Food for the Soul

by Ceri Grenelle

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Epilogue

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  Ceri Grenelle

  FOOD FOR THE SOUL

  Ceri Grenelle

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  Food for the Soul

  Copyright © May 2016 by Ceri Grenelle

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  Dedication

  I’m from New York City, and regrettably grew up in a culture that was desensitized to the plight of those less fortunate. But moving to the Bay Area has really forced me to face the homeless epidemic in the United States. If you see someone who is homeless, all I ask is that you are not quick to judge. We don’t know what circumstances led them to a life on the street. No matter their history, a person can only benefit when a stranger is kind to them. Give to shelters, donate to those in need, and love one another.

  Chapter One

  “This old building is like your chicken soup, Harper. It warms the soul and keeps it cozy till the next bowl is filled. Can’t find that anywhere else in this city.”

  Greg’s words from that afternoon echoed in Harper’s mind. His near-toothless smile of gratitude had kept her stress and exhaustion at bay, similar to what the large bowl of homemade chicken soup could do for him. But where Greg was homeless and depended on Harper for a solid meal and a place to rest, Harper had a home and a bed to call her own. Though for how much longer she couldn’t guess.

  Dragging herself up from the unbalanced wooden chair she used at her old beat-up desk, Harper began to pile up the measly donations. Dollars and change, that’s all there was to put in the bank tonight.

  “This week was terrible,” she mumbled into the quiet, reaching for a paperclip to keep the tiny stack of dollars together. There were so few bills she didn’t need a rubber band. “Hell, this month was terrible. This fucking year, even.” The helplessness she’d come to associate with this time of night—money-counting time when the reality of her situation was nailed home with a vicious hammer—was pushed aside by a short and unusual burst of anger. She wrenched open the sticky desk drawer so hard it came flying out, raining thumbtacks and other office supplies onto the floor.

  “What the hell?” Harper exclaimed, dropping the drawer with a loud bang and grabbing the bank bag she’d been searching for. Not that she needed it. She might as well donate the measly amount to some other charity, for all the good it would do her.

  When the Full Spoon soup kitchen first opened five years ago, the city had banded together to support her efforts. Donations poured in from across the country, and she’d had more than enough funds to feed the many downtrodden and homeless of the city in addition to helping those who wished to better themselves. The run-down building wasn’t just a temporary haven for the less fortunate; it was a space she could host daycares and group tutor sessions. She taught people how to read, a basic human right that had been denied them due to circumstance.

  America was known as the land of opportunity, but it also had a reputation for dismissing or willingly forgetting its poor, no matter what the Statue of Liberty claimed.

  Nowadays, folks didn’t have time for the poor that were right in front of their faces. Sure, they donated thousands of dollars to the destitute across the oceans, but they were blind to the ones begging on their street corners or in their subways. Harper would never say those people across the oceans didn’t deserve the care and donations, but she often wondered why Americans were so steadfast in their ignorance of poverty in their own backyard. Were the Americans who couldn’t hack it not good enough to be mentioned? Perhaps they couldn’t comprehend how a person could be poor or homeless in one of the most powerful countries in the world.

  Well, that was nice for them, but Harper understood the barbarity of reality. She shook her head as flashes of memory attempted to break into her mind. Alone in the large building without the sounds and smells of a busy kitchen to distract her, the age and darkness of the space sometimes had a strength she couldn’t defend against. Nighttime was the worst. The floorboards creaked as if someone were there with her, and the doors rattled on their hinges, but she knew it was only the ghosts of her past talking. Taking a deep breath, Harper centered her focus on the simple chore of zipping up the money bag and walking over to the safe. Mundane, everyday tasks helped her remember that she lived in the present, a good present. And not all things in her life had been bad. Lately, the bad had started to creep up on her again. She needed to remind herself of the good more often.

  Thanks to a gift she’d received from the city for her Good Samaritan efforts, she never had to worry about the gas or electric bill. But the mortgage was another thing entirely. Until the bank stopped sending her those due dates, she would never have true ownership. That was why she needed a constant revenue of donations. Despite the building appearing to be a grand establishment, hers was a small-time soup kitchen. The second floor was where she slept, as she couldn’t afford her own place, and the two upper floors had been deemed unsafe by the city. As long as the main recreational area, kitchen, and back offices were kept up to code, she was good.

  There was no Red Cross or Salvation Army that funded her needs. Harper depended on the goodwill of those who lived in this city and were smart enough to recognize what being homeless could do to a person. She knew better than anyone what it could do—she’d lived that reality through her teenage years.

