by Meg Xuemei X
Ares peeled a hard-boiled egg and didn’t make a comment.
I was thankful that the chair had a cushion. I settled down and sipped my tea, sighing in satisfaction. It was the best tea I’d ever tasted.
I was certain Merlin brewed it with magic. Later, I would ask him if I could bring my wolves and come to live with him for a while if I returned from the Twilight Realm. He could teach me the magic that lurked in my dark soul. If I could learn how to unleash it, then it wouldn’t burn in my veins.
Though I sat alone, I had to fight my urge to gaze in Ares’ direction. His savage strength was palpable even in the open space. It wasn’t only his strong presence demanding attention—a magnetic force kept pulling me toward him, and it seemed one way.
Evidently, Ares didn’t feel the tug that I felt at all. This was the first time since our encounter that he ignored my existence. He laughed with the druid, not caring that I was still breathing, or enjoying my teacake on a lone table a few yards from his.
Last night’s humiliation wheeled back to me, but I quickly shoved it out of my head. Freyja the First Witch was a survivor.
The cool wind brushed my face, tousling my hair. I slanted my eyes half shut. My skin breathed freely in this magical garden. I thought of the crumbling civilization outside. I wondered where my wolves were now and how far I was from them.
A hand with elegant long fingers placed a plate of passion fruits and a buttered biscuit in front of me. Merlin refilled my teacup and sat across from me.
“Mind some company?” he asked.
“I’m drinking your tea and eating your cake, aren’t I?” I said.
I darted a quick glance at the prince’s table. The lot all stared at us. The Dragonians particularly didn’t understand why the druid would show me such attention and special favor.
“Then shouldn’t you shake my hand as a token of thanks?” he said, stretching his hand toward me.
My gloved hand moved to meet his. “And thank you for the gloves.”
“Freyja,” he said, “people don’t shake hands with gloves.”
I longed to test if I had lost my death touch, but Merlin was not my target. He had known my bloodline. He should have known about my lethal touch.
“I would rather be rude than harmful,” I said.
“It’s okay, Freyja,” he said. “Trust me. I won’t be the first one to survive a touch.”
My face flamed. So he knew about what had transpired between Areas and me last night. Was he also a mind reader?
I instantly put on my mental shield.
He tugged at my glove and pulled it out.
Merlin held my bare hand between his palms.
My heart stopped for a second and my breath caught. “Merlin,” I choked with emotion. But when tears came up, I forced them back. I’d been healed of my death touch without realizing it when I’d stepped into his garden of blessing. That was why Ares could sustain my touch last night. He wasn’t special after all.
But the contact with the druid felt very differently than with the Dragonian prince. Ares’ touch had set me on fire while Merlin’s made me feel normal for the first time. His vast warmth enveloped me. I was finally a normal girl.
“Unfortunately, Freyja,” the sorcerer said ruefully in the ancient angelic tongue, “you can’t go around testing your theory. Only two more superior beings are immune to your touch, and they’re the ones you plan to pay a visit.”
I knew whom he meant—the Fey Empress and the High Prince of All Angels.
“Do they know about me and who I—?” I asked, then stopped as a harsh voice boomed beside me.
Ares towered over our table. “What do you think you’re doing, druid?” he demanded, glaring at Merlin.
“What do you think we’re doing?” I snapped. “We’re having a private conversation that you have no right to interfere with.”
Ares ignored me. “Let her go, Merlin.”
“My interest in Freyja is of magical curiosity, Prince,” Merlin said mildly. “You should not be alarmed.” But he released my hand nevertheless.
I gave Ares a dirty look as I put the glove back onto my hand, but he wasn’t looking at me.
“Magical curiosity?” Ares seized the subject in an avid interest. “What do you mean? Does she possess magic?”
“That’s not for me to tell, Prince,” Merlin said. “Freyja is her own person, and she always will be. If you want to win her, treat her likely.”
“He’ll never win me!” I said.
At exactly the same time, Ares said, “I have no intention to win her. She’ll do what she promised to do.”
I never promised him anything.
“Only after she fulfills her end of the bargain,” continued the cold bastard, “can she go wherever she wants and do whatever she wants to do.”
“You’ll need to win her,” Merlin said, “if you ever want to find the First Witch.”
My pulse quickened. I really didn’t like how this game was playing.
Ares tensed. “I haven’t had the chance to bring up the subject of the First Witch.”
Merlin arched an eyebrow.
“Fine,” Ares sighed. “I’ve come to seek your council, as my father did.”
“Then show the great prophet respect,” I said. I should have stirred the trouble between them when Ares had first yelled at the druid, but I’d been trying to process Merlin’s revelation. “I believe even Commander North Darken dared not take this tone with Master Merlin.” I turned to gaze at the sorcerer with all the adoration I could conjure up. “You can throw him out of your garden easily. You don’t have to put up with his insolence.”
Ares trained his hard stare on me. He was finally looking at me. I sneered and his nostrils flared. Like that could make me shiver with fear. I was death! But then I realized my death touch had no effect on him. I should ask Merlin why.
“Stop your futile rebelling, Freyja,” Ares ordered. “And since you’ve been fed, we’ll be packing and leaving. We won’t further bother Merlin.”
