Lennox

by Dallas Cole

  Lennox sidles up to me—he’s moving slower, but otherwise looks in good shape. I loop one arm around his waist, mindful of his ribs, and lean into him.

  “Looking good, gorgeous.” Lennox feathers a kiss against my temple. “You’re going to be fearsome on the circuit.”

  “Well, that’s not up to me.” I risk a shy glance at Uncle D. I know he’s trying hard to be accommodating to Lennox and me both, but I doubt he’s going to mess up our crew’s roster just to give me a shot.

  Uncle D crosses his arms with a weighty exhale. “Don’t be so hard on yourself, djevojka.” He grins. “With the McManuses all dead or in jail, I’d say we’ve gained a few spare slots on the next circuit. Keep it up, and I’ll put you in. Especially when you’ve got someone like Lennox calling the shots on your comms.”

  I squeal and toss my arms around my uncle’s neck. “Oh, thank you so much! I’ll make you proud. I promise.”

  “Oh, I know it.” He gestures toward a steaming plate of burgers, which Jagger is already devouring. “If you want some more burgers, by the way, you’d better move fast.”

  Cyrus snatches one from the plate, then holds it aloft in toast to me. “To our newest road warrior, Elena. And Lennox, once he’s up to the task.”

  “Hear, hear!”

  Everyone raises their sodas or beers in toast. Even Nash, who gives Lennox a grudging nod. “Glad to have you back with us. Both of you.”

  I slide my hand into Lennox’s. “I don’t think we’ll stick around for more burgers. We kind of have other plans.”

  Lennox’s grin splits his face as I lead him back to the Camaro.

  We’re holed up in the Ridgecrest Hotel while his grandma’s house is getting a much-needed overhaul. Sturdier handrails on the stairs, a ramp up to the porch, and no-slip coating and handrails in the shower and bath. Sure, we could have blown the money on a new car for Lennox, but he insisted on taking care of Grams first. I don’t mind. It’s nice to have the hotel room to ourselves while Grams stays at a friend’s house.

  “That was some sexy as hell driving you pulled off today.” Lennox looms over me in the hotel room doorway as I dig around for our room key. “You’re a natural.”

  “Not even. I just have a very good coach.” I unlock the room and the door swings open.

  Lennox looks at me, his eyes dark, burning like embers. It stokes a fire in me, that look. That expression I’ve dreamed of almost every night since I was sixteen and he made a promise to me. I reach for his face and scrub my fingers in his hair.

  “I love you, Elena.” He slides his hands beneath my T-shirt and rests them against my stomach. My thighs tighten at his touch, flush with a fresh, sharp sense of want. “I hope you realize that by now.”

  “Yeah, I kind of got the idea when you crashed a car for me.” I kiss his chest, right at the tip of the V of his thermal shirt. “But you don’t have to prove anything to me. You don’t have to reach some sort of milestone. And you really don’t have to break any more ribs.”

  Lennox answers me with a deep kiss. I curl my fingers farther into his hair as he backs me against the hotel room wall. He tastes like warmth and comfort, enveloping me in him. I breathe him in as he presses against me. The tightness in my belly is coiled up like a spring and I’m about ready to snap.

  “I need you,” Lennox whispers as he breaks the kiss. His lips find a tender patch of skin below my earlobe and he sucks at my neck. Warmth flares inside me. I lower my hands to his belt and start to fumble with the latch.

  “I’ll be gentle,” I tell him. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

  “You’re not gonna hurt me.” He laughs, throatily, and helps me with his buckle. “Just try it. Do your worst.”

  I free him from his jeans and slip my hands beneath his boxer briefs. His shaft is already firm in my hands, tightening the spring inside me even further. Oh, god, I want him so badly. No time for teasing. We’ve gone too many years apart to care. Lennox eases my jeans down from my hips and shoves my panties aside.

  “Every night in prison, I dreamed of you.” He presses his fingers against my folds and teases them apart. I suck in my breath as cold air hits my bared flesh. “I dreamed of making you scream my name. Of pleasing you.”

  “And every night, I dreamed of you calling me yours.”

  “That’s because you are mine,” Lennox growls.

  Lennox pulls his hand free, then wraps both palms around the backs of my thighs. Hoists me up into the air. Winces, slightly, as I wrap my legs around his waist, but then he’s backing me against the wall and probing me with his cock.

  “You’re all. Fucking. Mine.”

  And then he plunges into me, pinning me in place. I cry out as he sinks into me and I give myself over to delight.

  Lennox teases one of my breasts out from my tank top as he thrusts into me and wraps his lip around my nipple. I shudder at the sensation of his warm mouth on cool skin and his deep, powerful thrusts. We work together as a system, my thighs tightening around him, his cock pulsing into me, until the world goes blurry and white around me.

  I dig my nails into his shoulder blades. “Oh, fuck,” I warn him. “Lennox. Fuck.”

  “Do your worst, Elena.”

