The NOLA Heart Novels (Complete Series)

by Maria Luis

  In the time that it took for her to rinse their two plates, there was only silence. Then he stepped forward, the heat of his body pressing up against her side as he grabbed a towel off the counter and rubbed the dishes dry.

  “They separated,” he finally said, catching her by surprise, “when Owen and I were nine. We’d grown up in N’Orleans until then, but Mom was from Hackberry and after they decided to go their own ways, she figured small-town living was the best way to go.”

  Lizzie knew all about separated parents. The arguments. The fights. She swallowed hard, remembering the way her father had drank to excess and worked out his rage on her mom and brother.

  She distracted herself from the memories by retrieving their glasses and rinsing them out. “But you saw your dad on weekends?” she asked. “That must have been nice, at least.”

  Better than what she and Danny had survived. Even though she’d been young at the time, it was impossible to forget the matching bruises on her brother and mother’s faces. Lizzie’s father had never touched her, not once.

  Not that she’d ever fooled herself into thinking that the Danvers patriarch had just loved her more. No, she had Danny to thank for every instance that she’d been sent to her room, forced to hear the sickening sounds of flesh pounding flesh with her ear pressed to her bedroom door.

  Danny had saved her time and time again, although he’d been only two years older.

  Beth, their mother . . . Well, the best day of Lizzie’s life had been the moment Beth and Josh Cartwell had met. A Lieutenant for the NOPD, Josh was the perfect companion for her mom—and, yes, the best stepdad Lizzie could have ever hoped for.

  Until they’d wed, Lizzie had fully believed marriage was a first-class ticket to hell.

  Maybe it still was, but nowadays she was keen on finding a companion to sit next to her on that trip.

  At the sound of the cabinets closing, Lizzie sighed. It was too bad Gage wasn’t a forever kind of guy. He ticked all her boxes and then some—and somehow managed to look like your mama’s worst nightmare while still being a complete gentleman.

  A sexy juxtaposition to the very end.

  “Yeah, we saw my dad.” Gage tossed the towel back on the counter again and then pressed his hip up against it. Arms folded over his chest, he watched her intently. “You open for a little advice?”

  “Go ahead,” she said, matching his pose. His T-shirt draped shapelessly around her like a sack, and his basketball shorts were so long on her that it looked like she wore a skirt. Black eyes dropped, lingered a moment longer than was socially appropriate, and then lifted again.

  “Go with your gut. If you’re feelin’ the need to cut down your time in front of the public, then why are you still worrying about it?”

  “Because I’ve . . .” The words caught in her throat. Because why? She thought of every excuse she’d given in the last few months, and all of them sounded rehearsed. Condensed. Shadowed and silenced to everyone but herself because she worried about being labeled as ungrateful.

  “No answer?” he prompted, his brows lifting as though he’d expected her exact response.

  Lizzie let out a self-conscious laugh. “You weren’t lying when you said you’re a straight shooter.”

  “Own your shit.”

  She blinked. “What?”

  Gage nodded, then drew off his LSU hat and tossed it on the counter behind him. Both hands raked through the dark strands, tugging on the ends in that increasingly familiar way of his. “That’s what my dad said to me and Owen growing up. Own your shit. We heard it at least once a week, usually after we got into a lot of crap whenever we came into the city.”

  Own your shit. Lizzie liked it, a lot. “Your dad sounds like a smart guy.”

  “He was.”

  Was? Her heart dropped at the implication, and she stepped forward. “Gage, I’m so sorry—”

  He shook his head curtly and moved back, away from her touch. “All I’m saying is if you want to make a change, Lizzie, no one’s gonna do it but you. Life’s too short to be worn down by regrets.”

  With her hands at her side, Lizzie attempted a small smile. “For a bad boy, you’re pretty damn good, Gage Harvey.”

  His muscled chest moved, turned away, but not before she caught a telltale flush warming his cheeks. “Keep that to yourself, princess.”

  “Please don’t pull the cliché card and say you’ve got a reputation to uphold.”

  “Well, if it’s true . . .”

  “I’ll fake-dump you.”

