Collected Short Fiction (Jerry eBooks)

by Rosel G Brown

  It was a check for five million dollars.

  “You won,” he told me. “Or lost, as the case may be.”

  I just looked at him.

  “I was holding it in trust for you,” the Cha’n explained, “in accordance with your Uncle Isadore’s last wishes.”

  I blew a perfect smoke ring, let it float before my face for a perfect moment, and then asked, “And suppose I had lost? Or won, as the case may be?”

  “I was to save it to try on your son, the gods permitting you have one.”

  “If necessary,” I told him, “I’ll try it on him myself, O Cha’n of the Seven Planets and the Four Hundred Moons.”

  “Call me Charlie,” he said.

  1959

  VIRGIN GROUND

  Annie signed on a bride ship for Mars. There were forty brides. And when she got there, thirty-nine men were waiting.

  THE PILOT shoved open the airlock and kicked the stairs down.

  “Okay, girls. Carry your suitcases and I’ll give each of you an oxygen mask as you go out. The air’s been breathable for fifteen years, but it’s still thin to newcomers. If you feel dizzy, take a whiff of oxygen.”

  The forty women just stood there and looked at each other. Nobody wanted to be first.

  Annie moved forward, her bulky suitcase practically floating in her hand. She was a big woman with that wholesome expression which some women have to substitute for sex appeal. She’d made a great senior leader at summer camps.

  “I’ll go first,” she said, grinning confidence into the others. “I’m not likely to bring out the beast in them.” She waved herself out, letting the grin set and jell.

  It was odd to feel light. She’d felt too heavy as far back as she could remember. Not fat heavy. Bone heavy.

  The sweat on her face dried suddenly. She could feel it, like something being peeled off her skin. Arid climate.

  It was cold. But she had the warmth to meet it.

  There they were! Forty men. There were supposed to be forty. What if one of them had died! Who would go back?

  “Not me,” Annie prayed to herself. “Dear God, not me.” She tried to count them. But they moved around so!

  They were looking at something. Not Annie. The girl coming down the ramp behind Annie.

  It was Sally, with the blonde hair on her shoulders. That’s all they’d be able to see from there. The blonde hair.

  But a man was coming forward. He had a tam-like hat pulled low to good-humored eyes, and an easy stride.

  “Wait, Ben,” one of the other men said. “See the others.”

  “I pulled first, didn’t I?”

  “Yeah. But you ain’t seen but two yet.”

  “I want that blonde one. Let Gary see the others.”

  And he led Sally away.

  He didn’t feel her muscles or look at her teeth or measure her pelvic span.

  After Sally came Nora. Nora giggled and waved, making a shape under the shapeless clothes. Wasn’t that just like Nora? Okay. So she was cute.

  Second man took Nora. He didn’t wait for the others.

  Third man took Regina. Regina looked scared, but you could see those big cow eyes a mile off. Regina obviously needed somebody to protect her.

  The other girls came out. Annie counted and her heart hit bottom. Someone was going to be left over.

  Four women, three men. They all felt embarrassed. It was the kind of thing the colonists would talk about for years. Who was last. Who was second to last. Spiteful people would remember, and in a tight little community, spite took root and throve on the least misinterpreted expression or—But then, this wouldn’t be a tight little community, Annie remembered. The lichen farms were spread out over the whole temperate belt of the world. Because the lichens were grown only on hills, where the sand would not cover them. And because they did a more efficient job of oxygenating the atmosphere when they were spread over a wide area.

  One man, hat in hand, even in the cold. A little shriveled man with a spike of dust-colored hair, but kind-looking.

  “Aw . . .” he drawled in embarrassment. He clicked his tongue.

  “You’re both probably too good for somebody like me. I don’t know. Both fine women.”

  The two women stood in silence. “What’s your name?”

  “Annie.”

  “Mary.”

  “Mary? My sister’s named Mary. Fine woman.” He took Mary’s hand. “No disrespect to you, Annie.”

  They were all gone.

