More Language of Letting Go: 366 New Daily Meditations

by Melody Beattie

  When a person is faced with the task of assuming responsibility for their life and behaviors, what is our response? That the person can't do that? I must do it myself to save him or her from dissipating into ashes? From crumbling? From failing?

  What is our reaction to ourselves when we encounter a problem, a feeling, or when we face the prospect of assuming responsibility for ourselves?

  Do we believe in ourselves and others? Do we give power to people—including ourselves—and their abilities? Or Page 74

  do we give the power to the problem, the feeling, or the irresponsibility?

  We can learn to check ourselves out. We can learn to think, and consider our response, before we respond. "I'm sorry you're having that problem. I know you can figure out a solution. Sounds like you've got some feelings going on. I know you'll work through them and come out on the other side."

  Each of us is responsible for ourselves. That does not mean we don't care. It does not mean a cold, calculated withdrawal of our support from others. It means we learn to love and support people in ways that work. It means we learn to love and support ourselves in ways that work. It means that we connect with friends who love and support us in ways that work.

  To believe in people, to believe in each person's inherent ability to think, feel, solve problems, and take care of themselves is a great gift we can give and receive from others.

  Today, I will strive to give and receive support that is pure and empowering. I will work at believing in myself and others—and our mutual abilities to be competent at dealing with feelings, solving problems, and taking responsibility for ourselves.

  March 18

  Safety

  One of the longterm effects of living in a dysfunctional family—as children or adults—is that we don't feel safe.

  Much of what we call codependency happens because we don't feel safe in relationships. This can cause us to control, obsess, or focus on the other person, while neglecting ourselves or shutting down our feelings.

  We can learn to make ourselves feel safe and comfortable, as part of a nurturing, loving attitude toward ourselves.

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  a friend or doing something nice for ourselves helps us feel protected and loved. Sometimes, reaching out to another person helps us feel safe. Prayer and meditation help us affirm that our Higher Power cares for us.

  We are safe now. We can relax. Perhaps others haven't been there for us in a consistent, trustworthy way, but we are learning to be there for ourselves.

  Today, I will concentrate on making myself feel safe and comfortable.

  March 19

  Staying Out of the Middle

  "I don't want to get in the middle, but. . ." is a sign that we may have just stepped into the middle.

  We do not have to get caught in the middle of other people's issues, problems, or communication. We can let others take responsibility for themselves in their relationships. We can let them work out their issues with each other.

  Being a peacemaker does not mean we get in the middle. We are bearers of peace by staying peaceful ourselves and not harboring turmoil. We are peacemakers by not causing the extra chaos created when we get in the middle of other people's affairs and relationships.

  Don't get in the middle unless you want to be there.

  Today, I will refuse to accept any invitations to jump in the middle of others' affairs, issues, and relationships. I will trust others to work out their own affairs, including the ideas and feelings they want to communicate to each other.

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  March 20

  Releasing

  Let fears slip away.

  Release any negative, limiting, or selfdefeating beliefs buried in your subconscious too. These beliefs may be about life, love, or yourself. Beliefs create reality.

  Let go. From as deep within as your fears, resentments, and negative beliefs are stored, let them all go. Let the belief or feeling surface. Accept it; surrender to it. Feel the discomfort or unrest. Then let it go. Let new beliefs replace the old. Let peace and joy and love replace fear.

  Give yourself and your body permission to let go of fears, resentments, and negative beliefs. Release that which is no longer useful. Trust that you are being healed and prepared for receiving what is good.

  Today, God, help me become willing to let go of old beliefs and feelings that may be hurting me. Gently take them from me and replace them with new beliefs and feelings. I do deserve the best life and love have to offer. Help me believe that.

  March 21

  Considering Commitment

  Pay attention to your commitments.

  While many of us fear committing, it's good to weigh the cost of any commitment we are considering. We need to feel consistently positive that it's an appropriate commitment for us.

  Many of us have a history of jumping—leaping headfirst—into commitments without weighing the cost and the possible consequences of that particular commitment.

  When we get in, we find that we do not really want to commit, and feel trapped.

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  lose out on certain opportunities if we are unwilling to commit. We still need to weigh the commitment. We still need to become clear about whether that commitment seems right for us. If it isn't, we need to be direct and honest with others and ourselves.

  Be patient. Do some soul searching. Wait for a clear answer. We need to make our commitments not in urgency or panic but in quiet confidence that what we are committing to is right for us.

  If something within says no, find the courage to trust that voice.

  This is not our last chance. It is not the only opportunity well ever have. Don't panic. We don't have to commit to what isn't right for us, even if we try to tell ourselves it should be right for us and we should commit.

  Often, we can trust our intuitive sense more than we can trust our intellect about commitments.

