by Wood, Lauren
“Try and take them both on. It looks like they are game for it.”
He looked at me like I was a genius and leaned in. “You really think so?”
His eyes were predatory, and he looked like he was about to come out of his skin. I didn’t have the heart to tell him that threesomes were never as great as they seemed to be. Not for me anyways. It was fun for the novelty, but that was about it.
“Yes, I think they will. Just be cool and see if they want to go back for a drink. Be confident, but not too cocky.”
He grinned. “You’re right. I should just have them both.”
I smiled in his direction because of the resolve on his face. He was nervous. I could see that, but I hoped that he had a good night. It had to be better than mine was going to turn out, without Blair.
“So, are you done pouting Scott?”
“What do you mean Blair?”
“Well you didn’t help me out the other night and then you wouldn’t answer my calls. So why are you mad at me? I figured you were pouting, but it’s been almost two weeks and that’s longer than you usually do.”
“I don’t pout.”
“Yes, you do. Remember when I went to the homecoming dance with Leroy and you didn’t talk to me for like a week and a half?”
I shook my head. Of course, she was going to bring up the past and remind me of our whirlwind time together.
“We’d just broken up and that was way too fast. Besides, you know why I didn’t want to talk about that.”
“Yes, I know. But you’ve certainly changed since then. Sometimes I don’t even see the guy that I fell for under the stars behind my parent’s house. It’s been a long time. I am glad we stayed friends and I knew you then.”
“Why?”
“Because now you’re different. I saw a real part of you the other day, but you were drunk.”
“So, it did happen?”
She shook her head like I was an idiot and sometimes she made me feel like I was. After she broke up with me, I went cold for a while. I knew that I wasn’t going to find someone that I cared about like her and it wasn’t worth it to me. So, I told myself no woman was worth it, because deep down I wasn’t able to get her out of my mind. The damn kiss had brought all of it back up and I wanted to quash it, but there was a part of me that wanted to see where it all turned out. I knew all of her secrets and it’s about time that I used them.
“Yes, it happened. It was out of the blue and for a moment, you reminded me of the old you. You were drunk the first time you told me you loved me, remember?”
“How can I forget. Do you know that you’re the only one that I’ve ever said that to?”
It was something I should have kept to myself. I bit my lip and looked away. Fuck, I was bombing, and it wasn’t going down very well. This was the one situation I didn’t want to fail at.
“All of those girls… Not one?”
I shook my head and told her no. Right or wrong, it was the truth. I couldn’t feel anything for them. None of them and I had tried a little of everything.
“Nope, not a one. It was always you. It is much harder for a man to get over his first love.”
“First love?”
She was trying to draw it out and I was going along with it. A couple of weeks without her was enough. It was starting to mess with my mind. I was being stoic though, not pouting. There was a difference.
“Come on Blair. You know how I feel about you.”
“Felt, you mean.”
She was being complicated, and I was no longer able to play along. If this was going to happen between us, it had to happen now. The need was welling up and I couldn’t push it down anymore. I had to have her and before I could really think about all of the pros and cons of what I was going to do, I was pulling her into my arms, and pressing my lips against hers.
Blair relented almost immediately, and I was able to finally get a taste of her after all these years. It has been a while since I’d felt her in my arms like this. The other night hadn’t been right. I’d felt her underneath me, but now it was like all of my senses were springing to life for the first time in a long time.
My lips moved with hers and my tongue was granted entrance, as soon as I asked for it. All of it was perfect, and for a moment, I was back in time, when things were simple, and Blair was just mine.
Blair
The kiss was the sort of kiss that I remembered very well from Scott. We had dated on and off when we were in high school and even the first year of college. I thought that Scott would be the one, but it turned out to be different. We had a lot of differences that kept us apart, but there was one thing that we always got right. After his kiss and the way, it made me feel inside, as soon as our lips touched again, I knew that some things never changed.
Scott was being demanding. It was not the way I was used to him being. When we were dating, we were close, but there was always a lot of friction because he was the captain of the football team and every girl wanted him. I was the one that had him, but he was desired by most. It gave him a carefree attitude that always bothered me, except in the bedroom. He was a sort of lover that took his time, but now it was different. He was kissing me like it was the last breath he was ever going to take.
I pushed back against his chest and asked him what he was doing. We hadn't talked in a couple of weeks and now I found his tongue down my throat and my own body shivering under his ministrations.
“Why do you want me to stop Blair? We both know that you want this. I bet that Dominic hasn't even pleasured you the way that I can, has he?”
He went from zero to one hundred in only a few seconds and my head was spinning from the change. One minute we were joking around and fussing at each other and the next minute, this. I don't even know what this is.
“Where is this coming from Scott? You know that I’m with Dominic, so why are you talking like this?”
