Sea of Love (Love in Bloom: The Bradens, Book 4) Contemporary Romance

by Melissa Foster

  BY THE TIME her sisters left, they’d convinced her to go with Dane to the family function to say goodbye to Treat, Max, and the rest of their friends in person. She’d barely had time to shower and dress. She stood before the mirror in her gold cocktail dress thinking about the day she’d bought it. She’d thought it would be the perfect combination of formfitting sexy and classy coloring to hold Dane’s attention, and now, as she surveyed herself in the mirror, sadness clung to her heart and hung in the dullness in her eyes.

  Her cell phone rang, and she started at the sound, then remembered that it had rung twice when she was in the shower. She hurried to the bed and picked it up just as it stopped ringing. Dane. How was she going to handle being around him and remaining steadfast in her need to break away from him?

  Already late, she put on her lipstick and finished applying her eyeliner; then she sat on the bed and returned Dane’s call.

  “Hi, Lace.”

  The happiness in his voice brought a rush of longing through her.

  “Hi.”

  “Did you get my messages?” Dane asked. “I saw Danica on the way to your room this afternoon and figured you needed time with your sisters.”

  She pulled the phone from her ear and noticed that she had two messages. “I haven’t listened to them yet, but Danica said you had asked about me. Thank you. It was a bit crazy around here.” I’m a bit crazy.

  “No worries. Are you about ready to go?” he asked.

  “You still want to go with me? Even after everything that happened today?”

  “Do you even have to ask?”

  Lacy closed her eyes and let out a relieved sigh. In the next breath, she remembered her plan to pull away from him. He wasn’t going to make this easy for her. She already felt her heart being torn to shreds.

  “Lace?”

  “Yeah?”

  “I’m right here,” he said. “Open your door.”

  Lacy crossed the small room and pulled the door open. Dane peered around an exquisite bouquet of white lilies. His eyes lit up when they met hers.

  “Hi,” Dane said.

  He’d changed into a white button-down shirt and a pair of linen khaki pants that tied at the waist. Lacy stifled the urge to reach up and touch the exposed skin that peeked out of his open collar.

  “Those are gorgeous.” For a second she allowed herself not to think about what happened earlier. It had been only a few hours, but now she felt as if it had been days since she’d seen him. She wanted to fold herself in his arms and snuggle against his warmth. Desperation pulled at her heart—desperation for his comfort, desperation for Dane. Maybe just one more night.

  “I thought these might make you feel a little better.” He handed her the flowers.

  “How did you know that I love Madonna Lilies?” She brought the blooms to her nose and breathed in their heavy floral, honeylike fragrance. He followed her into the room while she set them on the coffee table.

  “You told me you loved lilies a long time ago, but I didn’t know you loved Madonna Lilies in particular. I have a feeling there’s a lot about you that I don’t know yet.”

  It’s probably better that way.

  He reached for her hand. “But I intend to get to know everything there is to know about you.”

  One night. Just one more night; then I’ll let him go, so he can find some woman who doesn’t have shark issues. Lacy felt her resolve fading away with each beat of her racing heart.

  “I’m sorry about before.” What am I doing? Stop liking him!

  “No need to be sorry. These things happen. I just want you to know that I’m here for you, Lace. If you want to talk about what happened today, or if you want to talk about anything else. I’m a really good listener.”

  Lacy’s voice was stuck in her throat. Please don’t be so nice. I can’t be your noose.

  Dane pulled her close, resting one hand on the small of her back and his cheek against hers; then he whispered, “You look amazing.”

  Lacy closed her eyes, memorizing the feel of his heart beating against hers. How could she let such a great guy get involved with her? How could she walk away from him?

  “Thank you,” she managed. She was so confused, and now, wrapped in the warmth of his arms, she had no idea what the right thing to do was. Whatever happened on that boat was bigger than she was, and Lacy had a feeling that even if Dane said he could deal with it, her fear might just be bigger than both of them.

  Chapter Nine

  THE PLUSH LAWN of the inn was bordered with thick New England gardens, bursting with colorful flowers, grasses that grew at different heights, and ground coverings that wound their way into every crevice in between. Tables covered with white tablecloths were arranged under gauzy white canopies and decorated with floral centerpieces. The afternoon heat faded as the sun began its descent, allowing the cooler air to come in off the sea. Dane had wanted to go back and see Lacy again after she’d said she wanted to lie down when they’d come in from the boat, but he thought time with her sisters would probably help her more than he could. Now he wondered if he’d made the wrong choice. Lacy seemed a little removed, like she was slipping away. Maybe she’s just embarrassed.

