Run With Me (Fight For You Book 1)

by J. C. Evans

  I bite my lip, fighting the urge to curse. “Is there any way to get there sooner? A cab or something? Or maybe I could rent another car from some place in town?”

  The man’s brows draw together. “A taxi wouldn’t take you all the way to Auckland, but I might be able to book a rental car. Would you like me to make some calls?”

  “Yes, please,” I say, nervously tapping my fingers on the desk.

  “Why don’t you grab a cup of coffee and come back in a few,” Cheerful Man says with a pointed, but cheerful, look at my fingers. “I should know a bit more then.”

  I nod and make my way to the restaurant, where I order toast and coffee to go and try not to look at the table where I ate with Sam the other night, or think about how we made love after. Even then, when we seemed to be getting back in sync, things weren’t the same. I should have known she was dealing with something heavy. And I should have held my shit together last night instead of running away into a bottle like a fucking coward.

  I don’t care what she said, I’m getting my flight destination changed. I’m going to L.A. and I’m going to find her and apologize in person. And then I’m going to stand by her the way I promised I would.

  I return to the front desk and sip my coffee, so preoccupied I don’t realize Cheerful Man is calling for me until he says my name loud enough to make me jump.

  “Mr. Cooney!” I glance up and he motions for me to come behind the desk. “There’s an urgent call for you. Your brother-in-law. I told him to stay on the line and I’d find you instead of putting the call through to the messaging service.”

  Coffee and sack of toast forgotten, I circle around the desk, stepping over a pile of coats not visible from the guest side to take the phone. “Thank you,” I say to the clerk before putting the phone to my ear. “Gabe? Is everything okay? Sorry I didn’t call last night, I—”

  “You have to come home, Danny,” Gabe says. I know something is terribly wrong by the time he says the word “home.” Gabe is one of those almost too-slick guys who makes being classy look easy. I’ve never heard him sound so off-center, or so completely miserable. “It’s…bad.”

  The room spins and I sit down hard on the floor behind the desk, knowing I’m going to be sick again if I don’t. “Oh my God. Is it the baby? Did she lose the baby?”

  “No, the baby’s fine. She was born last night. She’s beautiful.” Gabe pulls in a breath, and I suddenly realize he’s crying. “It’s Caitlin. She started bleeding after. There was so much blood.”

  “Shit,” I say, shaking my head. “But she’s okay. She’s alive, she’s going to be okay.”

  Gabe’s silent for a long moment during which every organ in my body threatens to liquefy with fear. “They don’t know. She’s in a coma and they’ve had trouble keeping her stable.”

  I curse and squeeze my eyes shut.

  “They couldn’t get the bleeding to stop so they took her into surgery and did an emergency hysterectomy,” he says, his voice breaking in that shattered way that is so not Gabe. “I was worried how I was going to tell her we can’t have more children. I never thought—”

  He breaks off and all I hear are soft sobs. I need to say something to comfort him, but I don’t know what. I only know that my big sister, the only person who has never let me down, who I love like a mother and a sister and a veteran of the same war I lived through growing up, might be dying and I’m so hung over I don’t know if I’m going to be able to drive a car to the airport to catch a plane.

  “I don’t know what to do,” Gabe continues. “Emmie’s crying in the waiting room and I don’t know how to get through this. I don’t know what to do without her.”

  “I’ll be there as soon as I can,” I say, sitting up straighter, willing strength back into my alcohol-poisoned muscles. “Just hang on, and I’ll get there. I’ll take care of the kids and everything at the house. You can just stay with Caitlin and the baby at the hospital so you’ll be there the second she wakes up.”

  Gabe pulls in a breath and I can tell he’s trying to regain control. “Thanks, Danny.”

  “It’s going to be okay,” I lie, praying it will become the truth. “You know how tough she is. There are a hundred and ten samurai warriors trapped in that little body.”

  “I know.” Gabe’s laugh almost immediately turns into a sob. “I just love her so much. I need to tell her, at least one more time.”

