Fosters: Blackhawk

by L. Ann Marie

  He gets them watching a movie and playing in the living room as they finish. We all meet in the dining room. Cloud gets beer for everyone but me and Nancy, he gives us a glass of wine. Brenda leaves for the day saying she'll see us Monday. I can't believe she’s willing to come back with all the craziness that went on today but I'll take it. I have a feeling this is just the beginning of crazy days.

  Danny, Kate and Ben come in with pictures of they're beautiful grand babies. Kate is so proud. I hug her and she cries. Aleena gives her the box of tissues. Danny thanks us and collects their kids. All the kids thank us and hug me. They're so sweet. Little Ben goes home with them. Nancy and Tiny leave with Sandy; I thank them for all their help. All that's left is Aleena and Chase. What a friggin day.

  Chase and Cloud take Christian to walk Max while we get everyone else into bed. I give extra hugs to Brantley and Taylor. Joey is excited about being able to hang with Ally today. I smile at the, 'hang', teenage word. She got this from Lori and Jess Baxter when they slept over.

  By the time I finish with Joey Christian comes in with Max. He takes Max's bed up with him and puts it in front of his platform. I do the night check ritual and go out to the front with the adults just in time to say goodbye to Chase and Aleena.

  I am so glad we are alone. I pull Cloud to the patio stopping to get a beer and my wine off the table and push him into our chair. I sit in between his legs and lay back. He laughs. "It was a rough day. It all turned out ok though. We even got the garage almost finished."

  "Yes. I just need to be right here right now." I adjust his arm on my stomach. "Tess' babies are beautiful. All the kids are, but newborn babies aren't usually."

  "I thought it was just me. I have a soft spot for Tess, she so fuckin cute. Everyone watches out for her." I can hear his smile.

  I smile too. "She is. She came over today because Christian was hurting. I think she wanted to leave Max with him."

  "That's what Rich said. While she was in the hospital she wanted him to know he wasn't alone. Steve is going to work with him for a couple of weeks. Whatever happened today Steve said Christian gave it to him; he was able to see what Christian didn't understand. I think it's good that he wants to help. He does that with Tess too. He helps with what's too hard for her to look at." He leans sideways to see me.

  "I think it's good that he can handle what they can't. I don't understand enough to say it's wrong or right. Tess thinks it’s right and I know it's crazy, but I trust all of them to make the right decisions where the kids are concerned. They haven't been wrong yet." I smile letting him know that I mean it.

  "You're incredible. Chase couldn't believe you let me off so easy with Brantley. He thought you were going to deck me. To tell you the truth, I did too." He's smiling.

  I laugh, "I was thinking about it, but I don't know what normal is so I have to gauge by other people. If that's your normal then it will have to be mine too. Really, who lets a kid fly a plane at twelve? You're here and turned out fine so it couldn't have been so bad."

  "Incredible. Thank you. I didn't have normal either but I had lots of love to make up for it. Like our kids. We'll make it good for them." He kisses my ear. I love when he calls them our kids. "Pres offered to marry us before the adoptions. He said you can just pick a day."

  I turn around, "Really he can do that."

  "Yeah he married Rich, Tess and Patches. I was thinking of taking a week and bringing the kids to Disney and Universal. Unless you want to go somewhere alone." He says like it’s nothing to just hop on a plane with six kids.

  "We'd need court orders and Christian may not do well with large crowds. I don't even know what's up with Jeremy." I tell him hoping I didn't just burst his bubble.

  "Maybe a week on an island? I can see if Mitch can come up with a wheelchair for the sand."

  "You are so friggin sweet." I kiss his chin.

  "I'm not friggin sweet; I'm not any fuckin kind of sweet." He says like it’s a put down.

  I laugh. "My mistake; pilot, ex SEAL, warrior and Badass Biker." He smiles and spins me around as if I weigh as much as a gallon of milk. Holy shit that's badass.

  "You want people at your wedding?"

  "The kids and Aleena, you?" I ask.

  "Chase and Aleena. My grandmother doesn't expect us to have a big wedding." He says with a smile.

  "We could, just to shock her." I smile.

  "What do you want baby?" He's getting impatient.

  I kiss his lips. "You me the kids, Aleena and Chase. Sounds perfect to me."

