Madhouse

by Rob Thurman

  “You can’t make me tell you anything.” He was a study in contradiction. Afraid, but proud. A murderer, but so fucking naive.

  “Think again, asshole.” I gave a feral grin. “I can make you do anything. Anything. All I need is time.” I pulled the trigger, and it felt as good as I knew it would. “You don’t have anywhere you need to be, right?” I finished as the echoing boom of the round faded away.

  His scream was slower to wane. He should’ve been grateful. He still had his leg. I’d used my left hand to throw my combat knife. I wasn’t as good with my left as my right, but I was good enough and good enough was all it took. Half the blade buried itself in his thigh. The gunshot and crater in the far wall a few inches over had been for emphasis; there’s nothing quite like an explosive round for highlighting the six inches of steel in your body. There’s nothing quite like it for emphasizing any damn thing you can think of.

  The cops would be coming but good luck getting through the panicked crowd that that explosion would have milling like wild animals. It would take a while and a while was longer than I needed. We were far down the tunnel and I was motivated. Very motivated.

  I watched as he fell to his knees, his hands finding and locking on to the rubber handle. Looking up at me, he swallowed the last of his harsh cry and his mouth worked soundlessly before he mumbled something too slurred to understand.

  “I can’t make you tell me anything, is that what you said?” I stepped forward, put my hand over his tightly clenched ones. “It’s serrated, so very sorry about that. But don’t worry. It’ll be just like pulling off a Band-Aid.” I leaned in and offered a mockery of sympathy. “I’m happy to do it for you. But if I were you, I’d try not to look at what comes out with it.”

  “My task is done,” he repeated, my words ignored. The fear was gone; there was nothing to smell but the remnants of it now. “I will be remembered.”

  The tracks beneath us began to vibrate, followed by a brilliant light cutting through the shadows. Piss-poor timing—I lived for it. Or, rather, it lived for me.

  “I will be honored.” He managed to get to his feet and stepped back, using an untapped and desperate energy to pull his hands and the hilt from my grip. He took two more steps, looked down and back, then took that one last step. He rested his left foot on the third rail without hesitation. Immediately, his body arched before snapping back so rigidly upright and with a force so anatomically impossible that I thought I heard his back break. I also smelled the cooking of flesh and the stench of burning hair, but only for a second. I flung myself back against the wall as the train took him. After that there was only the sharp scent of ozone, empty space, and a hundred wildly raging emotions with nowhere to go.

  I slid down against the concrete wall until I was sitting, the gun still in my hand. He’d beaten me to it. The bastard had gone out his own way and without telling me a damn thing.

  “Shit.” I pulled up my knees and rested my forehead on them. “Sorry,” I rasped roughly, “so goddamn sorry.” The curse was for me, the rest for Robin.

  “Did you kill him?”

  Niko would’ve quickly realized that he’d assigned himself the wrong direction when the milling of the crowds and the yelling and screams started from the opposite end. My end. He’d caught up with me, but not in time.

  “No.” I straightened and leaned my head back. “A million volts and a train beat me to it.”

  “Dead is dead,” he said with a dark satisfaction as he held down a hand to me. “And that, little brother, is quite thoroughly dead.”

  I shook my head and didn’t take the offered hand. He was right. Dead was dead, but it wasn’t enough. “Robin’s gone.” I looked blindly at the smoking rail. “That stupid, horny piece of shit is…” I dropped the gun beside me and rubbed hard at my forehead with the heels of one hand. I couldn’t say the word. I picked the Eagle back up, threw it across the tunnel with as much force as I could muster, and didn’t bother to care when nothing blew up from the careless tantrum. “In the back. Jesus, he got it in the goddamn back. He’s supposed to be better than that. Smarter than that.”

  “He told us so often enough, didn’t he?” Nik sat beside me. To keep it out of his eyes, he’d drawn the top half of his jaw-length hair back tightly and secured it just below the crown with a black rubber band. But without the weight of his braid to pull the rest of it straight, the damp bottom half that fell free had dried with a subtle wave where he had pushed it back behind his ears. That wave must’ve been there for months now, and I hadn’t noticed. It seemed important, my blindness; it seemed almost momentous, because Niko was my brother. My brother, and I hadn’t noticed. I couldn’t begin to grasp the things I’d not taken the time to notice about Robin.

