Sleep With The Lights On

by Maggie Shayne

  “No, you’ve got it all wrong,” he said. “I told you, I camp up here sometimes,” he repeated. But his tone had turned grim.

  “And I told you I didn’t want any strings. We had a few good times together, but now it’s done. I think there’s someone out there who’s a much better match for you than I could ever be.”

  “Oh, come on, Rachel. You don’t mean that. Any guy would be worried if his girlfriend was out in the middle of nowhere with some—”

  “David, I’m not your girlfriend. We don’t know each other well enough for that.”

  He lowered his head, but I got the feeling it was more to hide his burgeoning temper than out of sadness because I was breaking up with him.

  “Please,” I told him. “Go home. Get a start on finding that right woman.”

  His gaze came level. He met my eyes, and I didn’t like what was in his. It was dark. “You can’t just end it like this.”

  “There was never anything to—” I bit my lip, because he was, at the very least, a stalker. And at most? God, could it be him?

  “You’re ending it because of him, aren’t you?”

  I softened my tone considerably, glancing past him toward the house. I thought I saw movement just beyond the glass doors. “David, I’ve only had my eyesight back for a couple of months,” I said, using the rationale I’d been using to convince myself not to get involved with Mason. “I need time to be independent before—”

  “I suppose this is independence. Coming up here with him.”

  “He’s a cop, David. He’s trying to help me find my brother.” I tried to walk past him, but he stepped right up and blocked my way.

  “Right, and you had to screw him to get that help?”

  I was getting pissed now. “Get out of my way and let me pass.”

  “No. I’m not moving until we talk about this.”

  I shrugged. “Have it your way.” I shoved him hard, both hands to the chest. He staggered backward a step and a half, then lost his balance and hit the ice-cold water with a splash that should have lowered the level of the lake.

  By the time he came up spluttering, I was sprinting back across the lawn to the house. But I could hear him cussing me out in a way no one ever had. And the anger in his voice shook me in spite of myself, especially when I sensed he was out of the water, on the shore and coming after me.

  Mason met me halfway, clasped my shoulders and put me behind him. I could see the gun tucked into his waistband and nestling in the small of his back.

  David stopped where he was, glaring and dripping wet.

  Mason faced him squarely. “Go on home, pal. We don’t need any trouble.”

  “You’ve already got trouble, pal,” David replied. “When you take another man’s woman on a romantic weekend, you’ve always got trouble.”

  Without turning, Mason said, “Go on to the house, Rachel.”

  “Fuck you both. I can fight my own battles.” I stepped around Mason, pulling his handgun from the back of his jeans as I did. I didn’t point it. Just held it. “Back off, David. Get out. And don’t even think about coming back here, or calling me when I get home.”

  His jaw twitched, he was clenching his teeth so tightly. “This isn’t the end of this.”

  “Oh, it so fucking is.” I was shaking. The guy was clearly warped, his rage way out of proportion to our handful of dates.

  He sighed so hard it was a growl, then started toward me. Suddenly I heard a car horn, followed by a child’s voice calling, “Uncle Mason?”

  I turned to see Joshua come racing around the house and over the lawn at breakneck speed. Behind him, on the deck already, stood Jeremy and two women, one old, one young. Angela and Marie, I presumed. They must have gotten on the road by four to have made it here so early.

  “We’ll settle this later, David,” Mason said. “Go home now. My family’s here.”

  David looked at Josh, who stumbled to a halt a few feet from us, clearly aware that something was up. David glared at him hard enough to break something but finally stomped away. He was out of sight in a minute, and I heard his tires spitting gravel in their wake when he roared away.

  Mason looked at me, and I looked back at him. I wanted to remind him that David was a transplant recipient, but I could see he was already thinking the same thing. I wanted to tell him that I thought the lake might be his brother’s dumping ground, and ask how he thought David had found us way up here in the middle of nowhere unless he’d followed us, along with about a dozen other things, but Josh was rushing in for a bear hug and time was up.