“Well if what I remember happened, then I guess you already know. I am sick of waiting for you, Blair. I'm sick of watching you go from one man to the next, all of them being wrong for you. I don't want to watch it anymore and I certainly don't want to hear about you and Dominic getting engaged. It is a waste of time and I think we've both wasted enough.”
He said it like he was actually mad at me or something. This was the first time that he had told me how he really felt, and it was honestly taking me by surprise. I had not expected him to say any of that, but I could tell from the expression on his face, and the look in his eyes, that what he said was real. Was it really something that happened in front of us the whole time and I just didn't see it?
“Nobody asked you to wait for me Scott. You say it like I've been stringing you along the whole time.”
“You kind of have. You are the type of girl that gets into guy’s head and never gets out. What would you call it?”
I sighed out loud and just kind of shook my head. He really just didn't get it, did he?
“I am sorry if I got into your head, that wasn't my purpose. We were just together for so long, that I wanted us to be friends. We have known each other for most of our lives Scott. I'm not stringing you along. I'm not trying to get in your head. I was just trying to move on, like you had.”
“You were the first one to move on.”
“That might be, but you have been moving on ever since, haven't you?”
It left a bitter taste in my mouth and I had to stand up from the couch. I was too close, and I needed some distance between us. We have been friends for so long, that we had learned a long time ago that it was easier to forget about some of the things in the past. We have both hurt each other and it didn't sound good to keep commiserating over it. So why were we bringing it up now?
“Who are you talking about Blair?”
“I'm talking about the hundreds of women that you’ve been with since we broke up. I don't care what you do in your personal life Scott, but don't act like you have been lovestruck and in pain the whole time either. I don't think
you felt any pain at all in a very long time Scott.”
“You really don't get it Blair. Most of the time I say that I'm going out, I'm not. Especially the last three years when you have been with Dominic. I have told you several times that I was going out with a woman and I could have if I wanted to, but I didn't. I haven't wanted another woman in a long time, and I've been waiting for you. Longer than you realize. But I'm done waiting.”
“So, you keep saying. What exactly does that mean?”
I had been pacing a little bit, trying to get my mind around what we were talking about and he finally stood up and stopped me.
“It means that I don't want to see you with another man, Blair. I don't want to see you with anybody else ever again. You’re mine. I was your first and I'm going to be your last.”
The second kiss of the night was even more demanding than the first and before I could stall my body's reaction, my arms wrapped around his neck and I went to my tiptoes to get more. I hadn’t felt this way in so long and his large hands roamed over my body. They were the hands that I’d grown accustomed to and even after all these years, they still felt so familiar to me. Everything about him did.
Again, I had to push him away and this time I walked out of the room. I needed some distance between us, and he didn’t seem to understand that at all. I wanted him and I knew that it was wrong, but there was nothing that I could do about it. I was stuck with the situation the way it was.
“Where are you going?”
“I have a boyfriend and you just spring this on me all of a sudden. I don’t know what to say to you Scott.”
“Well if I am honest with you Blair, I don’t want you to say anything. Why don’t we let our bodies do the talking? That would be better. It was always the best way for us to communicate.”
He wasn’t talking about communicating, like I was thinking. I needed to talk to him, try to figure this all out, but he was making it impossible. I think he knew that too.
“I have to go Scott. I will see you later.”
I grabbed my purse and took off. It didn’t make sense, because we were at my house, but it didn’t matter. He wouldn’t have left quick enough. He wanted to stay around and torture me. It seemed to be his MO and I was confused all of a sudden. My friend was just that, my friend. But he’d once been so much more. We’d been so good together and he made me question if it would ever be that way again. I wanted it to in some ways, but what Scott was asking for, would change everything.
Was I ready to change my whole life for Scott, in the hope that love will prosper between us again?
Scott
She was getting good at running off. I wanted to stick around and wait her out. She had to come home eventually after all, but that wasn’t meant to be. I needed to get to a meeting for work and since she wasn’t going to answer my phone calls anyways, I decided to give Blair some time to think.
I left a note on her counter before I left and turned my phone on vibrate. I was back to pitch a new idea to the Henderson Bottling company, and I hoped that it went better than this did.
On the way to the other side of the city, I tried not to think about the kisses that we’d shared. It wasn’t like it was a bad memory, but so bittersweet that it was going to hurt to remember. Not to mention it was actually painful. My balls had been blue for weeks after I swore off women all together. It was becoming harder to wait and now I was considering what I was going to do to get her attention. I had to do it quickly, very aware that she had brought up Dominic again.
By the time I got to the office, my secretary had called twice to tell me that someone was there to see me. He hadn’t left his name, but after she described him to me, I knew exactly who it was. I was curious though. Why now?