  Harper knelt by the safe in the corner of her closet-sized office, intending to take the rest of the
donations to the bank. It may have been a paltry amount, but it was enough to make that month’s payment. At this rate, she’d have the place paid off in about seventy years. Yeah, she could still run the joint when she was one hundred and five years old. No biggie. The old safe cranked open, the hinges squeaking in protest as she disturbed its rusty slumber. She reached for the rest of the donations.

  A heavy scuff behind her was the only warning she had before a hand covered her mouth. She struggled, tried to push herself back to dislodge the assailant, but a thickly muscled black sleeve wrapped around her arms, pinning them to her sides. She screamed, but the hand pressed tighter against her mouth, pushing her lips painfully against her teeth. She whimpered at the sharp bite.

  “You scream, and I’ll gut you,” a gravelly voice grunted behind her. When she didn’t respond or continue to struggle, he unwrapped his arm from around her waist and pushed her onto all fours. His groin pressed against her backside in an equally violent and sexual manner. “Reach in there to the money. Take it out and put it at your side.”

  This wasn’t the first time Harper had come up against those who thought they could do what they wanted with her based purely on the fact that she was a single woman living alone in a crime-ridden city. They thought she was vulnerable. Weak. She’d straightened out those delinquents before, and she wasn’t afraid to do it with this one. But she also wasn’t an idiot. When it came down to a choice between her life and money, she would gladly hand over the money and live to fight another day. She did what the man told her to do.

  The moment the money pouch rested at her side, the asshole shoved her forward hard enough that her cheek collided with the edge of the safe. Lights flashed, and there was a distinct ringing in her ears. She pushed away, wanting to see who her attacker was. He stood above her, facing the opposite way and blocking her view of his front. He was counting the money.

  “What,” she said groggily. “Don’t like to look the women you hurt in the eye?”

  Now, why had she said that? Taunting them only made it worse.

  “You’ve got balls for a low-class bitch. I’ll give you that.” He walked out of her field of vision.

  A harsh pain. Cold cement underneath her pounding cheek. Lights out.

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  “Hey, Harper?” Flynn called as he pushed through the swinging doors and into the stainless-steel kitchen. It was eerie seeing the Full Spoon empty. Flynn was used to the front room packed with visitors, chewing on Harper’s good cooking or chatting with the other regulars. Now it was empty, save for the chairs and colorful round tables. Before pushing back into the kitchen, he’d stopped a moment to take it in, knowing he would probably never get to experience the room in such a peaceful state. No wonder Harper stayed late getting work done. The room held a Zen-like calm, as if the positive energy they’d created by doing good deeds had sunk into the worn furniture and graffiti-covered walls.

  The space itself was the size of a small gymnasium. It had been a boxing ring in the fifties until the owners had gone out of business and closed up shop. Harper had left the old boxing posters on the wall as an homage to the previous owners, claiming she used to know them. But when the young men and women began to graffiti the walls, saying they wanted a safe space to practice their art, Harper hadn’t said a word of protest as the old posters were spray-painted over and warped to become something original. Knowing she’d liked those posters, Flynn had heard one of the volunteers ask Harper if she cared that the young thugs had tarnished them with their paint.

  Harper’s full mouth had tightened, but she’d smiled at the old woman and said, “They’re not tarnished; they’ve evolved and become something new. The posters and what they represent have been absorbed into the history of this building, as those spray-painted works of art will one day be.” Flynn had thought she’d leave it at that, but Harper then went on to give the old lady a piece of her mind about the word thug and why she didn’t let people use that phrase in her kitchen. The old lady never returned, but Flynn didn’t think Harper cared much. There was never a need for volunteers. It was money the place was desperate for.

  Flynn loved his time at the Full Spoon. He wished he could volunteer more, but the demands of his job and home life were time-consuming, and he didn’t have much choice in the matter. He gave thanks for the days he could spend with the volunteers and felt privileged to serve the regulars or one-timers, whose stories he would carry with him through his life.

  The kitchen was dead silent, as opposed to its usual tornado of organized chaos. He didn’t hear the kitchen’s fearless leader stocking the pantry or cleaning out the walk-in fridge. He walked toward the tiny office off the back hall that led to the dump behind the building.

  He rounded the corner, and the smell of garbage hit him square in the chest, assaulting his senses. The industrial back door was open, the hinges creaking as the night’s warm wind swung it back and forth. Flynn’s heart rate picked up. Harper was fanatical about shutting and locking that back door. She didn’t treat the people who came here like criminals, though some of them had a rap sheet a mile wide, but she was honest with herself about the neighborhood the building was located in. Harper would never have left that door open, at least not voluntarily.

