All I Ever Wanted

by Emma Quinn

  “Oh that’s okay, I wouldn’t leave you like that. I still want to protect you.”

  Faye took the direction towards her dorm room and I followed her close behind. There wasn’t a chance in hell that I would leave her on her own now. Whether she hated me or not, I wanted to keep her safe. It was dark, and as we’d already seen, dangerous. I couldn’t risk her at all.

  “That’s very kind of you…” Faye sounded unsure as she spoke. “I’m sure your girlfriend must be very proud of you. To have someone who… who stands up for honor and that.”

  “Huh? Girlfriend? What on Earth are you talking about? I don’t have a girlfriend?”

  “It’s okay, I do know about her.” She tried to sound carefree but I got the sense that there was some real pain behind her words. What did that mean? “Kevin told me. Sierra, right?”

  “Oh no, Sierra is just a friend,” I reassured her right away. “I know that probably sounds crazy, especially since she was holding my hand the other day but she was just helping me out.”

  “I saw you with her, hugging,” she continued, completely ignoring me. “On Wednesday. She didn’t look like much of a friend then. You don’t have to lie to me. It’s okay, I understand.”

  “On Wednesday? I wasn’t with Sierra on Wednesday.” I racked my brain, trying to work out what she could have possibly seen. “My sister, Maddie, came to visit on Wednesday. Oh and she had my cousin with her!” All of a sudden it came flooding back. “Yeah Polly is getting married in six months and she wanted to come and tell me all about it. She wanted to invite me. That must be who you saw me with. I hugged her just before she left. Maddie was near us but talking to Simon.”

  “Your cousin?” Faye gave me a disbelieving look. “Are you serious?”

  I grabbed out my cell phone and flicked through the pictures until I found her. “This is Polly.” Realization flooded her face which proved to me that this was who she saw. Thank God, I’d almost forgotten that they even came to visit it was for such a short time. It was just typical that Faye saw us and got the wrong idea. It was bloody ridiculous. “And this is Sierra.”

  “Oh! She’s the girl that Iain has a thing for. I thought they were hooking up…”

  “I hope they are,” I laughed. “I know that Sierra really likes him so that’s good!”

  Faye turned just as we reached the outside of her building and she stared up at me. “So, you really don’t have a girlfriend? You haven’t been hooking up with Sierra since we were together.”

  “I haven’t been hooking up with anyone.” I was so glad that I could say that and be honest. “Have you? Kevin’s been suggesting that all sorts of things have been happening…”

  “Come on, I think you can tell that nothing happened.” She bit down on her bottom lip before speaking out once more. “Only that dumb ass kiss which I only did to make you jealous.”

  Even though I sort of knew this could be the case, it felt good to hear her say it. I was so glad that she didn’t want anything to do with Kevin, especially now. Although I still didn’t know where that left us. She could still not want me, it wasn’t a case of one or the other.

  “Sorry for all the game playing,” Faye continued. “I never meant for it to be like that between me and you. I hope you can tell that I’m not experienced enough in the romance department for love games. I didn’t ever want to hurt you, I was just hurting myself and I thought all sorts of things.”

  “I get it,” I replied sadly. “I didn’t ever want to hurt you, either. I liked you… I like you, more than I have done anyone else before and I guess that sent me a little crazy.” When Faye didn’t reply I realized that too much had happened for us to ever get things back to how they were. It was a shame, but what could I do? “It’s been good to know you anyway, Faye. I’m sorry that there’s so much water under the bridge. Of course I wish things could be different, but I completely get it.”

  Faye smiled at me serenely, then she took a step closer to me. I offered her my cheek, waiting for a sweet, chaste goodbye kiss, but I didn’t get that. She grabbed my cheeks and pulled my face in to hers. Then she gave me the most gorgeous, loving kiss I’d ever had. It took my breath away.

  “I’m not done with you yet,” she murmured to me. “And I don’t think you are with me, either. You’re single, I’m single… why not give us a go?”

  “Are you serious?” I asked her in shock. “You really want to?”

  “Of course I do. The question is, do you?”

