Eirik: A Time Travel Romance (Mists of Albion Book 1)

by Joanna Bell

  "You must be Paige!"

  "Yes," I smiled, terrified that I was going to emit some kind of 'loser' scent and put her off me immediately.

  "I'm Emma! Here, let me take your bag. Wow, I love your hair. OK, so, yeah," she led me into the apartment, "it's not One Hyde Park, but it'll do."

  I laughed again, even though I didn't know what or where One Hyde Park was. Emma was an exuberant whirlwind of emotion and color, everything I was not. She showed me around the place, showing me how to work the tap in the shower – "stand to the side when you turn it on or you're going to freeze your arse off" – and pointing out the fact that one of our other roommates had used stickers to label their yoghurt and sliced deli meat in the fridge.

  "His name's Adam," Emma told me, "and he seems quite serious about the food so I wouldn't go eating any of it if I were you."

  "I won't!" I replied, eager to present myself as easy to get along with. Emma turned around, then, and took me by the shoulders.

  "You're so quiet, Paige. I thought I would be the quiet one, and you the extrovert. You know, that whole American versus British thing."

  I looked down, unsure of how to respond. "Uhh, well. I guess I've always been a little –"

  "It's OK!" Emma yelled, a decibel level I was soon going to get very used to. "It's totally fine! It's adorable, actually. I love quiet people!"

  She wasn't kidding, either. Emma Wolf from the UK didn't even leave me the option of not being her friend, which ended up being A-OK with me because I liked her right off the bat. Sure she was loud enough to attract glances as we walked across the leaf-strewn campus on the way to class (and I'm ashamed to admit I chose many of my classes – a lot of English and History – simply because Emma herself had already chosen them), but she was irresistibly likeable, plain-spoken and warm. On the first day of classes, as I stood outside the main arts building wondering whether or not I was going to throw up with anxiety, she appeared in front of me with that big smile of hers and a cup of hot chocolate.

  "Here you go," she grinned, pushing it into my hand. "You can't be down if you've got hot chocolate. Why are you standing here like a little lost lamb anyway, Renner?"

  That was another one of Emma's habits – calling her friends by their last names. "I – uh, I couldn't find the classroom," I told her. "It says room 038 but I couldn't find anything lower than 100."

  "It's in the basement," she replied, tucking her arm through mine and leading me back inside. "You didn't think they'd let us undergrads into the grander rooms, did you? The ones they put in the prospectus? Of course not! Now we're here and we've paid our fees, it's off to the dreary basement with us!"

  "The pros- what?" I asked, still not entirely used to Emma's rapid-fire speech patterns.

  "Prospectus. The catalog, you know, the book they send with all the photos of happy students and gourmet meals to convince us to apply. Now come on, you're almost late. Are you going to drink your hot chocolate or not? Because if you're not, I will."

  ***

  It took me awhile to accept that I had suddenly, and almost as if by magic, become 'normal.' Emma happily bulldozed me into friendship and with her came all of the other people she had done the same with – and our roommates. Within weeks I found that I was hardly ever at the apartment, because there was always some social event to attend, always something to do. At first, I just floated along happily, like a leaf caught in a burbling steam of sociability. I hung back behind Emma, letting her take the lead, clutching at her arm as she ran on ahead of me.

  Soon, though, and slowly, I started to gain confidence in myself. I started messaging people myself, rather than just letting Emma take care of everything. I began inviting people to the apartment instead of just joining in when Emma took the lead. She liked to have 'suppers' as she called them, usually on weekend afternoons and evenings. A whole chicken would be put in the oven to roast, bottles of wine would be opened and people would drift in to eat and drink and talk with us late into the evening.

  It was after one of these suppers, when everyone had left and I was doing dishes in the kitchen while Emma sat at the table, finishing the last of the wine, that I found myself suddenly sniffling and tearing up.

  "Oh God!" Emma cried, jumping up and wrapping her arms around me. "What is it, Renner? Were the potatoes that bad? I swear I should have left them in the oven a little longer!"