  Tears fill my eyes and I don’t even try to stop them. “I love you, man. I’m going to be there as soon as I can. I’ll call as soon as I know the flight information. Tell everyone else I’m coming.”

  We hang up and I turn to find Cheerful Man standing behind me in a coat and hat, holding up a pair of car keys. “Let’s grab your things, Mr. Cooney. I’m taking you to the airport. I’ve already cleared it with my supervisor.”

  “Thanks so much.” I want to hug the guy, but settle for a clap on the shoulder as tears spill down my face.

  I grab my shit as fast as I can and Cheerful Guy—Henry, I learn on the way to Auckland—and I hit the road.

  He does most of the talking, seeming to realize I’m in no shape for conversation. He tells me about the different sites we pass by and about his family. He grew up on a sheep farm and was the first kid in the family to go to college, but he still went home every weekend to visit his mom and sister, who died of complications from a congenital heart defect when she was forty-two.

  “We thought we’d have her for longer,” Henry says. “But we treasured every day we had. She was such a beautiful soul.”

  “My sister, too,” I say, fighting the urge to start crying again. We’re almost at the airport and I need to hold it together long enough to get my booking arrangements sorted out. “Thank you again, Henry. I appreciate it.”

  “Happy to help a man take care of the people he loves.”

  Henry and I shake hands and I grab my backpack from the trunk before heading inside the airport, but his words haunt me.

  As I walk to the ticket counter and head toward the international departure area, I search the crowd for a glimpse of curly brown hair. Sam said she was going to L.A. and she’s probably flying out today. I keep hoping for a miracle, for a chance to set things right between us before I fly to one side of the world and her to the other, but apparently there are no miracles on my plate today.

  All I can hope for is that God or the Universe or whatever force is out there that sometimes lowers itself to intervene in human affairs will make a miracle happen for Caitlin and Gabe and make sure my niece doesn’t grow up without a mother.

  Chapter Eighteen

  Danny

  “Now hatred is by far the longest pleasure;

  Men love in haste, but they detest at leisure.”

  -Lord Byron

  They say things always look better in the morning and that everything happens for a reason.

  They say that love makes all things possible and good things come to those who wait.

  Well, I call bullshit on all of that.

  I get off the plane at the airport in Croatia feeling like I’ve been run over by a truck and kicked in the gut a few times for good measure and head straight to the hospital in Porec, arriving just in time to watch my sister flat line as her heart stops beating. Nurses rush in, followed by doctors and a burly guy whose sole job seems to be to shove everyone who loves Caitlin out of her room.

  Gabe, Ray, Sean, Emmie, and I are pushed out into the hall and granted a glimpse of Caitlin’s gown being wrenched open as they squeeze jelly onto her chest before the door slams in our faces. Gabe, who is out of his mind with grief and lack of sleep, lunges for the door and Ray and I have to hold him back. He does his best to kick our asses while crying so hard his entire body is heaving, but Ray and I manage to drag him back down the hall to the waiting room.

  Emmie and Sean follow, both of them crying and Emmie chanting “please, please, please” over and over again until I’m worried my niece is on the verge of some kind of mental break.
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  I wouldn’t blame her. It’s too much. It’s all too fucking much.

  We sit in a miserable huddle in the corner of the waiting room for ten long minutes while all the people passing through do their best to avoid eye contact and keep from catching the plague of grief hanging in a thick cloud around our heads. Finally, a nurse comes out to tell us that they got Caitlin’s heart started again and she’s stabilized.

  Emmie starts chanting “thank you, thank you, thank you,” Sean runs to the bathroom like he’s going to be sick, and Gabe jumps to his feet, insisting that he needs to see Caitlin right away.

  “I’m sorry, sir,” the nurse with the massive bun perched on top of her head like a burnt cinnamon roll says. “Mrs. Alexander won’t be allowed visitors for at least twenty-four hours.”

  “She’s my wife,” Gabe insists, voice cracking. “I need to be there. She’ll know I’m there, even if she’s not awake.”

