Always Wanting (Consumed, Book One 1)

by Alex Grayson

  Lisa—according to her name tag—gives him a sultry look and replies, “I don’t know. Why don’t you tell me what I’m doing tonight? I get off at nine.”

  When Ava snickers beside Tegan, the waitress looks over and gives her a dirty look. I kick Ava’s foot from under the table when she opens her mouth to tell the waitress to fuck off. We certainly don’t need Ava’s big mouth getting us kicked out of here. Although, I kind of want to slap the bitch myself. I may be a hard-ass, but Ava is ten times worse.

  Either Tegan doesn’t sense the firecracker that is barely holding onto her leash sitting beside him, or he doesn’t care. He just continues with his pursuit of Lisa.

  “How about I pick you up and take you to Blackie’s? Ever heard of the place?”

  I have to force back my laugh when Lisa’s eyes widen. Blackie’s isn’t your normal hangout spot. With the stuff that goes on there, the place would be shut down if the owner, Mr. Black, didn’t have half the town in his back pocket. We’ve been going there for five years, and have done some pretty kinky shit there. There have been plenty of times I’ve been desperate for my fix, even taking guys in the back corner. If you go there, you know to keep your trap shut about the stuff you see. If you talk, your ass is booted and put on a blacklist. What happens at Blackie’s, stays at Blackie’s. And not just anyone can get in. You have to know someone in good standing with the club.

  “Oh, wow!” Lisa breathes, swooning at the invite to the exclusive club. “You go to Blackie’s?”

  “Sure do, sweetheart.” Tegan gives her a wink. “We all do.”

  She glances around the table at each of us. She even looks at Ava with a newfound respect. It’s ridiculous what being part of the club can do for a person’s image.

  She brings her eyes back to Tegan. “Yes!” she practically shouts, then clears her throat, trying her best to look cool. “I’d love to go with you.”

  I swear I see stars in the girl’s eyes. Tegan doesn’t seem to care that she’ll be using him, just to get her foot in the door to Blackie’s. All he cares about is scoring his pussy for the night. Now, all he has to do is find someone to watch him perform. I have no doubt he’ll seal the deal with someone before the end of the night. But, if not, he can always get Nathan to do it. I glance over at Nathan and see his eyes lit with interest as he looks at Tegan and Lisa. Maybe Tegan won’t have to look for someone after all.

  Tegan gets Lisa’s number and makes plans to pick her up after her shift. She bounces away, happy as can be, like she’s won the fucking lottery.

  As soon as she’s gone, Ava slams her fist against his shoulder. “You couldn’t pick someone less… I don’t know… sleazy?”

  Tegan shrugs, one corner of his mouth tipping up into a smirk. “Nope. Maybe I like them sleazy. Besides, less work for me to do later. I’ve slept with practically every girl at Blackie’s, so I need to branch out.”

  “You fuckwit. We have to hang out with her too if she’s with you. Next time, pick someone that’s not going to have me gritting my teeth all night to keep from mouthing off at her. Did you see the look she gave me?”

  He ruffles her hair, something he likes doing because he knows she hates it. She growls and shoves his hand away. “Come on, Ava. You can put up with her for a couple hours.” He bats his ridiculously long eyelashes and pleads with her in his most persuasive, sexy voice. “Play nice for me, please?”

  “Whatever,” she mutters. “Just keep her as far away from me as possible.”

  Leaning down, he kisses her cheek. “You’re the best, A.”

  “Don’t you forget it, either,” she says playfully, a smile tugging at her lips.

  “If you need someone tonight, hit me up,” Nathan pipes in.

  Tegan looks at Nathan. Seeing the interest in his eyes, he winks. “You got it.”

  Yeah, Tegan and Nathan will definitely be sharing tonight.

  An hour later, we finish our meal and wait around for Tegan to pay the bill, flirting with Lisa in the process. Me, Ava, and Nathan make plans to meet at my place while Tegan picks Lisa up, so we can all head to Blackie’s together. After, we’ll split ways. In the meantime, I head home to do tedious chores that I always neglect during the week.

