. Crisp and juicy, the fruit’s flavor exploded over her taste buds, reminding her body how long it had been since she’d last fed her stomach. When she finished with the apple, he handed her a skin of water to drink from. She drank and then found herself presented with a hunk of yellow cheese and a hard roll. She ate the cheese.

  However, after one bite of the hard roll and chewing it for what seemed forever, she placed it aside. “I’ll just save this for the morning.”

  “I will provide you with food to break your morning fast.” He looked downright growly.

  “I’m full.”

  He narrowed his eyes. “Are you sure?”

  “I’m not a warrior. I don’t need that much.”

  “I’ll not have you wasting away, wife.”

  She felt a blush climb her cheeks at his verbal claim to her. “I won’t.”

  “You are small.”

  “Are Highlander women so much larger, then?” Emily hadn’t mentioned such a thing in her letters.

  “Nay, but you are fragile.” He said the last word with a twist of his mouth.

  Ah, the weakness thing again. “Emily is no bigger than me, and she’s doing just fine among your brethren.”

  “She lives among the Balmoral.”

  “Same thing.”

  “No, it is not.” He frowned fiercely. “We are the Sinclair, they are Balmoral.”

  “Are there no Chrechte among them?” she asked, trying to understand her new husband’s point.

  Perhaps he thought the fiercer warriors a danger to her. Though that didn’t make much sense to her either, but then much of the way men thought didn’t.

  “The Balmoral is Chrechte.”

  “Emily’s husband?”

  “Aye.”

  “There, you see? I will do fine.” She might be afflicted, but that had only made her stronger, not encouraged weakness.

  Though only Emily had ever acknowledged such.

  “You think to compare me to the Balmoral?”

  She decided she would be best served with one of the shrugs so popular with the Highland warriors.

  He shook his head as if unable to believe her. “You are a Sinclair now, you will not forget that.”

  “Trust me, I’m not likely to.” She was deaf, not daft.

  “It is time to sleep.”

  “Finally,” she muttered as she turned and attempted to find a spot to lie on that would not put her body into contact with his.

  He had no such compunction. As he stripped his plaid and shirt from his body, he made no effort to avoid brushing her side with first an arm and then his leg.

  “Are we on Sinclair land then?” she asked with a squeak she could not be sure had enough volume to be heard.

  He turned to stare at her. “Nay.”

  “But …”

  “Undress. You’ll not sleep all twisted up in your plaid.”

  “I …”

  He blew out an impatient breath. “You may remove your plaid under the furs to protect your modesty.”

  He should have thought of that before hopelessly compromising it by getting wholly naked in front of her. She’d never seen a man’s body before, and she found it both frighteningly repelling and inexplicably fascinating.

  He made no move to cover himself as she stared at him in helpless curiosity. In fact, the part he should have covered and that she should definitely not have been looking at began to grow. She remembered he’d mentioned such a phenomenon that morning, when explaining the marriage bed. But she had not understood what he meant. Now, she did.

  Oh dear, did she understand. It was quite amazing and entirely mortifying. Especially since she could not seem to look away.

  “That’s …” She licked her lips and swallowed. “Does it get bigger?” She was unable to stop herself from asking.

  “Keep looking at it like a kitten ready to lap up cream and it will.”

  She jolted at his words. “I … I wasn’t. Not thinking of licking.” Licking? Was he truly serious? He looked so, not a flicker of amusement anywhere in his expression. But licking?

  He’d told her they might do that. Taste each other in such intimacy. She’d thought he must surely be exaggerating, playing on her ignorance. Clearly, he hadn’t been. Oh, my.

  Did he expect her to do that now?

  He reached for her.

  Surprisingly, she did not faint again. And showing a complete lack of self-preservation, she made no move to run screaming from the tent.

  His face a mask over some emotion so fierce, the very blankness alluding to it, he untied her belt. She grabbed it and stared at him, unable to voice a question or complaint.

  He said nothing. No words of comfort, no demand she not impede him.

  Was the fire burning in his blue gaze lust? A man’s desire for a woman was not something she had any experience with. Though Jolenta had told her stories, implying the whole time that Abigail would never have to worry about such a thing.

  Isn’t that what they’d all thought, Abigail herself included?

  Sybil had not come right out and said she did not think Talorc would want Abigail, but she’d implied it well enough. And yet, isn’t that what Abigail saw in his eyes right now?

  “Do you want me?” she asked, once again showing her self-protection skills were at a very low ebb.

  But she truly needed to know.

