THE ITALIAN DUKE’S WIFE
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dizzily, as his fingers untangled from her hair and
his hand stroked down her body, moulding her hipbone,
his fingers pressing into the curves of her bottom
as he held her with both hands and pulled her
into his own body so that she could feel how hard
and aroused he was. He kissed her with shockingly
deliberate intimacy as he caressed the quivering flesh
of her stomach, then stroked his fingers along the hip-
hugging line of her silky knickers, teasing her eager
flesh with a softly tantalising touch that made her
press closer to him until he responded to her need and
slipped his hand into the softly fluted leg of her underwear
to cover her sex.
Completely lost, Jodie made a small delirious
sound of pleasure into his kiss that turned to a broken
exclamation of shocked delight when he slid his fingers
into her waiting wetness. The feel of the slow
movement of his fingers over her aroused flesh was
both an exquisite pleasure and an almost unbearable
torment. She wanted him to go on doing what he was
doing, but she wanted him inside her as well, filling
her, satisfying the need that was tightening round her.
She moaned out loud as he plucked softly at the
aroused nub of her clitoris, her own hand going immediately
to the thick thrust of his own erection, easily visible
beneath his clothes but frustratingly separated
from the full intimacy of her touch by them.
"Wait," she heard him tell her thickly, and then he
was lifting her, placing her back on the bed before
swiftly removing his clothes. She lay back, her head
on the pillows, watching him with an absorbed, hungry,
unashamed eagerness, her breath coming in soft
little panting gasps of need, her hand resting over her
own sex, not to protect it, but to quieten it as it pulsed
its clamouring message of readiness.
His nakedness excited her so much. She couldn’t
drag her gaze away from the stiff length of his erection
as it thrust upwards from the soft dark mat of his
body hair. It crossed her mind that she should be feeling
virginal fear instead of such a delirious sense of
eager excitement. He was leaning over her, removing
her briefs, watching her as he did so. Heat and shock
suffused her as he slowly slid one finger the length
of her wetness. Greedily her body lifted towards him
and his finger traced her again, stroking and lingering,
caressing the hard little nub of excitement clamouring
for his attention and then slowly, very deliberately,
sliding inside her. Jodie gasped and then moaned in
delight as she felt him stretching her gently, still caressing
her.
His body was covering hers now, and he was kissing
her. Eagerly she kissed him back, only stopping
when she felt the loss of his pleasure-giving fingers.
Her eyes rounded and her face burned when he lifted
his hand towards her lips and told her thickly, "Taste
yourself on me." Hesitantly she opened her mouth and
let him place his fingers within it, closing her eyes
and obeying his whispered, "Suck them," as she drew
in the taste of her own arousal mingled with the taste
of his skin and felt the power of the aphrodisiac he
was giving her.
Now she was totally lost, a mindless slave to her
own sexuality and need as his hands and his mouth
caressed every part of her. Her shoulder, the inner
flesh of her arm, her breasts, her belly, and she
writhed and moaned and reached for him with her
own hands and mouth, savouring the sharp taste of
him as she breathed in his intimate man scent and felt
its erotic impact on her senses. She ached to let her
tongue-tip circle the stiff shiny head of his sex, but
Lorenzo wouldn’t let her. Instead his tongue was exploring
her, tracing a sensual pathway of fiery pleasure
over her wetness, stroking firmly against her clitoris,
taking her far, far beyond the furthermost
reaches of her own sensual imaginings. She wanted
him so much. Too much…
Abruptly, reality pierced her sexual arousal and she
tensed, pushing Lorenzo away whilst her body
screamed its pain at her denial of its pleasure.
Lorenzo sat up, frowning, and made to take her in
his arms, but Jodie resisted him and shook her head,
telling him fiercely, "No!"
"What? What are you saying? You want me — you
were giving yourself to me…" he insisted fiercely.
"And you want to prove that all women are like
your mother — that we all lie and cheat. Yes, I do want
you," she agreed shakily. "But I want my self-respect
more."
As she spoke she was wriggling away from his restraining
arm and getting off the bed, hurriedly gathering
up her scattered clothes, fully aware that
Lorenzo was watching her but not daring to look back
at him in case her resolve wasn’t able to withstand
her doing so.
Lorenzo lay on his bed and stared up at the ceiling.
The ache he could feel inside himself was just physical,
that was all. And the emotion burning inside him
was just furious anger that Jodie should dare to say
to him what she had. She meant nothing to him.
Nothing!