  A pinch of pain starts in my lower stomach, but I push it away. Weekends are always the hardest for me since I’m not in a place where I know my needs have to be dormant. The pain will get worse throughout the day. The sweats will start soon, and so will the shakes. I can manage them for a few hours, but I know by the time we pull up to Blackie’s, the incessant cramps and uncontrollable desires will take hold until I find my willing partner for the night. I still feel dirty, having sex with a new guy every night, but I force myself to get over it. It’s not like I have any control over my addiction anyway. I’ve tried so damn hard to control it, but the pain becomes unbearable. So I’ve given up, taking it one day at a time, not caring anymore what people think.

  I don’t know if I’ll always be like this. I mean, what the hell happens when I’m old and gray, and can’t get dick anymore? All I can do is pray that my sex drive will decrease to nothing, finally setting me free. Then maybe, just maybe, I’ll have a normal life for once.

  However, as I walk through my apartment and feel the cramps getting stronger, I know that day will be a long time coming.

  Several hours later, me, Ava, Nathan, Tegan, and Tegan’s slutty bitch are sitting at our usual table at Blackie’s. I feel the tension radiating off Ava, who’s sitting beside me, and I have to give it to her. She’s held her tongue a lot longer than I thought she would. One thing me and Ava can’t stand is for a woman to take advantage of the two guys in our group; we’re all protective of each other. I recognize the fact that Tegan knows what’s going on, that Lisa is taking advantage of him and what he can give her. Ava, on the other hand, has trouble reining in her temper at times. I have control over my bitchy side, whereas Ava doesn’t, or rather, she chooses not to rein it in.

  I know she’s about to lose it, so to help Tegan out, I pull her from her seat and tug her with me to the bar.

  “Come help me order more drinks.”

  Ava shoots Lisa a hate-filled glare before reluctantly getting up. I have to yank her even harder when Lisa returns the look.

  “I swear to God, if I have to watch that skank eye-fuck another guy while sitting in Tegan’s lap, practically humping his dick, I’m going to yank her fucking hair out and shove it down her throat,” Ava growls, stomping after me.

  “Just leave it, Ava. You know Tegan’s not stupid, and he knows what she’s doing. You think he really cares? He’s only after one thing from her, just as she is him.”

  “Still pisses me off. He always picks the worst fucking cunts.”

  “It’s his choice.” I defend him, even if I do agree with her. I’ve never understood how Tegan, a guy that is so relaxed, sweet, and carefree, always picks such women.

  We make it to the crowded bar and slide in beside two guys that are grumbling over the football game that’s on the screen behind the bar. When they see us step up beside them, they both stop talking and turn their attention to us. I eye them both, looking to see if one of them could be my potential lover for the night, and mentally shout a big no in my head. It’s not that I’m overly picky—I can’t be when I go through so many men—but I have my limits, and those limits consist of no one that smells like they haven’t showered in a week. My eyes flick to the other guy. No one that’s so drunk, his beard is soaked with what I hope is beer, is also a no-no.

  One of the guys opens his mouth, but before he can say anything, Ava throws up her hand in his face and says “Not interested” without even looking at him.

  I choke back my laughter as the guy looks between us both and mutters “Bitch” before turning back to his friend.

  “You really are a cunt sometimes,” I tell her as we wait on the bartender, who’s just acknowledged us.

  “No, being a cunt would be letting him think even for a second he had a c
hance. I prefer to stop it before it gets that far. Makes it less messy.”

  Her logic is true, even if it still makes her a cunt.

  I take a seat on one of the stools as we wait. My hands fidget in my lap, and I wince when a sharp pain enters my side. I blow out a slow breath and breathe through the pain, trying to push it back.

  So far, I haven’t had any luck finding a guy. We’ve only been here an hour, but it feels more like three. I’ve come across quite a few guys I’ve had before, but I prefer not to use them again. When you sleep with a guy more than once, you take the chance of either him or you forming an attachment—no matter how much you don’t want to—and that’s one thing I refuse to do. However, it’s looking like I may have to tonight. I could ask Nathan to help me out, but his eyes have been on Lisa and Tegan, and I don’t want to pull him away from something he obviously wants. I’ll just have to make sure it’s someone I haven’t slept with in a long time.

