The Darker Side

by Cody McFadyen

  I knew this already, at some level, but the full meaning only hits me now that it’s been confirmed. I sit down in a free chair near Alan’s desk and take a moment to stare at all those names on the dry-erase board.

  “Wow,” I manage.

  “I did a little research,” James says. “There’s never been a violation of the Catholic confessional on this scale.”

  “I’m sure that’s true,” I murmur.

  I’m thinking about Father Yates pacing in the church last night and am transposing onto this action an image of the Pope.

  I hate this case. It’s put me in direct contact with the Director of the FBI, in proximity to the President of the United States, and I’m sure something of this magnitude will, factually, reach the Pope’s ears.

  I stand up and make sure I have everyone’s attention.

  “We’ve worked high-profile cases before, but this is a whole new playing field. This goes nowhere. Nowhere. No pillow talk with spouses or partners, don’t tell your dog if you have one. Got it?”

  They all nod. No one shows any signs of disagreement. Maybe the sober truth has hit them too.

  “James, I want you to sit down with Callie, Alan, and Jezebel and I want you to start going through that database you made. Look for and list the most probable churches each victim would have visited.”

  “Where are you going, honey-love?” Callie asks.

  “I’m going to see AD Jones to give him the bad news.”

  “YOU SURE ABOUT THIS?” AD Jones asks.

  “Yes, sir. We have corroborating data now. We know from the Cavanaugh scene that he likes to use covert surveillance. We have confirmation on the Catholic connection with the victims’ families we’ve been able to reach. How else could he have known what he knew about these people? Besides, he led us there.”

  “How’s that?”

  “That note in Lisa Reid’s journal. What do I collect? That’s the question and that’s the key. And then in those first video clips, he tells us that everything we need to know to catch him is right there in the clips. Plus, the affect of most of the victims fits; they seemed shocked to find out that he already knew what their secrets were and there was no evidence of recognition.”

  I’d missed this before, and I kick myself for it now. They’d all thought their secrets were still secret. Why hadn’t I seen that?

  Was it because I was still too blinded by my own?

  AD Jones doesn’t say anything for a little while. He laces his hands behind his head and stares off, thinking.

  “This is a political nightmare, Smoky. Not something I usually care about, but in this case it’ll probably hamper catching this guy. If we go to the Catholic Church and we go in heavy they’re likely to tell us to fuck off and close ranks.”

  “Yeah,” I say. “Priests touching boys? Bad, bad, bad. Bugs in the confessionals? Wow. I think we need to show them we’ll play ball. Make them allies, not enemies.”

  He frowns. “How do you propose to do that?”

  “This doesn’t affect the entirety of the United States, as far as we know. We clamp down on this locally, keep it confined to my team and you and the Director. No one else. The Director gets hold of someone in the church who has some juice and briefs them. He gets them to arrange access for us and we agree to keep the whole thing quiet. We don’t even need to let the local priests in on it if they don’t want us to.”

  “What about Father Yates?”

  “He has no interest in this getting out, believe me. He’s loyal to his church, and I imagine they know that.”

  “It could work,” he allows.

  “It will work. I doubt the Catholic Church is different from any other bureaucracy when it comes to some things. People guard their territories and their budgets and work hard to keep shit from rolling uphill. I’ll bet even money that they won’t want to let the Pope know if they don’t have to.”

  “You make them sound like us,” he says, only half joking.

  “It’s survival of the species taken to the level of the group organism, that’s all.”

  “True enough.”

  “I like this approach better anyway. The Preacher’s whole deal is shaking things up. He thinks he’s a prophet, preaching about the truth, getting people to think and talk and wonder about God. The less chaos we allow him to create, the better I’ll feel.”

  “Agreed. I’ll call the Director now.”

  “YOU’RE ON THE NEWS,” JEZEBEL tells me when I walk back into the office.

  “Good thing there’s no TV in here.”

  She smiles. “Not to worry, I can access a feed right here on the computer.” She points to Alan’s monitor. “May I?”

