Virgin for the Woodsman

by Eddie Cleveland

  “Smooth,” Sawyer laughs. “Hey, I have an idea, give me your phone and I’ll take a picture of this for you. I bet it’ll be a big hit with your online fans,” he laughs good-naturedly.

  “I’m good,” I laugh. “They can miss out on this one,” I try to roll over so I can push myself back up to my feet, but the deep snow has me rocking back and forth like a turtle on his shell.

  Sawyer laughs harder, I’d be annoyed if it didn’t make me so happy to hear him enjoy himself for once. “You know what? I thought it was a good time to take a break anyway.” He chuckles and cannonballs into the snow next to me. White powder billows up into a mushroom cloud above us. It seems appropriate given the nuclear level of heat growing between us.

  I giggle as he settles back in the snow with me.

  “I’ve gotta admit it, it makes a comfortable seat.” I nod at the snow.

  “Yeah, those must be hard to find with an ass like yours,” he muses. His eyes grow wide and his cheeks flush as he realizes the thought he just shared. “I mean, with your curves, not that I’ve been checking them out. Ugh,” he sputters, “I’m gonna shut up now,” he grimaces like his voice is physically painful to listen to.

  “It’s ok. I’m glad you noticed me,” I let my eyes travel over his body lacking all subtlety. Right now, I say, fuck being subtle.

  “So, the Catcher in the Rye is your favorite book?” He changes the subject.

  The distraction works, I can’t help the goofy grin overtaking my face. “It is,” I gush. “I love it. I bet I’ve read it a hundred times.”

  Sawyer looks at me closely. His face is a mixture of awe and cynicism. “Don’t get me wrong,” he chooses his words carefully, “but, you don’t exactly seem like a big believer in Holden Caulfield’s life philosophy,” he twists into the snow uncomfortably.

  “No,” I agree, “you aren’t wrong. I don’t agree even a little with his view on everyone being phony like that’s a bad thing. But let me guess,” I smile, “you’re a subscriber.”

  “Is it that obvious?” He teases me.

  “Yeah, the whole ‘hermit in the woods’ thing you’ve got going on is a dead giveaway,” I giggle like I’ve had too much to drink. I feel that way too. Like a drunk flush has overtaken my senses and I’m indulging in my euphoria.

  I lie back in the cold snow and enjoy the sensation against my skin. When is the last time I just enjoyed the outdoors? When is the last time I talked to someone about a book? I try not to let the thoughts rain on this moment with depression, instead revelling in the fact that I’m doing both now.

  “Ahhh, I thought I was more of a mysterious stranger than a hermit. I guess I’ll have to work on my brand,” for once his words don’t have any barbs. It’s refreshing to have a lighthearted conversation with him. I love that he can be self-deprecating instead of always exchanging insults.

  “I can see that. Mysterious stranger,” I repeat his preferred label. “Whatever it is, it doesn’t surprise me you’re a Holden Caulfield fan,” I muse.

  “So, what’s your take on the book then?” He pressures me.

  “Like what message do I get from it?” I flutter my eyelashes at him.

  “Yeah.”

  “I think Holden is right, there’s a whole lot of fake people out in the world,” I explain.

  “Especially now,” Sawyer interrupts.

  “Maybe. But the thing I think most people don’t see is you need to be a bit of a fake to get by. Ever heard of ‘fake it till you make it?’” I think back on how I had to do just that. I had to change my life. And it worked.

  “That’s the exact opposite message you’re supposed to get from that novel,” he laughs.

  “That might be true,” I admit, “but guess what? Holden was the same holier-than-thou teenager who looked down on being phony so much that he ended up writing his book from a mental institution.” I throw out some facts most lovers of the book want to ignore. “Maybe if he would’ve learned to play nice, he would’ve had a happier life,” I counter.

  “Fair enough,” the glint in Sawyer’s eyes tells me he doesn’t believe a word coming out of my mouth. But I know better. “Here, let me give you a hand,” he stands up and towers over me, holding out his palm. I surrender and reach up, grabbing him as he plucks me out of the snow like a feather.