  “I could take you on my Venus run,” the pilot said. He, too, was embarrassed. “But I’m afraid I’ll have a full ship after that. Unless you can buy the weight and space. I’d be glad to take you free. But the company . . .”

  Annie’s eyes were full but she wasn’t going to let them spill.

  Sally brought Ben by, already looking self-consciously married.

  “I’m sorry, honey,” she said. “Look, Annie, if you want to come stay with us until another shipment of pioneers come to break ground, you’re welcome. Maybe you’d—er—find one of them you liked.”

  It was a gesture of kindness, of course, but it made Annie’s eyes spill. She turned her head away, toward the red hills. Red and the cultivated ones green. Christmas colors.

  “Sure,” Ben said. “Swell. Any friend of Sally’s is a friend of mine.” And the way they looked at each other made Annie’s heart lurch.

  “Thanks, kids,” she said. “But I don’t believe I’ll try it. And don’t worry. This isn’t the first time I’ve been stood up.”

  “Are you coming?” the pilot shouted across the field. “Hate to rush you, but I’ve got a schedule to meet.”

  Was she coming? What else could she do?

  “What happened to him, Ben?” Annie asked. “My—the other man that should have been here.”

  Ben worried a hole in the sand with one foot and cleared his throat. “He stayed home.”

  “You mean he’s alive! Here?”

  “Well . . . yes. But he didn’t—”

  “Never mind. I don’t need anybody to strum a guitar under my window. If he couldn’t get away from the farm today I can certainly go to him. I’ve got a pair of legs that’ll walk around the world.”

  “You coming?” the pilot shouted. “No!” Annie cried. “I live here.” The spaceship took off, a phoenix rising from the flames.

  Ben was shuffling his feet, hands in his pockets. “We’d be proud to have you stay with us, Annie.”

  “Oh, cut it out, Ben. I’m no hothouse rose. Just tell me which way and I’ll find my own farm.” She paused, trying to guess his thoughts.

  “You think he might be disappointed when he sees me? Is that it, Ben? I know I’m no pinup girl. But I’m a worker and a breeder. He’ll see it. In the end, that’s what’s going to count.”

  Ben was still making holes in the sand with his feet, trying to say something.

  “Please don’t worry,” Annie went on, “your friend won’t be sorry. If he doesn’t want to marry me right away—okay. I can understand it. But I can give him a chance to watch me work.”

  “That isn’t it,” Ben said finally.

  “I think you look fine, Annie. It’s—it’s any woman. He told them not to send a wife for him. Any woman.

  “But that’s ridiculous. He knows the laws. Five years and then a wife. Why did he stake out in the first place?”

  “That was before,” Ben answered.

  “Before what?”

  “Aw, it’s not for me to say. Why don’t you just forget Bradman. He’s a good enough guy. But not for you. You come—”

  “Which way and how far?”

  Ben looked at her hard. “Okay. On Mars your life is your own.” He pointed. “Second farmbubble you come to. And you’d better hurry. It ought to take eight hours and night falls like a ton of bricks here.”

  Annie made it in seven. Easy.

  SHE WENT up to the transparent hemisphere. He was inside working. She shouted, but if he heard her he didn’t look
up.

  She went to the flap that must be the door. There wasn’t anything to knock on, so she opened the flap and walked in.

  There was nothing in the room but a cot, kitchen equipment and lichen, growing on a number of tables. The air was richer than outside and Annie breathed it thirstily.

  “I’m Annie Strug,” she said, smiling and wishing it wasn’t such an ugly name.

  He glanced up, angry blue eyes under a growth of black hair. He didn’t say a word.

  Annie set her suitcase down and looked out at the green growth on the hills.

  “Look, Mr. Bradman,” she cried suddenly, pointing a spatulate finger to the western horizon. “What in the name of heaven is that?” There was a catch of fright in her voice.

  “We don’t say ‘mister’ on Mars,” he said reluctantly. “Brady. But you don’t have to call me anything because you’re leaving soon.” He was a big, arid man with a sandy voice. But his hands, as he stripped the lumpy brown fruits from a giant lichen, were surprisingly delicate.

