Grab ldm-3

by Blake Crouch

  She could feel herself becoming emotional. Tried to fight it down, but her throat ached with grief.

  "I know that when I finally come out into the light that my son will be waiting for me. I want to live to see that version of me."

  Christian said, "I have two hundred in cash in my wallet. My room is paid for through tonight. I don't know what happens after that. I don't know where to go. My practice is finished. I don't mean to sound dramatic, but I'm not sure what I'm living for. Why I would continue to breathe in and out."

  "For you."

  "For me?"

  "For the you that one day walks out of that tunnel." Letty stood. "Come on. Let's get you into bed."

  "I can't go back to that room and sit there alone in the dark."

  Go to meetings. Help others.

  "Tell you what," Letty said. "I missed breakfast. Let me take you to lunch. My treat."

  "You don't have to do this."

  "Actually, I do."

  13

  Letty changed out of her swimwear and met Christian downstairs.

  They walked north toward the tower at the end of the Strip.

  It must have been a hundred and ten degrees.

  Waves of heat glowering off the sidewalks.

  The tourists waddling around sweating like disgraced prizefighters.

  They took the elevator to the top.

  Letty slid the hostess fifty dollars to put them at a window table. Insisted that Christian take the best seat.

  Waiting for their waitress to show, he looked like he might nod off right there at the table.

  "When's the last time you slept?" Letty asked.

  "I don't know. I think I've forgotten how."

  "Let me get you some help," she said. "Someone to talk to."

  "Psychobabble doesn't work on me. I know all the tricks."

  He stared out the window by their table, but she could tell that he didn't see a thing. The restaurant turned imperceptibly. At the moment, their view was west. Miles of glittering sprawl and development. Beyond the city, the desert climbed into a range of spruce-covered mountains.

  Letty checked her phone—no missed calls or texts.

  "I'm not keeping you, am I?" Christian asked.

  "Not at all."

  The waitress came.

  Letty ordered Christian a coffee.

  He reached into his wallet, pulled out two small photos, laid them on the table.

  "This is Angie, my wife. My daughter, Charlie."

  Letty lifted the photo of a thirteen or fourteen year old girl. Kneeling in a blue and white uniform in front of a goal, holding a soccer ball.

  "She's beautiful. And Charlie is short for..."

  "Charlene."

  "That's lovely." Letty reached into her purse, took out a photo of her son—his kindergarten photo.

  "Jacob?" Christian asked.

  "Yeah, I don't think I ever showed you his picture."

  Christian leaned over the table to get a better look.

  "Good-looking kid."

  Christian collected his photographs and returned them to his wallet with the care and focus of a ritual.

  Letty said, "Don't you have family or friends back in Charleston who can help you?"

  "They certainly think so."

  "But you don't."

  "When my girls died, all I got was a bunch of platitudes. Cards that said things like, 'She is just away.' People lining up to tell me they knew what I was going through. I'm never going back."

  "Then what will you do?"

  "Kill myself. That was the deal I made. I shouldn't be telling you this. I'm a terrible therapist."

  "What deal?"

  "If I doubled my money, I'd see it as a good omen. I'd try to push on. If I lost, that was it. I was done."

  "And there's nothing at this point that might change your mind?"

  "Let's be clear. You really don't know me. Don't really know anything about me. You don't love me. You're trying to help me and in the sense that I'm not alone in this moment, you are. And it means more to me than I could ever tell you. But don't try to convince me that my life has value. How there's an end to this pain. There isn't. And I know it."

  "You told me my life had value."

  "You shouldn't see me like this," he said. "I don't want it to undo all the progress we made, just because I'm weak."

  "You're in this bad spot now. You will feel different one day."

  "My girls were my life, and it was over the moment that truck came over into their lane. I'm just trying to pin down my exit strategy."

  "How did I miss this?" she asked. "Every week for months, I came to see you. And you were hurting—badly hurting—and I completely missed it. Am I that self-obsessed?"