The emptiness of his bed without her was something
that he welcomed, rather than regretted. As he
would welcome the emptiness of his life once she had
gone from it, he assured himself fiercely.
The reason he had been so sexually aroused by her,
so sexually lost in the sweetness of her, was simply
that it had been too long since there had been a
woman in his bed. And that was a need he could
easily satisfy. Right now, if necessary, simply by
making a phone call. And if he couldn’t reach any of
the many women whom he knew would be pleased
to receive his summons — well, he knew, although not
from personal experience, that Florence, like any
other city, had its high-priced and high-class hookers,
women who knew how to please a man without making
any demands on him other than their fee.
But why pay a hooker when remembering one was
enough to cool his sexual desire? When he had first
met Caterina she had made no secret of the fact that
she had several rich lovers, even if later she had
claimed that it was not true and that he had misunderstood
her. And his mother, with the expensive gifts
she had received…a reward for her infidelity, even if
they had only been from one lover. His heart started
to thud angrily.
He got up off the bed. Five minutes later, standing
beneath the lash of the shower, he could feel his heartbeat
returning to normal.
What really infuriated him was that Jodie, whom
he had begun to consider someone whose thinking
was sound and rational, should start making such ridiculous
and unfounded accusations. How dared she<
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accuse him of being so emotionally damaged that he
wanted her to lie to him to reinforce his belief that
her sex could not be trusted? He had proved that he
trusted her, had talked to her about things that were
so close to his heart he had never discussed them with
anyone else. Did she really think that he would do
that and then try to create a reason to mistrust her? It
was totally illogical that he should do such a thing—
like a panicking child trying to protect itself from being
hurt because it feared to love.
After all, it wasn’t as though he was afraid he might
be falling in love with her and was fighting desperately
against doing so, was it? Was it?
He turned off the shower and reached for a towel.
CHAPTER TWELVE
THEY had been married for nearly a week, during
which time no mention had been made by either of
them of the night of their wedding. Lorenzo was icily
polite and indifferent towards her when they were together,
and Jodie had taken to spending so much time
sightseeing that at night she simply fell into an exhausted
sleep the moment she went to bed.
But now they were back at the Castillo, the final
paperwork having been dealt with to transfer its ownership
to Lorenzo.
"I have not forgotten that I still have to fulfil my
part of our bargain," he told Jodie crisply as they
crossed the Castillo’s courtyard. "I have put in hand
the necessary arrangements for us to fly to London at
the end of the week for your ex-fiance."s wedding. The
Cotswolds hotel I have booked us into is in a place
named Lower Slaughter?"
"Oh, yes. I know it," Jodie acknowledged. If it was
the hotel she thought it must be, it was very exclusive
and expensive.
"I thought you would want to keep some distance
between ourselves and your former home."
"Yes, I do," Jodie agreed colourlessly. She certainly
did not want anyone realising that she and her brand-
new husband were sleeping in separate rooms.
Especially not when she was going to be flaunting her
happily married state under everyone’s nose. She exhaled
hesitantly.
"I’ve been thinking," she told Lorenzo quietly. "I’m
not sure that It’s such a good idea for me to…to go
ahead with what I’d planned."
"But that was your whole purpose in agreeing to
marrying me."
"Yes, I know."
They had reached the hallway now, and Lorenzo
was frowning as he studied the untidy pile of suitcases
and boxes heaped in the middle of the floor.
"We"ll discuss this later," he told Jodie as an inner
door opened.
Caterina swept in, declaring dramatically, "So, you
have arrived to flaunt your triumph and throw me out,
have you? Well, You’re too late. I am leaving of my
own accord. You think you have gained a victory,
Lorenzo. But in truth you have gained nothing other
than this crumbling ruin and a wife you do not want.
And all for what? For the sake of some old paintings
and so that you can keep a promise made to an old
woman," she taunted him bitterly. "We could have had
so much together, but now it is too late. Ilya will be
here for me soon."
"Ilya?" Lorenzo questioned sharply.
"Yes. We met when he was interested in buying
this place. He has been a good…friend to me. And
now…" She pouted and then smiled rapaciously.
"You mean he’s your lover?" Lorenzo checked her
curtly.
"Why should I answer you? But, yes, we are lovers,
and we will be married once his divorce comes
through. He is sending a driver for me, and someone
to collect my things."
She turned and looked at Jodie. "Be careful that
Lorenzo doesn’t use you as he did me. And, if he
does, make sure that he doesn’t impregnate you.
Because he will force you to abort your child, just as
he forced me to abort mine."