  He slams me against the wall. Our neighbors at the hotel probably hate us. I couldn’t fucking care less. My climax is like a thunderclap, rolling through my body, and judging by the intense, hungry expression on Lennox’s face, his is much the same.

  After a few moments, he eases out of me, and carries me to the bed, cradling me in his arms. We sink into the fluffy comforter side by side and I curl up against his chest, already breathing deeply.

  “Your love was worth fighting for,” Lennox whispers as he brushes a stray hair from my face. “It was worth becoming a better man for.”

  “You’ve always been the best man I know.” I smile and kiss his forehead.

  “And now I’m yours. For the rest of time.”

  “Good. Because you can’t get rid of me again,” I warn him.

  Lennox laughs and pulls me close. “Don’t you know by now? I’d burn rubber for just one kiss from you.”

  I prop myself up on one elbow and look him in the eye. Then scan the rest of him—the hard lines of his thighs, his muscled abdomen, his scarred but gorgeous face. “Oh, don’t worry, baby.” I roll on top of him. “I’ll give you a whole lot more than that.”

  THE END

  Acknowledgements

  Starting this writing thang has been such a crazy and awesome journey. I can't thank those that have helped me along the way enough - I'm sure I'll miss someone, but bear with me. Jenn Watson & the team at Social Butterfly PR: you ladies are geniuses. That is all.

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  CHAPTER ONE

  Eighteen-wheelers rolled through Kansas City on the 70 outside the window, and noon light came in through the blinds. Neither the noise nor the light did much good for my hangover, and I didn't so much wake up as I gave up on sleeping. The day was weighing on me already.

  Maggie was still asleep. I was in her bed again, in her dead-end apartment, again, on her dead-end street. Again. I said the previous time was going to be the last time. Bad habits were like that.

  Even with her makeup smeared by sleep and sex, Maggie was hot in that way that bartenders knew how to be in order to bring in tips. I eyed the black ink of the tattoos that climbed the curve of her back, then looked away, looked down at the floor in shame. My wife had been gone for a year already. I told myself there was nothing to be ashamed of, the same as I did every time I woke up next to my co-worker with a hangover and the vague hope we'd remembered to use protection. Telling myself it was fine didn't work most days, least of all on the anniversary of Emily's death. She deserved better.

  Maggie's arm was over my chest, and I lifted it just enough to slide out of bed. Standing, the headache came on worse. Physical pain was good. A headache was good. Anything that kept me from thinking was good. I could handle physical pain.

  She rolled away, her long hair black against her black sheets, her skin freckled and tan. Her mouth was open just the slightest bit. It wasn't her fault we didn't get along. We scarcely liked working together, and she didn't care about much besides nightlife and computers and meaningless things like that. But there was a sort of vicious chemistry between the two of us in bed. I hated everything about the whole situation. If only I could quit coming back.

  I found my jeans, shoes, shirt, flannel, and hat, all scattered on the floor, but I couldn't find my belt. My pants would stay up without it, but I didn't want to give myself a reason to come over after work again, so I didn't stop looking.

  The place was a mess, even worse than my house. Stacks of takeout boxes and checkout-line magazines sat atop mismatched furniture, and after a few minutes I gave up and went to use her bathroom. My belt was on the worn linoleum floor, next to her bra. I ran the leather through the loops on my jeans, clasped the Royals buckle into place, and looked in the mirror. I could use a shave, but I was doing alright. Even with a soft job like tending bar, my arms still had definition. I adjusted my cap, then went out and crossed the room as quiet as I could, hoping to get outside before she woke.

  "Luke," Maggie mumbled, her eyes barely open. "Sneaking out like you always do?"

  "Just didn't want to wake you," I said. It was the truth, at least.

  Maggie rolled her eyes. "You gonna call me?"

  "Sure," I said.

  "No you're not," she said. "You're just going to ignore me at work and then turn around and hit on me when you get drunk after your shift. Like you always do."

  I didn't say anything.

  "Like I care," she mumbled, rolling back over and pulling a pillow over her head. "Get out of here."

  She fell back asleep, and I slipped out the door.

  Emily died in the springtime. Nobody should die in the springtime, but least of all someone so alive. Now I dreaded the warmer days, the green of the season. The memories were too strong.

  I pulled on my flannel as I walked to my truck, the brim of my cap almost working to keep the sun from doing its best to ruin my life. Still, it felt good to step up into my Chevy and turn the engine over. I let it shake to life, got my left foot off the clutch and my right foot on the gas, and took off out of that dead-end street.

  You've got this, I told myself. You're tough. You've been through worse.

  I pulled out onto the 70, cranked down the window, turned up the heat against the chill still hanging on despite it being midway through April. Cold wind poured into the cab, clearing my head a bit and knocking Granddad Cawley's dog tags where they hung from the rearview.

