My Billionaire Stepbrother (Lexi's Sexy Billionaire Romance #1)
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“When we get upstairs, as your birthday present, I’m going to let you fuck me in the ass,” Samantha purrs. I catch Carl’s eye and see him smirk despite trying to hold it in. And despite my trying to hold it in, I’m already pipe hard again.
Breaking up with Samantha can wait a little longer.
I open my mailbox. Just letters today, and not many. It’s not really legal to mess with the mail, but I’ve asked the staff to sort it to lessen my load. I paid them enough to stop caring about the possible federal infraction. Now all my junk mail gets tossed. Bills are forwarded to my bookkeeper. I only see personal mail, so though this mailbox is often stuffed with crap I don’t need, it’s also frequently empty.
I don’t get much personal email. But who does? It’s not that it’s lonely at the top — though there’s some truth to that, for sure — it’s that sending letters is a lost art.
There are three cards in the mailbox. Obvious for what they are in oversized colorful envelopes.
I pull them out. Samantha’s over my shoulder, her hair on my neck, perfume seductive, breath sweet from her just spit out gum. Her breasts are against the back of my arm. I can’t help picturing them, feeling the press of her nipples. They’re high, firm, young, ripe. Sam is only twenty-one, and it bothers me that lately that’s felt almost too young for me, despite the filth she spouts from her experienced mouth when not playing society girl.
“Who’s wishing you happy birthday, birthday boy?”
“This one is from Raymond,” I say, handing her the first.
“Who’s Raymond?”
“My lawyer.”
No comment.
“And this one is from that school. Where I did my last benefit, for literacy and entrepreneurism for kids.”
The card is sweet. The kids all signed their names, and the inside’s a jumble. The idea of running their own businesses someday had hit home with the kids, but maybe I’d aimed too young. A disproportionate number had said they wanted to own their own fireman businesses, or that they’d wanted to run basketball player companies.
Sam makes a sighing little “Aww” noise, proving she’s human.
I’ve stopped at the final card. Sam is over my shoulder, moving around. But I don’t want her to see this one. Not Sam. Not now. Maybe never.
“Who’s that one from?”
“My dad,” I say.
She tries to peek at the card’s interior, but I’ve closed it and turned away, breaking her halfway embrace.
“I thought you didn’t talk to your dad.”
“I don’t.” I flap the envelope. “But they sent a card anyway.”
“They?”
“My dad and my stepmom.”
Samantha’s small smile says nothing, other than that this part of our evening’s concluded. She moves around me instead, drawing a lazy finger across my chest, then down hers. The blue dress clings to her body as if painted on. I swear I can see everything, but despite my erection as she nods at Carl to call the elevator, I barely notice her.
My attention is still on the card, which I keep sneaking peaks into.
A birthday card from my dad.
From my dad and my stepmom.
And from Angela.
Angela.
ANGELA
I REMEMBER THE DAY I met Parker Altman.
Back then, Mom was just trailing off with her drinking. She was in this fragile place where she no longer leaned on the bottle’s crutch but needed another. It didn’t seem wrong to me that she hooked up with Bill, but I hadn’t yet come to understand codependence. I was in my own world, sixteen years old and totally selfish.
Looking back, it’s hard to fault myself even from the perspective of a woman who grew into her twenties with regret, seeing her dreams subjugated, lost, forgotten. It only seemed right that I should give up on myself to take care of others who — let’s face it — were perfectly capable of stepping up and taking care of themselves. All teenagers are selfish — not because they want to be, but because that’s how their compasses are tuned. Back then, there was only me and my world. There was school, and there were boys. If it didn’t affect me, I remember not quite thinking, then it wasn’t really worth my attention.
So it was with Mom and Bill.
I didn’t see how he was probably wrong for her until it was too late — until it began to affect me. I knew I didn’t like him but didn’t think he was bad, which he wasn’t. He was bad for her, it turned out. He dragged her down, enabled her, magnified her weaknesses while unintentionally muffling her strengths. I don’t think it was anyone’s fault, even now. But looking back, it was clearly the beginning of an end. Or the middle, seeing as we’d always been sort of trapped in our station, prisoners of our neighborhood.
Some people dream big. I’d always dreamed moderately. In my teens, I knew I wanted my own place and a nice handsome man to love me. It was all I could imagine, but it was enough.
Bill came casually into our life, and it didn’t seem all that odd that he wanted to move in. As long as it didn’t affect me, it didn’t matter … and until Bill brought over his first carload of stuff, I wasn’t affected and somehow never imagined I would be. They started talking about it; I went to school. Mom’s cessation from drink had freed up enough money to buy me a shitty enough car to grant me some precious independence.
I had my car.
I had my room, like my life, the way I wanted it.
My mother had stopped drinking, and was better than she’d been since Dad had left her. Left us.
I was in the middle of my high school’s social pecking order: not really popular but not unpopular either. I had enough self-confidence to know I was pretty and was told by others that I was prettier than I realized. I rebuffed the attention because I’ve always been shy, maybe even standoffish. But it was good enough, and I had friends. I dated a little, though never seriously.
For a long time, I was fine with the idea of Bill moving in.
