LONG SHOT: (A HOOPS Novel)

by Ryan, Kennedy

  I ignore the pain and focus on getting Sarai and me out of this house unscathed. I grab an overnight bag and toss a few items of clothing in, not looking at him as I shove a pair of Chucks in, too.

  “What do you think you’re doing?” Laughter threads through his words.

  I don’t bother answering, but walk swiftly into the bedroom, scooping my purse as I go. I make my way silently into the nursery down the hall, and in the faint light of the half-lit sconces on her wall, grab the essentials and a few outfits for Sarai. I pick her up carefully, praying she doesn’t wake.

  When I step into the hall, Caleb is there, leaning against the stair banister.

  “You actually think I’ll let you leave me.” He chuckles, shaking his head.

  “We can discuss custody,” I reply emotionlessly. “But this is over. We’re over, Caleb.”

  The cruel amusement fades until all that’s left is cruel.

  “Try to leave me.” His words are wrapped in nails and heavy with warning. The darker centers of his eyes, the irises, are shards of glass. “I want to see you try.”

  I don’t pause to contemplate what that means, but rush down the steps. I freeze in the foyer, surprised to see Ramone still here and hovering as if waiting for direction. He looks up the stairwell at Caleb watching from the landing. I glance up to see Caleb shake his head once. Ramone steps back. I race to the garage, my heart pounding as if I’m in a fox hunt with hounds nipping at my heels, but no one follows me.

  I snap Sarai into her car seat, amazed that she hasn’t even stirred, and stow our bags in the back of my car, shooting furtive glances at the garage door the whole time. No movement.

  I start the car and pull out, rounding the circular driveway and gunning it as soon as I hit the road. I check my rearview mirror every few seconds, certain Caleb must be following, but there are no lights trailing me. The frigid certainty in his voice haunts me. Like he was so sure I wouldn’t get away. My sore lips pull painfully into a crooked, relieved smile. I shake a metric ton from my shoulders and tip my head back into the buttery leather of the headrest. Things haven’t been right between us for a long time, but I had no idea how wrong they would go.

  He hit me.

  I’m still reeling inside and aching where he hit my mouth with the full force of his body behind his hand. I didn’t think this through beyond getting out of the house, but it’s so late. I’ll find a room for the night and get a fresh start tomorrow.

  I pull into the parking lot of a Holiday Inn off the interstate. It’s not the expensive hotels Caleb always reserves for us, but I never cared before and I certainly don’t care tonight. My freedom is the only luxury on my mind.

  I park, wrangling my bag and Sarai’s while bundling her in the blanket against my chest. I juggle everything in my arms, struggling to get the door open without waking her.

  “I need a room for the night, please,” I whisper to the front desk attendant. I would love for Sarai to sleep through this entire ordeal.

  “Of course.” The young man’s eyes narrow, and a smile breaks through his professional demeanor. “I know you.”

  “Excuse me?” I ask cautiously, patting Sarai’s little bottom.

  “Well, not know you.” He offers an almost shy smile when he takes my credit card. “I saw you and your baby on TV tonight.”

  The jumbotron.

  I can’t think about being on the big screen without remembering the moments after when, in an arena of twenty thousand people, it felt like August and I were alone in an electric bubble. Each moment I’ve ever spent in his company had played through my mind, and I’d cherished every one. The kind, funny, thoughtful man should have seemed at odds with the feral competitor on the floor, but he wasn’t. All the disparate parts fit snugly and rightly to form this man I desperately want to know better.

  And maybe now I will.

  It’s an ill-timed thought, but I’d be lying if I didn’t at least admit to myself that with things over between Caleb and me, there will be something with August. Even if I don’t pursue it, he will. The knowledge sends a tiny thrill through me.

  “Um, ma’am, your card has been declined.” The awkward phrase snatches me from my thoughts.

  “Oh. I’m sorry.” I glance from the black card extended between his two fingers to the frown on his face. “Are you sure? There’s no limit on it.”

  “Right. It’s a Black card, but …” He hesitates, his eyes speculative. “This card has been reported stolen.”

  “Stolen?” The word emerges loud and harsh in the quiet lobby, garnering the attention of two people at the other end of the desk also checking in.