  “Yeah,” I said raggedly. “He did. Smarter than Socrates, quicker than Hermes…”

  “With the stamina of Hercules and Priapus combined,” the familiar voice croaked from several feet away. From the gloom, Robin appeared. He was leaning heavily on Promise, but he was moving under his own power. Moving, breathing, bragging…he was alive. The son of a bitch was alive. All those roiling emotions tearing through me finally had an outlet, and until I reached Goodfellow I had no idea if they would result in violence or something worse.

  It was the something worse.

  I’d jumped to my feet and moved in to push him hard. Then I grabbed a handful of his shirt to pull him back and shake him, and finally, growling as loudly as any wolf, I wrapped an arm around his neck and squeezed until his face began to turn vaguely purple.

  Yeah, I hugged him. It didn’t get any worse than that, did it?

  Shoving him back again before he had time to blink in surprise, I demanded harshly, “Why aren’t you dead?”

  “At this rate, I soon will be.” He raised a hand between us, wary at any further welcome. “I can tell you are overcome with relief at the reunion, Caliban, but, please, don’t strain any hitherto unused emotional muscles on my behalf. I’m not sure my neck can stand it.” Matted brown hair stuck to his sweaty forehead as he leaned back with a wince to give more weight to Promise’s supportive arm. “And I’m not dead because of Boggle.” His pale face became a little more animated beneath the discomfort. “Also because of that bastard Darkling. Wouldn’t he have loved to know that, that wretched wad of lizard mucous?”

  “I think this would be better explained in a location where our chances of being arrested”—Niko rested a hand on my shoulder—“and dissected are a little less.” The hand gripped and then pointed.

  “Gun. Only rude little boys leave their toys lying about.”

  And I wouldn’t want to be rude, would I? Or dissected. I walked over, avoiding the third rail that still sizzled with leather and flesh, and recovered the weapon with fingers that felt oddly clumsy. Hard fight, long night, friends dying and rising again, that sort of thing played hell on a person’s nervous system. Understanding that didn’t stop me from cursing my numb fingers, the suddenly much heavier than normal Eagle, and Lazarus frigging Goodfellow. After tucking the gun in my jeans, I pulled off my shirt, turned it inside out, and put it back on. I’d gone from a dark-haired maniac in a black shirt, to just an average guy in a red one. The difference was enough to fool any nonprofessional eye, and here was hoping that cop I took out was still unconscious.

  We did make it out, blending into the panicked while taking turns helping Robin along. This time, we shelled out the bucks for a cab and headed to Promise’s penthouse at Park Avenue and Sixtieth to recuperate. Promise had offered. I was beginning to think she was fonder of Robin than she let on. They were both long-lived, although he was much older by far. They had a common bond that Niko and I couldn’t be part of. Actually, the jury was still out on whether I had inherited the Auphe longevity. It could stay out as long as it wanted. I wasn’t outliving Niko; I wasn’t outliving my only true family, not by hundreds or thousands of years. No. Just…no.

  By the time we climbed out of the taxi and were ushered into the building
by an imposing, silver-haired doorman with an equally imposing sweep of mustache in pure white, Goodfellow’s cursing had grown louder, but his movements came with more ease. A bruised or cracked rib, that was what he’d managed to escape death with—a dark purple splotch on the left of his back…precisely over where his heart would be.

  The key to his survival had been the memories of our boggle, which had been triggered by his mate, and by Darkling. Darkling, at one with my body and my mind, had set up an ambush in Central Park. While Boggle had attacked Goodfellow, Darkling…I…we had shot Niko. Point-blank range. I leaned toward guns. Knives were okay, but guns were the top of my comfort level, and Niko hadn’t forgotten that. When I’d been taken by Darkling, my brother had worn a bulletproof vest in anticipation of just such an event. It had saved his life.