  I giggled a little, comforted by my friend's joking, but I needed to tell her what was in my heart. "The potatoes were fine," I whispered, running hot water over a soapy plate.

  "I know that, you silly sausage! Now come on, tell me what's gotten you all upset."

  "I'm not upset!" I said, aware of how ridiculous I sounded making a pronouncement like that as a tear slid down my cheek. "I mean, obviously I look upset but I'm not. I'm – I'm happy."

  Emma pulled away and gave me an exaggerated look of skepticism. "Are you? You don't look it."

  I remember doing that thing, then – that thing you see little kids doing after they've been crying when they inhale and their breath is all shaky. I did that and Emma led me to the table, still strewn with wineglasses and plates. She sat me down and looked me right in the eyes.

  "Now, Renner. Speak up. Tell me what's wrong. And don't go all silent and embarrassed like you always do."

  I swallowed. "I meant it, Emma. I'm happy. I told you this before but I don't know if you believed me or if you understood. I really didn't have any friends in high school. None. Nobody liked me – a lot of them actively seemed to hate me."

  "They're fucking idiots then," she replied.

  "Yes, they kind of were. But I just wanted to say that I'm, uh, I'm grateful to have met you. I mean, not to be too awkward about this or anything but it means a lot to me that we're friends. That we do things like these dinners on the weekends. I never had anything like this before. I never," I broke off, sniffling again, and Emma gathered me into her arms.

  "I know, Paige. I know. I believe you. Some people have a really hard time of it in school. I got bullied a little, when I was around 12 or 13 – I was taller than all the other girls, too loud, too enthusiastic, too everything. But I don't think it was anything like what you went through. But you're here now, aren't you? You're here with me and with the rest of us and things are looking up for you, my quiet little friend."

  After my mother's death, I was never as close to another human being as I was to Emma. Not during those first years at college, anyway. I wanted to tell her everything about me, I wanted to bond even tighter. I wanted to tell her about Caistley. I didn't, but I wanted to. Sometimes I would think about it before falling asleep at night, in my little room that overlooked a tree-lined street. What would she say? What expression would she wear on her face? I was pretty sure she would suspect I was playing a joke on her.

  There was a moment, one foggy September morning at the beginning of our sophomore year, that it was on the tip of my tongue to say something. Emma and I were up early, intent on getting a photo of the misty campus as the sun came up and before all the other students poured in. We were standing amongst the trees in the big field that the campus was built around and I commented, without thinking, that the air felt very much like England. By that time I thought of England as the place where Caistley was located, even though no one from Caistley would have recognized the word.

  Emma turned and gave me a sharply curious look. "What?"

  "Oh, I, uh," I stammered, "I meant it feels like how I imagine the air in England would feel."

  But Emma wasn't quite buying what I was saying. "Huh," she said, still looking at me. "You've never been to England, right?"

  I made a weird shrugging, head-shaking gesture with my body that I hoped managed to walk the fine line between not revealing the truth and not outright lying.

  "Because it does feel like England this morning," Emma continued. "Exactly like it. That stillness in the air, the way everything is slightly muffled by the fog. I'm actually feeling a little homesick – and
I never get homesick."

  She was right, too, and I so badly wanted to join in, to tell her of the grey, foggy fall days in Caistley, the smell of the wood smoke and the sea all mingled together. I couldn't, though.

  Emma sensed I had something to say. She waited quietly – something she hardly ever did – peering at me, waiting for me to come out with it. But I couldn't. We left it at that, she got her photo, and we both went off to our first classes.

  It was around this time, too, that I developed my first real crush. I mean, I'd been attracted to certain boys before, but never to somebody I actually knew, somebody I might have a chance with. This particular boy was named Brandon and he was on the Grand Northeastern swim team. He wore sweats in navy and gold – the college's colors – with 'SWIM TEAM' written across the back, and I spent a lot of time staring at those letters from my spot directly behind him in one of my history classes. He was tall and gangly – the muscular kind of gangly – and he had a deep, foghorn-y type of voice. I'm not even sure what I saw in him. He wasn't ugly, but he wasn't particularly attractive either. What I don't want to admit to myself and what is therefore the most likely truth, is that I probably liked him because he paid attention to me.