  "Ben or a priest?"

  "Ben." I kiss his cheek.

  "Where do you want it?"

  I kiss his ear. "By the water."

  "Wedding dress or something else?"

  I run my tongue around the outside of his ear and bite his lobe. "Something pretty, but practical." He moans.

  "Party after or not?"

  "Don't care." I kiss him sliding my tongue over his. He hugs me to him and stands. Holy shit. He carries me to the bedroom.

  "When?" He stands me up.

  "Doesn't matter to me. I just need a dress. You have to do everything else." I smile at him.

  "What the fuck is up with that?" He says laughing.

  "All I said I wanted is a wedding by the water in a practical dress. Anything you want to add will be added by you. I'm no damn fool. People go crazy over friggin weddings. I have enough crazy around me, I don't need anymore." He bends and starts undressing me laughing.

  "Ok baby, no crazy wedding shit happening. We should have a party; we can do that at the Community Center. The parties there are quick and easy. I'll ask Tiny and Jess to help set it up. All you need is a dress that's practical and pretty. I bet Kate can help you with that. I'll ask Ben at Baxter’s and find out when I can get a week off. Did I miss anything?" He asks kissing up my now naked body.

  "Court papers for permission to take the kids." I say distracted. He's kissing my neck.

  "We need a date for them and only for the J's and Taylor. When I get a date I'll have Ben get the lawyer on it. Maybe we should wait for all the adoption papers to be signed. We done now?"

  "I like the all at once, as for done, not even close." I say moving his hand to my pussy.

  Cloud

  I push her top half down on the bed and spread her legs. I slide my tongue down her back and across her ass. She shivers. Fuckin nice. While my mouth is on her pussy I slide my fingers in her and spread her juices onto her ass getting me closer to sliding my finger in. When she's moaning I push down, she cries out not to stop. My dick is jumping. I move my mouth up and she cries 'no' until I hit her tight hole, my fingers slide in her pussy and she pushes back moaning. I move my finger to her ass and my mouth to her clit. She rocks back and my finger slides in. She makes a sexy as hell growl. I keep moving my finger until she relaxes. I start stretching her keeping her on the edge of release but never giving it to her. She's panting and fuckin growling making my dick jump. So fuckin sexy.

  Two fingers in, I slide my fingers in her pussy and move my mouth so I can get the lube and vibrator. I turn the vibrator on and slide it down her ass teasing the hole I just stretched then to her pussy. I slide it in and leave it to get a condom on and apply lube on me and her tight hole. She moans moving trying to chase that orgasm. I smile and slide one finger in then the other. She's pushing back against my hand. "Fuck baby almost." She fuckin whimpers. I pull the vibrator out and slide it on her clit. She buries her face and screams. Fuckin hell, I'm ready to come and I haven't been in her. I slide in against her muscle contracting. I move the vibrator into her pussy and slide in further.

  Sweat is rolling down my face. She's fuckin tight and I can feel the vibrator. Holy fuck she pushes back against me sliding me in further. She cries 'more', my fuckin brain gets it and I give her more. I slide in and out pushing in further each time. She tries pulling my hip into her and I lose it, fuckin hell I can't think of anything but getting in deeper. Her hand is digging into me pulling harder. She sc
reams again and I feel her pussy contracting again. Fuck I'm done. I feel the burn down my spine and my balls tighten then erupt. "Fuck CJ." I slam her once more and fall onto my elbows.

  The fuckin vibrator is killing me. I pull out and take it out of her. She moans for both making me smile. I try to breathe deep and level my breathing. I kiss up her back with each breath. By the time I'm at her neck I can breathe. She's still panting. "Fuck baby that was so fuckin good. Thank you." She doesn't move. I smile. My girl is done. I get up and turn the tub on. I get the feeling it's been a while for her. Not that I'm going ask opening the door for her to question me.

  I take care of the condom and clean the vibrator. Putting everything away I lift her up, she's just about sleeping. I sit in the tub with her in between my legs. She moans and tries to turn. "It will help if it's been a while."

  She looks up at me, "a while?"

  Fuck I don't want to do this now. "If it's been a while you'll be sore tomorrow."

  "What if I've never done it before?"