  “That’s impossible,” I say in a softer voice.

  “We can’t use this card.” His voice stiffens. “Did you have another we can try?”

  “Uh, yes.” I reach into my wallet and hand him my debit card. “Here you go. I know that one is fine. I’ll have to call about the other one to figure it out.”

  My words trail off when his brows bunch into a frown, and he glances at me suspiciously. “This one doesn’t work either.”

  “That can’t be right because I …”

  Both of those cards, though in my possession and I’ve used them a hundred times, are technically in Caleb’s name. Caleb’s accounts. He may not be on my tail with high-beam lights, but he’s chasing me nonetheless.

  I extend my hand, requesting the card back. He reluctantly gives it to me like I might be running some elaborate fraud operation.

  “It’s a misunderstanding,” I assure him. “You take cash?”

  He nods, but still looks doubtful. I flip through the compartments of my wallet, searching for cash.

  Dammit. Nachos and parking at the game took most of my cash. I only spy a solitary ten-dollar bill.

  I don’t have enough money for a room, and I don’t have enough gas to make it all the way to Mama’s house in Atlanta or to Lotus’s place in New York. If we were speaking, which we aren’t. I don’t even know her new address there.

  I can’t just stand here while the attendant decides if he should call the cops or kick me out. I avoid his eyes, shift Sarai in my arms and walk back out to the car. My purse, overnight bag, and Sarai’s diaper bag weigh me down, but not nearly as much as the reality of my situation. Caleb shut down my cards. Knowing I’m out with his daughter in the middle of the night, he shut down my cards. Maybe I should have waited until the morning, but getting away from him was urgent. Something in his eyes told me to escape while I could.

  I’m driving somewhat aimlessly, unsure where to go and what I can afford to do, when flashing blue lights and the “blip” of a police siren grab my attention. For a moment, I wonder who they’re pursuing, but I’m the only one on the road.

  Dammit. Those blue lights are for me. Fuck my life. Could this night get worse?

  With my heart hammering, I pull off to the shoulder. I was distracted, so maybe I was speeding. I roll down my window, already wearing the practiced self-deprecating smile reserved for traffic stops.

  “Officer, I’m sorry if I—”

  “Out of the car, ma’am.” His clipped words take me aback.

  “What … was I speeding? A busted taillight? What’s going on?”

  I’m still trying to process everything when two more police cars pull in, lights flashing and cops climbing out cautiously as if this is America’s Most Wanted.

  “This vehicle and license plate match the description of a car reported stolen.” The officer glances in the back seat. “And reported in a child abduction.”

  “Abduction?” The word blasts from my mouth like a rocket. Anger clenches my hands into tight balls. “What the hell is going on? My daughter is safe, sleeping in the back seat.”

  “Ma’am, please step out of the vehicle with your hands raised.”

  I gape at him for a few more seconds, not even sure if this is legal. Not even sure if I should get out of my car on a dark, deserted road at night. Shaking myself from the stupor, I rea
ch over to the glove compartment.

  “Ma’am,” he snaps, eyes sliding to my arm reached across the passenger seat.

  “I’m just getting license and registration,” I assure him. I hand over the paperwork, watching as he shines his flashlight on the documents.

  “Registration says Caleb Bradley.” He taps the door. “Step out of the vehicle, please.”

  This is a nightmare. The other two officers approach, one of them speaking into the intercom on his shoulder. On rubbery legs, I climb out of the SUV, stepping to the ground with my hands raised.

  “There has been a terrible misunderstanding.” I will my voice to stop shaking. Fear coats my throat. I’m on a dark road with three men. Cops, yes, but men nonetheless. “Like I said, it’s my daughter in the back seat, and this is my car.”

  “But the registration—”

  “Caleb Bradly is my boyfriend,” I say hurriedly. “He gave me this car months ago. The baby is our daughter. There are a dozen ways to verify what I’m saying.”

  “Ma’am, in cases of suspected child abduction,” one of the other officers says, “we have to protect the child. I’m afraid we’ll need to take you into custody.”

  “The hell you will!” I step back, my calves bumping up against the car’s running board. “My daughter—”

  “We’ve already contacted her father,” the officer says. “He’s on his way.”