  “What is it?” Annie asked again, turning instinctively to the big man for a reassurance and protection she had no reason to expect.

  Bradman straightened and moved away from her, looking at the black giant growing up from the earth in the distance and moving straight toward them.

  “It’s a sandstorm,” he said. “It’ll be here in ten minutes.”

  Annie let out the breath she had been holding. “Oh. That doesn’t sound so bad. I don’t know what I thought it was. I was just frightened.” She smiled shyly and apologetically at Bradman.

  Bradman grimaced at her, his agate eyes frozen in a pallid face that should have gone with red hair. The sand-blown lines in his face were cruel. “Sister, you’ve got a smile like a slab of concrete. Don’t try it again.”

  “You didn’t have to say that,” Annie said quietly, closing her eyes against the winds of her anger.

  “You didn’t have to come here,” he replied. “Goodbye.”

  “I’m not leaving,” she said, still holding tight the doors of her anger.

  “I am.” He paced heavily over the sand floor and pulled back the flap of the door.

  “Where are you going?” Annie glanced back at the towering giant, now glowing red in the sunlight, like some huge, grotesque devil.

  “Into the storm cellar. Nobody lives through a Martian sandstorm.”

  Annie ran after him. “For God’s sake take me with you! You can’t leave me . . .”

  “Mine’s built for one,” he said, and pulled the top in over him as he disappeared into the hole.

  Annie broke her fingernails pulling at the cover. The wind was blowing sand in her eyes. She saw blood staining the rim of her index finger. She pounded with her fists.

  “Let me in!” she screamed. “In the name of God!” But all she heard was the keening sand in the wind.

  She looked around. The devil was closer, malignant and hungry. It wanted to eat her alive.

  It made her angry.

  “I’ll fight it,” she screamed. “By God, I’ll fight!”

  Five minutes, she guessed. Maybe five minutes left. She ran into the house, ripped open her suitcase. Bundles of nylon marriage clothes. She began to sob. Some were with lace.

  “Fight!” she shouted to herself. There was her oxygen mask. How much oxygen? Anybody’s guess. It was made for maybe a few whiffs a day over a period of several months.

  Swell. But it wouldn’t keep the sand from tearing through her eyeballs and flaying her alive.

  Wrap in nylon nightgowns? Ridiculous.

  Spacesuit?

  Annie went through the one-room house as fast as she could. No spacesuit. Why should he have one?

  Three minutes left.

  Sand was blowing under the hemisphere, piling up at one end and oozing out beneath.

  It was possible she would simply be buried.

  The refrigerator!

  That wasn’t a refrigerator. Only a cabinet, loosely joined.

  Annie went outside, on the side where the field of lichens grew up a smooth, stone hill. The red devil was whistling at her now; a low, insinuating whistle.

  Something rattled faintly against one steel rib of the hemisphere. It was a shrub, about five feet tall.

  Annie began to laugh hysterically. Brady had protected the shrub with loving care. It was tied to the steel rib through grommetted holes in the hemisphere, and covered with its own plastic bag to shield off the wind.

  One minute.

  The red devil was shouting now, laughing with triumph. He ran his sandy fingers through her hair and blew his gritty breath in her eyes.

  She pulled the zipper at the bottom of the polyethylene bag that covered the shrub and yanked the bag off. It was heavy, almost oily plastic, slippery and pliant.

  There was no time to decide whether it would be better inside or outside the house. She pulled the bag over her head inside out, so the zipper would close completely. Then she folded the zipper part under once and wedged herself as far as she could go into the space between shrub and hemisphere, holding the oxygen mask in her teeth.

  With infinite care, though she was not likely to split the heavy bag, she pulled off her shoes and her heavy, woollen walking socks. She put the shoes back on. Her slacks covered her legs. Only her ankles were bare.

  She unraveled one sock and stuffed the yarn in her ears. There was a sudden, remarkable quiet. Then, even through the yarn came the roar of the storm. For it was upon her.

  She looked through the milky plastic into a wild, red inferno, spitting at her in furious frustration. Then she bound the other sock over her eyes.

