THE RULE OF THREE_A.C.H.E., MOTO, and TRINITY

by M. Never

  “I’ve let a lot of people down in my life, Kayla. I’m determined not to let you be one of them. You’re the one thing I’m going to do right.”

  She breathes heavily, wishing every word true.

  “So if you do stop racing,” she tests the waters, “where do we go from there?”

  Her question sparks some hope.

  “One last race,” I disclose optimistically.

  “The next one? Indianapolis?” she questions.

  “No. Isle of Man.”

  “What is that?” she inquires hesitantly.

  “It’s the ultimate street race. It’s been on my bucket list for years. And if I have to stop, I want it to be my last.”

  “Not if, Reese. You have to stop. Or you will let me down. Because you’ll be dead.” Her statement is ferocious.

  “I’m not going anywhere without a fight.” I step closer to her, eradicating the distance between us. I despise it, and I want it gone.

  “I think that’s what scares me the most. Your willingness to put liens on your body it can’t withstand.”

  “I’m going to fight to live, baby,” I assure her confidently. “No lien is too great. Change my lifestyle, change my fate.”

  “It’s that simple, huh?”

  “Why does it have to be hard?”

  “Because people don’t change.”

  “Yes, they do. I’m proof.”

  “You haven’t changed anything,” she points out.

  “I’ve changed everything,” I strongly oppose. “I’m married, and I have a baby on the way. I never wanted that. And now, all I can think about is a single-family home with one bed I wake up in every morning and go to sleep in every night. No more nomad life.”

  “Reese, I want to believe you.” The doubt is evident. “But what happens when you start to miss it? Miss the glamor, and fast pace, and adrenaline rush? I know how much you love it. I’ve seen you thrive. I’m afraid you’re going to end up resenting us.”

  “That’s preposterous, Kayla.” I secure her face with both hands. That beautiful face I want to see every day while we grow old. I want her to believe me beyond a shadow of a doubt. “I’ve had an amazing career. I have no regrets, but it has to end sometime. And take it from a man who has lived his entire life on the edge. You are the ultimate adrenaline rush.”

  She searches my face with tears in her eyes. I know she’s looking for the chink. The fissure of doubt in my features. But she won’t find it because it isn’t there. This is what I want. Her, our child, and a brand new start. I’m ready. So fucking ready. “We said I do, so let’s fucking do it.” I shake her enthusiastically.

  Kayla breaks down, laughing through her uncertainty. It’s a consoling sound.

  “Okay, Reese.” She gives in. “Let’s fucking do it.”

  38

  Kayla

  My life has yet again taken another one hundred eighty-degree turn. In a matter of days, Reese resigned from professional racing, citing personal issues. Then turned around to find a private sponsor to fund his ride for the Isle of Man Tourist Trophy. Effortlessly, they stood up a mobile garage on the tiny island located on the other side of the Atlantic. What Reese neglected to tell me about the Isle of Man TT is that it’s the most dangerous street race on the planet.

  For two weeks, the island shuts down its busiest streets so racers can careen through and around narrow, potholed roads, buildings, trees, and heaven help me, stone walls. This is not a Maryland street race. This is serious shit, and I’ve been nauseous from nerves since the moment we arrived.

  The Isle of Man is beautiful. Located between England and Ireland, it has a little bit of everything: lush landscapes, a rugged coastline, medieval castles, and a mountainous center. It’s a portrait of the most beautiful gothic tale. And although I like visiting, I will be happy to go home. I’m looking forward to some normalcy. Buying a house like we planned and decorating a nursery. That’s my idea of adventure.

  As soon as word got out Reese would be racing, the event boomed. At least, that’s what social media boasts. Since it’s Reese’s self-proclaimed final ride, fans have come out in droves. Everywhere you look, someone is dressed in a white shirt and hat supporting their beloved Phantom.