  “On his way?” I snarl. “He can be on his way, but he’s not taking my daughter anywhere.”

  The cop turns me, and my body flattens to the car as he slips cuffs on my wrists. The click of the cuffs sets off panic in me.

  Where will they take Sarai? What’s about to happen to her?

  I strain against the iron circlets, twisting my shoulders and kicking my feet back.

  “Ouch.” The officer curses under his breath. “Look, lady, you’re this close to adding resisting arrest and assaulting an officer to the grand theft and abduction.”

  “I haven’t done anything.” My voice quakes, and tears leak over my cheeks. “Oh my God. You have to listen to me. She’s my baby. I haven’t taken her! She’s mine. Please don’t take her. Please just listen to me.”

  Sobs shake my shoulders. Frustration, anger, and fear light a match to my blood and speed my heart. I rest my forehead against the cold metal of the expensive car that I never even thought about leaving behind. The credit cards, the car, the money—each thing he’s given me is simply a bar in my cell, imprisoning me.

  Another car door slams, and I jerk my head around. In the darkness, Caleb’s broad shoulders cut through the small circle of men surrounding me.

  “Where’s Sarai?” he demands, his voice, his face panicked. “Did she hurt her?”

  A growl rumbles in my belly and springs from my throat. I hurl myself at him, even with my arms cuffed behind me.

  “You bastard!” Hands trapped behind my back, I head-butt his chest and kick his shins. “What did you do?”

  My raised voice bounces off the night sky, echoing around us like a screech in the jungle.

  “You see what I mean?” he asks the officer closest to him. “She’s been like this for weeks, ever since she stopped taking the medication the doctor prescribed.”

  “Motherfucker!” The word scratches its way out of my chest and scrambles over my lips.

  “You don’t believe me?” he asks the officer. “This is my car she’s driving. I’m just going to reach inside for something that will prove what I say is true.”

  He steps away for a moment but returns with my purse. My heart stills in my chest when he holds up a bottle of tiny pills.

  “See?” He holds them out to one of the officers. “Her name’s right there. Ever since she stopped taking these pills, she—”

  “I’m gonna kill you!” The words blast from me with propulsive force. “You lying son of a bitch.” I lunge forward again, but the cop catches me before I can ram Caleb.

  “I promise you, officers,” Caleb drawls, “she’s not always like this. When she takes her meds, she’s a different woman, but you can see why I was concerned when she left with my daughter. She’s in an unstable state, and I feared for our baby’s safety.”

  “Her safety?” A sob-laugh hefts from my chest. “He hit me!” I look up over my shoulder, pleading with the officer closest to me. “You have to believe me,” I rasp. “I left because he hit me.”

  “Oh, I hit you?” Caleb cuts in. “Where? I don’t see a scratch on you.”

  My lips, still aching from his blow, tremble. “He hit me in the mouth,” I tell the officer, my voice desperate. “Please don’t let him take my baby. Oh, God. Please listen. I’m begging you.”

  A wail cuts through the air.

  “Sarai.” My glance darts between the officers. “She’s hungry. I need to feed her.”

  Four sets of eyes drop to my breasts, straining against my T-shirt. I hate every creature walking this earth with a dick.

  Caleb opens the back door and reaches in to coo over my baby girl.

  “No.” My head hangs, and salty tears burn the imperceptible cuts on my mouth. “Don’t let him have her. Oh, God. Please, no.”

  “It’s okay. Daddy’s here.” Caleb says, bouncing Sarai in the cradle of his arms, his eyes tender.

  “Officers, do you know who I am?” Caleb asks, his winning smile flashing white.

  The three officers exchange looks before nodding.

  This cannot be happening.

  Defeat slumps my shoulders, and I go slack in the officer’s arms.

  “Caleb Bradley,” one of them speaks up. “Sorry about the game tonight, man. Tough loss.”

  “Hey, you win some, you lose some.” Caleb shrugs. “Then you know it’s my rookie season. I really wanna get us in the playoffs.”

  “We barely missed ’em last year,” one officer says, scowling. “I was so glad when we drafted you.”