  She was in a blind, muffled world now, buffeted against the shrub and the wires and the steel rib, but not painfully, because of her heavy clothing. It was as though suddenly all her senses had been switched to the last pitch before silence.

  “I might live,” Annie thought. “I might.”

  THERE WAS sand in the bag now. Annie could feel it sifting under her collar and blowing up her ankles. Not much. It was coming from the bottom of the bag. Probably the end of the zipper had worked open just a little.

  Was that the dull roar of the storm through her stoppered ears or the rushing of her own blood? If sand were seeping in, the storm must still be on.

  How did Bradman breathe in his storm cellar? Would the storm last long enough for the air to go bad? It would go bad fast, in an enclosed place on Mars.

  Bradman. What sort of monster would walk off and let another human being die? Without a glance backwards? Did the cold desert wear the humanity out of a man? How did a human being get like that?

  “ ‘You’ve got a smile like a concrete slab.’ ” Is that what you say to a person when you know you’re about to leave them to die?

  UNMARRIED WOMEN BETWEEN THE AGES OF 21 AND 30. GOOD HEALTH. WELL ADJUSTED. MARRIAGE ON ARRIVAL. MARS TRANSPORT LEAVES OCT. 1.

  Good health . . . well adjusted . . . she could see the printed words, red stereo words reaching out from the page. Unmarried women between . . . they came and went in her mind and there was a roar in her ears. The words were gone now. Only a redness that came and went. No. A blackness.

  Annie snatched the exhausted oxygen mask off her face and gulped a pallid, sandy breath of air. It wouldn’t do. She took the sock off her eyes and bound it around her nose and mouth. It would filter some of the sand out.

  She opened her eyes briefly and closed them. The grit stayed in. She didn’t dare open them again.

  But the storm looked weaker. Or was it her imagination?

  She groped for the zipper. Foul air would kill her quicker than sand. She couldn’t find it.

  Hell with the zipper! She pulled her little mending kit out of her pocket and slashed the bag with the scissors.

  The storm sounded louder now, with the bag gone. The sand blew under her eyelids. Ripped her face. Tore a burning circle around each ankle.

  Annie put her face in her hands, breathing through her nose and the soc
k.

  She held herself stiffly. She didn’t want to cough.

  The whole world was a blind, gritty pain. There was no end to think of. Only pain.

  A grayness.

  A blackness.

  Finally, a voice. Bradman.

  “You ruined my shrub. Did you have to slash the bag, too?”

  Annie opened her eyes. They felt red and ruined. They were watering so much her cheeks were wet. She could hardly see.

  She was having a coughing fit. She dragged herself upright. All she could see was sand. The plastic bubble had blown off the girders and if the furnishings and her suitcase were there, her eyes were still too dim to see them.

  “Do you know what that shrub’s worth on Mars?”

  Annie found the yam had fallen out of one ear and she pulled it out of the other.

  “Do you know what that bag’s worth?”

  Gall ran in her veins. She spat it out of her mouth.

  She backed up to the steel beam and braced her feet against it, light in the Martian gravity.

  “I told them not to send a woman out here.”

  She pushed off and sank her fist into his teeth. He went down.

  She was too light. But he was too light, too. It evened out.

  She turned his face and held it in the sand. Her strength was insane.

  “Do you know what a human life is worth?” she screamed.

  He struggled, but she fought his bucking body, kept his face buried in the sand until he was dead and a long time after.

  An age passed. Annie was frozen in a world rimed over with white starlight, sequinned with frost.

  Then the crosseyed moons came up.

  She found an edge of the plastic bubble, rumpled and limp and half buried in the sand. She pushed off the heaviest hills of sand with her hands and pulled it out. She climbed up the anchored girders with it, and then slept the rest of the night in her own home.

  The next day she dug out her household supplies from the sand.

  The day after she cleared the sand from the lichens on her farm.

  On the fourth day she called a few neighbors in and late in the evening she buried Bradman.

  No one questioned her. It had been, after all, self-defense.