  When the bartender brings our drinks, I snatch mine up and take a big swallow. I like my drinks strong, so it burns when it hits my throat. I welcome the burn, hoping it’ll distract me from the pain that’s steadily getting worse in my stomach. But it’s a wasted effort, because it never works. Nothing does, except sex.

  I put the glass down on the bar when my hand starts to shake so badly, the ice clinks against the side of the glass.

  “Holy hell,” Ava says from beside me. “Now that man right there, I’d definitely let fuck me five ways to Sunday. And to Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.”

  Intrigued, because it’s not often Ava shows that much interest in a man, I turn in my seat to face the dance floor. It takes me a minute to zero in on who she’s referring to, but once I do, I know for a fact that it’s the one I’m looking at.

  He’s got to be at least six foot five, as he towers over everyone around him. Even through his dress shirt and black suit jacket, I can tell he’s well-built, with muscles stacked on top of each other. His dark brown hair is just long enough to run your fingers through, and you can tell he shaves every day, but is now sporting what I would call a nine o’clock in the evening shadow.

  My body starts to tingle with awareness, wanting to gravitate to the stranger and have him take me. My panties become wet and an ache forms between my legs. I shift in my seat, knowing this is the man I want.

  I look down at the redhead that’s standing in front of him with a scowl on her face, and feel an irrational need to claw her eyes out and demand he’s already taken. He’s looking down at her, his jaw hard with his temple throbbing. He has his hands in his pockets, looking relaxed, but from the rigid way his body is standing, you can tell he’s anything but.

  She says something to him and turns to walk away, but he grabs her by the arm, keeping her in place. I watch as she says something else to him, gesturing with her other hand around her. He looks around briefly, with an unconcealed nasty sneer overtaking his face, before looking back at her. I know that look well, and it pisses me off. His look says he’s disgusted with what’s going on here.

  I turn in my seat, having seen enough. That look alone has my stomach souring. I hate people like him, the ones that think they are better than others. The ones that think just because it may be something they aren’t into, then it’s wrong and disgusting. The judgmental assholes of the world. The ones that would look at me with revulsion and label me as a freak.

  “He looks like an asshole to me,” I tell Ava, finishing off my drink and ordering another.

  “But a fucking delicious looking asshole,” she says, still facing the dance floor. “I bet I could tame that asshole right out of him.”

  I have no doubt she could, but I have no desire to know about it.

  Sighing wistfully, Ava grabs her drink and tells me she’s going back to our table. I glance over and am glad when I don’t see Tegan and Lisa. That means I don’t need to run interference for a bit.

  I sit and fiddle with the edge of the napkin my drink is sitting on, suddenly in a very pissy mood. It does nothing to help the mounting pain in my stomach, nor the headache I feel coming on. I should be up, looking for a partner, but I’m so fucking tired. So tired of the same old shit every night.

  Luckily, a few minutes later, a random guy that doesn’t smell, and clearly knows how to keep his drink in his glass, slides up next to me, grabbing my attention, and making my night a little bit easier. He seems to be nice enough, and doesn’t come off as desperate, something I can’t stand.

  I lean over and rest my hand on his upper thigh, my fingers briefly grazing his cock. His eyes drop to my hand, then up to me. They instantly fill with lust, which ignites my body and the cramps intensify. I get up from my stool and grab his hand, ready to drag him from the club and have him satisfy my insatiable need.

  A prickle of awareness rushes down my spine and I glance over, just as the bastard that was talking to the redhead looks my way as he heads toward the door. My breath catches as his eyes run up my bare legs to the short skirt I’m wearing. They continue to roam over the small glimpse of stomach I have exposed, to my breasts, and up to my face. The blatant desire I see there has my nipples tightening and my pussy clenching. I nearly stumble until his eyes move to the guy standing beside me, running his hand over my hip as he nibbles on my neck. The sneer is back on his face when he brings his eyes back to me, effectively washing away the desire I felt for him only seconds ago. It’s better than throwing a bucket of ice cold water on me.

