Lord of Rage & Primal Instincts

by Jill Monroe

Breena was loved and protected for another, certainly never a man like him. He was once destined to be something better than he was, an Ursan warrior. With all the honor and distinction that rank held. All he could offer her now was a legacy of shame and a life filled with the need for vengeance

  Breena’s own steps were aimed squarely at that same path. He’d tried to dissuade her earlier.

  Try harder.

  But how could he when she was reaching out to him? Lifting her shoulder right under his nose? “It smells different on my skin than it does in the bottle.”

  The scent of the soaps he’d bought smelled good, but Breena the woman smelled better. He was so close. Too close. He could nip at her shoulder. Run his tongue along that tantalizing curve of her back.

  “I have a favor to ask.”

  Gods, anything…if he could just keep breathing in her scent. Prolong the torture by imaging how he could curve his hand around her hip, drawing her backward to cup his erection.

  She took a deep breath. “I have to go back to dream of my past, to the night of the siege.”

  He shook his head, and she gripped his biceps. Hard.

  “There’s still more to learn about that night. I couldn’t continue after, well, you know how you found me.”

  Crying in her sleep.

  “When I put myself in a dream, I always envision a door and then I walk right through it in my mind. There’s only ever been your door in my mind.

  A possessive satisfaction settled into his chest.

  “But last night there were two doors. My past and, next to it, yours.” Osborn stiffened.

  “They have to be side by side for a reason. I think it’s because when I go through your door to be with you…nothing frightens me.”

  “It should. I should frighten you.” What he wanted to do to her body, what he wanted from her, that should all frighten her.

  “But it doesn’t.” She ran her fingers along his jaw. “You would never hurt me. I’ve known that for a while.”

  He didn’t know it. In fact, she could almost count on him hurting her. It was inevitable. His past. His decisions. Those would hurt her. When his brothers were ready, he’d leave this cottage and seek those who killed his family. His plans were not those of a man who would make life easy for a woman. He gripped her fingers to still her touch.

  “Remember how we are together in my dreams?” she asked, refusing to let him push her hand away. “How perfect?”

  He could make love to her in that fantasy world she created as they slept. His cock hardened at the thought. Yes. He could caress every part of her body. Brand her with his touch. Drive into her as his body demanded. And he could hold her.

  Yet no matter how amazing their coupling would be in the dream, Osborn knew he would wonder and crave the real thing until he was mad.

  “Those dreams were lies,” he told her, his teeth clenched.

  “Aren’t you even curious?”

  Hell, yes, he was curious. Curious if she’d meet his gaze when he joined his body with hers. Ached to learn the feel of her softness as she welcomed him into her. Dying to know—

  “Lies,” he said again. Just to stay sane.

  Her hand dropped and her expression turned sad. “If it makes you feel any better, sometimes those lies I shared with you were the only thing I really looked forward to.” Breena turned on her heel and walked away from him

  The blood pounded in his head. Those dreams were the only thing that brought anything even approaching happiness into his life. Until he found her sleeping in his bed.

  All she wanted was to dream with him. Be with him in a dream. How could he refuse?

  He reached for her shoulder, his fingers curving into her skin. “I’ll do it.”

  BERNT HAD GIVEN UP HIS bed for Breena. He and Osborn would begin building a new frame for him the next day. It was a tight fit in the storeroom, but after some shifting and one banged-in corner, the bed finally sat in the storeroom for Breena’s use.

  She kissed both their cheeks. “Thank you so much,” she told them, her voice as happy as if Osborn had bestowed on her the rarest of jewels. Somewhere out in one of the realms there was a man who would be giving Breena gifts with gems and gowns and all the things women liked.

  But she was his for now.

  Breena quickly dressed the bed in warm blankets and pelts. They wouldn’t be sleeping before the fire, and she’d need more coverings to keep warm. There also wasn’t nearly the kind of room for the two of them on Bernt’s old bed. Breena lifted the blankets and crawled to the edge of the bed, which was pushed up against the wall.