  His fans weren’t the only ones who wanted to watch his final show. Riley, Knight, Tammy, and Dev also accompanied us, Dev taking on the role as team doctor to monitor Reese. The news about Reese’s condition hasn’t been made public yet, but he plans to announce it in the upcoming months. He said he’s ready for everyone to know, and I think getting the burden off his chest will help alleviate a lot of the stress. Keeping a secret of that magnitude doesn’t do anything but weigh on a person. And he’s been carrying it around for so long, he probably won’t know what to do with his newfound peace of mind.

  I wait in the lobby of the hotel for Reese. He’s spent all day testing and tweaking his bike with his team, obsessing over every setting so the machine is perfectly tuned for tomorrow’s race. He sent me a cryptic message requesting I be ready and waiting for him at five-thirty. So here I am, ready and waiting, twenty minutes early because I can’t sit still for five fucking minutes. As the race draws closer and closer, my worries rise and rise. I try to talk myself off the ledge, ignoring the fact that two racers and one spectator have already died.

  There’s a ruckus in the hotel bar—excuse me—pub, as a bunch of rowdy drunks cheer on a race. For a split second, I wish I could drink an entire Mason jar of moonshine just to take the edge off. As I stare at the doorway, I hear Riley’s cackle seconds before he, Knight, Tammy, and Dev pour out of the adjoining room. Riley, Knight, and Tammy have been living it up while they’re abroad. And who can blame them? The atmosphere is nothing but one big party. Dev, not so much. I know the situation is difficult for him. We’ve barely spoken, but he’s been glued to Reese the entire two weeks, monitoring his every move. Whatever bygones we have, I’m thankful it isn’t coming between the two of them.

  I watch as the foursome walks to the elevator, Dev the only one picking up on my presence. Neither of us will ever admit it, but there’s still a connection. I guess there always will be. You profess your undying love to someone, there are bound to be feelings left twisting in the wind.

  Dev diverts from the group, maneuvering through the crowded lobby in my direction. I sit up in the brown leather chair, uncertain of his intentions. I don’t want to fight, and I don’t want to cry.

  “Hey.” He crouches beside me. “You feeling okay? You look a little pale.” He touches my forehead.

  “I’m fine, I think. Just first trimester challenges,” I lie. My pregnancy has been a breeze. Not even one bout of morning sickness.

  “Have you been sleeping?” he asks like the professional he is.

  “Not really.”

  “Stress?”

  “Yes, some.” This time I’m honest.

  “Understandable. You’re going through a lot.”

  “I’ve gone through a lot,” I correct. “I just keep concentrating on the light at the end of the tunnel.”

  “It will be here before you know it.” He caresses my hand.

  “I’m terrified,” I blurt out, unsure where the confession came from.

  “I know.” Dev unexpectedly laces our fingers. The small gesture grounds me, surprisingly. “It’s written all over your face. Reese knows it, too.”

  “Is he okay? Physically, I mean?”

  “All his tests look good. The medication is stabilizing his heartbeat and blood flow. But this is definitely it. No more racing. It has to end.”

  “Agreed.”

  “Kayla, I’m here if you need me. For anything, okay?”

  Need him? He has no idea how much I need him. But I’ve been terrified to ask. I see the way he looks at Reese and me when we’re together. I don’t want him to hurt any more than he already is.

  “Will you sit with me during the race tomorrow?” I throw my reservations out the window. Riley and Knight planned to park on some
grassy knoll so they can see more of the action, but I’ll be waiting at the finish line, with an oxygen mask and a bottle of Xanax.

  “I already planned on it.” He squeezes my hand.

  I smile gratefully. “Thank you.”

  “Anything for you, butterfly.” The use of my nickname burdens me with bittersweet memories.

  Dev stands just as Reese appears. He’s still wearing leathers and has his black backpack slung over his shoulder.

  Jesus, my husband is the sexiest badass ever.

  “Hey.” He bumps fists with Dev. “Headed out?”

  “Headed up. Going to call it an early night. You should, too.”

  “Plan on it. Just want to take my wife for a quick ride.”

  “Ride?” Oh shit, maybe a sundress wasn’t the appropriate outfit to choose.