  In the excitement of making a commitment and beginning, we may overlook the realities of the middle. That is what we need to consider.

  We don't have to commit out of urgency, impulsivity, or fear. We are entitled to ask, Will this be good for me? We are entitled to ask if this commitment feels right.

  Today, God, guide me in making my commitments. Help me say yes to what is in my highest good, and no to what isn't. I will give serious consideration before I commit myself to any activity or person. I will take the time to consider if the commitment is really what I want.

  March 22

  Letting Go of Being a Victim

  It's okay to have a good day. Really.

  It's okay to be doing okay and to feel like our life is manageable and on track.

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  Many of us have learned, as part of our survival behaviors, that the way to get the attention and approval we want is to be victims. If life is awful, too difficult, unmanageable, too hard, unfair, then others will accept, like, and approve of us, we think.

  We may have learned this from living and associating with people who also learned to survive by being a victim.

  We are not victims. We do not need to be victimized. We do not need to be helpless and out of control to get the attention and love we desire. In fact, the kind of love we are seeking cannot be obtained that way.

  We can get the love we really want and need by only owning our power. We learn that we can stand on our own two feet, even though it sometimes feels good to lean a little. We learn that the people we are leaning on are not holding us up. They are standing next to us.

  We all have bad days—days when things are not going the way we'd like, days when we have feelings of sadness and fear. But we can deal with our bad days and darker feelings in ways that reflect selfresponsibility rather than victimization.

  It's okay to have a good day too. We mig
ht not have as much to talk about, but well have more to enjoy.

  God, help me let go of my need to be a victim. Help me let go of my belief that to be loved and get attention I need to be a victim. Surround me with people who love me when I own my power. Help me start having good days and enjoying them.

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  March 23

  Flack from Setting Boundaries

  We need to know how far we'll go, and how far we'll allow others to go with us. Once we understand this, we can go anywhere.

  —Beyond Codependency

  When we own our power to take care of ourselves—set a boundary, say no, change an old pattern—we may get flack from some people. That's okay. We don't have to let their reactions control us, stop us, or influence our decision to take care of ourselves.

  We don't have to control their reactions to our process of selfcare. That is not our responsibility. We don't have to expect them not to react either.

  People will react when we do things differently or take assertive action to nurture ourselves, particularly if our decision in some way affects them. Let them have their feelings. Let them have their reactions. But continue on your course anyway.

  If people are used to us behaving in a certain way, they'll attempt to convince us to stay that way to avoid changing the system. If people are used to us saying yes all the time, they may start mumbling and murmuring when we say no. If people are used to us taking care of their responsibilities, feelings, and problems, they may give us some flack when we stop. That's normal. We can learn to live with a little flack in the name of healthy selfcare. Not abuse, mind you. Flack.

  If people are used to controlling us through guilt, bullying, and badgering, they may intensify their efforts when we change and refuse to be controlled. That's okay.

  That's flack too.

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  We don't have to let flack pull us back into old ways if we've decided we want and need to change. We don't have to react to flack or give it much attention. It doesn't deserve it. It will die down.

  Today, I will disregard any flack I receive for changing my behaviors or making other efforts to be myself.

  March 24

  Appreciating Ourselves

  We are the greatest thing that will ever happen to us. Believe it. It makes life much easier.

  —Codependent No More

  It is time to stop this nonsense of running around picking on ourselves.

  We may have walked through much of our life apologizing for ourselves either directly or indirectly—feeling less valuable than others, believing that they know better than we do, and believing that somehow others are meant to be here and we are not.

  We have a right to be here.

  We have a right to be ourselves.

  We are here. There is a purpose, a reason, and an intention for our life. We do not have to apologize for being here or being who we are.

  We are good enough, and deserving.

  Others do not have our magic. We have our magic. It is in us.

  It doesn't matter what we've done in our past. We all have a past, woven with mistakes, successes, and learning experiences. We have a right to our past. It is ours. It has worked to shape and form us. As we progress on this journey, we shall see how each of our experiences will be turned around and used for good.

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  We have already spent too much time being ashamed, being apologetic, and doubting the beauty of ourselves. Be done with it. Let it go. It is an unnecessary burden.

  Others have rights, but so do we. We are neither less than nor more than. We are equal. We are who we are. That is who we were created and intended to be.

  That, my friend, is a wonderful gift.

  God, help me own my power to love and appreciate myself. Help me give myself validity instead of looking to others to do that.

  March 25

  Letting Go of Worry

  What if we knew for certain that everything we're worried about today will work out fine?

  What if . . .we had a guarantee that the problem bothering us would be worked out in the most perfect way, and at the best possible time? Furthermore, what if we knew that three years from now we'd be grateful for that problem, and its solution?

