Karen Marie Moning’s Fever Series 5-Book Bundle: Darkfever, Bloodfever, Faefever, Dreamfever, Shadowfever

by Karen Marie Moning

  He catches his tongue in his teeth briefly and gives me a full-on smile. It says: I’m the biggest baddest fuck and I have all the toys.

  We go back to his bedroom and I get the page from Mad Morry’s notebook and the tarot card from my pocket.

  He looks at the card. “Where did you say you got this?”

  “Chester’s. The dreamy-eyed guy gave it to me.”

  “Who?”

  “The good-looking college-age guy that bartends.”

  His head moves funny, like a snake drawing back to strike. “How good-looking?”

  I look at him. His gaze is cool. If you want that kind of life, get the fuck out of my house now, his eyes say.

  “Nothing like you, Barrons.”

  He relaxes. “So, who is he? Have I ever seen him?”

  I tell him when and where and describe him, and he looks puzzled. “I’ve never seen the kid. I saw an elderly man with a heavy Irish accent pouring drinks a few times when I came to get you, but no one like you’re describing.”

  I shrug. “Point is, it’s too late for the first prophecy to work.” I hand him the page. “Darroc was convinced he was the one who could use the amulet. But I read his translation and it sounds like it could be you or Dageus. Or any number of men.”

  Barrons takes the parchment from me and scans it. “Why would he think it was him?”

  “Because it says he who is not what he was. And he used to be Fae.”

  He turns it over, looks at Darroc’s translation, then flips back to Mad Morry’s prophecy.

  “Darroc didn’t speak Old Irish when I trained him and, if he picked it up since then, he didn’t learn it very well. His translation is wrong. It’s a rare dialect and gender neutral. It says the one that is possessed … or inhabited.”

  “That’s what the first prophecy said.”

  He looks at me and raises a brow. It takes me a moment to interpret his expression.

  “You think it’s me.” Somehow that doesn’t surprise me. As if some part of me always knew it was going to come down to this in the end: me against the Sinsar Dubh, winner take all. It smacks of fate. I hate fate. I don’t believe in her. Unfortunately, I think the bitch believes in me.

  He moves to a vault behind the painting I’d been watching candlelight flicker over earlier and removes the amulet. It’s dark in his hands. The moment he approaches me, it pulses faintly.

  I reach for it. It blazes when I touch it. It feels right in my hands. I’ve wanted it since the moment I first saw it.

  “You’re the wild card, Mac. I’ve thought that since the beginning. This thing thinks you’re epic. So do I.”

  Quite a compliment. I cup the amulet in my hands. I know this piece. I turn inward, hunting, searching. I’ve learned so much tonight, about him, about myself. In this place, I feel fearless. Nothing can touch me, nothing can do too much damage to me. I feel calmer than I’ve felt in a long time. If I can use this, I can find the spell to unmake his son. I can end their suffering.

  Show me what is true, I say, and shake off my blinders. I quit trying to force myself on the truth to reshape it, and I let the truth force itself on me. What have I been hiding from? What monsters have been stalking me, waiting patiently for me to look at them?

  I close my eyes and open my mind. Fragments of times forgotten flash past me so fast I see only blurs of color. I trust my heart to take me where I need to go and tell me when to stop.

  The images slow, become static, and I am in another place, another time. It’s so real, I can smell the scent of spiced roses nearby. I love the smell because it makes me think of her. I keep the roses everywhere. I look around.

  I am in a laboratory.

  Cruce is gone.

  I watched him leave.

  He loves me, but he loves himself more.

  I finish the fourth amulet without him. The first three were imperfect. This one does what I want it to do.

  Balances the scales between us.

  She will shine as brilliantly in the night sky as do I. Giants mate with giants or not at all.

  I will take it to my beloved myself.

  I cannot make her Fae, but I will give her all our powers in other ways.

  Perhaps I am a fool to give her an amulet capable of weaving illusion that could seduce even me, but my faith in my love knows no bounds.

  My wings trail the floor as I turn. I am enormous. I am singular. I am eternal.

  I am the Unseelie King.

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  Dusk comes hard-edged and violet.