  Flynn ran down the hallway and came to a stop in front of the office. Harper was on the floor, facedown, her legs and arms spread wide.

  “Harper!” He skidded to a halt in front of her and slammed to his knees, checking her pulse. It was there but threadbare. He used the landline on her desk to call 911 for an ambulance.

  After the woman on the line told him the ambulance would be there shortly, he dropped the phone and looked over Harper’s body for any signs of a gunshot or knife wound. The safe was wide open and empty, making it clear this had been a robbery. He thanked whatever god had a hand in deciding their fates for the small mercy that her clothes were still on and clearly hadn’t been disturbed. But until he got her to the hospital and they said she was fine, he would still hold his breath.

  He gripped one of her hands, praying that she would wake up, that she would be okay. He stayed that way until the ambulance showed up five minutes later. He traveled with her to the hospital and along the journey texted his father that he’d be late, said he had a friend in need, and though his relationship with Harper was purely professional and he didn’t know much about her, he clutched her hand all the way to the hospital and sat vigil in the waiting room until he was certain she would be okay.

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  “Mr. Raine?” Theo called, searching the room for the man who’d arrived with the injured woman. A tall man seated in the corner of the waiting room stood. He had burnished-gold hair and a pale, Irish complexion. As he approached, Theo could see his bright-green eyes were clouded with worry, but the negative emotions didn’t detract from their magnetism. Theo swallowed, then glanced down at the chart he carried, attempting to control his gut reaction to this stranger. In Theo’s years as a doctor, he’d met countless friends and family members of the unfortunates brought into his ER, and he wasn’t detached from the world enough to ignore whether a man or woman was attractive. Some had been temptingly good-looking, but he’d never been hooked as swiftly as in that moment.

  “I’m Flynn Raine,” the man said in a deep voice.

  Theo cleared his throat, mentally kicking himself in the ass, and focused on the task at hand. He was worried about his companion, and it was Theo’s job to put that worry to rest. “You’re Ms. Pettinger’s…” Theo let it hang, not wanting to assume anything. He could have looked at the paperwork Mr. Raine had filled out, but that would necessitate looking away from the beautiful man. He decidedly didn’t want to do that.

  “Friend.” Mr. Raine tucked his hands into his back pockets and pushed his hip out. “Strictly speaking, acquaintance would be more appropriate. I volunteer at the soup kitchen she runs. It’s where I found her. Will she be all right?”

  “I expect she’ll make a full recovery.” Mr. Rain
e might admit to only being Ms. Pettinger’s acquaintance, but the bone-deep sigh of relief he expelled told Theo there was more to their relationship than meets the eye. “She has a bad contusion beneath her eye that split and required stitches, and there is a severe concussion, but we were able to wake her up and we’ll be monitoring her overnight. Does she have any family we should call?”

  Mr. Raine shoved his hands through his wavy hair and shook his head. “Not that I know of. I don’t know much about her personal life.”

  “That’s all right, Mr. Raine. Would you like to see her?”

  “Yes, please.”

  Theo gestured toward the room Ms. Pettinger occupied. It had been an unusually slow night in the ER, and Ms. Pettinger was able to get a room to herself. “Call me Flynn. Mr. Raine is my father.” He smiled shortly at the clichéd introduction, clearly aware of how inane it sounded. But Theo could appreciate some sardonic humor, especially during moments of stress. Theo smiled back, and if a nurse had seen him do it, they might have fainted due to shock.

  After entering the room, Flynn quickly took up the chair next to Ms. Pettinger’s bed, then clasped her limp hand between his. Aside from the substantial mark on her face, she looked considerably well. Flynn looked back at Theo with relieved gratitude. “Thank you for taking care of her.”

  Acting on an unfamiliar instinct, Theo moved forward to grasp Flynn’s shoulder and reassure him. “We’ll keep her safe here.” He didn’t like the look of concern and worry marring Flynn’s expression. But it was more than wanting to smooth the lines at the corners of his mouth and the creases between his brow. A severe drive within Theo urged him to make the man happy and ease any pain he felt.

  Flynn stared up at Theo for a moment, their gazes connected, and Theo watched as the frown melted away from Flynn’s expression. Theo couldn’t look away from Flynn’s magnetic gaze, a green as crisp as clover, and there were whispers of what could have been youthful freckles sprinkling his cheeks. As the moment passed and an electric tension built, Theo could have sworn a physical manifestation of the electricity surging through his nerves had sprung forth from his heart, connecting them together.