  Robin knew that he was an assassination target of two attempts already. When we’d told him we were bringing in another boggle, it had brought the fight of the past year to mind. While Niko had expected the gun then, Goodfellow hadn’t. Darkling wasn’t human; he would have no particular attachment to a gun. Nonhumans rarely did. That type of thinking would’ve gotten Robin killed if he’d been in Nik’s place. As lessons went, it had made an impression on the puck.

  Hameh birds, a sirrush…a man with a gun was a long way from creatures such as those. Long way, long odds. But pucks, gamblers to the last one, knew all about odds and they knew their payoffs. I’d wondered how someone as long-lived as him had gone down so easily. Now I knew. He hadn’t. After the Hameh, he’d bought a bulletproof vest and started wearing it under his finely woven fall sweaters. The damned things probably matched, cashmere and Kevlar.

  Reclining on overstuffed pillows and a sage green silk cover, Robin was lounging in Promise’s guest room with a distinctly superior smirk on his pointed face. Look at me. Look how clever. The breadth and reach of my intelligence are so unfathomable to the average brain that I must appear godlike to you lesser mortals. Whether it was only in my head that I heard it or he’d actually said it aloud, it didn’t matter. My hand was already closing around something on the dresser to toss at him. Gilded French vase, crystal decanter, statue of Venus, I didn’t look. I didn’t care. I hefted it and cocked my arm back as if I were trying out for the majors when Niko took me by the scruff of my shirt and began to hustle me out of the bedroom.

  “He really doesn’t deal with the unexpected well, does he?” Robin commented as if I and my makeshift weapon weren’t there. Rolling onto his stomach, he hissed at the cold as Promise, who didn’t look particularly pleased to be playing nurse, placed an ice pack over the spreading bruise. Fondness only went so far. Seeing a half-naked Goodfellow was apparently the outer limits of that affection. “In his world there are no good surprises and all piñatas are filled with evil-tempered tarantulas and poison-spitting snakes.” I heard the clucking of his tongue before he rested his face in the pillows for a muffled finish. “We do need to work on that attitude or he’ll never be able to enjoy the true…”

  I didn’t hear anything further as the bedroom receded behind us. Promise’s home had soft and gloriously woven rugs, draperies, and tapestries on the wall that all worked to soak up noise like a sponge. I looked at what was in my hand as Niko kept marching me along. A candelabra, silver and gold. It would’ve made a nice dent in that curly head. “He deserves it,” I said, knuckles whitening as my grip tightened.

  “Why?” At the end of the hall, we went down the winding stairs as the metal was deftly worked from my clenched hand. “Why does he deserve it? For being a self-righteous ass, which is nothing new, or”—he put the candelabra on the nearest table—

  “for scaring you?”

  “I have Sawney and the Auphe to scare the shit out of me,” I dismissed stiffly. “Goodfellow doesn’t come close to making that list.” After depriving me of my expensive puck swatter, Nik released me, and I promptly began to prowl the living room in ever-widening circles. I plunked the keys of an ivory-colored small piano, glanced at several pictures in simple polished silver frames, and kept walking.

  “There is more than one type of fear, little brother. You had a not so healthy taste of that with Georgina and me, and you did your best to forget about it.” His gaze drilled into mine, letting me know what he had thought and still did think of that idea. Very damn little. “To push it down where you wouldn’t have to look at it, to think about it.” He leaned against the wall as I shifted my wary glance away from him to the floor and kept pacing. “Or to deal with it.”

  I had exactly zero desire to talk about this, but I knew the difference that would make. When I passed the piano this time, I slammed a fist down instead of a few fingers. The discordant crash didn’t make me feel any better, but it did make me feel like I had company in my chaos. “I deal,” I gritted. “I deal just fine.”

  “Yes, you’re dealing. You’re dealing a path of destruction through a home that Promise is quite fond of.” Fingers tapped lightly against folded arms as he led into what he’d said before, more than once, although he hadn’t said it as often as I’d expected him to. He knew better than I that I wasn’t ready to hear it. Not then. “Cal, Robin is alive. Georgina and I are alive. That is what’s important—what did happen, not what could’ve happened.”