  “How do you want to do this?” he asked.

  Her lips turned up in a grin. “Not a lot of space for you,” she said, eyeing the broadness of his shoulders and the length of his legs. When she looked at him like he was the strongest, most powerful man in the world who could best anything, he wanted to be exactly that for her.

  “I like it when you stretch against my back,” she told him.

  And cupped her breast. And fit his cock against her curves. He liked it, too. A lot. And it was starting to show. The bed creaked under his weight as he settled in beside her. Osborn wanted to bury his face in her hair. Lose the nightclothes that separated her skin from his. He settled for draping his arm over the rounded curve of her hip.

  He closed his eyes. Forced his muscles to relax. Imagined smelling rotten food to chase away the erotic scent of her. Anything so that he could doze.

  “I can’t sleep,” she whispered to him after a few moments of silence.

  “Nor can I.”

  “Talk to me. Tell me a story.”

  She wiggled against him, and he quietly groaned. Every one of her soft curves cupped his body. Osborn concentrated on her request, but could come up with nothing. “I don’t know the kind of stories you do. No fairies. No wolves hiding in the woods with their eye on a girl in a red cloak.”

  “Then tell me something real. From when you were a little boy,” she suggested.

  Osborn tried not to think of those times. Warriors didn’t feel sad. They pushed those emotions to the side. Obliterated them. “There’s nothing to tell.”

  “What about a grand party? Tell me about one of those times when you wore fancy clothes and musicians played.”

  He breathed in the scent of her hair again, and tried to remember. His people preferred a simpler way of life. Little politics, few dignitaries and lords. They were all just Ursan. They prepared for battles, for when their allies called. Few dared to go to war directly with the Ursans. At night they built large fires. Their entire village would talk and sing along with the drums. A smile played about his lips. He’d forgotten about those nights when the elders pointed to the skies and taught how to use the stars for navigation. He’d forgotten about the songs. Osborn should carve a drum and teach his brothers some of the old Ursan songs. Maybe one day his brothers would marry and teach those songs to their daughters and sons, and hope flooded his chest.

  For the first time, guilt and pain didn’t rush right behind the memories.

  “No banquets,” he told her, “just families around the campfire.”

  “Not even marriage feasts? At home we took every opportunity to host a celebration. My father told us the work in the fields and in the trades could be rough and sometimes bleak. It was our responsibility to provide as much joy and brightness as we could to our people.”

  “He sounds very wise.”

  Breena nodded. “He was,” she said, her voice quiet and low.

  “We didn’t celebrate marriages openly,” he told her, trying to pull her away from thoughts of her dead father…until she forced herself to dream of him tonight.

  “You didn’t?” Shock and a trace of scandal laced her voice, and Osborn couldn’t help smiling again.

  “When a man wished for a woman, he’d ask her to seal her life with his. On a full moon, they’d go, just the two of them, into the woods that surrounded our village. There, with only the stars to see
, they’d share the vows they’d written for each other.”

  “That sounds beautiful. And meaningful.”

  The yearning in her voice made his gut ache. “That’s not the kind of marriage you would have?” he asked, needing to remind himself she was for someone else.

  “No,” she said on a heavy sigh. “My marriage will be of alliance. It will be an honor to serve my people that way.”

  “And just how many times have you been told that?”

  Breena’s muscles relaxed against him. “A lot,” she confessed. “In fact, my father was to do the choosing the weekend of the attack.”

  “Do you think that had something to do with it? An angry suitor?”

  “More like a disappointed negotiator. I’ve never even met any of the potential husbands. Less for them to object to that way.”

  “And what could they possibly have to complain about with you?” He was incredulous at the thought. Breena was perfect. Perfect for hi—

  She only laughed. “I seem to remember you complaining a lot about me. The danger I brought. The added expense.”

  “My socks are nice.”

  Breena laughed again, the sound of it thrilling, like he wanted to make her laugh again and again. Forever.

