Pattern

by K. J. Parker

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  Author’s Note

  As well as being an outstanding craftsman and one of the finest traditional blacksmiths in Europe, Ian Whitefield of Barrington Hill Forge, Somerset, is a man of infinite patience and the gladdest fool-sufferer in the business. He cheerfully spent many hours of his valuable time trying to teach me the basics of his craft, supported this project with advice and encouragement at every stage and even managed not to yell at me when I screwed up his best anvil. This book is therefore entirely his fault, since without him it could never have been written.

  It should, of course, go without saying that nearly all the resemblances between Mr Whitefield and Asburn are entirely coincidental.

  Poldarn’s method of dealing with the mountain in Chapter Twenty may seem far-fetched: but a similar technique was used, successfully, during an eruption of Mount Etna in 1669.

  Chapter One

  He woke up out of a dream about faraway places, and saw smoke.

  It was hanging in the air, like mist in a valley, and his first thought was that the chimney was blocked again. But there was rather too much of it for that, and he could hear burning, a soft cackle of inaudible conversation in the thatch above his head, the scampering of rats and squirrels in the hayloft.

  Beside him, his wife grunted and turned over. He nudged her hard in the small of the back, and hopped out of bed.

  ‘Get up,’ he said. ‘The house is on fire.’

  ‘What?’ She opened her eyes and stared at him.

  ‘The house is on fire,’ he told her, annoyed at having to repeat himself in the middle of a crisis. ‘Come on, for God’s sake.’

  She scrambled out and started poking about with her feet, trying to find her shoes. ‘No time for that now,’ he snapped, and unlatched the partition door. It opened six inches or so and stuck; someone lying against it on the other side. That wasn’t good.

  It occurred to him to wonder where the light was coming from, a soft, rather beautiful orange glow, like an hour before sunset in autumn. The answer to that was through the gap where the partition didn’t quite meet the roof – it was coming through from the main room. Not good at all.

  He took a step back from the door and kicked it, stamping sideways with the flat of his bare foot. The door moved a few more inches, suggesting that he was shifting a dead weight. He repeated the manoeuvre five times, opening a gap he could just about squeeze through.

  ‘Come on,’ he urged his wife – comic, as if they were going to a dance and she was fussing about her hair. Hilarious.

  The main room was full of orange light, but there wasn’t any air, just smoke. As he stepped through, the heat washed over him; it was like standing right up close to the forge, as you have to when you’re waiting for a piece of iron to come up to welding heat, and you feel the outer edge of the fire soaking into your skin. He looked down to see what the obstruction had been, and saw Henferth the swineherd, rolled over on his side, dead. No need to ask what had killed him; the smoke was a solid wall of fuzzy-edged orange. Just in time, he remembered not to breathe in; he lowered his head and drew in the clean air inside his shirt. Where had he learned to do that?

  Only six paces, diagonally across the floor, to the upper door; he could make that, and once the door was open he’d be out in cold, fresh air. The bar was in place, of course, and the bolts were pushed home top and bottom – he grabbed the knob of the top bolt and immediately let go as the heat melted his skin. Little feathers of smoke were weaving in through the minute cracks between the boards; the outside of the door must be on fire.

  So what? Catching the end of his sleeve into the palm of his hand, he pushed hard against the bolt. It was stiff – heat expands metal – but he was in no mood to mess about, and his lungs were already tight; also, the smoke was making his eyes prickle. He forced the top bolt back with an apparently disproportionate amount of effort, ramming splinters into the heel of his hand from a rough patch of sloppily planed wood, then stooped and shot back the bottom bolt, which moved quite easily. That just left the bar; and he was already gasping out his hoarded breath as he unhooked it. Then he put his shoulder to the door and shoved.

  It didn’t move. He barged against it again, but this wasn’t just an annoying case of a sticky door, damp swelling the exposed end grain. He was out of breath now, and there was no air, only smoke. Most men would’ve panicked; fortunately, he remembered something else he must have picked up somewhere (where?) and dropped to the floor. Right down low, cheek pressed to the boards, there was clean air, just enough for a lungful.