  Make no mistake, I was not one of the 'popular' girls at Grand Northeastern. I had friends then, sure. Some of those friends were male. A couple of them even liked me, if their sweaty palms and nervous stuttering around me were any indication. But most of the boys still wanted to date the same girls they'd wanted to date in high school. Cute little giggling blondes with white teeth and flawlessly tawny skin and a certain way of making those sophomore boys feel more like the men they had not quite become yet.

  Emma had a boyfriend, but she wasn't one of those girls. She was, as she'd said before, too loud, too tall, too in-your-face for those handsome boys who needed their girlfriends to be an admiring audience of one, not competition. And it was Emma herself who noticed I was spending entirely too much time commenting on Brandon from history class.

  "You've got a thing for this guy, huh?" She asked me casually one night while she picked at some pasta-based casserole I had made for dinner.

  "What?" I asked, failing so badly at feigning innocence that even I had to laugh. "Fine. OK. Yes, he's cute, I guess."

  "You guess, huh? Is that why I get a report on what Brandon was wearing and what Brandon said and oh Brandon is so smart after every class you have with him?"

  I threw a piece of pasta at Emma's head. "Shut up."

  She ducked and laughed. "Well invite him over then. How about Sunday? I'm making another roast, Adam and Jake will be there, Sarah, Bryan, Alison – a bunch of people. It'll be easier that way, too, because if you go all silent and shy there'll be other people there to pick up the slack."

  Emma wasn't wrong. It would be more comfortable in a group. Friends or not, social life or not, I knew I wasn't in any way ready to handle myself like a normal human being in any kind of one-on-one situation with Brandon.

  He said yes, though, when I asked him after our next class together, staring at my feet the whole time. Well, first he asked me who else would be at the dinner, but I assumed he was just making small talk. I texted him the street address to our apartment and then scuttled away, glowing and trying to keep the enormous grin off my face until I was out of sight.

  Chapter 15

  21st Century

  When Sunday finally came I insisted on Emma answering the door when Brandon showed up. I was too shy to face him that early, I needed a few sips of wine first. When he walked into the living room I barely looked up as he set down two six packs of beer and Emma introduced him to everyone.

  "And here," she said, in a voice that was thankfully free of any innuendo, "is Paige. You know Paige."

  "Uh, yeah. Hey Paige."

  "Hey," I responded, suddenly very interested in a speck of dirt on the surface of the coffee table. Later on in the kitchen, while Emma and I prepped potatoes and carrots, I looked at her expectantly. "Well?!"

  She kept her eyes on the carrots. "Well what?"

  How could she not know what I was talking about? "Well what about Brandon?" I asked excitedly, turning around to check that we were still alone. "What do you think of him?"

  "He seems nice. Can you pass me the butter?"

  I should have taken the hint, but I didn't even know Emma's lukewarm response was a hint until it was too late. We ate dinner at the table, some of us standing up leaning on the counters because there wasn't enough chairs, and afterwards Brandon hung around. I ran into him once, on the way to the bathroom, and smiled.

  "Hey."

  "Hey Paige."

  And I was so besotted, so in that mode where I was interpreting everything he did as fascinating and charming, that even then I didn't hear the lack of interest in his tone.

  The hallway was narrow, though, and we were standing close together. I remember being very conscious of how close we were, of how I could smell his cologne, of how easy it would have been for him to reach out and touch me. And I really wanted Brandon from the swim team to touch me.

  He didn't, though. Instead he just raised his eyebrows at me and continued back through to the kitchen, where everyone was hanging out.

  It was later that evening, after running into him again on our tiny little back balcony, where I had gone to get some air, that he shattered my hopes. I was happy to see him at first, my heart leaping with joy to see that he was alone, that he was coming to spend time with me, specifically.