  “Stick to fighting, Ursan. That kind of compliment will never suit you at court.”

  Another warning. He’d never belong in her world.

  After a few minutes, Breena’s breathing deepened, and he knew she’d soon be entering her dream. And then his.

  CHAPTER TEN

  BREENA WAITED BEFORE the two doors.

  The plain door stood in front of her, no longer forbidden. It was even slightly ajar. For a moment she was tempted. Only pleasure awaited her on the other side.

  Reluctantly she tore her gaze away and over to the ornate frame. With its jewels and promises of wealth, this would be the door most often chosen. But she knew what awaited her once she crossed the threshold. Death and destruction.

  She made herself reach for the handle, turn and walk through.

  This dream didn’t have the usual haze, every deathly image and sound and smell was clear and stark. The zipping wisp of a razor blade caught her attention. Made her shake. She remembered. The hideous spiderlike creature that only blood magic could create. Breena swallowed back the nausea, forced herself to relearn every detail her mind had earlier wanted to reject. She looked to the stairs and saw herself there, as she was, the night of the attack. She was dressed in the beautiful gown she’d woken up wearing in Ursa. It was perfect, no longer ripped and shredded. The Breena on the stairs tried to be brave and show no fear, but each new terror, all the horror she saw before her, left its scar.

  Then she saw him. A sight so frightening, so grotesque, she was almost pulled out of her dream. The Blood Sorcerer. The man responsible for it all. He was speaking to her parents, taunting them. They lay near death, their blood fueling his strength. She saw them touch hands, and she knew before she felt the zap of energy that they’d sent her away. With their combined magic, they’d planted the commands that rang in her mind more like a curse: survive and avenge. The force of her father’s will and the power of her mother’s magic overcame the Breena on the floor and she disappeared.

  And Breena was now in Osborn’s dreams.

  He was waiting for her, his features no longer obscured by the dreamhaze. His firm lips, long brown hair and dark eyes familiar. She ran to him, and he caught her in his strong arms, spinning her in the air, and then allowing her to slide down the firmness of his body. She had to touch him now. Wanted to chase away the dream from behind the other door in her mind…just for a few moments.

  Before, Osborn had been the aggressor. But she wasn’t the same Breena that had crept into his dreams in the past. She slid her fingers into the hair at the back of his neck and pulled his lips to hers. Breena parted her lips and sank her tongue into his mouth.

  Osborn groaned, holding her tight against him, meeting her forceful kiss with a growing need of his own.

  “It’s been so long since we’ve been like this,” she said against his mouth.

  “Too long,” he echoed.

  “Your choice.”

  “I’m an idiot,” he said, and lowered his lips to hers once more. The kiss they shared was raw and passionate and filled with everything they’d denied themselves away from this dreamworld.

  Breena tugged the shirt from his pants and slid her hands to his bare flesh. He sucked in a breath when her fingers trailed over his stomach. Her hands grew restless, caressing and seeking every part of him. When her palm cupped his cock, he went completely still.

  “Does that feel good?” she asked.

  He could only nod.

  “I want to make you feel amazing. The way you made me feel by the lake,” she told him as she reached for the drawstring of his pants.

  Osborn stilled her hands. “No, I want to pleasure you.”

  “Let me,” she urged. “I need this. I need to give right now.” His pants loosened and she pushed them down the strength of his legs, the hair of his thighs tickling her palms. His erection sprang forward and she reached for him. He shuddered when she wrapped her fingers around his shaft. She circled the head of him with her thumb.

  “Does that feel good?” she asked, loving that she already knew.

  “Yes.” His voice was a tight groan, and Breena felt the same kind of thrilling power that only a surge of her magic could give her.

  “But it will feel better with my mouth.”

  His eyes flew open. The ache and the yearning for what she could do to his body was stamped on his every feature.

  With a gentle push, she sent his back against a tree trunk in their dream clearing, then she sank to her knees in front of him. “Tell me if I’m doing this wrong.”