  I almost laughed. “That’s the craziest question ever. I’ve wanted to from the start. You’re the one who’s been resisting me.”

  Faye grabbed me and she kissed me hard. “Well, I’m not resisting you anymore, so let’s see what happens, shall we?”

  I liked the sound of that, I liked it a whole lot!

  24

  Faye

  “S

  o, what do we do now?” I asked Angelo with a chuckle. What had started out as the worst night of my life had actually become the best. After all this time, after all the mess that we’d made of things, me and Angelo were finally going to give it a go. It was terrifying and exciting all at once.

  “What do you want to do?” Angelo glanced up towards my bedroom which sent a shiver up and down my spine. I really wanted to be with him in that way, but it wasn’t going to be possible.

  “Unfortunately, Tia is up there.” I swung his hands gently. “Otherwise we could.”

  “Yeah, my room is occupied as well. Where can we get some alone time?” As Angelo paused thoughtfully I stared into his gorgeous warm eyes. Everything that had happened had been a misunderstanding, he really did like me. I could hardly stand it. “Oh, I know. My car.”

  “You have a car?” Hardly anyone bothered to have one here. The car park was empty.

  “I do, I brought it here to travel between my college and Maddie’s but admittedly it isn’t something I do very often. Do you want to go and see it? It’s not the best car, but…”

  “That sounds great!” I answered, maybe a little too enthusiastically. “I mean, I’d like to see it.”

  We walked through the brisk cold night air, hand in hand like a real couple. It felt so good to actually be this way with Angelo, I could so clearly see now that he was the one for me. If only I’d stayed behind when we slept together, then all of this could be avoided. But we were here now, we’d made it. That was the main thing. I didn’t want to get lost in all the ‘what ifs’.

  “Is this your car?” I asked as we reached an innocuous looking navy blue vehicle. “I wasn’t expecting something so… normal looking. I thought you’d have something more flash.”

  “I don’t know what impression you have of me,” Angelo chuckled. “But I’m honestly not like that.”

  He unlocked the car and we got inside, but not in the front seats like I was expecting. Angelo slid into the back, so I did the same. There, he wrapped one arm around me and he pulled me close to him. As I dipped under his arm pit and I snuggled against his chest, I felt whole, like this was exactly where I was supposed to be. I could hear his slightly ragged breaths and the thump of his heart.

  “This is nice,” I murmured, while tilting up my head to look at him. “I’m glad we’re here.”

  Angelo brought his head down to connect his lips with mine in a sweet gesture. He kissed me softly, letting the love flow between us and as he did my heart soared and warmed up. I felt more connected to him than I’d ever done anyone else in my whole damn life. It was as if our souls were connected on a deeper level. I twisted my body around to deepen the kiss, to dart my tongue into his mouth.

  “Mmm,” Angelo moaned into my mouth, breathing all over my hyper sensitive lips. “Oh you taste really good, Faye.”

  Electricity buzzed, chemistry sizzled, all of a sudden the inside of the car completely steamed up just like my insides. I no longer cared where I was, I wanted Angelo and I wanted him now. I wasn’t sure that I could tell him, so I said it with my actions instead. I slid my ha
nd down his body, all the way to her crotch. I could feel a thick, throbbing erection there, which suggested he felt just as desperate and needy as I did. I wanted him everywhere, and he did me.

  I kissed Angelo passionately as I fiddled with the buckle of his trousers. It was challenging, but eventually they sprung apart which allowed me to dip my hand into his boxers, to feel the heat from his shaft. I wrapped my fingers around him and I pumped my fist up and sown, enjoying the wonderous moans and groans flying past his lips. The more I turned him on, the hornier I felt, I could barely stand it any longer if I didn’t have him soon I would explode with need!

  “Oh, Faye, that feels…” he stuttered and stammered to get those words out. “Too good.”

  I pushed his body back and he went willingly until he pressed his back up against the door, dragging his trousers and boxers around to his knees as he went. I moved further apart to give me as much room as I could and I dipped my head down towards him. I pressed kisses up and down his length, salivating with a desire to taste him. I wanted to feel him between my lips, to know him in a new way.