  “Sure.”

  She taps a few keys and enters a password. A moment later a different desktop appears on the screen.

  “This is actually my computer we’re looking at. I’m controlling it remotely.” She opens a program and a video player fills the screen. The video begins to play.

  The newswoman looks familiar.

  “She was at the Cavanaugh home,” I say, placing her. “The smart one.”

  The one who’d noticed us pulling up and who had directed her cameraman to point his lens our way.

  I watch as we climb out of the car and the newswoman begins her voice-over.

  “This morning a young girl was found dead in her own bedroom, in this quiet suburb of Burbank. It didn’t take long for a large police presence to develop, which is not, in and of itself, surprising. What is surprising is the arrival on scene of this woman: FBI Special Agent Smoky Barrett.”

  “Hey, what about me?” Alan jokes.

  “Special Agent Barrett became known to most Californians and many Americans almost three years ago. She herself became the victim of a home invasion. Joseph Sands, a serial killer Agent Barrett was hunting, turned the tables on his pursuer. He entered her home at night, murdered her husband and ten-year-old daughter, and raped and disfigured Agent Barrett herself.”

  A photograph of me, scars and all, appears on-screen.

  “Agent Barrett recovered and continued her job with the FBI, a move debated by many at first. The debate seems to have died down; results tend to do that. Agent Barrett has continued to do her job and do it well. Which brings us to the burning question: why is the lead serial murder investigator in Southern California at the Cavanaugh home? The only conclusion this reporter can come to is that the death of ten-year-old Valerie Cavanaugh is tied to the man who calls himself the Preacher.”

  A recap of the Preacher’s exploits follows, along with his promise to kill a child if we didn’t catch him first.

  “Stroke of luck,” Callie observes. “They haven’t seen Valerie’s clip.”

  I consider the Preacher’s promise that he’d find a way to promulgate the truth in spite of us. I wouldn’t count on that luck lasting.

  “How much coverage has the Preacher been getting?” I ask Jezebel.

  “A lot. Worldwide. There’s plenty of dialogue about truth, religion, the topics he soapboxed about. He’s got a surprising number of supporters.”

  “Supporters?” Alan says. “What the fuck is there to support? He’s a murderer.”

  “It’s not so shocking,” James says. “There’s plenty of precedence, and it’s not confined to Catholicism. He’s preaching a totalitarianism of faith, an all or nothing ‘giving of self to God.’ That’ll always have support among the faithful. Extremism and fanaticism go hand in hand with religion. They always have.”

  “The connection’s also been made between you and the Reids,” Jezebel says. “Someone was nice enough to let a reporter know that you and your team were in Virginia.”

  “Nature of the beast,” Alan says.

  “Have any of them mentioned the victims’ Catholic connection?”

  “No. Only the Preacher’s.”

  “Good.”

  I brief them all on my conversation with AD Jones and my proposed handling of the confessional information.

>   “Probably the best move,” Alan agrees. “They’re a little touchy about scandals.”

  “My mother is Catholic,” James says, out of nowhere. “She loves going to confession. The idea of someone violating that would kill her. The big question now is, how is he doing it?”

  “Finish making that list.”

  “AGENT BARRETT?”

  I’d answered a call on my cell phone from a number I didn’t recognize.

  “Yes?”

  “This is Cardinal Adam Ross. Of the Archdiocese of Los Angeles?”

  “Oh. Hello, Cardinal.” I frown. “Is ‘cardinal’ the correct form of address?”

  “Cardinal is fine. So is Adam, if you like.”

  “Let’s stick with cardinal, then. How can I help you?”

  “I think that question goes both ways, Agent Barrett. I received a call about ten minutes ago from the Director of the FBI. A very disturbing call. I’m in my car on the way to your office right now. Can you see me?”

  The man’s manners are impeccable in spite of the obvious tension in his voice. I had expected imperious; he’s the picture of politeness.

  “I’ll be here, Cardinal.”