  "No." He smiled. "Let's just say I was that dedicated."

  "But you didn't leave town until I did."

  "You were my last patient."

  "So I was the only thing keeping you from this insanity?"

  "No, my loyalty to you as a patient was. This isn't your fault, Letty. You know that, right?"

  # # #

  The food came, but Letty's appetite was shot.

  They ate in silence, and when she'd finished her sandwich, she threw her napkin down and fixed her stare on Christian.

  He said, "Trying to figure out how to change my mind?"

  She shook her head. "It's your call. Your choice. I respect that."

  "Thank you."

  Letty felt her phone vibrate.

  A text from Isaiah: the wynn in 30...we go tonight

  Christian must have caught the sudden intensity in her eyes.

  He said, "What's wrong?"

  "Nothing."

  Christian smiled. "So what are you doing in Vegas, Letty? I thought you were headed west to see your son."

  The waitress brought the check.

  Letty waited until she walked away.

  "A slight detour. I love Vegas."

  "Just here for the shows and the slots, huh?"

  She rolled her eyes.

  "Let me guess. You're a huge Neil Diamond fan."

  Letty said, "How did you know?"

  "Wouldn't happen to be running with your old associates? Back to your old tricks? This is a dangerous city for someone with your triggers."

  She pulled out enough cash to cover the bill and a twenty-five percent tip.

  Said, "Speaking of, I almost used last night. I did have a drink, but I was on my way to score."

  "What happened?"

  "Long story short, I went to a meeting instead."

  "Good for you. That's great, Letty."

  She reached across the table and took hold of his hand.

  "Christian, I have to go."

  "Thanks for lunch. Thanks for stopping in the lobby when you saw me. You could've walked right on past. I'd never have known."

  "This isn't goodbye. You're having dinner with me tonight," she said.

  "That means I have to be alive tonight."

  She smiled. "Yes, it does."

  14

  There were now four people waiting inside of Letty's room at the Wynn.

  Isaiah.

  Mark.

  And two men she'd never seen before.

  Isaiah sprang off the bed, said, "There she is."

  As the door closed behind Letty, she noted that the temperature in the room had changed. There was now a palpable pregame energy. The air juiced with nerves, fear, anticipation.

  Ize walked over and took her by the arm, said, "Meet Jerrod." She smiled at the tall, rugged man leaning against the dresser. He sported a patchy beard and long, walnut-colored hair bundled up into a ponytail.

  Isaiah motioned to the other man. "And this is Stu. Three of us helped spread freedom to the Middle East."

  "I'm Letty, nice to meet you."

  Stu didn't rise from the bed.

  Just gave her a slight nod.

  His hair was curly and black, and he didn't boast the intimidating build of either Isaiah or Jerrod. But his
eyes were as hard as any she'd ever met.

  Letty looked at Isaiah. "You intercepted the call?"

  He smiled.

  "It came in two texts. First the time. Then the room number."

  "And it corresponds to a room in this hotel?"

  "Tenth floor. East side of the building. In terms of location, it's pretty close to perfect."

  "How so?"

  "If they took the money any higher, we couldn't rappel out from the room below. We'd have to get a second room closer to ground level. That would mean riding elevators. Exposing ourselves to cameras. It would represent a substantial escalation of risk."

  "Rappel?"

  "What'd you think, Letty? We were going to tote this shit out in duffel bags through the lobby?"

  "What's the time frame?"

  "They're moving the money at oh-two hundred. To your civilian ass, that's—" He glanced at his watch. "—a little more than eleven hours from now." Isaiah looked at Mark. "Our rental van is ready for pick up. Go get it and scope the parking deck one last time."

  Letty said, "What about Richter?"

  Mark grinned. "One of the cooler things I managed was to program an incoming call control feature into Richter's phone."

  "English."

  "Using the clone, we can call him from any number."