  I fall forward against his chest and his deep chuckle fades as he looks down at me. I look at his lips, begging them to kiss me without saying a word. My heart beats faster and blood rushes in my ears as he leans over, closer. He inches toward me and I close my eyes, ready to feel his lips on mine.

  Sawyer holds me tight with one arm and twists to the side, yanking the ax out of the stump with his free hand. So much for a kiss, he was just trying to retrieve his tool. I blink with surprise, but don’t say a word.

  “Don’t worry, we’ve got enough cut up here to get through the rest of today,” he reassures me softly, slinging the ax over his shoulder.

  “Oh, good,” I manage to say.

  “We should get back inside, it’s getting bad out here again,” he nods over my head at the increasing snowfall.

  To be honest, I hadn’t noticed. Nor, do I care. However, I’m not going to tell him that.

  “Sure,” I agree, stepping back from his embrace. I grab some wood that he cut and pile it onto my arms. “I’ll help you bring this in then,” I stack it against my forearm.

  “I don’t know how much more help I can take,” he laughs.

  I stick my tongue out at him and scrunch up my nose.

  “There you go, the perfect profile picture,” he teases me.

  “Whatever,” I roll my eyes, but I don’t really mind. As we walk back to the cabin, I realize that I haven’t even checked my phone for a signal yet today. I guess I’ve been too busy living in the moment to think about it. Not to mention the giant, hot distraction I’m following back inside.

  I’ve never been around anyone who could make me forget about my Instagram account for… well, ever. As I try to hop into each of Sawyer’s wide footsteps, I realize that I’m happy he’s distracted me from the online world today. I’m enjoying the distraction. I’m enjoying his company. I look up at the fat snowflakes tumbling down from the sky and realize that I’m even enjoying being trapped in this terrible weather with him.

  12

  Sawyer

  I open the door and let Ashley pass through first, watching as she walks over to the side of the fireplace and dumps her armful of wood on the floor. I kick my boots on the side of the cabin and follow her through the door. She’s already removing her coat and hat, transforming from the wounded bear cub I thought I saw a couple of nights ago into a sexy woman. I can’t help but smirk when I see my plaid shirt hanging on her like a sheet. I thought she had been tying it up at the waist as some kind of shallow fashion thing, not out of necessity. I let my eyes slowly travel down over her small frame, she can’t be more than five foot four. The hem of my shirt is almost touching her knees.

  Ashley doesn’t move, she looks at me like she’s waiting for something. Waiting for me to talk to her, to hold her, to kiss her.

  That’s what she wanted. I could feel it when I held her outside. She felt so perfect in my arms, and I saw her puckered up, pink lips transform into downturned disappointment.

  Trust me, no one was more disappointed than me.

  I haven’t been with a woman in over four years. In my early twenties, I thought little of settling down. Not when there were so many beautiful young ladies that came into the family restaurant every night. My parents had a strict rule: stay away from the girls that were on staff. Any other women who decided to enjoy some haute Italian cuisine and maybe wanted to sample the young aspiring chef for dessert, were all fair game. It certainly felt like a game.

  I close my eyes and the vivid colors of the family restaurant come alive in my mind. I can almost smell the young garlic chives and basil we had growing by the window. I was never one to hunt for one night stands, my preference w
as to enjoy a woman, date her, and savor her. However, they happened. My father would smile and toss his arm around my shoulder with pride. “Now is the time to be young, have fun!” He’d boom in his deep baritone. “That’s how you’ll bring us home the prettiest daughter-in-law. You have to experience life and then you’ll know what to look for in love. That’s how I met your mother!”

  My mother preferred to see me as less of a player, she used to call me ‘little Romeo.’ My older brother was ‘big Romeo’ and already engaged to a girl my parents were crazy about.

  It was a great life, a great family, and now it’s a tremendous hole in my heart that has never healed.

  I tuck away the memory, determined to bury it far from my emotions. I’ve spilled the tears, I’ve exploded with the rage, and I’ve aimlessly reeled with the loss. Now isn’t the time to relive it all. Just the good parts.