  He rested his hands on the kitchen island and assessed her. “You already fake-dumped me, remember? When you said that you didn’t need me or my dick?”

  Now it was her turn to blush furiously. “Well, I don’t think that—”

  “Maybe one day we can have makeup sex, but for right now”—he leaned forward, tempting her to do the same—“I’ve got to go protect the citizens of our beloved city. And you’ve got a job to do, too.”

  Quitting YouTube? Lizzie shuddered with dread. “I can do this.”

  He gave a short nod. “You can do it.”

  “You should really stop being nice to me.” Or else I’ll fall for you for real.

  She expected him to laugh her off, to crack a joke.

  She didn’t expect for him to invade her space—again—or to lift his palm to her face. Hard callouses abraded her cheek, and she felt the distinct press of his thumb to the corner of her mouth.

  “No can do, Lizzie,” he rasped, staring down at where he touched her. “Being nice to you works for me.”

  “Because you want in my pants?”

  “Because I like the way you look at me, even though I sure as hell know I should stay far, far away from you.”

  And then he pulled away, leaving her bereft of his touch, his warmth, and Lizzie knew only one thing: she may have approached him because of his tattoos and his rugged looks, but it was the innate goodness in him that made her want more.

  That goodness and the startling heat in his gaze whenever he glanced her way.

  15

  Sunday dinners were a tradition in the Danvers-Cartwell family.

  Lizzie couldn’t remember when they’d started—maybe when Danny had returned from overseas during his marine years. That had been over a decade ago, and the dinners were still going strong.

  Nowadays, they had two new additions: Jade and Rocky, the serial leg-humper.

  In all honesty, Lizzie wasn’t sure whom Beth Cartwell loved more—her daughter-in-law or her first “grandchild,” no matter that the latter was a four-legged police dog.

  Case in point: the way her mom crooked a finger at Rocky, patted her curvy thighs, and whispered, “Who wants a treat? Does Rocky want a treat? C’mon, baby boy, let’s get you something good.”

  Lizzie traded a glance with Jade, who sat at the kitchen table.

  “Beth,” Jade said, “he really shouldn’t be having any treats, especially not when you’re going to sneak him table food later.”

  Like any bad liar, Beth gave an affronted huff. But Lizzie’s mother was too kind, too sweet, and so she only cracked open the pantry door and said, “But look how adorable he is! Let him live up to his only-child existence, Jade. A few more months and he’ll be taking second seat to Amelia.”

  “Elizabeth,” Lizzie threw in, eyeing the K-9 when he, in turn, cast a glance at her leg. She shifted and tucked her legs under the table, just so he wouldn’t get any ideas. “We all know the baby’s name is going to be Elizabeth, after her favorite aunt.”

  Jade laughed, touching a palm to the side of her belly. “Don’t let Nathan hear either one of you. He’s convinced that we’re going to name her Sophia.”

  “Of course we are,” said Lizzie’s brother as he strolled into the kitchen, their stepfather, Josh, hot on his heels. “Sophia is a beautiful name.”

  Angling her body so that Rocky couldn’t be seen by the men, Beth tossed up a dog treat and gave a silent clap of her hands when he caught it. Then,
loudly, “Oh, Rocky, you know your father doesn’t like it when we overload you on treats. One per visit, Rockster, one per visit.”

  Her mother was nesting, hard.

  “Ma, don’t think I don’t know what you’re doing.” Danny dropped a hand over her shoulder, stealing the treat bag out of her hand and holding it up high. Rocky’s dark eyes rose with his father’s arm, latching onto the goodies without even a blink. “How many times have I told you? Rock’s K-9; he isn’t like other dogs. He’s—”

  “You were saying, honey?” Jade pointed at the police dog, who’d rolled over onto his back, four paws stuck in the air, his tongue lolling out of his mouth. He squirmed back and forth, a clear sign as any that he was playing up the cute factor, even if he had the ability to make grown-ups pee themselves in fear whenever he was out in the field. “The boy knows what he wants.”

  “Dammit.” With an exaggerated sigh, Danny opened the treat bag and stuck his hand inside. “All right, Rockster, let’s show ’em all what you’re made of.”