I could see how his isolation worked. He kept Lucas away from me, and now Merlin, because everyone could see that I felt connected to the druid.
And the prince talked as if he really owned me, despite that Merlin had just warned him of treating me like a person.
“I haven’t finished my breakfast,” I said, pointing at the food on my plate. “I have two more biscuits to go and—”
“You’re done with your breakfast for now,” Ares said, anxious to get me away from Merlin, as if he was afraid the druid would steal me away. “You can have more on the road.”
“I still need to finish my tea,” I hissed.
Was he going to drag me out of my seat? If I grabbed the edge of the table, the large-sized bastard would just take the table with me. Would Merlin assist me? I thought of throwing the tea at Ares’ face, but it was almost empty.
“Your path doesn’t stop here, Freyja,” Merlin said. “Go forward and become who you’re supposed to be.”
“How?” I wanted to be the powerful First Witch in truth, but I was also terrified of becoming her.
A blast of light surged toward me from across the table. There wasn’t enough time to put my hands up to shield myself, or do anything to fend it off.
The light shot straight into my eyes.
I jerked backwards and yelped.
Waves of images twirled in my head, speeding along, overlapping, and leeching to the walls of my skull.
Ares shoved me behind him along with my chair, a long sword tight in his hand. “What did you do to her, druid? Any harm comes to her—”
Merlin didn’t even look at him. He poured tea into his own cup. “I’ll never harm Freyja.”
“Then what did you do to her?” Ares demanded, knuckles white on the hilt of his sword. “She isn’t your test subject. She’s fragile.”
Me, fragile?
His team surrounded Merlin.
No matter how Ares defended me, I waited for the conflict
to aggravate. I would join Merlin in a heartbeat. Instinctively, I knew how powerful he was, and practically, it was safest to stay with him.
The light was actually Merlin’s magical gift to me. He’d just graced me with some arcane knowledge. He sent me a reproaching look for keeping quiet.
“That’s my present to Freyja,” Merlin said. “She’ll need it to protect herself.”
Ares spat. “I won’t harm her.”
“Not you,” said Merlin.
“Then who?” Ares demanded, a crimson ring forming in his eyes.
“She’s being hunted,” said Merlin.
“Who’s hunting her?” Ares snarled.
“I see things but not all things,” said Merlin. Then to me, he said, “The prince has just defended you instinctively, even against me. He’ll always protect you.”
“While I’m useful to him,” I said.
Merlin looked at me, then at Ares, and smiled enigmatically. “Your journey will be an interesting one.”
Ventus had said the same thing.
“Freyja will stay with me for the rest of the morning,” Merlin said. “I have something more to show her.”
“Whatever you show her, you can show me,” said Ares.
He was like a stubborn dog on a bone.
“This is a private matter,” I said.
“There’s no private matter with any of my team members,” Ares said, folding his arms across his chest and spreading his legs wide to show how firm he was on that point.
“I’m not your team,” I said. “I’ll never show you my fealty.”
“Would you rather be my prisoner?” he asked.
I narrowed my eyes. “I don’t see the difference.”
“Oh, there’s a huge difference,” he said. “And you’ll learn not to get on my bad side.”
“I don’t want to get on any side of you,” I said, then last night’s images flooded back, and I flushed in anger, which at least covered part of my humiliation.
I thought of kicking his calf, but I might hurt only my own foot—Ares was all rock hard muscles.
Returning his sword to his sheath on his back, Ares pulled a spare chair and sat beside me. His minions went back to their table at the wave of his hand. Boomer hurried to bring his prince’s teacup and refill the tea for him. That one was good at kissing ass.
Ares drank deeply. I hoped he’d choked on the hot liquid, but unfortunately, he didn’t. He put down the cup and looked at us with anticipation and satisfaction.
For a few seconds, the three of us just looked at one another.
I opened my mouth, and before the angelic tongue flowed out of me, Ares beat me to it. “I don’t like being kept in the dark,” he said. “The two of your will show me courtesy. You’ll talk in the common language instead of that secret, coded one.”
How was I going to ask Merlin the multitude of questions I had?
I cussed in the angelic tongue.
Ares stared at me hard. He knew it was a cuss.
“Freyja,” Merlin chastened me, and I offered him a sheepish look.
He sighed and let it go. When he placed his hands on the table, palms up, I knew what he wanted me to do and pressed my hands on his.
“Close your eyes,” Merlin said. I shut my eyes at his command.
However, I couldn’t really concentrate since Ares’ body heat radiated beside me and the wind kept sending his intoxicating male scent in my direction. Everything about him called for me to go to him, even after what he’d done to me last night.
A picture of me sitting on his lap and snuggling up to him formed in my mind.
My body would always have these needs, and my skin would forever hunger for his touch, but my will was not weak and it crashed the images of my desire.
Even with my eyes tightly shut, I could feel Ares’ scorching gaze on my face. To test my theory, I opened one eye and caught him staring at me with longing and savage hunger. The wings of light fluttered in my stomach.
Ares narrowed his eyes to slits and frowned at me to cover up his unguarded emotion, but it was too late for him.