  I focus on Ashley, bent over at the waist as she piles the split logs into some kind of order under the window. In my mind, I walk over to her, slide my fingers under the waist of the pants I lent her, and ease them down over her large bottom before dropping to my knees and eating her pussy from behind, while she stays exactly how she’s standing now.

  It’s a welcome distraction from the hauntings of my past. However, my throbbing cock and wild thoughts come with their own problems. Outside, she wanted me to kiss her. I wanted it too, but if I did, I’m not sure I could trust myself to stop at a kiss. I’m a man of restraint. There’s no way you can live off the grid for as long as I have without self-discipline, but I’d be a fucking liar if I said I trust myself to show any with her.

  She might have wanted a simple kiss, but once the lid is cracked on Pandora’s Box, there’s no telling what will happen.

  “Here, let me help you with that,” I offer, realizing that I’m still rooted to the same spot. I walk beside her and add the wood I’ve been carrying to her modest pile. Bump is more like it. Still, it’s nice that she’s actually helping out now instead of being a prissy little princess.

  “Thanks,” she smiles up at me and her beauty knocks the air out of my lungs. I hated how she looked with all that makeup on before. It’s worn away now, leaving her natural rosy hue shining through on her cheeks. Instead of the severe, blood red lipstick she had painted on a couple of nights ago, now her full lips are a sweet shade of pink.

  “No problem,” my voice comes out gravelly and I clear my throat.

  “Ugh,” Ashley crinkles her nose and looks down at her hands. “I’m so dirty,” she sounds as though the tiny flecks of broken bark covering her hands are actually making her sad.

  So much for her being over the prissy princess thing.

  “You’re not dirty, it brushes right off,” I grab her hands and rub mine over them, removing the debris.

  She looks up at me, her wide, blue eyes locking on mine. “It’s not just that. It’s just, I’m used to taking a shower every day and baby wipes just aren’t the same. I’m starting to feel gross.” Her eyes flash as if she just had an epiphany and she quickly looks down at the floor, “You probably think I’m disgusting,” she whispers, as if she’s finally understanding the reason I haven’t kissed her.

  “Listen to me,” I grab her chin between my finger and thumb and pull her face back up to meet mine, “you couldn’t be more wrong if you tried.” I try to conceal the anger tinging my voice. The fire that’s boiling up from my belly because somewhere, somehow, some piece of shit made this girl feel like she wasn’t enough. “I hated all that crap you had on your face before. You’re beautiful without it. More beautiful,” I stress. “Your hair looks better down and wild. And, yeah, I didn’t mind the bikini on you, but you still look just as good in my clothes.”

  Her lips curve up into a smile and the storm in her eyes begins to subside. “Thank you,” she murmurs.

  “Don’t thank me for telling you the truth. For saving your life, sure. For cooking your supper, of course. But not for telling you what you should’ve known all along. What any supposed man in your life should have been making you feel every fucking day.” I hover over her; my lips are only a few inches from hers. Ashley’s chest is rising and falling quickly. I close the space between us and lean into her, kissing her soft lips hungrily. I run my hand up her back and let my fingers explore her long hair as my tongue finds hers. Ashley kisses me back like she’s been aching for this. We’re intertwined in each other like a couple of lost soulmates, reunited after decades apart.

  My cock grows hard against my zipper, painfully reminding me that if I don’t put some space between us, I’m going to tear my clothes off her body and fill her pussy as I fuck her against every surface in this place.

  I drop my hand from her hair and step back. Ashley looks up at me, her eyes hooded with desire. I don’t know if she understands what she’s trying to unleash. I don’t think she’s ready.

  “I should get back to work,” I murmur without moving an inch from her.

  “Please,” her voice is ragged with desire. Her pupils are dilated like she just got high. Who knows, maybe she is. I feel like I might be after that kiss.

  “Don’t go. I need you.”

  Fuck self-discipline.

  13

  Sawyer

  I rake my fingers down her back until they reach the curve of her ass. I dig my digits under her perfect bubble butt and grab her flesh hard, like I’m claiming it. The bruise my desperation is sure to leave on her skin will be my mark.