I walked into my office and found Dominic waiting for me. He looked out of place here, where everyone was wearing a suit. Dominic had chosen some variety of plaid and jeans. It was most likely what he wore to work in his construction job, but it made him stick out like a sore thumb here. The bubbling hostility just under the surface didn't help me either.
“What can I do for you Dominic?”
His smile was more malicious than anything else, and I didn't know what to say to him.
“I think you know why I'm here.”
In my mind, there was a million reasons that he could be here, but the one that kept coming to mind was the kiss. Well, it was several kisses now, but who was counting?
“Actually, I don't Dominic. Is your garage wanting to make a couple of ads? I can give you a good price, special for you.”
He scoffed and waited for me to walk around to my desk. I didn't like standing at the door of my own office, discussing anything with anyone, especially him. He had been the bane of my existence for quite some time now and I was starting to wish that I had found a way to end it between him and Blair a long time ago.
“I am here because you have been sniffing around my girl for too long, putting things in her head. I need you to butt out of it, because she's been acting strange lately and I have a feeling that is because of you.”
I liked the idea that she was actually different, because I knew that it was because of me. I didn't like the fact that her boyfriend was here puffing out his chest like he had a reason to.
“Whatever is going on between you and Blair, is between you and Blair. We are just friends nothing more.”
“That is not what you want. I see the way you look at her.”
“Look around when you are out with her Dominic. Everyone looks at her that way. I don't think you're going to find a man alive that wouldn't look at her that way.”
He did not like my answer, but I did not like the fact that he was here at all. He had no right to be here and I didn't want him to think he did. Dominic was the type of man that had no problem getting physical. While I wore a suit now, I didn’t mind going back to my roots. He wanted to fight me. I could see it in his eyes, and part of me wanted him to try. He didn’t know me at all.
“You think this is a joke?”
“No, I think you are out of line for being here at all. I don't know what is going on between the two of you and I don't really care. I haven't talked to Blair in a while and last I heard, she was hiding from you. Maybe you should worry about your relationship and get the hell out here.”
It all came out in a rush and half of it I wish I wouldn’t have said. The fact that I wanted him to get the hell out of my office was certainly not one of the things I would take back. I don't know what the hell he was doing here, but he needed to leave. I didn’t have time for this.
“Is that really how you want to play this? This isn't a board meeting.”
“And I didn't always used to be an executive. I know what you are Dominic. I know you cheated on her before, so I will not in any way help the two of you stay together. She deserves better.”
For a moment, I thought that he was going to hit me, and I almost looked forward to it. It would give me a reason to do the same. I’d wanted to have it out with Dominic for a while now. He’d always looked at me a certain way because of the suit, but it didn’t matter in my instance.
“And you really think if we weren’t together, that she’d somehow pick you?”
His sneer was evident, and I grinned at his comment.
“It doesn't matter if she picks me or not. As long as she gets the hell away from you. That's all that matters.”
“Well she's not going to go to you, so just sit back and watch her fuck another dozen men. She is never going to pick you.”
I smiled at him, because he really thought that he had something on me. There was a lot that Blair had not told Dominic and I knew I should keep my mouth shut, but I just couldn't. The way he was looking at me, smiling like he was so much better. He was about to understand very quickly that he was way off base.
“What you don't seem to know Dominic, is that she has chosen me before. Long before you. And many times, I might add.”
His face changed and the grin th
at have been so clear across his face a moment before, was completely gone. He had not seen that coming obviously and I rather enjoyed the way he acted.
“What are you saying?”
“I'm saying that I know Blair a lot better than you do. I was her first. You can’t ever take away the first real love. You’ll always have seconds.”
He stood up and again I thought that he was going to rush towards me, but something was holding him back. I waited for him to say something or do something, anything besides staring at me the way he was, with the slack jaw, trying to figure out what kind of angle I was playing.
“You're full of it. I know that Blair would never be with a guy like you.”
“Why don’t you go ask her then, if you’re so sure of yourself?”
The man stomped out and I watched him go. I had just started a shitstorm and I hadn’t even meant to. If I would have had time to prepare, something. He’d sprung it all on me before I finished my first cup of coffee.
Was that a defense? Lack of caffeine? I hope so, because I was going to need one when Blair heard what I told Dominic. She was going to freak out and I couldn’t blame her.
Blair
“Tell me that you didn’t sleep with Scott when you were younger. I just need to hear it from you before I go insane.”
I was outside my office about to go in and I stopped at the door. I had no idea where this was coming from, but I had a pretty good guess. Why was Scott talking to Dominic?
“What are you talking about Dominic?”
It was so out of the blue that I had to sit down for a moment, because I didn't think I would be able to catch myself if I fell. There was a reason that I never told Dominic about Scott. He would never be okay with us being friends after the past that we had together. No man was that secure, even Dominic.