  Dancer’d like that thought. He’s a poet, brilliant cool with words. Wrote a piece the other day ’bout murdering clocks ’cause they feck us up, keep us stuck in the past and keep us from living the day. Used to have this thing in my past riding me all the fecking time, but now she knows, and I say, fine, get the monkey off my back.

  I shift, restless, staring down at BB&B. There’s a limo out front. Pulled up hours ago, ain’t moved since. Couldn’t see who got out. Somebody changed the sign. I think it musta been Mac, and it cracks me up but I don’t laugh from the belly like I used to. Swallow it instead.

  Ain’t like she ain’t gonna try to kill me.

  And I ain’t gonna die, so.

  There we are.

  Guess somebody’s gonna bite it.

  Been watching the place off and on for days. Watching the watchers. Everybody’s nervous. Chewing each other’s heads off.

  Book went nuts the other day. Turned some guy into a suicide bomb, walked him right into Chester’s. Lots o’ peeps died getting him outta there, blown up when it blew. They’re paranoid out at the abbey. Think it’s gonna be next. Ain’t nobody can track the thing, ’cause Mac’s gone missing.

  So’s Barrons.

  Without ’em, we’re stuck. Ain’t nobody can sense the Book ’til it’s on top of us. Dancer thinks it’ll make a nuke one day. End us all. He says we gotta put it down fast.

  I watch, knees up, arms around, perched on a water tower. Nobody looking this high.

  I been shut out. Ro won’t let me near none o’ the action. Kat and Jo keep me in the loop. They don’t know I killed Alina. Mac don’t know, ’cause I just found out, but there’s a third prophecy. Something ’bout mirror images and sons and daughters and monsters within being monsters without. Jo wasn’t done translating yet but she was worried big-time. Seems the longer the Book’s loose, the worse the odds get.

  I heard Ry-O telling that white-haired dude with the freaky eyes that Mac’s gotta die. But not before the Book gets shut down. Pissed him off real bad that it came into his club and tried to blow it. You don’t mess with Ry-O.

  He’s got dudes on top of the bookstore. They move funny.

  Jo’s hanging on a roof a few buildings over, with Kat and her trusty little group of sidhe-sheep. “Baaaaa,” I say under my breath. They’re staring through binocs. Never look my way. Only see what they ’spect to see. What she tells ’em to see. Dickheads. Pull your heads out, I think. Smell the sheep shit.

  The things I know.

  The Scots are on top of a five-story in the Dark Zone. They got binocs, too.

  These eyeballs of mine don’t need no help seeing. I’m supercharged, superwired, super-D! All-seeing, all-hearing, all-jamming, all the time.

  I smell V’lane. Spice on the wind. Dunno where he is. Somewhere near.

  Five days Mac and Barrons been gone. Since the night they tried to trap the Book.

  Ro’s blaming it all on Mac. First, she was glad Mac was gone. Said we didn’t need her, didn’t want her. But she came to her senses when it strolled into Chester’s. See, she was there when the Book paid its little visit wearing a corset of dynamite, and ain’t nothing Ro likes better than her own wrinkly ass. Gah. That’s a visual I coulda done without.

  Ry-O’s blaming the Druids. Saying they must’ve got the chant wrong.

  The Scots are blaming Ry-O. Saying evil can’t trap evil.

  Ry-O laughs and asks what the feck they are.

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p; V’lane’s pissed at everybody. Says we’re all inept, puny mortals.

  I snicker. Dude, got that right. I sigh, dreamy-like. Think V’lane’s got the hots for me. Wanna ask Mac what she—

  I rip open a protein bar and munch it, scowling. What was I thinking? As if I’m ever gonna ask Mac anything again. I shoulda hunted those feckers that killed Alina. Shoulda got rid of ’em. She never woulda known. I smile, thinking about killing ’em. I scowl, thinking about how I didn’t.

  “Dither much, kid?”

  Voice like knives. I stiffen and try to freeze-frame out, but the feck’s got my arm and he ain’t letting go.

  “G’off me,” I spit around a mouthful of chocolate and peanut, thinking, Who uses words like that? But I know who it is, and he worries me ’bout as much as the Book does. “Ry-O,” I say, real cool.