  “I’m sorry.” The nurse holds up her hands. “Hospital policy—”

  “I don’t give a shit about hospital policy,” Gabe says. “I need to see her.”

  Gabe is still arguing with the nurse five minutes later, when another nurse comes in to tell us that Juliet, my new niece, went into respiratory distress and is being moved to the NICU. My poor brother-in-law stops talking mid-sentence and drops his face into his hands, obviously about one more piece of bad news away from taking a gun to his head.

  “Ray, take everyone down to get lunch at the café across the street,” I say, pushing some money into my brother’s hands. “I’ll come get you in an hour or so and drive everyone home to get some rest.”

  Ray nods before his tired eyes shift to Gabe. “Okay, but don’t let him be alone right now, okay? I’m worried.”

  I nod. “I won’t. I’ve got this. Just see if you can get Emmie to calm down. Get her some hot cocoa or something.”

  “I’m so glad you’re back,” Ray says, sounding way older than eighteen and so sad that I have to pull him in for a hug. Ray and I have never been super close—I’m all action and he’s all forethought—but the way his arms wrap tight around me make it clear he needed a hug as much as Emmie did when I first showed up at the hospital twenty minutes ago.

  My niece had hung onto my neck so long my spine had started to ache, but I wasn’t about to let her go. I’m not going to let any of the people I love go. Everyone is going to get better and stay alive. I’m not going to bury my sister or her baby. I fucking refuse to let it happen.

  They say where there’s a will, there’s a way, but the truth is all the will and prayer and hope in the world can’t make all the wrong things right or heal people who are too broken to get better.

  For the next week, the Alexander-Cooney family hunkers down and hopes and prays while Caitlin continues to cling to life by her fingertips and the baby loses precious ounces as she labors for every breath. My brothers and I sleep in shifts and make sure one of us is always at the hospital with Gabe. We’re afraid what he might do if Caitlin dies and he’s alone. We don’t speak the fear aloud, but all of us are thinking the same thing.

  I know deep down Gabe doesn’t want to make his daughter an orphan, but he’s not thinking clearly. He’s lost in his pain and grief and something in my gut tells me he’s not coming back from that dark place without Caitlin by his side.

  On day six, I bring Gabe a sandwich from across the street and step out onto the balcony outside the waiting room to call Sam’s dad for the twelfth time since the plane landed. I don’t expect him to answer my call—I’ve gotten the hint that I’m being frozen out for some reason—so when he picks up on the second ring, I’m so surprised I stammer my hello.

  “H-hi Mr. Collins. It’s Danny. I was hoping you’ve heard from Sam.”

  “I’m in L.A. with her right now,” he says in a thick voice. “She’s in with the prosecuting attorney, preparing for the trial.”

  “So she’s okay?” I ask. “I mean, she’s holding up? And she’s not in trouble with the police?”

  “No,” Mr. Collins says softly. “She’s not in trouble. I think everyone understood why she didn’t want to put herself through this.”

  “Do you think I can talk to her?” I ask, aching for Sam, wishing I could be in two places at once. “Does she have a new cell I could call?”

  “She does, but she asked me not to give you the number, Danny.”

  I squeeze my eyes shut as my heart writhes miserably in my chest. “Please, Mr. Collins. I know I was an asshole to Sam the last night we were together, but I just want to apologize. My sister is really sick so I had to go back home to help out, but I want to be there for Sam. I plan to come as soon as things are okay with Caitlin and the baby.”

  If things are ever okay, if I don’t end up staying here to raise a newborn after Caitlin dies and Gabe falls apart.

  Mr. Collins sighs, a wounded sound that echoes the way I feel. “Son, I don’t think that’s a good idea. Sam doesn’t want you here and…I’m honestly not sure you could handle it. It’s almost killing me and I…” He pulls in another breath and when he speaks again, his voice is shaking. “I’m just the dad.”

  I try to swallow, but my throat is too tight. All of a sudden that ghost of a suspicion that’s been drifting back and forth in my brain, haunting my subconscious, begins to crawl into my conscious mind. But I don’t want that suspicion to be founded. I want to be wrong so badly I can’t even bring myself to ask the question.