  “Well, have fun.” I don’t know if Reese sees it, but the anguish in Dev’s eyes is apparent to me.

  “Let’s go, gorgeous. I want to show you the countryside.” He pulls me up, and Dev walks off. I’m left silently hoping it isn’t always going to be this hard.

  Parked outside on the street is Reese’s H2R. He brought it as his backup bike, but he’ll be racing a custom Yamaha R1 tomorrow. The same kind of bike he rode in the Moto Grand Prix.

  “Wear this?” He places the bag on my back before slipping on my helmet. “No peeking, either.”

  “Why? You got more stuff stashed in the lining?” I muse.

  “Maybe.” He pops on his helmet and climbs on the bike.

  I follow suit, tucking the hem of my skirt securely under my thighs. Here goes nothing.

  Several minutes later, we’re out of the city and surrounded by a vibrant green landscape. The road is hilly and windy, so the ride is more thrilling than a Sunday morning cruise. Then again, look at who’s driving. I should know better than to expect a Sunday morning anything.

  The ride lasts a little over a half hour, Reese finally stopping at a peak overlooking undulating hills, a small town, and the sparkling blue Irish Sea. The land is enchanting. The whole island has a mystical feel. Reese cuts the engine and removes his helmet, placing it on a patch of grass. I do the same, handing it to him once he turns to face me on the bike.

  “Hi.” He leans in for a passionate kiss, our mouths igniting like a solar flare. There isn’t a soul for miles and our connection seems to resonate through the whipping breeze.

  “Hi.” I smile back at him once we part.

  “How’s everyone doing?” He rubs my stomach.

  “Everyone is fine. Anxious for Daddy to win tomorrow.”

  “And he’s going to.” Reese reaches around me, unzipping his backpack. “Close your eyes.”

  “A surprise for me?” I shut my lids excitedly.

  “Sort of. ‘Kay, open them.”

  I open my eyes to him holding a flat wrapped present in front of me.

  “What is this?” I take it from him.

  “Unwrap it and find out.”

  Like a child, I rip off the brightly colored wrapping paper. “The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh.” I read the title out loud.

  “It was my favorite growing up.”

  I run my hand over the cover and the little tan bear indulging in honey. “I love it. The baby will, too.”

  “Open it,” he urges.

  I flip open to the cover page to find a handwritten quote.

  “If there ever comes a day where we can’t be together, keep me in your heart. I’ll stay there forever.” Tears immediately form.

  “It’s my favorite quote,” Reese discloses.

  “It just became mine, too.” I wipe my eyes. “We’ll put it on a shelf in the nursery so the baby can see it.”

  “Good. Because I plan on reading it every night.”

  “I can’t wait for that.”

  “Me either. I love you. Never forget.”

  “I won’t, because you are going to be around to tell me every single day.”

  “It’s a deal, baby,” Reese beams, the blue of the sea illuminating the color of his sapphire eyes. “Be ready.”

  “Oh, I’m ready, moto,” I lean into him, “and waiting.”

  39

  Dev

  I listen to the strong thump of Reese’s heart through the stethoscope.

  It sounds normal. If I believed in God, I’d thank him for small favors. I don’t like some of his preliminary test results. We’ll need to do a more vigorous screening when we get home, but I have a feeling, in the interest of prudence, I will recommend Reese get a pacemaker. And possibly be put on bed rest for the remainder of his life. The damage is severe, and I want to take every available precaution.

  “Good?” he asks, restlessly. I suspect the great Reese Dane is a little nervous.

  “Good.” I hang the scope around my neck. “Just remember your breathing exercises, and if you feel lightheaded, slow down. Losing is better than dead.”

  Reese laughs. “That’s what Dad used to say.”

  “I know.” I punch his arm. He’s leathered up and ready to go.

  “You have no idea how many times I wished he was here. Got to see me race professionally just once.” Reese wrings his hands together.

  “Man, he has seen you race. He has the best seat in the house.”

  “Yeah,” he agrees, melancholy. “Dev, I need you to promise me something. I know we’ve had a bit of a bumpy ride the last few months, but if anything happens . . . Today, or in the future. Promise me you’ll take care of them.”