  “Yes.”

  “But I’m English.” Shut up, Abigail. She’d spoken more to her husband in the past day than she often did in a week. Surely she could stop talking. But words just kept popping out of her.

  “I will not claim you now,” he said, ignoring her last comment.

  Then why did he wish to undress her? This question she managed to keep to herself. Barely.

  He tugged at her belt and, of their own volition, her fingers released it. For surely she would not have done so on purpose. He pulled it away and began undoing the pleats of her plaid. Shock and a strange stirring in her belly held h
er immobile as he removed the blue, green and black fabric from her body.

  When he finished, he knelt there, unmoving. Unsmiling. Silent, but his gaze spoke volumes could she interpret the messages there. Her blouse barely reached her thighs and her shift only a few inches beyond that, but at least she was not as naked as he. That was something. So, why did she feel as if he could see right through it?

  Suddenly, she remembered that the furs they knelt on were for more than cushioning her body from the hard ground. They would afford protection from the incendiary heat of his gaze.

  When she scooted to get under the furs, he stopped her with a hand on her naked calf. “Do the English sleep in their clothes, then?”

  She shook her head mutely.

  He began to tug at the hem of her blouse.

  She grabbed it and held it in place. “You said I could undress under the furs.”

  He looked like he would argue, but after a few seconds he nodded. “Do it.”

  She clambered under the fur, forcefully keeping her eyes away from the stiff member between his legs. Flesh that had indeed grown to truly intimidating proportions. Within seconds, he had joined her, showing her supposed reprieve to be a false hope. She could even feel his naked leg touching her own under the soft furs.

  She would have moved away, but he put that stone-hard arm that had kept her safely on his horse for so many hours around her waist and tugged her close to him. “Let’s get rid of this now.”

  She was so lost in nerves she could barely read his lips as he spoke, much less make sense of the words.

  His big hand grasping the hem of her blouse again explained to her senses what her brain refused to grasp. He didn’t wait for her assent, just started tugging the blouse upward, and then it was gone, leaving her vulnerable in nothing but a too-thin shift. Seconds later that was gone as well, leaving her completely naked outside the bath for the first time in her adult life.

  Yet as much as she feared the unknown, she did not fear him. He had said he would not take her until they were on Sinclair land. She trusted him to keep his word. Something deep inside her told her she could.

  “You are mine,” he said, a feral expression in his eyes.

  She could do naught but nod.

  He reached out and yanked the flap down on the tent, cutting off the light from the rapidly fading sky. There was barely enough light to see his form, much less read his lips.

  She could tell he said something, but not what it was.

  She reached out and placed her hand against his lips. “No talking.”

  She had no idea how he would receive the order, but nothing could have prepared her for the kiss that he gave her. His lips dominated hers, demanding entrance into her mouth, silently claiming his right to her.

  She could do nothing but allow her lips to part. Inexplicably, she craved such intimacy. His tongue slipped between her parted lips, gliding past her teeth. He tasted like apples and the dry biscuit she had not eaten, but more than that. There was a wild, feral flavor to him that her woman’s instincts told her was nothing but her husband.

  And she who had been starved of any affection for the past two-plus years could not get enough. The truly intimate sensation of tasting him in a way no one else had a right to do was instantly addictive. She savored his tongue with her own. He allowed her untutored exploration for long patient moments. A jolt like lightning burned all the way to the most feminine part of her as his patience broke and he began to suck on her tongue.

  She stopped caring that she was naked, stopped worrying that he was, too, and simply reveled in the amazing and blissful connection between them.

  He rolled on top of her, his body hotter than the furs. Rather than feel frightened by being blanketed by the huge warrior, Abigail felt safety unlike anything she had ever known. His hard knee pressed her tender thighs apart and she did not resist.

  That big, hard manhood rubbed against the apex of her thighs, and she thought she might expire from the pleasure of it. She knew they were not actually copulating; he was not inside her as he said he would be. But she could not imagine anything more personal. This was something she would never share with another.

  Something he would give only to her. He’d told her that, too.

  His mouth slid from her lips to move down her jaw and then onto her neck, where he stopped. She waited, her panting breaths sawing in and out of her. Finally, he broke the suspense of the moment.

  He gently bit the join of her neck and shoulder, pressing down so she could feel his teeth in a circle of claiming. She did not think he would break her skin, but his teeth felt unusually sharp. Or perhaps her senses had simply been heightened.

  To near-unbearable levels.