  "This is a nice apartment, " he said. "I'm still in one of the dorms – the swim team members get it free so I figured why not save a little money, right?"

  "Yeah," I replied, probably grinning more than I should have been. He was right next to me, leaning over the railing and looking down the alley. He was so tall.

  We chit-chatted about various things, mostly all school-related, our history professor etc. And then he asked me about Emma.

  "Oh, Emma?" I asked, surprised.

  "And that girl Sarah, you're friends with her, too?"

  I nodded, confused. Why was he asking me about my friends?

  "Is she single?"

  The sensation, the feeling of a sudden shrinking in my soul, felt real – physical. I turned away from Brandon and looked out over the alley myself, because I didn't want him to see the expression on my face.

  "Uh, yeah," I replied. "Yeah, I think so."

  "And is she – well, does she like guys?"

  I nodded stiffly. "Yes I think so."

  "Cool. Do you think I could get her number from you? I mean, you don't have to or anything, but we know each other from class and I just thought –"

  As Brandon babbled I went through my memories of him, illuminated as they now were by a new light. Sarah had a class that ended the same time our history class did. Sometimes she would wait for me outside and we'd have coffee together. And yes, looking back it suddenly seemed so obvious. Brandon was usually there, talking to me, when she was there. All of those efforts to talk to me in class, all of those total misinterpretations on my part.

  "So wait a sec," I said, cutting off whatever it was he was saying. "Did you just act friendly with me so you could get to Sarah?"

  "Huh?" Brandon replied, looking genuinely surprised. "I don't even know what you're –"

  "Well all those times you talked to me during class – and after class – those were just to use me to get closer to Sarah?"

  I didn't like the shrill tone in my voice but I couldn't make it go away. Brandon held his hands up.

  "Wait. Paige, are you mad? I talk to everybody, I'm a friendly guy. I don't know what you thought –"

  "I thought you liked me!" I squeaked, knowing I shouldn't be saying anything even as the words were spilling out. "Why do you think I invited you here? I thought – I thought –"

  It was the look on Brandon's face that shut me up. Embarrassment. Not for himself, either – for me. He backed away a little, gingerly, and it hurt so much to feel that, to feel
his total lack of interest, his fear that I might do something stupid like try to kiss him.

  "I didn't mean to, uh – Paige, I didn't think that... Maybe I should just go?"

  "Maybe you should!" I snapped, not looking as he went back into the house and left me there on the porch. At least I managed to wait until I was alone to cry, like some stupid high-school girl, because some stupid boy who never even had the slightest bit of interest in me wanted to date one of my friends.

  Emma found me about fifteen minutes later, dry-eyed by then and filled with self-loathing. She didn't even have to ask what had happened, after she saw the look on my face.

  "He asked me for Sarah's number," I said flatly. "I'm so fucking stupid, Emma."

  "No you're not. Don't say that, Renner."

  I turned to her, then, distraught. "I don't even know who I thought I was kidding, you know? I'm still me. I'm still that outcast girl who nobody liked. What, did I think I was suddenly hot property because I had friends? I'm not blind. I know I don't look like a cheerleader! The worst part of this is he's not even that great, is he?! I saw it when he was out here, blathering on about Sarah and oh he was just being friendly to me and he's friendly to everyone blah blah blah oh God, please don't let the ugly girl try to touch me."

  "You're not ugly, Paige. Stop it. Stop saying this stuff."

  "I'm sorry," I laughed bitterly. "You want to hear the worst part? The only reason I'm acting like such a psycho right now is because this is the first time a boy I liked ever even talked to me! So of course I fell in love, like some pathetic little puppy. Well, yay I guess. This just needs to happen a few more times and I'm sure I'll toughen up."

  Emma was gentle, putting her arms around me and pulling me in for a hug. I apologized later, as we sat in the living room finishing off the very last of the wine after everyone else had gone home.