  "So tonight," Isaiah said, "just before we suit up, we'll send Richter a text from his Secret Santa, hit him with a fake room number and a fake ETA on Sunday night."

  Letty said, "So by the time he realizes the grift..."

  "We'll all be long gone."

  She had to smile. "So what happens now?"

  "While Stu and Jerrod bring over the toys, I got a little job for you."

  "Okay."

  "Your outfit's in the bathroom."

  # # #

  Letty walked down the hallway on the ninth floor.

  At the door, she straightened her hunter green blazer and smoothed her skirt.

  Knocked.

  A groggy-eyed man answered.

  Sleep lines down the right side of his face

  She said, "Mr. Sax?"

  "Yes?"

  "I'm Amanda, RDM here at the Wynn."

  "RDM?"

  "Rooms Division Manager. We've had a maintenance issue crop up. It's impacting the air quality for a segment of rooms on floors eight through eleven. Unfortunately yours is one of them. We're going to need to move you to another room."

  "But we're already unpacked and—"

  "I understand." She smiled. "Of course, we'll be upgrading you to a Salon Suite, which is nearly two thousand square feet, three times the size of your current room. We'll also be giving you two hundred dollars in chips as a token of our appreciation for your understanding. We're terribly sorry for the inconvenience."

  # # #

  Letty hit a brisk stride on her way back to the Palazzo.

  It was almost five o'clock, and she had six hours to kill before Ize's crew was set to rendezvous in the room directly below 1068.

  Waiting at the crosswalk on Sands, she dialed Christian's mobile.

  "Hi, Letty."

  "Something's come up. Can we do an early dinner?"

  "Sure, when?"

  "I'm free right now," she said. "I just need to change. Let's meet in the lobby in thirty minutes. And wear a coat. I'm taking you someplace special."

  "A proper last meal sounds nice."

  # # #

  She asked the concierge to point her toward the best restaurant in town. At first he demurred. A twenty spot pulled a definitive answer out of him—a French place down the Strip at the MGM Grand. But he feigned doubt that reservations could be procured on such short notice. Forty dollars secured said reservations.

  Christian met her at the same bench where she'd found him coming to pieces earlier in the day.

  He'd cleaned up. He looked good and smelled good and she told him so, then took his arm as they walked together out into the scorching Vegas evening.

  The sun was falling, reflecting off all the chrome and glass.

  So hot it seemed like combustion would've been a certainty if there was anything green in sight.

  The restaurant sent a limo.

  Riding down the boulevard, Letty was struck with the feeling that it wasn't just Christian's last meal, but maybe hers as well. Something about the golden quality of the late light. A sadness, a finality to it.

  She stared out the tinted window and thought about her son.

  # # #

  They went all-in on a sixteen course tasting menu.

  It was like eating in a library—hushed and reverent—but the food was out of this world. Letty wouldn't drink but insisted Christian have the wine flight. She had been worried going in that the conversation would be heavy, but they found common ground.

  Politics.

  Children.

  Movies.

  Letty sat on a velvet couch, propped up with pillows. Rich royal purple drapes everywhere she looked. Ivy walls. Candlelight.

  She had the best lamb she'd ever tasted. Must've been fed gold flakes and the milk of the gods.

  The bread cart was legendary.

  Like baked clouds.

  Everything plated as beautifully as jewelry. The artistic detail more precise than coinage.

  Over espressos, Christian said, "I hope that whatever has really brought you to Vegas won't keep you from seeing your son again."

  "It's a risk. But I just have this fear that if I were to walk away and drive up to Oregon to be with my son, that within a few months, I'd be broke. Living out of a motel. Strung out. Maybe dead."

  "Sounds like your business here could produce the same end result."

  "Yeah, but at least I wouldn't be doing it to myself. Truth is, I think about dying all the time. I think about my son finding out. And of all the possible scenarios, Jacob hearing that mommy was found OD'd and decomposing in a motel, is the worst."