  How the hell was I going to bring all this up with Eric’s grieving mother, pregnant widow and fatherless sons here?

  * * *

  Marie took over the kitchen, while Josh ran from room to room shouting at the top of his lungs.

  Okay, that wasn’t really what the kid was doing. It was just what it felt like. Why the hell are kids so damned noisy?

  Not Jeremy. He wasn’t noisy. He was petulant, which was worse. He heaved loud, overblown sighs any time anyone so much as looked at him and sat morosely like a lump. Yes, I know that sounds petty, considering the kid had just lost his father a few months ago. And yes, I knew that and still wanted to smack him upside the head.

  I played nice, pretending my life wasn’t on the line, and that my brother wasn’t, in all likelihood, feeding the fish in their pristine fucking lake. I brewed another pot of coffee and filled cups for the four of us.

  “What do you take, Marie? Cream and sugar?”

  “Black, please.” She took the sizzling bacon pan off the burner to join me at the nearby counter, I handed her a coffee, and fixed my own. “How about Angela?”

  She looked blank. “Um—”

  “Cream and sugar,” Angela said, stepping into the kitchen. “Same as I’ve taken it for as long as you’ve been in the family, dear.”

  Oooh, some tension there.

  “And one for Jeremy, if there’s enough. Black,” Angela said.

  To prove he’s a manly man, I’ll bet.

  Angela took her mug from me, and I carried mine and Jeremy’s into the living room, since Marie didn’t seem to want my help with the overblown breakfast she was making. I figured she needed to throw herself into something. Anything, I imagined, would be a welcome distraction from life as a widowed mother of two. Soon to be three.

  “Hey, Jeremy,” I said, handing him the mug. I sat on the sofa beside him. “So why are you acting like such an asshole today?”

  Angela gasped and damn near dropped her cup. Joshua laughed his ass off. Jeremy glared at me for a second, then shrugged. “Because I don’t want to be here any more than you probably want me here,” he said.

  His grandmother gaped at him. “That was rude, Jeremy.” Then she looked at me. “And while I hate to criticize at our first meeting, Ms. de Luca, so was what you said.”

  I met her eyes. “It was honest. You’re not going to get anywhere tiptoeing around and pretending it’s okay for him to act like a jerk. And call me Rachel.”

  “He’s just in a mood.”

  “We all have our moods. We don’t all put them on public display and use them to beat up on our relatives.” I shrugged. “So if you want to mope, go mope in private.”

  “I just want to go home.”

  “You will, sooner or later.”

  “This stinks on ice.”

  “I couldn’t agree more.”

  Jeremy got up, coffee mug in hand, and headed for the stairway to the basement where his room was.

  I was suddenly suspicious of how willingly he’d obeyed me. “Where are you going, Jeremy?”

  “To my room. Where does it look like I’m going?”

  “To sneak out the basement door and try to get home on your own.”

  He turned to stare at me, eyes wide as saucers, so I knew I was right.

  “How about this? Try to act human and I’ll let you drive me into the nearest town this afternoon. We desperately need junk food in this p
lace.” He was sixteen and male, right? So driving was bound to be his passion.

  “Your T-Bird is up here?”

  “Uh, no, and even if it was, I wouldn’t let you drive it. Are you kidding me? I love that car.”

  “What, then?”

  “Mason’s rented Jeep.”

  He looked at me curiously. “And what do I have to do for this?”

  “Be nice, stop moping, have a conversation. Act like your uncle for a while. Think you can do that?”

  He heaved a sigh. “All right.”

  “Good. No more of those heavy sighs, and absolutely no eye rolling.”

  “Anything else?”

  “I’ll let you know.” I could see Marie moving back and forth, putting vats of food onto the kitchen table, so I presumed breakfast was served. I tipped my head toward the kitchen, and Jeremy shuffled out there and took a chair. I sighed, then rolled my eyes to boot, but I followed him.

  Behind me, Angela whispered to Mason, “She’s a famous self-help author?”

  “Yep. And she’s good, isn’t she?”