  As he breathed in he was thinking, The door’s stuck, why? He hadn’t stopped to think, Why is the house on fire? If his mind had addressed the problem at all, it had assumed some accident – a glowing cinder lodged in the thatch, carelessness with a lamp. But the door wouldn’t open, the wood was burning on the inside. He knew exactly what that meant.

  Behind him, someone was coughing horribly. He recognised the cough (she had a weak chest, always woke up coughing in winter). ‘Get down,’ he hissed, wasting precious breath. ‘On the floor.’ He didn’t look round to see if she was doing as she was told, or even if she’d understood him. Right now, time was calibrated in units of air, and he had very little of it left. Certainly not enough to fritter away on fear or other self-indulgent luxuries; there’d be plenty of opportunities for that kind of stuff later, when he wasn’t so busy.

  The axe, he thought; the big axe. Of course the door was too solid to break down – he’d made it himself, he was just too damn painstaking for his own good – but with the big axe he could smash out the middle panel, at least enough to make a hole to breathe through. Where was the big axe, he wondered; there was something wrong with his memory, maybe the smoke had got in it and spoiled it, like oil curdling milk. Then he remembered. The big axe was in the woodshed, where the hell else would the big axe be? Inside there was only the little hand-axe, and he might as well peck at the door with his nose like a woodpecker.

  Something flopped down next to him and he felt a sharp, unbearable pain in his left foot and ankle. Burning thatch, the roof was falling in. Oh, he really didn’t need that. ‘Bench,’ he yelled, emptying his lungs (like spilling water in the desert; and when had he ever been in the desert?), ‘smash the door down with a bench.’ But she didn’t answer, in fact he couldn’t hear her at all, not even that goddamned horrible rasping cough. Oh well, he thought, can’t help that now (plenty of time for that later, as well) and it screws up the bench idea. Come on, brain, suggestions. There’s got to be another way out of here, because I’ve got to get out. The other door, or what about the window? And if they’re blocked too, there’s the hatch up into the hayloft, and out the hayloft door – ten-foot drop to the ground, but it’d be better than staying here.

  But the other door was forty feet away; the window was closer, but still impossibly far, and the hatch might as well have been on the other side of the ocean. There simply wasn’t time to try, and if he stood up he’d suffocate in the smoke. The only possible place to be was here, cheek flat on the floorboards, trapped for the brief remainder of his life in half an inch of air.

  Another swathe of burning thatch landed on him, dropping heavily a
cross his shoulders. He felt his hair frizzle up before he felt the pain, but when it came it was too much to bear – he couldn’t just lie still and feel himself burn. He snuffed up as much air as he could get – there was a lot of smoke in it, and the coughing cost him a fortune in time – and tried to get to his feet, only to find that they weren’t working. Panic started to circle, like crows round a dead sheep, but he shooed it away as he lurched, overbalanced and fell heavily on his right elbow. The fire had reached his scalp and worked its way through his shirt to the skin on his back.

  A man might be forgiven for calling it a day at this point, he thought; but he couldn’t quite bring himself to do that, not yet. He’d be horribly burned, of course – he’d seen men who’d been in fires, their faces melted like wax – but you had to be philosophical about these things: what’s done is done and what’s gone is gone, salvage what you can while you can. Like his life, for instance. Yes, how about that?

  It hadn’t been so bad back in the inner room – why the hell had he ever left it, he wondered? Seemed like a good idea at the time. So he shrugged off the pain, like kicking away a yapping dog, and started to crawl back the way he’d just come. He made a good yard that way (the palm of his hand on his wife’s upturned face; he knew the feel of the contours of her cheeks and mouth, from tracing them in the dark with his fingertips, tenderly, gently, like he meant it; but no air to waste on that stuff now) before the beam fell across his back and pinned him down, making him spill his last prudent savings of air. The pain – no, forget that for a moment, he couldn’t feel his hands, even though he knew they were on fire, his back must be broken He tried to breathe in, but there was just smoke, no time left at all. Forget it, he thought, I can’t be bothered with this any more.