  He smiles like I think Death must smile, all fangs and hard eyes that ain’t never held an ounce of—

  I breathe in sharp-like without meaning to, ’stead of swallowing, and choke on peanuts. Throat squinches up, can’t breathe, start thumping my chest.

  He dressing for Halloween? Ain’t here yet.

  Pounding my sternum ain’t gonna work and I know it. I need the Heimlich but can’t do it on myself ’less he lets go of me so I can slam myself into the ledge. I use superstrength to yank my arm free, practically pull it outta the socket.

  He’s still got me. Ain’t goin’ nowhere.

  He manacles my wrist with long fingers and studies me. Watching me choke. Cold fecker. Watching me foam, my eyes get wild. I’m drooling! Dude—this is so not cool.

  Gonna die up here on a water tower, choking on a fecking protein bar. Topple off, splat to the pavement. Everybody’s gonna see.

  Mega O’Malley croaks like a Joe!

  No fecking way.

  Just when I’m getting light-headed, he slams a fist into my back and I spit out a mangled mouthful. Can’t breathe for a minute. Then screech it in. Air ain’t never been sweeter.

  He smiles. His teeth are normal. I stare at him. Mind playing tricks? I been watching too many movies.

  “Got a job for you.”

  “No way,” I say instantly. Ain’t falling in with his crowd. Got the feeling you don’t get to fall back out. You just fall. ’Til you hit bottom. Ain’t going that low. Got trubs of my own.

  “Didn’t ask, kid.”

  “Don’t work for nobody calls me kid.”

  “Let her go.”

  I screw my face up in a scowl. “Who sent the party invites for my water tower?” I’m pissed. Whatever happened to a little privacy?

  One of the Keltars oozes from the shadows. Only seen him from a distance. Don’t know how either of ’em got so close to me without me knowing. Freaks me. I got supersenses and they snuck up on me.

  Scot laughs. But he don’t look like a Scot no more. He looks sorta like … I whistle and shake my head sympathetically. He’s going Unseelie Prince.

  They forget me. Busy looking at each other. Ry-O folds his arms. The Scot does the same.

  I take advantage of the moment. Ain’t sticking around to find out what job Ry-O has in mind for me. Never wanna know. And if some dude turned dark side thinks he’s gonna score redemption playing avenging angel for me, I got news for him. I don’t want it.

  My ticket to hell’s already been punched, bags on board, steam whistle blowing.

  I’m fine with it. Like knowing ’zactly where I stand.

  I freeze-frame out.

  No night. No day. No time.

  We get lost in each other.

  Something happens to me down there in the underground. I’m reborn. I feel peaceful for the first time in my life. I’m no longer bipolar. There’s nothing I’m hiding from myself.

  Being afraid is debilitating. I’ll take truth over fear of it any day.

  I am the Unseelie King. I am the Unseelie King.

  I say it over and over in my mind.

  I accept it.

  I don’t know how or why and may never, but at least now I’ve looked hard at the darkest part of me.

  It really was the only explanation all along.

  It’s almost funny in a way. The whole time I was so worried about what everyone around me might be, I was the biggest bad of all.

  That dark, glassy lake I’ve got is him. Me. Us. That’s why it always terrified me. Somehow I managed to partition my psyche and store him away. Me. The parts of me that weren’t born twenty-three years ago, if I actually was born.

  I can’t think of any scenario that explains how I came to be what I am. But the truth of my memory is indisputable.

  I did stand in that laboratory, nearly a million years ago. I did create the Hallows and I did love the concubine and I did give birth to the Unseelie. That was all me.

  Maybe that’s why Barrons and I can’t resist each other. We both have our monsters. “You really think evil is a choice?” I ask.

  “Everything is. Each moment. Each day.”

  “I didn’t sleep with Darroc. But I would have.”

  “Irrelevant.” He moves inside me. “I’m here now.”

  “I was going to seduce the shortcut out of him so I could get the Book. Then I was going to unmake this world and replace it with another, so I could have you back.”

  He freezes. I can’t see his face. He’s behind me. It’s part of why I can say it. I don’t think I could say it to his face and see myself reflected in his eyes.