  Oh fuck! "You've never had anal sex before?" She was fuckin married.

  "No. Does it matter? Wouldn't that be a good thing for a guy?" She's fuckin serious.

  "I don't know what to say, I'm sorry is screaming in my head. You should have told me. I could have been gentler. I'm sorry baby." I'm such a fuckin dick, I should have asked her.

  "But it felt good. I didn't know I was supposed to tell you and I wanted to try it."

  I turn her around and kiss her. So fuckin perfect. "Tell me if we're doing something you haven't done before. I'll know to be careful. Yeah?"

  She giggles. "You missed the part where I said it felt good? I liked it; I hope that means we do it again."

  "Fuckin perfect." I kiss her again. I could have fucked that up and she would have hated it for the rest of her life. My fuckin girl. She lays her head on my chest, I smile. No one else has been there and she liked it.

  I wash her then me. Getting her dried I put a t shirt on her and lay her down before she falls over, she's asleep on her feet. I dry me, clean up the bathroom and slide in beside her. She rolls putting her head on my chest. Fuckin perfect.

  Chapter Ten

  One week

  CJ

  Cloud went to church. He explains it’s a biker meeting where they find out what is going on and what needs to be taken care of. Since they had the planning meeting with the Baxter's he needs to see if he plays a part in anything that's going on. I think he's not telling me something but I guess it's the way it is, Kate says the old ladies don't get all the information about what they are doing.

  I take the kids to the Diner meeting up with Cindy and the girls from the City house. The kids talk about their new rooms and toys. They tell the girls about their dreamcatchers with the blessed beads from the shaman and the feathers they collected and dyed. I laugh because they don’t tell them that’s Cloud’s grandmother. The girls love the changes to their house. They all have dorm style rooms that they love. The bathroom was changed to a locker room style just like the boys. Cindy loves it because Danny put in a vanity area so they can do makeup and hair without fighting or yelling for the others to hurry up. We decide to have a dinner together on Wednesday since the girls have youth group on Tuesday and my house has Little Brothers on Thursday. Friday is soccer and Monday Cloud is working late. Damn but our schedules are busy.

  While the kids are talking I tell Cindy about the shopping day with Kate and Jess. She's laughing telling me they did the same thing with her minus the daiquiris. She doesn't drink. She can't believe all they bought her either. What was supposed to be a trip to Nancy's shop ended up being a five hour shopping spree all over the friggin place. They even bought me underwear then came to my house and took all my old stuff away. The girls laugh thinking this is hysterical. I'm still not sure they aren't batshit crazy. Who does that?

  We thank Sam's wife and sign for our meals. She's so damn nice. She hung the thank you's the kids made them up by the register. The kids get a kick out of it. I just get the kids home when Cloud pulls in with Chase and Jake. They get drinks and bring the boys to the back to play ball telling me Aleena is on her way. Me and Joey sit on the porch watching. The guys are so good with the kids, Chase always ends up with the J's, they love him to death.

  We see Aleena; she's on a horse with another walking behind her. Joey rolls down the ramp to see the horses. She's screaming and laughing. Cloud has to calm her down before she spooks the horses. The boys stay far away from them. Once Aleena makes it into the field behind the yard, Cloud closes the gate and brings the horse over to Joey. She talks to it and pets its nose. The boys move closer. Jake and Chase get the boys riding one of the horses while Cloud and Aleena get a special harness on the other and put Joey in it. Cloud walks holding the horse’s leash.

  "CJ I'm riding a real horse!" She's so excited. Aleena laughs and takes pictures of all the kids on the horses. Every one of the boys yells to me that they're riding. Jeremy rides with the biggest smile; Aleena gets a picture of him for me. I lean on the fence watching my kids enjoying the hell out of the horses.

  Cloud puts Christian in front of Joey and asks Aleena to get a picture of them together. Joey puts her arms around him and they both smile so beautifully, I love it. He does the same thing with Taylor and Brantley then the J's. They get the kids down and take the harness thing off. Cloud comes to me lifting me over the fence. Holy crap he’s friggin strong. He puts me on the horse and climbs up so Aleena can get a picture. I look up and kiss him; he's sweet even if he doesn't think so. We smile for the camera then the horse moves.