  What did happen, not what could have. Yeah, it was all very Tao and accepting and all that. But, Zen crap aside, it could easily have gone the other way. Over the past year and a half we’d been lucky so many times. That luck, sooner rather than later, would have to run out. The law of averages wasn’t going to be our bitch forever.

  I touched a finger to the cool keys again, this time tentatively, and then I sat down to play. It wasn’t pretty music. It wasn’t ugly either. Yet, in a way, it was both. It was alien—that was the best description. Dissonant and illogically strung together, wild note to wilder yet, but it hung together somehow. A symphony from swamps and caves, jeweled bones and forgotten dungeons, living tombs and empty graves—the Darkling places. He had been related to the banshees, a male version whose history had never been recorded, whose true name along with the rest of his gender was lost in time. But like his female cousins, he liked music, and he liked to sing.

  On the other hand, despite inheriting our mother’s honey and rum voice, I couldn’t play or sing a note. That hadn’t stopped Darkling from leaving me a present. Unwelcome, unwanted, and unknown up until now. It didn’t matter. He was dead, chopped to the finest of pieces. I’d done the chopping. I knew for a fact he was gone.

  But the reflection came before I could stop it, at least when he’d been in me, no matter who left, I wasn’t ever alone. Schizo as hell, but not alone. It was a thought that left me so repulsed and exposed that I veered away from it instantly. Folding arms on the top of the piano, I rested my chin on them. “I’m used to having all my eggs in one basket.” That would be Niko. One steel-shelled egg, one unbreakable basket. God, I hoped.

  It was an obscure statement and coming after an exhibition of a freakish musical talent I shouldn’t have had, you had to give Niko credit for catching on to it. “The more eggs you have, the more likely one is to break.”

  “Poached. Scrambled. Pureed in a blender for an over-the-hill boxer. Whatever.” I extended an arm and touched the corner of the nearest frame. Promise and a dark-haired little girl, both colored sepia and dressed in clothes from at least a hundred years ago. For the things that I did know of Robin and Promise, there were thousands upon thousands of things that I didn’t and might never have the chance to learn.

  “I’m not good at this shit, Cyrano. I’m not good at caring, and I’m sure as hell not good at all the crap that comes with it.” I looked up at the ceiling, eggshell with a hint of rose. It reminded me of the inner curve of a shell scoured clean by salt water. Full of dawn’s purity and glow. “He made me like him, the son of a bitch. And I don’t like…didn’t like anyone but you. But Goodfellow made me like him and then he goes and proves he’s mortal after all. It sucks. It just goddamn
sucks.” I pushed away from the baby grand and stood. “I’m hungry. You hungry? Want a sandwich? Great. Sandwiches coming up.”

  “I think you need to avoid sharp objects for a while,” Niko ordered as he moved away from the wall. “I would hate for you to ram a butcher’s knife in Goodfellow’s leg in the hopes he wouldn’t force you to like him anymore. Although the aborted attempt to brain him with a candelabra might already have him tipped off to your cunning plan.”

  “I am so screwed.” I sat back down, this time on the floor. Dirty red shirt, damp jeans, and black sneakers, I was a definite test to the stain-repelling skills of the oyster gray, violet, and ebony rug beneath me. “Why do I like him?” I muttered, more to myself than to Nik. “Promise…I have to like her. I get that. She’s yours. You’re hers. It’s a package deal. George…” I shut my mouth. There was no way to continue that sentence without regret, not a single one.

  “We should’ve left New York. Even after Darkling was dead and we thought the Auphe were, we should’ve kept moving.” I exhaled heavily as I sheathed fingers in my hair and said by rote, “You don’t get attached, you never tell anyone your real name, and you always leave. Those were the rules.” You always leave being the most important of them.

  Niko sat across from me on the floor. His legs were folded in a style that made mine ache just to see it. He loosely rested his hands on his knees. His wrists were banded with what looked like a double row of Tibetan meditation beads, except these were made of steel and would deflect the blow of nearly any blade easily. “I know,” he said. “I made those rules.” The corners of his mouth deepened downward briefly. “And Sophia thought I scorned the old ways.”