  “Hey. Nothing’s going to happen. You’re Reese fucking Dane. You’re a legend. Legends don’t talk like that.”

  “Sick ones do.” He bounces his leg agitatedly.

  “We’re gonna fix you up, bro.”

  “Do you think it’s too late? Too late to fix the damage?”

  I choose my next words wisely. “No, I don’t.”

  He blows out some hot hair, scratching his scalp tensely with all ten fingers.

  “Hey, I’m telling you now. These hands are medical weapons. And they’re going to do a number on you.” That gets a grin out of him.

  “Just say it. It will put me at ease.”

  “I promise I’ll pick up your slack.” I try to keep it light. The last thing anyone needs is Reese getting in his own head.

  “Knock, knock.” Kayla walks into the trailer. “Everyone decent?”

  “Unfortunately,” Reese jests as she comes to stand beside him. She’s wearing a sunny yellow dress, her long dark hair a stark and beautiful contrast to the vibrant color.

  “How’s the patient?”

  “Ready to roll.” I stand up. I may be here to support Reese, but seeing them together still kills me. Like, suffocates, stabs, and poisons me all at once. “I’ll be outside.”

  “Hey!” Reese steals my scope. “Think we can hear the heartbeat?” He sticks in the earpieces.

  This is where I take my expedited leave. Kayla laughs as Reese moves the resonator around her stomach.

  “It’s way too early,” she informs him, her happiness arresting. I die a little more inside as the two of them bask in their joy. I can’t stop myself from wondering if I wasn’t such an idiot, if I didn’t let my selfishness get in the way, would I be part of their bliss? Would it be the three of us preparing for a new life? Resentment, remorse, and dejection hover above me like a threatening storm cloud.

  “When the regret sets in, remember you did it to yourself.”

  I remember, brother. I’ll never fucking forget.

  I scan the area for the nearest pub. I’m in desperate need of a pint.

  40

  Reese

  On the road before me, there’s no thinner line between victory and death.

  I tighten my hands around the grips as I wait for the go sign. The Senior TT is a solo start, which means all eyes are on me. Including the most important of all.

  Kayla’s last kiss lingers on my lips as I rev my engine like a purring cat, visualizing as much of the course as I can. I�
�ve tried to memorize every dip and curve and corner, but thirty-seven miles is a lot of ground to remember. Fear settles me as I crouch, becoming one with the machine. This is it. My last ride. One book ending so another can begin. My last competitive six laps. Two hundred and thirty miles of record-breaking speed.

  I get the go sign, release the brake, and take off furiously, my front tyre lifting slightly off the ground. It’s the beginning of the end.

  I keep a steady pace, timing my markers. I need to be the fastest, but I also need to be the smartest.

  I cocoon myself in concentration watching the needle tick on the speedometer, fluctuating anywhere between one hundred and thirty and one hundred and fifty miles per hour. The adrenaline stream constant as I lean and turn continuously through the small narrow streets of the country towns, hugging high rock walls and shooting through canopies of trees. The laps blur together as the high speeds and challenging terrain pushes every physical and mental limit. The tendons in my fingers start to tighten after the fourth lap, and my thighs and lower back burn after the fifth. The sweat is pouring and my heart is pounding as I kick jet streams of air at the spectators on the sidewalks. The houses fly by so fast, it feels as if I’m in a video game. It’s stress upon stress upon stress; hair-raising, fantastical terror bouncing on the bike at breakneck speeds.

  I watch a rider wipe out on a mountain pass right in front of me, losing a front end at one hundred fifty miles per hour, skidding off the treacherous hillside. My heart jolts and I wobble, the crash spooking the shit out of me. I realign my focus, putting the horrific image of the cartwheeling rider behind me. I have less than fifteen miles left to victory, but first place isn’t a sure thing. I’ve been battling it out with a veteran Irishman the whole race, our times nearly identical. But I’m not one to back down from a challenge, the brutal competition only fueling my thirst to win.