  “I’ve got to go,” Mr. Collins says. “Sam’s on her way. Just respect her wishes, Danny. The last thing my daughter needs right now is more stress.”

  He hangs up before I can say another word. I stand staring at the phone, sweating in the increasingly warm summer day, feeling like I’m about to have a heart attack. Every muscle in my body is clenched and my ribs are doing their best to crush my heart into juice inside my chest. My pulse is racing and my hands begin to shake so hard I have to try three times before I can type “Sterling University rape scandal” into the search window without half a dozen typos.

  There hasn’t been time since I got back to jump online or watch the news. We’ve all been in survival mode, so focused on Caitlin and the baby that the rest of the world has faded into the background. But that world hasn’t stopped moving, and there are six new links to articles reporting developments in the case. I open the first one and start to read.

  By the second paragraph, I’m slamming my fist into the stone wall of the balcony hard enough to shatter three bones in my hand, but it’s not the physical pain that makes me cry out loud enough to bring security rushing out onto the balcony.

  They say that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle and that the best things in life are free.

  But so are the worst things. They come in the door without paying a cover charge, take out a machine gun, and mow down every beautiful thing in sight.

  I try to call Sam’s dad a hundred times that afternoon alone, but he doesn’t pick up. I send Sam an email begging her to forgive me, telling her how much I love her, and promising I’ll be there as soon as I can, but the email bounces back. She’s closed her account. I can’t get to her. I have no way to tell her I’m so sorry, no way to tell her all I want is to be with her and help her through this.

  I spend the rest of the week in hell, torturing myself by reading every article I can find about the case, imagining what Sam must have gone through until I make myself physically ill, then soothing away the pain by imagining what I’m going to do to the monsters who hurt her. I sit next to Gabe by Caitlin’s bedside and plot four perfect murders and one dose of poetic justice for Alec, who apparently wasn’t an active participant, just one of the many frat boys who turned a blind eye while a girl was gang-raped on their pool table.

  While my girl, my Sam was treated like a fuck toy for their amusement, while they savaged her so brutally she left a blood trail as she ran from the house.

  The police had been confused as to why the blood type didn’t match De
idre Jones’s, but once Sam came forward, that confusion was cleared away. She’s making their job easy for them now. It’s going to be a short trial and the maximum sentence for every one of those arrogant fucks. There is hard evidence, and witnesses who saw Sam run across the quad to her car wearing nothing but a tee shirt. And there is the video that the monsters hacked into the campus website to post while they were still drunk. You allegedly can’t see Sam’s face clearly—just the back of her hair, which for once she’d straightened—but surely it will be clear to anyone who’s watching that the girl in those videos wasn’t a willing participant.

  It doesn’t matter that Sam was the one who started the rumor that Deidre was the girl in the video. I know Sam well enough to know she blames herself for the other girl’s suicide, but no jury in their right mind would see that as a reason not to believe Sam’s story. She was traumatized. She was the victim of a violent crime. She wasn’t in her right mind. Deidre’s blood doesn’t belong on Sam’s hands, it belongs on the hands of the men who raped her, and I have no doubt a jury will see that.

  The only thing I doubt is if I’ll ever see Sam again, or if she’s going to keep running from me forever.

  But I forget that things can always get worse and it isn’t always darkest right before dawn.

  By the time Caitlin finally starts to get better and she and the baby come home from the hospital three weeks later, the trial has already started. I’ve been able to read all about the defense’s claims that Sam was not only a willing participant, but the one who’d orchestrated the “New Year’s Eve Orgy.” I’ve heard news anchors say that photos from Sam’s room showing a variety of sex toys spread out on her bed confirm her “deviant sexual tastes.” I’ve watched the smug monsters who did this to my best friend walk past the news cameras looking innocent and victimized, like they’re the ones who were attacked and then forced to stand in front of a courtroom and beg people to believe “sluts” can still be victims of rape.