  "So you are back in the game."

  "Are you judging me?"

  "No."

  "Look, it fills this hole in my soul that I used to throw drugs at."

  "Your son doesn't fill it?"

  "Only part way."

  "So you're saying it's either crime or drugs for you. Can't live without one or the other."

  "If I take drugs I will definitely die. If I... ..."

  He finished her sentence: "Steal?"

  "Then I'll only maybe die. I'm fighting for my life here, Christian."

  "And this thing—it's tonight?"

  "Yeah."

  "Are you afraid?" he asked.

  "Of course."

  "And do you find fear to be a help or a hindrance?"

  "It helps. For sure."

  "How so?"

  "It keeps me uncomfortable and sharp. Heightens my senses."

  "And you have no doubts about going through with it?"

  "Jobs like this—they're the only time I don't think about using. You helped me to see that. You haven't asked for any details," Letty said. "Thank you."

  "And you haven't asked me if I'm going through with my plans tonight. Back at you."

  "Are you?"

  "What exactly are you doing?"

  They laughed.

  "Sounds like a big night for both of us," he said. "The suicide and the thief."

  "What would it take?" she asked, "for you to keep on keeping on?"

  "It's funny. That's all I've been asking myself lately."

  "And?"

  "I don't know. Some new experience maybe? Something that made me feel like a different person. Like I was living a different life."

  "I hope you find it."

  # # #

  They rode back in the limo.

  It was ten o'clock. She could feel the job looming, but she pushed it out of her mind just a little while longer.

  She looked up at Christian as they passed Paris Las Vegas. All of the lights and the neon playing across his face like an ecstasy dream.

  Then they were parked out front at t
he Palazzo and the driver was coming around to get their door.

  They embraced in the lobby.

  Christian said, "Take care of yourself, Letty."

  And she said, "You too. Thanks for everything."

  Neither asked the other to reconsider.

  Neither said goodbye like how the moment called for it. Like goodbye forever.

  The elevator ride up to her room was the only window in which she allowed herself to cry.

  15

  Room 968 at the Wynn looked like a construction site.

  Between the end of the bed and the mini-bar, a folding ladder stood in a pile of sawdust and plaster dust. A man high up the rungs was waist-deep in the ceiling, a large segment of which lay in pieces on the floor.

  Letty locked the door after her and made her way inside.

  Detected a muffled hum—the work of a quiet motor.

  Dust rained down out of the hole in the ceiling.

  She spotted a large black duffel bag in the corner, bulging.

  Unzipped it.

  Zip-ties.

  Kevlar vests.

  Face masks.

  Ball gags.

  Shotguns.

  "What's this, Ize?" she said, lifting a semi-auto tactical shotgun.

  "S'all good," he said.

  "How exactly is this all good? Aside from the fact that you said 'no guns,' you fire off one shell and you'll wake the entire Strip."

  "We won't be firing any shells."

  "How's that?"

  "Keep digging."

  She thrust her hand deeper into the duffel until her fingers grasped a cartridge the size of a twelve-gauge shotgun shell. She lifted out a clear capsule packed with copper wiring and a four-pronged electrode. TASER XREP had been engraved into the plastic.

  "What is this?" she asked.

  "Nasty is what that is. It's a taser on steroids. Fires out of a shotgun and delivers debilitating pain for up to twenty seconds. I let Jerrod pop me with one. Standard Taser ain't no thing, but I'd hate to meet a man that shell can't drop."

  "It's not lethal?"

  "Nah. Only makes you wish you were dead."

  Over by the window, Jerrod was cranking down on a clamp that held a large suction cup to the glass.

  Isaiah knelt over an REI store's worth of climbing equipment, just the sight of which tightened Letty's stomach. He was in the process of outfitting each harness with a locking carabiner and an ATC belay device.

  She stepped over a neat coil of climbing rope.