  I bare my teeth and flip him off. Strengthening my grip on the guy’s hand, I pull him behind me as I lead us to our table to tell the other’s good-bye. I want this night over and done with.

  Chapter Two

  Colt

  I march past the beefy looking security guard and give him a glare for good measure. I barely hold back the need to give him the finger, but figure it would be slightly immature. Ever since the first day, when I came here and he tried keeping me from coming inside, we haven’t seen eye to eye. Luckily, Lukas showed up just in time, before I smashed the fucker’s teeth to the back of his head. Of course, my anger then turned to Lukas himself.

  I grit my teeth and ball my hands into fists when I think about Lukas as I make my way through the throng of oversexed people littering the floor. I’d love nothing more than to obliterate the bastard, but my sister would disown me, right before she slaughtered me. I have no clue what she sees in him. He’s an arrogant ass that has an ego a mile wide, but for some reason, she worships the ground he walks on. She’s nineteen to his thirty-five, and it bites my ass and makes me gag every damn time I see him near her. My sister, Tera, is a bitch of the highest order. She’s not afraid to show her temper, which is just as hot as her fiery red hair, but she’s still my innocent little sister, no matter how much she claims she’s not. She’s vulnerable at this age, and Lukas fucking Black takes advantage of her naïve mind.

  This is the second night this week I’ve been here, trying to talk my sister into coming home. I’m hoping tonight will be more successful.

  I don’t bother knocking on the door, and I ignore the huge muscled man standing beside it. He knows better than to fuck with me. Unlike dickhead at the front door, this one has met my fist before. It still doesn’t stop him from sneering at me, though.

  Pussy.

  I smile at him, knowing he’d love nothing more than to kick my ass out of the club, but he can’t. Lukas wouldn’t allow it. Tera would nail his ass to the wall if he tried to.

  When I open the door, it slams against the wall. A feeling of satisfaction flows through me when I see the surprise on Lukas’s face with my entrance. His head jerks to the side, facing me, and his lip curls up into a snarl. Yeah, he doesn’t care for me too much, either.

  “Where in the fuck is she?” I growl.

  His snarl turns into a smirk, and it makes my blood boil.

  “You don’t want to know,” he says cryptically, arching a brow. His arms move from the arm of the chair to his lap.

  I take three st
eps toward him, not in the mood for his games, when there’s a loud bang underneath the desk, followed by a soft curse. My eyes flicker down to the top of his desk, like I can see the person through the wood, before lifting them back to Lukas. His smirk has switched to a full-blown smile. As much as I don’t want my sister to be under there, it better fucking be her, or he’s a dead man.

  Seconds later, my sister peeks her head up over the desk in front of Lukas and gives me an embarrassed look. Her hair is mussed and her cheeks are flushed. There’s also a small smear of lipstick by the corner of her mouth that turns my stomach.

  “Told you,” Lukas says, chuckling.

  I mentally kill him with my eyes, before looking back at my baby sister.

  “Goddamn it, Tera,” I grit out between clenched teeth. “Are you fucking kidding me?”

  She slowly gets to her feet, causing a smug looking Lukas to push his chair back to give her room. Her green button up shirt is half undone. I rake my hands through my hair and turn to the side.

  “Fix your fucking shirt, for Christ’s sake.”

  I only give her a minute before I turn back to see Lukas out of his chair, crowding Tera against the desk in the guise of helping her. I glower at them both, ready to snatch her away and pummel the shit out of him for touching her. He’s damn near old enough to be her father.

  “Knock it off, Colt,” Tera says with narrowed eyes, seeing my death glare.

  Keeping my eyes pinned on Lukas, who is still watching me with mirth, I groan, “Let’s go.”

  “Go? I’m not going anywhere,” she argues, smoothing out her shirt.

  “Yes, you are. Mom wants you home.”

  “That’s bullshit.” She fumes, throwing her hands on her hips. “Mom knows I’m an adult, unlike someone else I know. She knows not to demand I go anywhere.”

  I ignore the jab about me not treating her like an adult. “I’m not going to tell you again, Tera. Let’s. Go!”