  (He expected death would come at that moment of abjuration; like a rough boys’ game, you shout ‘I give in’ and it stops. But nothing seemed to change, as the time drew out – how was he paying for this time, now he was penniless for air? Had he discovered, in the very nick of time, the secret of breathing smoke? Nice trick, but pointless if his back was broken, and he was on fire too. Talk about irony.)

  ‘What are you doing here?’

  He looked up. He couldn’t look up, because he was paralysed. He saw his grandfather looking down at him.

  ‘What are you doing here?’ the old bastard repeated. He sounded put out, as if his authority had been challenged. ‘Get up,’ he said, frowning, ‘it’s time to get up. You’ve overslept.’

  You could put it that way, he thought; then he remembered. What am I doing here? How about what’s he doing here, he’s been dead for six months—

  ‘What are you doing here?’ the old man said—

  ‘Sorry,’ said the man facing him, ‘am I boring you?’

  Suddenly awake; he was sitting on a chair outside his grandfather’s house at Haldersness, under the porch eaves, on a cold, bright day. The man opposite was Eyvind, his friend. His name was—

  ‘No, of course not, go on,’ he said. He hadn’t fallen asleep, really, he’d just closed his eyes because the sun was so bright. His name was—

  ‘All this talking,’ Eyvind said apologetically, ‘I’m not used to it. Truth is, among ourselves we don’t talk much. Don’t need to. Are you cold?’

  ‘What? No, I’m fine, really.’

  Eyvind smiled. ‘You’re huddled up in your jacket like a caterpillar,’ he said. ‘Perfectly understandable; where you’ve been all these years, it’s much warmer. We sweat like pigs when we go there. Would you rather go inside?’

  In front of him, over Eyvind’s shoulder, was the great white-headed mountain. From its sides rose tall columns of milk-white steam, billowing out of the cracks and fissures where the natural hot springs bubbled up from the mountain’s fiery heart. It was an amazing sight against a blue sky. ‘No, thanks,’ he replied. ‘I like sitting here. Nice view.’

  Eyvind laughed. ‘I suppose it is,’ he said, ‘but I don’t notice it any more. Would you like me to get you a blanket or something?’

  ‘No, really.’ It was bitter cold; he could feel it in his feet, in spite of his thick leggings and felt-lined boots. Everybody said he’d get used to it.

  ‘Wait there,’ Eyvind said. ‘I’ll get a rug from the laundry.’

  Well, it would give him an opportunity to wake up – not that he’d been asleep, of course. Once Eyvind had gone, he was able to wriggle a little deeper into the lining of his coat without appearing feeble in front of his friend. He didn’t like the way everybody treated him like an invalid; after all, he was perfectly fit and healthy, he just felt the cold more than they did. And his name—

  His name, he remembered, was Poldarn. At least, that wasn’t his real name, it was the name of a Morevich god he’d impersonated while touring round the Bohec valley with a female confidence trickster who’d picked him up after he’d lost his memory a year ago. So far, only a part of that memory had come back; but these people, who lived an ocean away from where he’d woken up in the bed of a river surrounded by dead bodies, these people had told him his name was Ciartan, and he knew they were right. He’d grown up here, he could remember names (not his own, of course) and places, pictures in his mind that turned out to be real. Above all, now that he was here at least somebody knew who he was, and that was a great comfort after his experiences back in the empire.

  Don’t knock it, he thought, it’s not everybody who gets a fresh start at the age of forty-one, especially a start like this. After all, his grandfather owned this enormous farm – ‘owned’ was the wrong word, of course, but it was easier to think of it that way – and everybody was going out of their way to be nice to him: they knew about his loss of memory, they understood how difficult it must be for him, they were only too pleased to help in any way they could, they even jumped up and fetched blankets for him without having to be asked. He couldn’t have had a more luxurious, pampered life if he really had been a god.