  I grind my throbbing cock against the heat of her pussy and possess her mouth with my tongue. My senses are all firing at once, except common sense. That guy made a run for the snow.

  “I want you so bad,” Ashley whispers against my lips. My heart pounds in my chest like a woodpecker drilling a hole in a tree. It’s been too long since I’ve had a woman. She doesn’t know the beast she’s trying to unleash on her body. She doesn’t understand the rabid need coursing through my veins.

  “This is a bad idea,” I warn her, my voice raw and hoarse.

  “Maybe that’s what I want,” she looks up at me with her wide, blue eyes. The innocence I see flickering over them tells me she has no idea what she wants. I’m not under some old-fashioned illusion that she’s inexperienced. Fuck, she was running away from her fiancé, wasn’t she? I know full well she’s had other men. But I can guarantee that no man has possessed her, has owned every inch of her creamy skin, has destroyed her like I’m going to.

  “You’re confused and lost. You don’t have any idea what you want,” her hips shiver against mine as I rub my cock over her heat. Her mind might not be certain about what she wants, but her body is.

  She pants in my ear and squeezes her eyes shut, like just rubbing myself against her is almost enough to make her cum. Proving my point that she’s not ready for what a feral man, after years of living off-grid, is going to do to her.

  That sweet, little pussy doesn’t stand a chance. After I fuck her, no cock will be good enough for her again. None but mine.

  “I want you, Sawyer. Please, don’t make me beg.” She breathes the words and flutters her heavy eyelids open at me. The blue of her eyes has transformed from the serene sky on a spring morning to the wild, crashing waves of the ocean. I can see her need tossing about on those stormy seas. I can see the innocent girl disappear as she embraces her fate.

  I bury my fingers in the long tendrils of her hair and yank her head over roughly. Ashley moans, she fucking moans like I just licked her pussy. I pull her earlobe inside my lips and flicker my tongue over the soft flesh then drag a wet trail over her smooth neck down to her collarbone, possessing her one inch at a time.

  “If you want this, there’s no going back, Ashley. I will own every part of you. I’ll claim you as mine. You might walk out of these woods, you might never come back, but you’ll spend the rest of your life unhappy and unsatisfied with what you’ll find out there. Once I have you, I won’t just own your body, I will be in your mind, and I’ll never let go.” I warn her.

>   Ashley twists in my hand, pulling her hair even tighter against my fist and smiles. “Fuck me, Sawyer. I want to feel you,” she arches her back and pleads with me.

  I untangle my hand from her hair and slide my fingers under the edge of her shirt. My shirt, but there’s no denying it looks better on her. I don’t bother with the buttons down the front, instead sliding it up over her arms, and discarding it on the floor. I know my beard must be rough against her skin, but my lips are soft and I kiss a path to her perfect tits, taking a rosy nipple into my mouth. I nip at her tender flesh before suckling it softly. Her nipple peaks in my mouth and she lifts her full breast as she throws back her shoulders, like she wants me to devour her breasts.

  I tug her pants down and am pleased when they fall from her legs. She steps out of the fabric pools, never breaking my claim to her breasts.

  I step back, admiring her young, soft curves. The heavy cup of her breasts over her flat belly that flares out into her wide hips. They have to be wide for that big, beautiful ass of hers. It’s not hard to imagine how she’s made a living teasing people with pictures of her huge bubble butt. My eyes skim over her shaved pussy and I lick my lips hungrily. I drop to my haunches and grab her hips in my hands, guiding her to my face. I need to taste her. To feel her desire coat my tongue. Beads of her nectar at her entrance betray her need. I swipe my tongue over her pink, swollen lips, then bury it inside her slit.

  “Oh, Sawyer!” She cries out to the ceiling and leans into my desperate mouth. I part her smooth lips and hold her tight against my face as I tease her clit with an assault from my mouth. I suck her sensitive nub, pulling it in just past my lips and mercilessly thrash my tongue over it. She tastes like a sweet summer pie of the freshest berries picked just as the sun ripened them to perfection.