  Angelo’s body shuddered violently as I flicked my tongue out to lick him, which encouraged me to go further, so I angled him perfectly and I wrapped my lips around him. I slid him into my mouth, pushing him all the way until he hit the back of my throat. I gagged a little, but it wasn’t a bad feeling.

  “Oh fucking hell, Faye,” Angelo groaned as he knotted his hands up into my hair. He tugged lightly every time the desire got the better of him. “You’re too much. You’re killing me.”

  Excitement built, I squeezed my legs together to try and control the pulsing that dampened my panties, but it did nothing to calm me down. The more I tasted Angelo, the more I ran my mouth all over him, the increasing vibration in my body reached an unbearable level.

  In the end I couldn’t take in anymore, so in an uncharacteristic manner, I pulled my head away from Angelo and I desperately tugged my own clothing off. It was as if an animal had been unleashed in me and I couldn’t contain myself any longer. I was a mess, but fierce and goddess like, it felt amazing.

  “What am I going to do with you?” Angelo growled as he climbed over me. His flushed skin emanated a heat so intense that I already wanted to scream. “I must be the luckiest son of a bitch alive.”

  I hooked my hands around his neck and kissed his passionately as he slid on a condom. I braced and arched my back as I prepared myself for that wonderful sensation of him thrusting.

  He stayed where he was for a few moments, teasing my entrance as he rested his forehead against mine. He stared deeply into my eyes and as I gazed right back at him I thought I could sense something dangerously close to love there. Of course that was me getting ahead of myself, we hadn’t been in each other’s lives anywhere near long enough to actually be in love, but it was coming, I felt certain of it. This was different, so different to what I shared with Tyler. I already felt much safer in it. It was so hard for me to trust, but for Angelo I was willing to put myself out on the line.

  “You are amazing,” he murmured seductively as he slid right into me. I gasped as he filled me up, especially as his velvety fingers were all over my back making me shiver. We might have been in the back of his car, but with Angelo I felt like I was a princess in a palace. He had this way of making everything feel romantic and special. It must have been the blissful expression on his face.

  It didn’t take long for my head to spin. I tossed it back and slid my eyes closed as the hot pool of pleasure travelled up my body. It was like a storm brewing, or a whirlwind travelling upwards. It moved too quickly, I wanted to slow it down to simply enjoy the anticipation of what was to come, but I couldn’t. The orgasm was coming for me at a rapid pace no matter what I wanted.

  “Oh shit, Angelo,” I groaned as the bliss reached its tipping point. “Oh my God.”

  I tiptoed on the knife edge of desire, before falling head first into the abyss of pleasure. The orgasm crashed over me in never ending waves, rolling over and over me until I couldn’t take it anymore. My nails dug into Angelo’s back, I probably scratched him as my body buckled and writhed, but I couldn’t seem to help myself. In the midst of the bliss, I barely knew who I was anymore, never mind what I was doing. I caved to the dragon inside me completely and became a slave to the sensations.

  As the bliss got to Angelo as well, I kissed him hard to swallow up his yells. He cried out into his mouth which allowed me to feel the power of his orgasm and I loved it. This was even better than the first time we were together because I knew where I stood now. He wanted to be with me, I wasn’t just another notch on his bed post, which was incredible. I couldn’t get over how much he liked me.

  “Wow, that was really something,” Angelo gasped as we collapsed next to one another on the back seat. “I certainly didn’t expect that to happen when we got into my car. It’s finally been christened!”

  I laughed, glad that he hadn’t slept with anyone else in his vehicle because that made it more special to me and him. Yes, he’d been around and sowed his wild oats, but I got more of him, another side that he kept from others. I felt like I knew the deeper him that no one else ever got.

  “I know what you mean.” I paused only to drag my clothes back on. “But I don’t think I’m ready to leave your car yet. Do you think we can just sit in here and stare up at the stars?”

  I cringed a little, wondering what had made me say that. I didn’t want Angelo to think that I was cheesy and a little weird … but thankfully he nodded to agree with me.