  "Cloud where's the leash?" I'm a little nervous here I've never been on a horse before.

  He laughs, "Horses don't have leashes, it's a lead line. I have the reigns right here. I wouldn't let anything happen to you."

  "Remember when you said I should tell you when I haven't done something before? I've never been anywhere near a real horse."

  "You're fuckin kidding?" He's shocked, I hear it but he didn't stop the horse from moving.

  "I should say that again, because the horse is still moving without the leash. I've never been close to a real horse EVER."

  "I'm not letting him do anything but walk. We won't go any faster than this. I should have let you meet him first, I had no idea." He brings us close to the fence and asks Chase to help me down. As he lifts me I hear shots. The horse moves and my neck and side are burning off my body, at least it feels like that. Jake yells for the kids. Chase yells for Aleena and Cloud holds me to him while the horse is running making the burning hurt more. I told him we needed the friggin leash but figure I shouldn't point that out right now.

  I'm getting dizzy and feeling sick all at the same time. "Cloud I don't feel good."

  "I know baby we need to get to the gate, Chase is bringing the truck over." He looks down, he's stressed. Jake yells for him and he moves back toward the yard and fence. Another shot and Cloud has the horse running again. The grey around the edges of my eyes is getting bigger and it scares the shit out of me. I close my eyes to stop it.

  I'm moving Jake is talking to me. My friggin neck hurts. He tells Cloud to hurry the fuck up. I think he owes for that. I don't hear anymore.

  Cloud

  "Hurry the fuck up. Her pulse is fading." As if I'm not driving like a fuckin maniac now. I go faster.

  I hit the speed dial. "Chase, call the hospital and tell them we're on our way. Then call Danny I need Security at the house with the kids. Aleena has them in the first floor safe room. Go in and stay with her." My fuckin heart is pounding. I can't lose her now. I know it's only been minutes but it feels like it took an hour for us to pull in to the emergency bay.

  I jump out as soon as the truck is in park and open the door for the doctor and nurses. They put her on a stretcher and run her into an exam room. I follow then stand back watching. Once they stop the bleeding they take her into surgery. A nurse tells me it will be a while and brings me to another room to look at my arm. I loo
k down and see I got hit and didn't even realize it. "It's just a flesh wound." She nods and a doctor comes in to stitch me. They point me to the surgical waiting room.

  Pres and Kate are there with Jamie and Mitch. Danny and Kevin are with the kids. Someone went into the house looking for them. "What the fuck is going on?"

  Jamie says Ben, Beau and Geek are trying to find out. Steve comes in and puts his hand on my shoulder. "Flesh?" I nod and wave it away.

  "Is Chase still with the kids?" I feel like that's important right now.

  Pres nods. "Jake is outside the operating room. He'll be with her when she's moved."

  I go to the window and watch the trees blowing in the wind. Why the fuck is someone looking for the kids? What do they have to gain by shooting at us to get them? I watch the wind asking for strength. The sun moves changing the shadows. I will my mind to float in the wind and cover the kids and CJ.

  "Blackhawk?" I spin around to see a doctor still in surgical scrubs. I stand in front of him.

  "She'll be moved to ICU, she's lost a lot of blood. She crashed twice during surgery. We have her on a ventilator to help her breathe..." He's still talking but I'm done listening. She died twice on the table but she's alive. She's alive.

  "When can I see her?"

  He looks surprised. "I'll have a nurse come get you when she's stabilized in the ICU." I just nod.

  He turns looking at Steve. "Can you explain all I said to him when he's ready to hear it?"

  "Won't matter, she's alive. That's what he needs to know." He puts his hand on my shoulder again.

  The doctor leaves shaking his head. I go back to the window calling the spirits to be with CJ while I can't. I call to Nunánuk for healing and to watch over my kids.

  A nurse comes for me; I follow her to the ICU. Jake is in the hall, he man hugs me and lets me go. I stop short, she's so fuckin small in the bed. Machines are breathing for her, making beeping sounds, flashing numbers. I force my feet to move closer. I take her hand and kiss her head. "Believe in us CJ, come back to me baby." I hold her hand and call the spirits to guide me. A nurse comes in moving around the other side of the bed. I breathe and focus on CJ missing her look and what she says.