  On the far side of the yard, a peacock was clambering about on the thatched roof of the barn. When he’d first arrived he’d never seen a peacock before (as far as he could remember, though Grandfather insisted he’d killed one with his first bow and arrow, when he was seven) and even now he found it difficult to believe in the existence of such a gorgeous, unnecessary, stupid creature, because animals and birds were supposed to be above that kind of thing, they didn’t have aristocracies and leisured classes. But the peacock was clearly some kind of duke or viscount, useless, troublesome and splendidly ornamental. Eyvind would have him believe they were just another breed of poultry, only there to get fat and then get eaten, but he didn’t believe a word of it.

  From the other side of the barn he could hear the shrill, musical clang of a blacksmith’s hammer – Asburn the smith, getting down to some work at last. Properly speaking, that should have made him feel guilty, since by rights the job belonged to the head of the house, but Grandfather was too old now, his only son was dead, and his grandson, Ciartan, who’d only just come back from abroad, had left home before learning the trade and hadn’t got a clue how to light the forge, let alone make anything in it. As a result Asburn, who was born to mend tools, sharpen hooks and scythes and generally make himself useful, had spent the last twenty years doing the wrong work; and the fact that he did it exceptionally well was neither here nor there. You could tell Asburn wasn’t a smith just by looking at him: he was a little scrawny man with weedy arms and sloping shoulders. Poldarn, of course, looked every inch a blacksmith, and the sooner he knuckled down and learned the trade, the sooner everything could get back to normal.

  But not today, Poldarn thought, even though it’d be nice and warm in the forge and out here it was freezing cold. Today he was far happier sitting and looking at the mountain, because he’d recognised it as soon as he saw it, and it reassured him more than anything else. As long as he could see it, he knew where he was. More than that, he knew who he was, just as long as he could see the mountain.

  He’d nearly fallen over
when they’d told him what it was called.

  ‘Here you are,’ Eyvind said, appearing suddenly behind him; and he felt the comforting weight of a thick woven rug descending round his shoulders. That was much better, of course, but even so he felt obliged to grumble.

  ‘Wish you wouldn’t do that,’ he said quarter-heartedly. ‘You’re treating me like an old woman.’

  Eyvind grinned and sat down. ‘Hardly,’ he said. ‘My mother’s seventy-one, and right now I expect she’s out hoeing turnips. You wouldn’t catch her lounging about on porches on a fine day like this.’

  ‘Thank you so much,’ Poldarn grunted, feeling even more useless than the peacock. ‘Now, if only someone would tell me what I’m supposed to be doing, maybe I could muck in and start pulling my weight around here.’

  ‘I wish you’d listen when I tell you things,’ Eyvind replied, ‘instead of falling asleep all the time. Makes it very boring for me, having to say the same thing over and over again.’

  ‘Give it one more try,’ Poldarn grumbled. ‘You never know, this time it just might stick.’

  ‘All right, but please try and stay conscious.’ Eyvind leaned back in his chair, his hands folded in his lap, a wonderful study in applied comfort. ‘The reason nobody’s tried to tell you what to do,’ he said, ‘is that we just don’t do things like that here. There’s no need to. For example,’ he went on, sitting up and looking round, ‘there over by the barn, look, that’s Carey. You know him?’

  Poldarn nodded. ‘Ever since I was a kid,’ he replied. ‘So they tell me.’

  ‘Right. Now, Carey wakes up every morning knowing what he’s going to do that day. If I’d been you, of course, I’d have said he knows what he’s got to do; but that’s not the way to look at it. He knows that today he’s going to muck out the pigs, chop a stack of firewood, mend a broken railing in the middle sty and a bunch of other chores. He knows this because, first, he’s got eyes in his head, he can see what needs doing, and he knows who does what around here; second, he knows because when he was a kid he watched his old man doing exactly the same sort of stuff, the same way his father watched his grandfather and so on. He doesn’t need to be told, it’d be a waste of time telling him; more to the point, nobody could tell him because nobody knows Carey’s work better than Carey does. Do you get what I’m driving at?’