  “Yeah, that sounds amazing. I’m not ready to go back to real life yet.”

  We snuggled back in together and stared up at the sky through the sun roof in Angelo’s car, and as we did I felt the most content ever. I inhaled deeply, loving the way that his musky scent filled my nostrils completely. My pheromones were on fire, I felt attracted to him in every way possible. It was pretty much a chemical need, something so ingrained in my body that it wasn’t under my control.

  “Maddie is going to be so happy that I finally manned up and spoke to you,” Angelo told me. “She’s been telling me that communication is key all along. I hate to admit that she’s right…”

  “You’re going to have to this time,” I warned him. “Because she’s right. A lot could have been solved quicker if we’d just talked to each other. Think about it. It makes so much sense.”

  “Easier said than done,” he grumbled. “But I suppose so.”

  He was right about that, but I hoped we’d both learned out lesson from everything that had happened. After all, Angelo would finish college before me, he’d be headed out into the big wide world a whole year before me. Maybe that would be the thing that tore us apart, but if we communicated with each other then maybe we could survive it. It’d all depend on Angelo’s career, but I didn’t want to get ahead of myself. Maybe it would be better if I focused on the here and now and took things one day at a time.

  25

  Angelo

  O

  h my God, she’s amazing, I thought happily to myself as I curled my fingers around the edge of my chair. She’s freaking nailing it! Okay, so I hadn’t ever seen a performance of Romeo and Juliet before and I didn’t know much about it, but I could tell that Faye was someone else on stage. She came to life, and everyone kept laughing appreciatively at her which suggested that she was amazing.

  I turned to look at her friends next to me; Tia, Rhiannon, and Dan, and they were all grinning with shining pride in their eyes. She was lucky to have them, as was I these days. It had taken a while for them to accept me, but we were there now. Then on the other side of me, Sierra gave a similar look towards the stage. Mind you, that could’ve been at her boyfriend, Iain, but I took it as a good sign all the same. I’d heard her laughing at a few of Faye’s jokes, so that was awesome.

  “She’s so good,” Sierra hissed as she saw me looking at her. “They all are, aren’t they?”

  “Sure are!” I was glad that I’d push
ed Faye into this, she was a natural. Even if it wasn’t ever something that she pursued, it was good for her to have this experience. She’d spent too much time hiding behind the camera, it was good to see her in the spotlight, where she’d wanted to be from a very young age. I hope it showed her how worthy she was. Even if she kept it as a hobby.

  But that wasn’t the only thing that had me excited. Of course I felt very pleased for Faye, I was probably more nervous than her when it came to opening night – not that I needed to be, as I could see now – but there was more. I had some news of my own and I couldn’t wait to share it with her.

  I thought about the secret meeting that I’d had today and the paper work that I’d signed at the end of it and it made my heart flutter with excitement. Thank goodness I’d started taking my future seriously when I did, it gave me options, and allowed me to pick the choice that was best for me all round. Not only would it lead to an amazing career, it meant I could keep the rest of my life as well.

  I wasn’t sure when I managed to get so lucky, but I was so glad for it. Maybe it was meeting Faye that had turned things around for me. That chance meeting in the library had changed it all. I wasn’t ready for it, I certainly wasn’t ready for her, but she’d come for me all the same.

  Someone squeezed my shoulder from behind and I turned to see Maddie and Polly grinning wildly at the stage. They’d jumped at the chance to come and support Faye, and I already knew that Polly wanted to officially invite her to her wedding as my plus one. We’d really been accepted into one another’s lives… the next step would be meeting the parents, but I didn’t think that either of us were in a mad hurry to do that. That could come whenever it happened.

  I guess the only thing that had been a thorn in our sides for a while was Kevin. He didn’t like anything that had happened on that night, the worst and best night of my life, so he tried his hardest to cause trouble. Unfortunately, because I’d punched him in the face, he almost did. No college would accept violence no matter what the circumstances, and since there wasn’t any evidence of what he’d done to Faye it was a real ‘he said she said’ situation. It didn’t help that Faye was my girlfriend by the point because some people assumed she’d say anything to keep me from getting booted out.