  I smiled a little, warmed a little when I heard that, then slapped myself down again. “Don’t listen to him, Angela. He wouldn’t know, having never read a word I’ve written.”

  “Actually, I’ve read the last three books,” he said.

  I looked at him with my jaw dropping. “You have not.”

  “I have. Rosie’s wife, Marlayna, loaned them to me. Good stuff.” He walked past me, leaned close and whispered, “You should practice following your own advice.”

  Well, I’ll be dipped.

  * * *

  The morning dragged, and Mason could see that Rachel was itching to get him alone, either to talk about David’s behavior and bounce him around as a suspect, or to talk about the wild and amazing sex they’d had the night before.

  He didn’t want to talk about that and hoped she didn’t either. It was sex. It was incredible sex. But it didn’t have to mean anything, she’d said so herself. And he hoped she was still on board with that, because if she wasn’t it could really make a mess of the work they had to do.

  Rachel was gifted. There was no question she could tell when someone was lying, and she seemed to read their emotions as if she could look inside their skulls and interpret their brain waves. That had already been a huge help with this case.

  Besides, he liked her. So he hoped to God the sex last night hadn’t screwed that up. And he hoped to put off the morning-after conversation for another day or two. Or forever.

  20

  I couldn’t wait for Mason. For all I knew, David the nut case might be out beating someone’s brains in with his handy hammer right this minute. I had to know if it was him. And I was itching to get out on the lake, as if the answer was out there. As if my brother was out there.

  And maybe he was.

  I didn’t know shit about boats, but I figured I ought to be able to handle a rowboat, and I was right. It was fairly simple. Sit in the seat and row. The oars were attached to the sides with oversize metal pins that dropped into oversize metal holes, so it was impossible to make much of a wrong move. I pushed my end of them forward, lowered the flat ends into the water and pulled back. Lift up, push forward, lower and pull back. Nice easy rhythm, and a pretty good workout, I figured. As I started out from the shore, the oars came up bearing tangled, dripping seaweed, but once I got out into the deeper water that stopped happening. I looked back toward the house, but I didn’t think anyone had noticed I was missing. And that was just as well. I didn’t want to have to explain what I was doing out here.

  And just what the hell am I doing?

  Rowing. And that was enough.

  I had a notion to make my way around the perimeter of the lake, far enough out from shore to avoid the weeds, but near enough in to pay attention to the look of the shoreline, the shapes of the trees. The ones from my dream were burned into my brain, and I thought I could spot them again pretty easily.

  Only I couldn’t. Everything looked alike, and it wasn’t long before I started to wonder if it was even this lake that I’d seen in my dream. And then I started to wonder if I would even be able to find my way back to the lake house.

  Just follow the shoreline, dumb ass. You’ll see the house when you get to it. And the dock and the little wooden canoe will still be there. Easy.

  Right. Easy.

  Still, after an hour, I decided this was a stupid idea. The trees all looked the same, and I wasn’t going to be able to search the entire lake, which was apparently way bigger than my imaginary estimate, all by myself. And what would I see if I did? It wasn’t like the bodies would be on the surface. There had been cinder blocks in the dream.

  I pulled in the oars and sat floating for a minute, because my arms needed a rest. It was nice out here, I thought. Birds singing, and here and there some waterfowl swimming along. I saw ducks. I saw loons. I saw what I’m pretty sure was a blue heron, standing in the cattail forest of the shallows like a ghost. They hadn’t migrated south yet, I guessed. But it wouldn’t be long. Today was nice, nicer by the minute with the sun beaming down full force now. I took off my coat as the temp pushed up toward sixty. With the exertion of the rowing, I was plenty warm without it.

  The boat drifted of its own accord, and I was content for a moment to lean back and let it. It seemed hard to believe, lying there, staring up at the bright blue sky, that this lake was hiding any dark secrets.