  With a command from his master, Rocky rose onto his back legs and gave a little hop-hop, front paws landing on Danny’s thighs. He yipped once, parked his butt on the floor, and then lifted one paw.

  Gimme.

  “Oh,” her mom exclaimed when Danny tossed the treat to Rocky, “you are such a good boy. Who’s a good boy? Rocky’s a good boy.”

  Lizzie tossed a wry look at her sister-in-law. “You think she’s going to be just like that when Elizabeth is born?” She rose her voice an octave, mimicking her mother’s perfectly. “Oh, you are such a good girl! Yes, just pee in your diaper and you’ll get all the treats, Elizabeth.”

  Jade and Danny burst out laughing, even as Josh settled an arm around his wife’s shoulders with a goofy grin on his usually somber face—the effects of working for the NOPD for thirty-plus years. “You’ll be the best grandmother there ever was, sweetheart.”

  “Oh, that’s so nice of you to say!”

  Over Beth’s head, Josh winked at Lizzie. “But I hope you understand why we limit your treat rights when Amelia’s born. I have a feeling each time you throw a treat to Rocky, you’ll be sneaking something to Amelia, too.”

  Beth’s nose shot up in the air, her lips quivering with a smile. “I would never play favorites with my grandchildren, just as I don’t with my children. On that note, Lizzie, I heard the most interesting news about you yesterday.”

  Well, didn’t that sound utterly promising?

  As they all took their places at the dining table, Rocky perched in the spot to Beth’s right (he knew where the food came from), Lizzie scrambled to find something to say. She and her mother were close, but they’d never been spill-all-your-secrets close. And because of that . . . well, she wasn’t entirely sure where to start.

  Maybe with the beginning?

  She halfway doubted her mom would be interested in hearing the entire, sordid tale of her breakup.

  Wash. Rinse. Repeat.

  For nearly a decade, her dating habits had become a ritual of finding douchebags, falling for said douchebag, and being unceremoniously dumped, not long after, by the douchebag.

  Scott was no different.

  Lizzie stuffed a forkful of red beans and rice into her mouth. “What sort of exciting news?”

  “I got a little notification on my phone that you’re quitting YouTube?”

  Her fingers twitched around the fork. “Where’d you see that?”

  “The notification?” Beth cast a glance at her son. “Danny, you know what I mean, don’t you? The notifications that pop up?”

  Didn’t matter where her mother had heard it; point was, how had anyone known? Other than Gage this morning, Lizzie hadn’t told a soul that she was very close to stepping back from ThatMakeupGirl. On the other hand, there was a pretty good chance that Beth’s “notification” was nothing but the rumor mill swarming. The internet was a scary, stalkerish place.

  Before Danny had the chance to speak up, Lizzie threw in a blasé, “I’ve been thinking about it.”

  Jade’s head jerked toward Lizzie. “Really? Just a few weeks ago you were talking about how it was your everything.”

  It was—always had been.

  But like she’d told Gage, Lizzie just wanted . . . more.

  Twirling her fork idly, she averted eye contact with her family. “I’ve been thinking about investing more time in Naked You. The market is largely untapped, especially here in N’Orleans. There’s a lot that I could pursue, especially now that I’m receiving more attention on social media for my photographs. The money is steadily coming in.”

  Beth cleared her throat, then sipped her wine. “But they’re naked, Lizzie.”

  “Only sometimes, Ma.” Just the other day, she’d photographed a woman with Stage-4 breast cancer. The woman had opted to wear a body-sized bandana beneath her breasts, covering the curve of her belly but leaving her chest exposed. She’d chosen to celebrate her survival by proudly showing off her double-mastectomy with flowers arranged over her naked skin. Her body and the red rose petals shared the space, becoming a beautiful canvas that had garnered hundreds of similar-minded experiences in the post’s comments, all cheering the woman on for her courage and openness.

  Not everyone who showed up at Naked You pranced around topless without a second thought. Some did; most didn’t.

  At her mother’s arched brows, Lizzie tried again. “You felt this way about the makeup thing, too, remember? How could I make a living off talking about mascara or contouring? And look at me now.”

  “You’re about to quit.”