  I wanted a cigarette, maybe a can of Skoal, more than I wanted to deal with the day. But I'd quit tobacco for Emily. I'd promised her I'd quit, even though she was the one who'd died of cancer and she'd never even smoked. She was dead, but my word meant something to me. My word was all I had. I wouldn't disappoint her. Not anymore than I already had.

  I drove faster, instead. I ignored my phone as it went off in my pocket, I ignored the speed limit, and I let myself be grateful for my truck and the wind and the Sunday lack of traffic. Maybe I'd get out of town sometime soon. Get my boots in the dirt, get mud on my tires. Go fishing. Call my brother, maybe even my dad. Maybe.

  You could still get a pretty good house in Kansas City on a truck driver's take, and my granddad had given me a house, a fixer-upper two-bedroom place with enough yard for kids and enough garage to keep a man happy. I pulled into the drive and tried not to think about the look on that man's face when he'd handed me the deed at the wedding.

  "The hell do I need the money for anyway," Granddad Cawley had said, like he didn't care. "Was going to leave it to you in my will, but I don't want no grandson of mine plotting against me. Was going to give it to you sooner, but I didn't want you thinking things in life came much for free, either." That man had been proud, so proud, that all of his years and miles behind the wheel were enough to provide for his family.

  It was a small miracle that Granddad went to his grave before Emily did. He'd never had to know that there weren't going to be kids in that house, that I was never going to get to build a swing set in that yard. What sort of world is it, where your Granddad's death is a small miracle.

  As soon as I cut the engine, the hangover came on, and worse. I made it into the house, turned on the heat. A house should have an engine block, should just warm up from use like a truck. But it doesn’t work that way.

  Inside, I scanned the fridge, but there weren't any eggs. I still had a half a deer in the deep freeze in the garage, but nothing hot I could make fast enough to be worth the effort. No breakfast today, then. Guess I'd drag myself to Price Chopper sooner or later.

  A shower would do me better than cold cereal anyway, and I made it to the bathroom off from the master bedroom. The one I'd been working on when we'd found out Emily was sick, the one I'd never finished remodeling. I stripped, stepped into the hot water. The first half of the shower, I decided I needed a better way to keep Emily off my mind than sleeping with Maggie, because sleeping with Maggie didn't work anyway. The second half, I didn't care that it didn't work, because I didn't care about much anything at all.

  From the time I was seventeen to twenty-three, I'd lived with Emily at my side, in a bliss I didn't know the world had to offer. Now that she was gone, I wasn't prepared to face the world without her. Hell if I knew why I kept on going in the first place. I guess because Emily would hate it if I quit. And if I was honest with myself, I was afraid she might not be waiting for me on the other side if I took my own life. Whether or not I was right with God, no matter how shaken my faith, it just wasn’t a risk I was willing to take.

  The water ran cold all too soon.

  Drying off in the bedroom, I found myself flipping through the stack of proof prints from our wedding, like I did most days.

  I'd memorized every one of them.

  Emily on horseback in her wedding veil, head thrown back in a laugh, me holding the reins from the ground and staring up at her like I’d never seen anything so fine. Another with Emily in her white gown, smirking, leaned against my chipped beige Chevy pretending to aim a slingshot at me while I held back a grin. The two of us sitting on the tailgate, hand in hand, the skyline of our western city silhouetted against the setting sun, mud on both our boots.

  The photographer had charged too much, I used to think. Emily and I'd argued over it, even, in that halting, loving way that was the worst the two of us had ever really argued. She'd been right, of course. She'd always been right.

  It
was too overwhelming. I set down the stack of photos, but I could feel her blue eyes follow me across the room. April 15th, when those eyes had shut forever, was a date burned into my brain deeper than September 7th, our wedding, or September 28th, her birthday.

  I threw my clothes back on and left the bedroom.

  My cell phone sat on the butcher block counter that separated the kitchen from the living room. The house was a minefield of memories—I'd built her the countertop as soon as we moved in. I unlocked my phone and saw two missed calls, two voicemails. One from my brother Mike at 10am, the other from my work, at 1pm.

  "Luke," Mike's voice said, impatient. "Wake your ass up. Am I going to see you at church? Ever again? You even alive?"

  I deleted the voicemail before it even finished playing.

  "Hey, so I don't know if you're really into having a job," Warren, my boss, said in his familiar drawl, "but if you are, you can't keep pulling this shit. I got in this morning and the place was a mess. You didn't do the dishes, you didn't close out the register, you didn't wash the mats or take out the trash. I feel like I'm lucky you even remembered to lock up on your way out. I'm sick of cleaning up after you, and I know we're friends but I'm going to find a new guy if you do this to me again. See you at three."

  I had to be at work by three.

  I looked at my phone. Two-thirty, and a thirty-minute drive.

  Without another thought, I went out the door. There was a package on the stoop, about the size of a book from Amazon, but there was no return address. Just my name, Luke Cawley. No postage, no address, just my name.

  I picked it up, tossed it inside the house before I locked up, and ran to my truck.