  “You won’t.”

  She smiled against the soft skin of his shaft. Kissed the tip. His legs trembled for a moment, and then he locked his knees.

  Breena’s hand shifted when he moved, and he grew harder between her fingers. She glided her hand up and down his rod, then found a steady rhythm, bringing the tip of him back into her mouth.

  She circled him with her tongue the way he’d circled her. His harsh breath told her that no, she wasn’t doing this wrong.

  Breena had never seen a man so powerful, so strong, as her warrior, but he was like melted wax before her. It was exhilarating. She worked her mouth faster, and Osborn threaded his fingers through her hair, pushing himself deeper past her lips. “Breena…”

  His voice was like a strangled cry, and she quickened her pace. “Breena, you’ve got to—”

  She awoke suddenly in her new bed.

  Osborn sat on the edge of the mattress, his feet on the floor. He cradled his head in his hands, his breaths rough and uneven.

  She brushed his shoulder. “Osborn?”

  He flinched from her touch. Shot up from the bed like she’d zapped him with her anger-charged energy.

  “Did I do something wrong?”

  He shook his head, but he still wouldn’t glance her way. Bracing his hands along the trim wood of the door, Osborn kept his back to her. “We can’t do that again.” Then he pried open the door and left her alone.

  Breena pulled the covers tight under her neck and crawled into a ball. Sleep took a long time to overcome her, but when it did her dreams bordered on nightmare.

  LATER THAT MORNING she found Bernt and Osborn building a new bed. “Are we going to practice?” she asked.

  “Tomorrow,” Osborn grunted at her, not bothering to look up.

  Bernt flashed her a look that said something like “Save me” and she nodded. The frame they worked on appeared sturdy and solid. Unlike the chair in the kitchen from…just a few days ago? It felt like a lifetime away.

  “You do good work,” she told them both.

  “After about thirty tries,” Bernt mumbled.

  “Shut it,” Osborn shot at his younger brother.

  “I’d rather be pract
icing, too. We’re not meant to be woodworkers.”

  “You are now.”

  “If you want to take a break, I wouldn’t mind scabbard practice,” she suggested, trying to defuse the situation, although she looked forward to scabbard practice just a little above balance work. Which was none at all.

  “Breena, go away,” Osborn said, his teeth gritted.

  He’d never spoken so rudely to her before. Prickly, she could tolerate, but not this.

  “Bernt, if you’d please excuse us. I’d like to talk with your brother in private.”

  Bernt dropped his hammer to the ground as if it were on fire.

  “Come back here,” Osborn called after his brother, but Bernt pretended not to hear. Good boy.

  “One day you’re going to push them away for good. Bernt and Torben look up to you. They want your approval. Why they still want that from you, who knows? Especially since you’re always such a grouch to them, but they do.”

  Osborn’s mood soured more, and his frown deepened.

  “Would it hurt you to give them a smile? To say something more than just orders?” She rounded on this fuming man of hers. “Why are you so angry?”

  Osborn stalked toward her, grabbed her hand and pushed it down between his legs. “This is why. Because all I can think of is shoving my cock into your mouth. Driving it into your body. Me on top. You on top. You on all fours like the beasts in the woods.” He dropped her hand. “Don’t be alone with me. Again.”

  The warning had returned.

  “Be ready to work after lunch,” he tossed at her as his long strides took him into the privacy of the woods.

  Breena began to tremble. All those things, every word that she knew Osborn meant to sound as a threat…she desired them, too.

  OSBORN HADN’T BEEN exaggerating when he’d told her to be prepared to work. Sweat ran down her temples and covered her back. He sparred with her, parrying and thrusting his sword. Expecting her to block his blade.

  “You just died right then,” he told her as his stick touched her shoulder. “Again.”

  She raised her stick, holding it in the position he’d taught her, but he powered through her defenses, his mock blade at her neck. “You’re dead.”