  “It’s been a good season so far.” Caleb bends to kiss Sarai’s nose, glancing up when my maternal growl rumbles in the quiet. “But it’s been hard on me and my fiancée.”

  “I’m not your fiancée,” I spit. “I’ll never wear your ring, Caleb.”

  His eyes narrow at me, and the rage he’s kept carefully checked slips its chain for a second. It bares its teeth, and I know if he gets his hands on me, I’ll suffer more than a slap across my mouth.

  “Like I was saying, it’s been hard on us,” Caleb continues, a modicum of civility. “New baby. Rookie season. It’s been a strain, and I think my fiancée just had a bad night.” He suspends that statement in the tight circle of us and the cops, taking the time to look each of them in the eye. “But I think she and I can work it out at home.”

  His hard eyes penetrate mine. “Or you can take her in, and the baby can go home with me.”

  “No.” I choke on my tears. I can’t take my eyes off Sarai, whose little mouth is rooting, searching for my breast. She whines, her arms shooting up from the swaddling. Caleb catches her fingers, folding them into his mouth.

  “You hungry, baby?” he asks, his voice gentle, yet still managing to grate on my nerves. “Let’s get you out of here so Mommy can feed you.”

  “You sure, Mr. Bradley?” the first officer asks. “If we need to—”

  “He’s right,” I interrupt, my hands burning with the need to snatch my daughter away from him, no matter what it takes or costs. “It’s been a bad night. I didn’t …” I swallow my pride to clear room for the lie. “I forgot to take my medication, like he said.”

  Caleb smiles at me indulgently.

  “You see, officers,” he says. “All a misunderstanding.”

  “Well, with something like an abduction accusation,” the first officer says, discomfort creeping into his voice and expression even as he uncuffs me, “we still have to document the incident.”

  “Of course, document it.” Caleb’s stare mocks and warns me. “I understand, but we won’t be having this kind of trouble again, will we, babe?”

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nbsp; I rub my wrists, crossing to Caleb immediately. I reach for Sarai, but he doesn’t let her go. We hold each other’s stare, a silent war of wills I’ll have to wait for the right time to win.

  Caleb finally releases Sarai. I clutch her to me, breathing in her sweet baby smell, burying my nose in her hair to hide my tears.

  “I’ll drive.” Caleb opens the driver’s side door.

  “But what about your car?” I ask.

  “Oh, he’ll drive it home.” Caleb nods toward his Ferrari a few feet away.

  Ramone steps out of the car, circling around to the driver’s side. Even in the darkness, his cold stare penetrates my clothes and leaves my skin clammy.

  “Our bodyguard was the one who actually first noted Iris’s erratic behavior at the game tonight,” Caleb tells the officers, but his eyes are set on me. He’s making sure I understand that Ramone is his ally in this ruse. “He was concerned days ago but wasn’t sure he should say anything. He actually called social services.”

  I freeze in the process of buckling Sarai into her car seat, glancing over my shoulder to catch Caleb’s stare.

  “Of course, I’ve told him not to interfere that way again.” Caleb’s voice is chiding. “He thought he was doing what was best for Sarai, but it’ll leave my fiancée some explaining to do.”

  This worsens by the second. Every lie Caleb has told is a straightjacket, hampering me, making me look like a madwoman.

  How will I get out of this?

  I climb into the car, watching through the windshield as the officers get Caleb to autograph their citation pads.

  Once the cops are gone, Ramone and Caleb stand outside talking. Probably plotting how to best hold me hostage in that house while Caleb is on the road. I knew I felt a shift between us, but I had no idea how my life would be turned upside down.

  In the midst of tonight’s soap opera, the mundane intrudes. My breasts hurt so bad, tight with milk because I missed a feeding. Sarai stares up at me—hungry, alert, impatient. She pats my breast, a sure signal that I have about two seconds before she starts wailing.

  I take her in, her face a tiny replica of mine: demanding and defenseless. My whole world swaddled in a blanket. She’s happily suckling, and those feelings of resentment and confusion I had for her, for motherhood, in the beginning are completely foreign now. I barely remember my world when she wasn’t the axis. The soft weight of her in my arms once felt like a burden. Now, she feels like a privilege I don’t deserve. I’m willing to ride through hell on gasoline wheels for this little girl.