  AD JONES WHISTLES. “THAT WAS fast. I got off the phone with the Director less than a half hour ago.”

  “How did that go?”

  “He agrees with your plan. He says to keep it under wraps permanently if at all possible.”

  “Do you know Cardinal Ross, sir?”

  “I’ve never met him. I’m not exactly the churchgoing type. But if he’s on the Director’s speed dial, he’s a mover and a shaker. Try and treat him accordingly.”

  “We play well with others as long as they return the favor, sir.”

  “ISN’T CARDINAL ONE OF THE stepping-stones on the road to wearing the Pope hat?” Callie asks.

  “Technically, any Catholic male who fit the criteria could become Pope,” James says. “In practice, it’s reserved for the cardinals. The last time a non-cardinal was elected Pope was 1378.”

  “How does someone become a cardinal?” I ask.

  “You’re appointed by the Pope. They’re called ‘the princes of the church.’ It’s a big deal, obviously, and it comes after years of service. You’d be a priest first, then probably an auxiliary bishop, then a full bishop and then an archbishop—which is also a position appointed by the Pope. Cardinals are then chosen from the archbishops.

  “The cardinal electors are the most powerful individuals in the Catholic Church other than the Pope himself. They appoint the new Pope when the old one dies. There are usually about a hundred twenty of them, which is a very, very small per capita when you consider the overall size of the Catholic Church. Roughly one or two cardinals per eight or nine million Catholics.”

  “I’d imagine they have a direct line to the Pope?” I ask.

  “Yes.”

  This gives me a better picture of the man who’s on his way up in the elevator to see me. He’ll be smart, hard-nosed, and used to the accoutrement of power and command. Most important, for our purposes, he’ll be someone who can make decisions and issue orders that others will listen to.

  Hopefully he’s not an asshole.

  “Do you think they wear anything under those robes?” Callie asks.

  “Slacks, dear, we wear slacks.”

  We turn to the voice, which is as rich and baritone as any of us could have imagined coming from a cardinal.

  Cardinal Ross is very tall, nearly six foot four. He’s got silver hair and is thin, though not unhealthily so. He has a long face to go with his height, and while it’s not unattractive, it has recorded the years. I estimate his age at just over sixty. He has dark eyes that sweep over us with a certain weight, a definite gravitas. He’s dressed in simple clerical black; slacks, shirt, jacket, and the white collar with a large silver cross hanging down. The simplicity of his garments don’t lessen his presence; the man fills the room.

  He’s come alone, it seems, which surprises me.

  I hold out my hand. “Welcome, Cardinal.”

  He takes the hand and shakes it, smiling down at me as he does. He holds the grip for a little longer than needed, letting his eyes take in my scars.

  “Thank you for having me.”

  I introduce him to the rest of my team. He looks around the office with some interest.

  “So you catch murderers here.”

  “We try, yes.”

  He walks over to the dry-erase board, examines the names. Paces around the desks, nodding in what seems like approval.

  “The most important jobs always seem to get done in the humblest surroundings.” He glances our way and smiles. “Before anyone takes offense, I’m not knocking your offices. I mean it as a compliment.”

  “We’re a simple folk,” Callie drawls.

  “Somehow I think that statement is both true and false, Agent Thorne. You have a narrowness of focus and a terrible simplicity of purpose, but you understand complexities of evil that are beyond me.”

  Callie grins. “You can certainly lay it on thick.”

  He laughs. It’s a nice laugh. Rich and unself-conscious. “Occupational hazard. I’m not being dishonest with my praise, I assure you.”

  “That’s nice, but can we cut to the chase?” James asks.

  He’s put my own words to voice, though with more hostility than I’d have liked. Cardinal Ross takes it in stride, unruffled.

  “Indeed. Your Director called me. He briefed me on your suspicions regarding this man bugging our confessionals. I’m sorry to ask, but can you please explain how you came to this conclusion?”