  What if . . .we knew that even our worst fear would work out for the best?

  What if . . .we had a guarantee that everything that's happening, and has happened, in our life was meant to be, planned just for us, and in our best interest?

  What if . . .we had a guarantee that the people we love are experiencing exactly what they need in order to become who they're intended to become? Further, what if we had a guarantee that others can be responsible for themselves, and we don't have to control or take responsibility for them?

  What if . . .we knew the future was going to be good, and we would have an abundance of resources and guidance to handle whatever comes our way?

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  What if. . .we knew everything was okay, and we didn't have to worry about a thing? What would we do then?

  We'd be free to let go and enjoy life.

  Today, I will know that I don't have to worry about anything. If I do worry, I will do it with the understanding that I am choosing to worry, and it is not necessary.

  March 26

  Gifts, Not Burdens

  Children are gifts, if we accept them.

  —Kathleen Turner Crilly

  Children are gifts. Our children, if we have children, are a gift to us. We, as children, were gifts to our parents.

  Sadly, many of us did not receive the message from our parents that we were gifts to them and to the Universe. Maybe our parents were in pain themselves; maybe our parents were looking to us to be their caretakers; maybe we came at a difficult time in their lives; maybe they had their own issues and simply were not able to enjoy, accept, and appreciate us for the gifts we are.

  Many of us have a deep, sometimes subconscious, belief that we were, and are, a burden to the world and the people around us. This belief can block our ability to enjoy life and our relationships with others. This belief can even impair our relationship with a Higher Power: we may feel we are a burden to God.

  If we have that belief, it is time to let it go.

  We are not a burden. We never were. If we received that message from our parents, it is time to recognize that issue as theirs to resolve.

  We have a right to treat ourselves as a gift—to ourselves, to others, and to the Universe.

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  We are here, and we have a right to be here.

  Today, I will treat myself, and any children I have, as though we are a gift. I will let go of any beliefs I have about being a burden—to my Higher Power, my friends, my family, and myself.

  March 27

  AfterBurn

  ''How could I do it? How could I say it? Even though I meant it, I still feel ashamed, guilty, and afraid.''

  This is common reaction to new, exciting recovery behaviors. Anything to do with owning our power and taking care of ourselves can trigger feelings of shame, guilt, and fear.

  We do not have to allow these feelings to control us. They're a backlash. They're afterburn. Let them burn out.

  When we start confronting and attacking feelings and messages, we will experience some afterburn. The afterburn is what we allowed to control us all our life—

  shame and guilt.

  Many of us grew up with shamebased messages that it wasn't okay to take care of ourselves, be honest, be direct, and own our power with people. Many of us grew up with messages that it wasn't okay to be who we were and resolve problems in relationships. Many of us grew up with the message that what we want and need isn't okay.

  Let it all burn off. We don't have to take afterburn so seriously. We don't let the afterburn convince us that we are wrong and don't have a right to take care of ourselves and set boundaries.

  Do we really have the right to take care of ourselves? Do we really have the right to set boundaries? Do we really
have the right to be direct and say what we need to say?

  You bet we do.

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  Today, I will let any afterburn which sets in after I practice a new recovery behavior, burn off. I will not take it so seriously. God, help me let go of my shame and needless fears about what will happen to me if I really start caring for and loving myself.

  March 28

  Balance

  Seek balance.

  Balance emotions with reason.

  Combine detachment with doing our part.

  Balance giving with receiving.

  Alternate work with play, business with personal activities.

  Balance tending to our spiritual needs with tending to our other needs.

  Juggle responsibilities to others with responsibilities to ourselves.

  Balance caring about others with caring about ourselves.

  Whenever possible, let's be good to others, but be good to ourselves too.

  Some of us have to make up for lost time.

  Today, I will strive for balance.

  March 29

  Getting Needs Met

  Picture yourself walking through a meadow. There is a path opening before you. As you walk, you feel hungry. Look to your left. There's a fruit tree in full bloom. Pick what you need.

  Steps later, you notice you're thirsty. On your right, there's a fresh water spring.

  When you are tired, a resting place emerges. When you are lonely, a friend appears to walk with you. When you get lost, a teacher with a map appears.

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  Before long, you notice the flow: need and supply; desire and fulfillment. Maybe, you wonder, Someone gave me the need because Someone planned to fulfill it.

  Maybe I had to feel the need, so I would notice and accept the gift. Maybe closing my eyes to the desire closes my arms to its fulfillment.

  Demand and supply, desire and fulfillment—a continuous cycle, unless we break it. All the necessary supplies have already been planned and provided for this journey.

  Today, everything I need shall be supplied to me.

  March 30

  Experiment

  Experiment. Try something new. Try stepping out.

  We have been held back too long. We have held ourselves back too long.