Until he brought his son to our house one day, to get us all acquainted.
I should have known something was off when Bill was nervous.
“Now, I should tell you,” he said that day, his jaw shifting, his eyes avoiding ours, “my son — Parker. He’s … unique.”
Unique. That’s what you say about someone who you can’t conjure another adjective for, so you say something vaguely upbeat. Kind of like how people call developmentally delayed people “special” or say that ugly people have nice personalities.
I found it interesting that I was being prepped for “uniqueness.” In a normal world, that wouldn’t be something that people had to prepare for. If he were unique, I’d have met him without preamble, then thought, Wow, this boy is something special, and that would have been it. But here I was, being steeled for supposedly the same thing.
“Okay,” I said.
Mom looked at Bill, drumming her fingers on her knees. I was the only one being prepared. Whatever uniqueness this boy was infected with, she’d already had her vaccines. They were on the couch, and I was on the chair opposite the coffee table. They looked like two parents informing a child of a forthcoming divorce.
“You can just stay a little while,” Mom said, as if granting a favor.
“Just long enough to get a feel for him,” Bill echoed.
“Okay,” I told them.
Parker didn’t come on his own. Bill had to go get him. Looking back, there was probably no way he would have come otherwise. Bill and his wife were divorced like Mom and Dad, but Bill had custody. I didn’t think that meant anything at the time. It also didn’t seem strange that Bill spent a lot of his nights at our house, drunk, despite his responsibility, leaving Parker alone.
Bill knocked, though he already had the habit of walking right into our house. I opened the front door and saw Bill standing beside a boy I knew to be seventeen, a year older than me. But something in his half-lidded eyes looked older — easily in his twenties. He was wearing a plain white T-shirt and jeans, clearly anno
yed to be where he was.
“Angela, this is my son, Parker.”
Parker’s eyes were on our ratty doormat. So I said, “Hey.”
Mumbling, he replied: “Hey.”
“Parker, this is Angela.”
“I figured that out … Bill.”
Bill’s eyes flicked to me. A tiny nod passed between us, and they both came in.
Bill led Parker into the living room and plunked him on the couch. Mom sat in the big chair. I sat where I’d been earlier, across from the coffee table. Our meeting should have been somewhere else — doing an activity rather than sitting around in the living room. I didn’t know if we were supposed to go around in a circle like a support group sharing our feelings, or what.
“So,” said Parker after a few moments of silence. “This is fun.”
I thought he was joking. Parker looked up, and because I was across from him, our eyes met. His were hard and angry. An almost-smile fell off my face. He’d come in with a chip on his shoulder and seemed determined to keep it. He looked toward his father, shook his head, and leaned back with his arms crossed. He had a lean, scrappy look. His arms were casually handsome with sharp striations of muscle. He had the same size frame as my boyfriend at the time — not too large, not too small. But the same weight on Parker looked … somehow harder.
“Parker is into music,” Bill said.
“Oh, yes,” Mom chimed. “He plays guitar.”
Parker looked at her. I wasn’t sure if the three of them had even met, but Mom had, I assumed, heard plenty. Enough to know that Parker was going to be as cool and borderline rude as he was already being.
Parker looked at his feet, kicking at something under the table.
“Tell them what kind of guitar you play, Parker.”
Parker looked at his father. A smile rose on one half of his mouth. For a second, I thought it looked almost cute, then I realized it was condescension. He turned his gaze on us, his face falsely indulgent, his hair a pleasant mess, his jawline square, his eyes more experienced than any seventeen-year-old’s should be.
“A blue one,” he said.
Mom smiled. “Angela plays the flute.”
Then no one spoke for fifteen seconds.
“So.” Bill slapped his legs and stood. “Anyone want anything to drink?”
Again, that smile tugged the corner of Parker’s mouth. Without looking up from the floor, he said, “You do.”
My mom’s eyes ticked toward Bill then me. I was only observing, not sure what to think. I was sitting with my legs uncrossed in the chair, leaning back, sometimes running a hand idly through the sides of my long, chestnut-brown hair like I still do today. Mom and Bill both seemed as if they thought they shouldn’t let the comment go then decided to anyway. Though if I hadn’t been there, I’m assuming the scene would have been different.
“Do you want anything, Angela?”
“Maybe a Diet Coke.”
Maybe it was the mention of “diet” that made Parker look at me. Maybe he thought I was being prissy, like a girl who goes on a steakhouse date and orders a salad. His eyes were on me for maybe three seconds, but I felt the gaze a lot longer than that. In those three seconds, he traveled from my legs to my middle to my face. Then his eyes fell back down, and he resumed kicking at a ball of paper that on the floor.
“Anything for you, Parker?”
“No.”
“You sure?”
“Yeah.”
Mom asked for a glass of water, but I’m sure she did it so I wouldn’t be the only one with an order. Bill, awkwardly, got nothing for himself. He handed me the Diet Coke and Mom her water. He didn’t sit. I cracked open the can and sipped, feeling heavy eyes upon me.
“Maybe we should go look at rooms,” Bill said.
Parker looked up. “Good idea. We don’t have any rooms at our place.”