  I tell him about the Preacher, still holding back on the matter of the crosses in the wounds. I mention the conversation with Father Yates, his unspoken confirmation regarding Rosemary Sonnenfeld. Cardinal Ross rubs his forehead when I am done, and looks very, very troubled.

  “Do you mind if I sit down?”

  Alan gives him a chair.

  “I understand. And agree, of course. There’s no other way he could have known. This is terrible, terrible, terrible. If this got out it would shake the faithful badly.”

  “You sure you’re not just worried about more lawsuits?” James sneers. “Your church did a fine job of hiding pedophiles for many years.”

  “James!” I snap.

  The cardinal holds up a hand. “No, Agent Barrett. I’ve come to accept that I deserve any chastisement about that matter sent my way. I never personally hid a pedophile priest, but members of my church did, and it was shameful. My concern isn’t with public relations, in spite of what you might think. This is a matter of faith. Have any of you ever given confession?”

  “I have,” I say. “But not since I was younger.”

  Alan keeps his face bland at my little white lie.

  “Not me,” Callie says. “A good thing too. I’d have made some poor priest blush.”

  James doesn’t reply.

  “Can you imagine how you’d feel if you found out someone besides your priest and God was listening in? It goes beyond scandal—it is a violation of one of the most basic, beautiful, and trusted bastions of Catholicism. Priests have died rather than break the seal of confession.”

  “Cardinal,” I say, “we’re not on a crusade here. We don’t need to make this public. What we do need is cooperation and access.”

  “You’ll get it, of course. You’d get it regardless. But I do appreciate the reassurances. The truth is, it will come out sooner or later. I’m sure someone else will consider the facts as you did and come to the same conclusion. What you will be giving me is time.”

  “It wouldn’t hurt if the man responsible was captured either,” I point out.

  “I can’t deny the truth of that. What do you need from me?”

  “We’ve made a list of all the victims and have cross-referenced their geographical locations with nearby churches. I need to reach every one of these churches, and I need to find out if these victims were parishioners. Once we confirm they were
, we need to speak to the priest in charge and see if they remember our man.”

  “I can provide you with three members of my staff immediately. They can make the call and tell each priest to cooperate fully, and then pass the phone to you.”

  I blink, taken aback.

  “That’d be perfect.”

  “I’ll arrange it the moment I leave.”

  35

  JEZEBEL, CALLIE, ALAN, AND JAMES ARE IN THE PHONE ROOM with the three priests the cardinal provided us. I observed for a little while. The cardinal’s men are all business, no questions; serious men, used to serious tasks. They are there to do what they’ve been told to do.

  There’s a definite “when I say jump…” phenomenon within the church hierarchy, apparently. The cardinal’s men would call and get someone on the phone without much delay. They’d relay in terse words that they were passing the phone to a member of the FBI and that the priest at the other end was to answer any and all questions. One of my guys would take the phone and do the interview. They’d pass it back to the cardinal’s man, who’d make it clear that not a word was to be spoken about this, ever. Then they’d hang up. Simple, no muss, fuss, or complaints.

  I’ve left them to it and taken a moment for myself inside the now empty Death Central. So much change has happened in the last few days. I’ve flown apart and come back together again. The Preacher let the world know he existed and I’ve followed his trail to the dark of the confessional booths.

  I need a moment to step back, to look at the forest, not the trees. I need to try and see the man we’re after.

  He is smart. His ideas are not new, but his take on them has depth, care, a certain reverence. He’s not hiding another motive behind the words he’s saying. He believes them, they are what drives him.

  So what are those words?

  They come down to truth, lies, and sin, and they are wrapped in religious significance. He hasn’t taken a philosopher’s path, where truth is a generality. His take on truth revolves around the specificity of salvation. What does it tell me?

  He was raised Catholic.

  I nod to myself. Yes. He grew up around the imagery, the back and forth of guilt and worry and hope mixed with mild self-loathing and self-forgiveness. He grew up seeing Christ on the cross and with the obligation to feel something about that.