Jodie could feel the blood leaving her face. She
looked wildly towards Lorenzo, expecting to hear him
deny Caterina’s horrific accusations, but instead he
simply turned on his heel and left.
"that’s not true," Jodie whispered. "It can’t possibly
be. Lorenzo would never—"
"What? Have you fallen in love with him already?"
Caterina mocked her. "You little fool. You mean
nothing to him, and you never will. And it is true.
Lorenzo forced me to abort my child. If you Don’t
believe me, go and ask him. He will not spare you
by lying to you about it. Not Lorenzo. His pride
wouldn’t let him." She started to laugh, stepping past
Jodie as a car swept into the courtyard.
Jodie had no idea how long she had been out here,
sitting alone in the Castillo garden, trying to cope
with the violence of her turbulent emotions.
It wasn’t true what Caterina had said to her, she
told herself stubbornly. She had not fallen in love
with Lorenzo. But she wanted him. Physical desire
was not love. But it was a manifestation of it. She
could not love a man who not only did not love her,
but who did not even recognise what love was. But
what if she did?
"It’s getting dark, and if you stay out here much
longer You’ll risk ending up with your leg aching."
She hadn’t heard Lorenzo come into the garden,
and automatically she moved deeper into the shadows,
because she was afraid of what he might read in
her expression. She tensed as he sat down beside her.
"You’re right. I’d better go in," she told him in a
thin, emotionless voice.
"Why Don’t you want to go back to England?"
"What?" Jodie looked at him blankly. She had almost
forgotten their earlier conversation, thanks to the
inner turmoil Caterina’s comments had caused her.
"There must be some reason," Lorenzo persisted.
"I’m not sure that It’s something that I want to do
any more," she admitted reluctantly. "It seemed a
good idea at the time, and…and it even gave me a
sense of purpose — something to focus on. But now…"
Now her old life seemed a million years away, and
she didn’t care what John and Louise did or thought,
because now… Because now what? A fear that she
didn’t want to give any room to was uncurling inside
her with all the clinging tenacity of a killer vine. Was
this seismic shift in her emotional focus because she
was falling in love with Lorenzo?
Falling in love? That implied that she was in the
middle of an act she could halt, she decided with relief,
clinging to that thought in desperation. And she
would halt it, she decided fiercely.
"I think we should go."
"Do you?" If she argued with him now, would he
start thinking that it was because she might be falling
in love with him? No way did she want that.
"Yes. I
t will help you to find closure and be a way
to draw a line under your relationship with both of
them. Then you will be able to move on."
"Mmm. I suppose You’re right."
"I know that I’m right," Lorenzo said. "I just
wish…"
"What? That you had married Caterina?"
"No," he denied sharply.
"Did you…? Was it…? Was it true what she said
about — about the baby?" Jodie whispered, unable to
stop herself from asking the question that had been
splintering and festering inside her since Caterina had
made her accusation.
"Yes," Lorenzo admitted heavily.
Jodie shuddered. "Your own child!" she protested
with revulsion. "How—?"
"No! Caterina was not… It was not my child. But
that does not diminish my guilt. I hadn’t thought…
That was the trouble. I didn’t think. I just assumed,
with the arrogance and stupidity of youth, that—" He
broke off and Jodie could see the tension in his jaw.
"Caterina and Gino had been engaged for about six
months when she boasted to me that she had a new
lover. She had never forgiven me for ending our brief
relationship, and I think she thought she could make
me jealous. She told me that she was to have his
child, but she had told Gino the child was his. I was
angry on behalf of my cousin, whom I knew loved
her deeply, with all the self-righteous anger of the
very young. I tried to force her hand. I told her she
must tell Gino the truth or I would do so myself. I
wanted Gino to know what she was — and, yes, it is
true I hoped he would end the engagement. For his
own sake. But instead of telling Gino the truth she
had her pregnancy terminated — and told Gino she had
lost the child. He was devastated, and immediately
insisted on marrying her. So, through my interference,
one life was lost and another destroyed."
Jodie had to swallow as she heard the raw emotion
in his voice. "You weren’t responsible."
"Yes, I was. If I had not interfered she would have
had the child."
"And she would have gone on lying to your
cousin."
"I tried to play at being God, and no man should
do that. I tried to control her behaviour because I had
not been able to control my mother"s. She left my
father and she left me, too, to be with her lover.
Caterina stayed with Gino, but, like my mother, she
sacrificed her child for her own ends. It felt like I had