  “What does it matter, Ma?” Danny muttered, kicking Lizzie under the table in a show of sibling camaraderie. “If she wants to quit, then that’s her right. If she wants to dress up as a clown every day for the rest of her life, she can do that too.”

  Jade visibly winced. “No talk of clowns, please. I still haven’t gotten over your clown makeup tutorial from last year, Liz.”

  And it’d been amazing—Pennywise all the way.

  “Don’t pretend that you didn’t beg me for that look, so you could scare the crap out of everyone at work,” Lizzie said, pointing her fork at her best friend. “You even made your boss drop to his knees with a whimper.”

  Looking altogether too pleased with herself, Jade flicked her dark hair behind one shoulder. “What can I say? I make a terrifying clown. Even managed to scare your big, bad brother.”

  Everyone looked to Danny, who made a show of piling more food onto his plate. “I have no idea what y’all are talking about.”

  “None?” Jade pursed her lips, stared at her husband, and then announced, “Danny has a phobia of clowns.”

  “Jade.” Her name was a pained grunt as he rubbed the back of his neck. “Clowns didn’t bother me until someone I know decided she wanted to tempt the whole city of N’Orleans into painting red on their noses and jagged, The-Joker-type lines across their mouths. You know what it’s like to go to work as a cop on Halloween and see clowns jumping out all over the place?”

  With a sly grin, Jade folded her arms across her chest. “Considering I work for the same department as you do, mi amor, I’d say that I do.”

  There was a small pause, and then, “All right, fine. Point for you, Jade Danvers, point for you.” Gray eyes swung in Lizzie’s direction. “As for you, dear sis, no more clowns this year.”

  “Well, if she has her way,” Beth grumbled, “she won’t be doing makeup at all.”

  Back to that again. Lizzie massaged her temple with her fingers. “I really don’t get why you’re put out about this, Ma. For years, you’ve been hoping I’d quit YouTube and do something else. Well, I’m doing something else, and now you’re giving me grief instead of throwing a party.”

  Rocky gave a sharp bark and, as if by reflex, Beth dropped a sliver of steak down to the pup. Danny groaned, then rose to snag his dog by the collar. “C’mon, big boy, no table scraps. You’ll get something good later.”

  The pair ex
ited the dining room just as Beth dropped her utensils to her plate with a clink! and met Lizzie’s gaze. “You’re thirty, honey. Thirty. And I’m not saying that’s old, but I figured that by this age, you’d be doing something more.”

  More.

  There was that word again, always dropping in when Lizzie least desired it.

  She looked to Josh, the man who had been more of a father to her than hers ever was, and said, “Do you feel the same way?”

  Under her breath, Jade excused herself and fled the room.

  Traitor.

  Lizzie slammed her eyes shut. All right, fine. If she’d been caught in the crossfire at Jade’s house in Miami, she’d have done the same. Even so, she couldn’t stop herself from pressing, “Josh? What about you?”

  Her stepfather cleared his throat, then ran a hand through his graying hair. With his shoulders ramrod straight and his face clean-shaven, he looked like the cop he’d been for over thirty years. “Your mother”—at Beth’s growl of disapproval, he cleared his throat again—“I apologize. We were simply hoping that you’d leave the social media world altogether at some point. Maybe find an office job in the area, stay close to home.”

  Stay close to home? Lizzie shook her head. “In case y’all missed it, I work out of N’Orleans.”

  Josh sent a beseeching glance to his wife, but at her chin-lift, added, “Beth—I mean, we…just want you to dive into life in other ways. A buddy of mine, he works for this marketing firm, and you’d be a perfect fit, sweetheart.”

  Usually, the endearment reminded Lizzie that this man, with his broad shoulders and thinning hair and the fine lines bracketing his mouth, had done everything in his power to show her that not all men were sleaze-bags. There were good men out there who loved their wives and never beat their family, and never drank to excess.

  Right now, his carefully drawn out “sweetheart” felt like a dig, however right or wrong, as though only he knew what was best for her.

  In a stiff voice she barely recognized as hers, Lizzie said, “I’d never make at a nine-to-five what I do now.”