“I mean … ” He looked at my mom, now chewing his lip. I’d seen Bill raging drunk, and it was uncomfortable. Now stone sober, he was worse. I almost wanted to tell him to take a few shots and recover his balls because right now he was embarrassing himself. “I mean your room.”
Parker looked up, his head tilted, the sarcastic smile back on his face. He was handsome, his smile toothy and somehow disarming — or would’ve been, I imagined, if he hadn’t aimed it at his father.
“Now I know we have one of those at our place.” The smile vanished, and I saw it for the farce it was. Everything clicked.
Why were we being introduced?
Well, because there had been talk about Bill moving in.
And what would happen when Bill moved in?
Shit. I was suddenly not okay with this. At all.
I knew which room they were talking about. The extra room next to mine — the one where we’d always tossed our junk. I’d noticed Mom clearing it out but thought she was thinning the hoard.
I felt incredibly stupid. How could I not have realized that Bill and his son were a package? I’d honestly never considered it. I’d been off in my selfish teen-girl world, caring only about my car and my friends and my schoolwork. Things only mattered if they directly affected me.
Well, a jaded, obnoxious asshole of a teen boy moving into the room beside mine — sharing my bathroom, becoming a presence in my living space — would affect me a lot.
“Wait,” I said.
Parker effortlessly read my expression. He turned his hard gaze fully on me for the first time. I wanted to run.
“What, you don’t want to be roomies?” He looked up at our parents. “I imagine this is news to you, too, huh?”
“I told you, Parker. I told you Maria and I were moving in together.”
“Maria and you,” Parker repeated.
“And that means you, obviously.”
“Why obviously?”
“Where are you going to live? Obviously, you’d live with me.”
“I could live with Jimmy, like I said.”
“You’re not going to bum off your friends, Parker.”
“Oh, no. It’d be terrible, like a deadbeat, hitching onto someone else’s rent for a free ride.” Parker looked at his father then at Mom, but both decided to comment. Hopefully, they were trying to make peace, not refraining from response because it was true. Mom had too much stress and not enough money already.
I wanted to weigh in, but it seemed ridiculous. I’d known Bill was thinking of moving in. I knew he had a son. I hadn’t known he had full custody, sure, but failing to put two and two together was dumb. I’d assumed somehow that this son (the one Bill for some reason had thus far avoided introducing) would either live with his mother or … well … anywhere else. Again, I was a teenager. Things weren’t in my world until they were smack-dab in my face.
We’d been sitting together for maybe five minutes, and I’d already started counting seconds until he could leave. Duly introduced, we’d never have to meet again. His aura was unpleasant. I sensed anger, violence, irritation, annoyance, maybe self-pity. Sharing the living room with him for an hour was proving to be terrible. I definitely didn’t want him here every day, camped on the couch when I wanted to do my homework, gunking up the bathroom, pissing all over the toilet. Thinking about it gave me chills. The house was meager; now it would be worse. Tense. With this dickhead around, I wouldn’t feel comfortable telling Mom about my day, because I wouldn’t want his ears to hear … or for his sly, sarcastic mouth to mock me.
“We talked about this at length already, Parker, and — ” Bill’s temper was beginning to flare. Even without alcohol, it was terrible.
“Oh, well,” Parker retorted. “If you talk about something long enough, It stops being unfair.”
“Unfair?” Bill snapped.
“Yes, Dad, unfair. I’m seventeen fucking years old, and — ”
“Watch your mouth.”
“ — and I don’t see how whatever bullshit you decide has to automatically affect me, especially if I can just go out and — ”
“And what, Parker
?”
“I could get my own place.”
Bill laughed. My mother half stood, seemingly unsure what to do or say.
Parker stood. “I have money saved.”
“From your music bullshit? From that little ‘club’ project with Jimmy?” He laughed again.
“No, this other guy.”
“Who?”
“Duncan.”
“The black guy?” He said it like mom would say “Jews.” I cringed.
“I suppose you have enough to get a place, huh? A big, swanky place, right? You got a security deposit, too, smartass? First and last month’s rent? How about utility deposits?”
“Apparently, not all of us are permitted to freeload off someone who already has a place.”
Bill’s hand moved like lightning. There was a flat smack, and Parker’s head rocked on his neck. Parker recovered and gave his father a small shake of his head. An of course shake, as if he’d been waiting.
“You will respect me, Parker. I put food on your table.”
“And give me so much to respect.”
I thought another slap might follow, but it didn’t. Between Parker and Bill, Mom’s eyes were giant saucers. She seemed more surprised than aghast but clearly didn’t know what to do.
Finally, Bill’s shoulders slouched.
“Look. It doesn’t have to be like this,” he said.
“Right. But it does have to be this way. Your way. Right?”
“It’s not just me, Parker. Since your mother left, it hasn’t been easy. Now with us all moving in together, we have another chance to be a … well … a family. And after the wedding … ”
I gasped first. But then, looking over, I almost gasped again at the look on Parker’s face. Another obvious fact had escaped me. If they were moving in together, of course Bill would be bringing his son. And if they moved in together, it shouldn’t have been at all shocking that they were planning to marry.