“Concentrate, Freyja!” he barked. “Merlin asked you to shut your eyes. Must you always screw up?”
“Sure,” I said. “When Merlin says jump, I’ll ask how high.” I opened the other eye and winked at him before closing both.
I could hear his growling and a small vengeful surge of satisfaction grew within me.
A gentle wind skimmed in my head, and my face flamed. Merlin had seen my fantasy. I needed to put a strong mental shield against him. I’d done that when the guardians tried to poke into my mind, but with Merlin, I was defenseless like a toddler.
Are you done playing, Freyja? Merlin’s voice sounded in my head.
Uh, sorry. I was waiting for you to give me instructions, I said.
As a man of few words, Merlin answered by sending a stream of explosive light into my head. It turned to fire, spreading in me and searching.
I hadn’t expected such a searing pain. I could feel my facial muscles distorting. I ground my teeth to muffle a scream that came up my throat.
“Release her, Merlin!” Ares shouted.
The fire hovered above a dark lake covered by layers of thick ice, where I had banished and locked the beast. Merlin had found the place where I never wanted to visit. Except once a year, when I had to fortify the ice to ensure it was unbreakable. Now and then, I’d skate to the lake and look through the ice to see if it was still there.
Merlin, I hissed, leave it be.
His fire didn’t obey me. It turned to a spear and plunged into the ice.
No! I cried. It’s a mistake.
If the beast was released, I couldn’t imagine the consequences.
The table shook and the teapot and cups on it bumped up and down.
A vortex formed, circling Merlin and me and sending Ares and his chair flying backwards.
I heard him crashing onto the ground.
His men shouted, but none of them could get inside the vortex.
A patch of ice broke. A hole appeared.
A shapeless entity, darker than midnight and immensely powerful, surged from the bottom of the lake and landed on top of the ice.
My nightmare. My monster.
“Merlin!” I whimpered in panic.
Control it, child, Merlin said.
I can’t. I don’t know how. I had wrestled with it before. It had almost become me and worn my skin forever.
And now it was out, bigger, mightier, and in a blinding rage.
Fear paralyzed me and cold sweat drenched my armpits. Who could tame a beast like that? With sheer will, I ordered myself not to pass out. If I did, I would never have a chance to wake up again. It would fully possess me. It wouldn’t just shove me aside; it would lock me at the bottom of the ice lake as I’d done to it.
It isn’t an alien force, Merlin said. It’s a part of you that you’ve refused to face. You need to acknowledge it, claim it, own it, and command it.
Just because he’d fucking said so?
The druid had no idea how terrible and terrifying it was! He had no fucking idea what it was. I started hyperventilating.
It’s your natural born power, your inheritance, Merlin said. Angels are monsters, but they’re the most beautiful, terrifying, and marvelous species out there. They’re the ultimate predator in the universe, as are you. You look out the window through your human eyes, but you aren’t just a human. You need to accept your other half unconditionally, good or bad, if you ever want to be whole.
And my bloodline was the most ancient and potent in the universe, and evil and predatory.
No, I would not be like the Angel King. I wouldn’t allow the beast to swallow all that I had left from my mother. She was the good that I clung to every day.
I’d seen my father’s atrocious acts through my mother’s memories. I’d seen the burns on her skin and the layers of scars on her back left by a jagged iron whip. I had owned her scars since I was a child.
While she was alive, she was never aware that I had the power to acquire truth and knowledge through a touch.
I was the product of a brutal rape, yet she cherished me more than anything in the world. Every night she rocked me to sleep with songs of love, bravery, and heroes, and I’d been a difficult baby. Tears flowed down my face.
Where I treasured the good that flowed in my veins, I despised my father’s foul blood that also coursed in me. I hated Angels with iron hot intensity, just as my mother had hated them. Yet she carried her duty for the hope of peace on Earth.
But after the war, this planet had become even more violent. We slaughtered each other for dominance and over racial resentment and different religious. We slaughtered each other over nothing. The earthlings didn’t deserve my mother’s sacrifice, nor did I.
The ancient Angel bloodline doesn’t define you, Freyja, Merlin said, but how you rise from it does. Quit your self-loathing. Your mother didn’t love and sacrifice for you for nothing. Your uncle—the High Prince of All Angels—shares the same bloodline as you, yet he’s the source of good now. Children do not inherit their parents’ or ancestors’ sins if they choose not to follow the same dark path as their forebears. You’re stronger than you believe, child.
The entity, changing forms between shape and shapeless, stood on the ice, its glowing eyes looking straight at me. It was a menacing force—dark and greedy, mighty and vengeful.
The temperature suddenly dropped below zero and I trembled.
It stalked toward me, purposefully and forebodingly. It was half-mad and starving, and furious after being locked away for too long.
I blew out a breath of frost and staggered back.
Merlin had asked me to claim it, but it actually wanted to claim me, as it’d always wanted.
It wanted to wear my skin and breathe in the fresh air through my body.
The ultimate predator.
Go back! I snarled.
It pounded toward me silently.
Stop!
It kept on. It was now a few feet from me, regarding me, its breath dark and its eyes crimson.