  He began to suck hard enough she knew it would leave a mark. She could not make herself care. Instead, she arched her neck in silent invitation to continue the unexpected pleasure. Shocks and excitations shivered through her body, the wonderful feeling from his biting kiss almost too much.

  His teeth slid from her skin and he laved the small sting, building pleasure upon pleasure.

  Her body writhed against his, though she’d had no conscious thought of doing so. Their skin slid along each other. And it felt delicious. Incredible. How could any woman withstand such pleasure?

  Her hips arched toward something she could not name.

  Hard hands pressed down on her thighs, stilling her movements.

  Then he was on his knees above her, his mouth burning a trail downward until he reached her breast. When he gave it the same series of kisses he had on her neck, she felt a keening cry leave her throat. But she could do nothing but let out a silent wail of indefinable pleasure when he moved to pay similar attention to her nipple. He played, first with his tongue and then with his teeth, until she thought she would die from the unfulfilled, nameless longing coursing through her.

  But his mouth did not stop there; he moved farther down, stopping several times along the path he had set for himself. Each time, she thought she would reach some pinnacle of pleasure that might well kill her, but in each case, he moved on as her body verged on the precipice.

  When his mouth covered her most intimate flesh, she was so far drowned in the pleasure he had given her she had no thought to protest. He licked at her and then stabbed inside her with his tongue, not far enough to breach her maidenhead, but deeply enough that she felt irrevocably marked as his.

  They lay together in a tableau so unbelievable, her mind refused to picture it—his head between her legs, his intimate kissing so intense she could barely breathe. He reached up with both hands, first cupping her breasts as if weighing their small curves before pinching both her nipples at once. She screamed … did not know if it had been silently or not, and could not make herself care if his warriors had heard.

  He changed the way his tongue moved on her. The cliff of pleasure she had felt over and over drew closer, and then she was going over, her body going rigid as convulsions rocked her. He took her through the pleasure and into a series of smaller inner explosions until her body fell limp against the furs below her.

  He surged up between her legs and reached for her hand. He placed it over the burning heat of his erection. Her fingers curled around him convulsively. He wrapped his hand around hers and began to move them both over his male heat.

  His hips snapped too and fro, his hand around hers so tight it bordered on painful. Then she felt him give a triumphant shout, the sound beating in the air around them even though she could not hear it. Hot liquid landed on her stomach and breasts, searing her with yet another act of his possession.

  Talorc’s wolf howled his triumph as the warrior shouted his pleasure and his seed shot out to land on the silken skin of his wife. The climax lasted longer than any orgasm he had ever had, each spurt of his come that landed against her skin giving his wolf feral pleasure Talorc could not begin to deny.

  When he had finished climaxing, he leaned forward and began to rub his seed into her skin, marking Abig
ail in an unmistakable way for all Chrechte warriors to recognize.

  Unlike other women who might have objected to something so earthy, Abigail lay compliant below him as he caressed every last drop of his come into her skin, until she was so thoroughly marked with his scent his own wolf would have a hard time distinguishing between their bodies.

  She was his and all would know it.

  Chapter 6

  Abigail woke alone.

  After an initial pang of disappointment, relief flooded her. She did not know how to face Talorc after her wanton behavior the night before. It had felt so natural then, but in the first light of day, it seemed aberrant. She wished she could convince herself it had been a vivid dream. An amazing, if outrageous, dream.

  Anything but the embarrassing reality that it was.

  Did men and women really engage in such acts as a common occurrence in the marriage bed? Regardless if others did, she had a feeling she and her husband would. Talorc was not a man to deny himself what he saw as his, she thought. Add that to his assurance the morning of their wedding that he expected them both to find pleasure in their shared bed, and doing such again would be a definite matter of course.

  At least until he learned the truth of her affliction.

  She could only be grateful she would have experienced the mysteries of her own womanhood by then.

  What had once terrified her had become a journey she was eager to take. And that, as much as what they had done last night, mortified her.

  She was a true wanton.

  Surely, she should not be so eager. Not that propriety mattered one way or the other. She spent too much time hiding her deafness, she had not subterfuge leftover to mask this newfound need. And no stomach for doing so either.

  With that truth resounding in her conscience, she sat up and looked around her. No sign of Talorc. Again relief assailed her. The flap was down on the tent, but morning light filtered in from the outside. It looked like the cool light of early dawn. Knowing her laird, he would expect to return to their journey north soon.

  She pulled back the fur covering her and reached for her shift, but stopped and wrinkled her nose. She smelled like him. Like sex with him.