  I wasn’t going to unmake the world for my sister. I’d loved her all my life. I’d known him for only a few short months.

  “Might have been a bit strenuous for your first attempt at creation,” he says finally. He’s trying not to laugh. I tell him I would have doomed mankind for him, and he tries not to laugh.

  “It wouldn’t have been my first attempt. I’m a pro. You were wrong. I am the Unseelie King,” I tell him.

  He begins moving again. After a while, he pulls me around and kisses me. “You’re Mac,” he says. “And I’m Jericho. And nothing else matters. Never will. You exist in a place that is beyond all rules for me. Do you understand that?”

  I do.

  Jericho Barrons just told me he loves me.

  “What was your plan?” I ask much later. “When we got the Book locked down, how were you going to get the spell you wanted?”

  “The Unseelie have never drunk from the cauldron. All of them know the First Language. I made a few deals, set things in motion.”

  I shake my head, frowning at myself. Sometimes I miss the most obvious things.

  “But now I have you.”

  “I’ll be able to read it.” That was creepy. Now at least I knew why I had such a strong negative reaction to the Sinsar Dubh. All my sins were trapped between its covers. And the damn thing just wouldn’t go away. I’d tried to escape culpability, and my culpability had had the nerve to take on a life of its own and hunt me.

  I understood why it stalked me. Once it had become sentient—a mind with no feet, no wings, no method of locomotion and nothing else in all of existence quite like it, except me, and I’d obviously despised it—it must have hated me. And since it was me, it loved me, too. The Book I’d written had become obsessed with me. It wanted to hurt me, not kill me.

  Because it wanted my attention.

  So many things made sense now that I’d accepted I was the king.

  I’d wondered why the Silvers had always been so hard for me to get in and out of. “Cruce’s” curse, which had really been cast by the other Unseelie Princes, had sensed me and tried to keep me out. Of course I knew my way around the black fortress and the Unseelie hell. It had been my home. Every step had been instinctive because I’d walked those icy paths millions of times, called greetings to the cliffs, wept for the cruel confinement of my sons and daughters. I understood why the concubine’s memories had played out before my eyes but the king’s had sort of slid into my brain. I knew now why I’d known the command to open the doors to the king’s fortress.

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nbsp; I might be the king, but at least I was the “good” king. I preferred to think of myself as the Seelie King, because I’d eradicated all my evil. The obsessed maniac who’d done experiments on anything and everything to achieve his ends was out there in Book form, not inside me, and that was no small comfort. I’d chosen to get rid of my evil—I’d made a choice, like Barrons had said—and I’d been trying to destroy those blackest parts of me ever since.

  Barrons was speaking. I’d forgotten we were talking.

  “I’m counting on you being able to read it. Makes everything simpler. We just have to figure out how to capture it with three stones and no Druids. I’m damned if I’m letting those fucks near it again.”

  I looked down at the silver and gold chain, the stone housed in the ornate gilt cage. Did I even need the stones or the Druids to trap my Book, or was the amulet what I’d been hunting for all along? I certainly fit into the “inhabited” or “possessed” category. I was the king of the Fae inside a female human’s body.

  I wondered how the concubine had lost the amulet. Who had taken it from her, betrayed me? Had someone abducted her, faked her death, then whisked her off to the Seelie court while I’d been insane with grief, busy divesting myself of my sins?

  She never would have taken it off willingly, yet here it was, in the world of man. If someone had come for her, might she have cast it off rather than let it fall into the wrong hands, patiently sowing clues, taking her chances that one day events would align, I would remember, and we would escape whatever had been done to us and be together again? Too bad I didn’t want to be with her.

  She’d always hated illusion. When she’d planted gardens and added on to the White Mansion, she’d done it in the old ways. The Faery court reverted to nothingness if the Fae attending it failed to maintain it. The White Mansion had been fashioned differently and would stand the test of time with or without her, apart from anyone.

  How had she become the Seelie Queen? Who had kidnapped her, interred her in a tomb of ice, and left her to a slow death in the Unseelie hell? What games were being played, what agenda was being pursued? I knew the patience of immortality. Who among the Fae had been biding their time, waiting for the perfect moment, the ultimate payday?