  I sighed, closed my eyes. This was nice. I was glad I’d come out here, despite the fact that it hadn’t accomplished anything. I’d needed to relax, to work off some stress and unwind, alone. After all, my brain had been like a hurricane lately. I tried to push everything aside. The murders. My brother. The dreams and visions. But the one thing that refused to be pushed aside was what had happened last night with Mason. I couldn’t stop thinking about that. And more and more, what I was thinking was that it was going to be damn hard not to go back for more.

  Something splashed, and I sat up fast, spotting a tail that vanished beneath the surface of the water and then the ripples that emanated from the spot where it had been. A fish. A big one, I thought. And I wondered for the first time if it would be fun to go fishing, or if I would hate it.

  Looking at the water, I glimpsed a flash as the fish—or maybe some other fish, how would I know?—swam just below the surface. The water was clear out here, I realized. You had to sort of refocus your vision to look past the reflection of the puffy clouds, to see the creatures underneath. And this one fish, or however many there were, kept swimming past, vanishing deeper, surfacing again. It jumped as I watched like an excited kid. Shiny, with speckles and rainbow colors flashing before he splashed down again. And I realized there was a little swarm of bugs just above the surface right there. They looked like a tiny puff of smoke but were in fact bugs, and the fish was happy to eat them.

  I leaned over the side a little, watching for the fish, smiling in spite of myself when he swam past again. Damn, was I going soft or what? Getting all Zen and basking in nature like this. It was like what I advised my readers to do in times of stress, but I’d never taken my own advice to heart. I’d been mostly rehashing what other modern-day gurus taught, just putting my own sassy spin on it.

  I saw another fish, this one down a little deeper. Oddly, it wasn’t moving.

  Did fish sleep? It was just sort of floating down there in the weeds. Maybe it was dead. Curious, I took one of the oars out of its oarlock and thrust it down to poke at the lethargic creature, and sure enough it came loose from the tangled weeds and bobbed up to the surface.

  Huh, that’s not a fish....

  It was a hand and part of an arm.

  I jerked backward so fast the boat rocked and I went backward over the side. The shock of the ice-cold water made every muscle in my body tighten and try to pull free from my bones. I couldn’t even move for an endless moment.

  Then I forced my eyes open and stopped thrashing. I was sinking, and I told myself I
needed to swim, that cold or not I needed to—

  Oh, my God.

  I was in a weed jungle, and I was surrounded by bodies. They were floating at various heights, ropes anchoring them in place, some upright, some lying facedown like skydivers, some so rotten you couldn’t tell what they were, some with parts missing, all of them with hamburger heads.

  My heart jolted and took off at a full gallop, and my arms and legs did likewise, while my lungs screamed for air. I surged upward, wondering how the surface could be so far away, and as I did, I saw a cinder block go floating past me, heading to the bottom, towing a rope behind it...a rope that was towing a body behind it. One foot was bare, one wore a penny loafer. Jeans, a shirt floating up like a parachute to show me the pale skin of the belly, the chest. I could count his ribs. His head was hidden by the shirt, floating up as he descended, and his long arms stretched above him like an extra in a spaghetti western when the bad guy yells, “Reach for the sky!”

  Wait, go back. Descending? He’s descending?

  He’s descending!

  I was breaking the surface and realizing the awful truth at the same time.

  This body, this skinny male body, had just been dumped.

  I wiped the water out of my eyes and looked around me, saw the lake, the distant shore, the sky—

  Hands came around my neck from behind, and I was pulled out of the water. The hard side of a boat scraped my back as I kicked and clawed and swore. I landed faceup in the bottom, and then something clocked me in the head and it was lights out.

  * * *

  “Has anyone seen Rachel?”

  Mason had been busy trying to keep Josh from dying of boredom and his own mother from picking fights with Marie, not to mention trying to keep one eye on Jeremy so he didn’t do something stupid, like take off. He’d lost track of Rachel after she said she was going to take a nap in her room and was only now realizing it had been a couple of hours.

  “I thought she was in her room,” Angela said, sending a frown back at him.

  “I just checked, she’s not in there,” he said.