  Dane noticed Savannah heading toward him and Lacy seconds after they arrived. He held tight to Lacy’s hand, anticipating his sister’s bold nature.

  “I’m so glad you guys made it. I was afraid Lacy might not be up to it.” Savannah hugged Dane and then reached for Lacy. “Feeling better?”

  “Yes, much. Thank you.”

  Dane felt her grip his hand tighter.

  “I’m really sorry to have ruined the trip,” Lacy said.

  “Pfft.” Savannah swatted the air. “Are you kidding? No need to apologize. I wouldn’t know what to do if things always went as planned.” She pointed at Max and Treat. “Look how happy they are. I wonder if this whole love thing is contagious.” She lifted her eyebrows playfully.

  Lacy blushed.

  “I don’t know,” Dane said. “But I’m sick of seeing you without someone on your arm.”

  “Oh, please. When I do bring a man around, you guys surround him like vultures.” Savannah rolled her eyes.

  “It’s a brother thing. You know you love it.” Dane turned to Lacy. “Would you like a drink?”

  “Sure. Whatever you’re having is fine with me,” she said.

  “God, it’s starting already,” Savannah teased.

  “Excuse me?” Lacy said.

  “The whole couple thing. You know, you drink the same things; then you start finishing each other’s sentences.”

  Dane kissed the back of Lacy’s hand before releasing it. “Ignore her. I’ll be right back.” He squinted at Savannah. “Think you can behave for five minutes?”

  “Only if you bring me a Sea Breeze,” Savannah answered.

  Dane headed for the bar, worrying about Lacy. He ordered their drinks, then felt the familiar weight of his father’s arm around his shoulder.

  “I heard Lacy had a hard time today,” his father said.

  “Of course you did.” He and his siblings were so close that when something happened to one of them, the rest were not far behind with open arms and a sympathetic ear.

  “She okay?”

  Dane nodded, though truthfully, he wasn’t sure. She’d had a pretty major panic attack, and from the brief conversation he’d had with Danica after she’d seen Lacy, Lacy really hadn’t known her fear of sharks was so great. If there was one thing Dane knew, it was that when it came to a fear of sharks, the path to understanding and conquering the fear was not an easy one—but it was doable if the person was amenable to difficult, scary, and sometimes overwhelming steps.

  His father looked across the room to where Lacy was talking with Savannah. “Savannah said it was a bad one.”

  “Yeah. Are there ever good panic attacks?” Dane sipped his drink. Lacy looked so pretty with her tanned skin against the light shade of her dress. It pained him to see the worry behind her eyes.


  “I suppose not.” His father crossed his arms and lowered his gaze, seemingly studying Lacy. “Your brother tells me that you haven’t gone to see Lacy since you met her. That right?”

  Dane looked away, sipped his drink, then ran his hand through his hair. His father knew him well, and he’d hoped to avoid this conversation. He still hoped to avoid it by remaining silent.

  “What are you afraid of?” his father asked, turning an unwavering gaze on him.

  Dane broke the link and looked at Lacy. “I’m not afraid of anything, Dad. I was traveling.” He felt his father scrutinizing his answer.

  “Mm-hmm.”

  Dane shook his head.

  “I know for a fact that you weren’t traveling over Christmas.”

  “Dad.”

  “I’m not judging you.” His father looked at Lacy. “Be careful, son. She seems like a nice girl, and from what Treat says, she’s been through a lot.” He sipped his drink. “She tell you about her father?”

  Dane nodded. Lacy had told him that her mother had been her father’s mistress, and she had gotten pregnant while her dad was married to Danica and Kaylie’s mom. Lacy was the quintessential love child. She’d shared with him her excitement of finally meeting Kaylie and Danica and the anger that she’d never before felt toward her father, which mounted the weekend of her sisters’ wedding. He’d wished he could have held her when she was pouring her heart out to him over Skype.

  “She did,” Dane said.

  “Fifteen months is a long time, son. To some people, that might feel like a lifetime.” The honesty in his father’s voice was thick, the concern tangible. “Life’s short, son. Figure out what your heart wants and follow it.”

  “That’s easy for you to say, Dad. You had a stable life and lived in one state for your entire life. I travel all the time. I have a boat that feels more like a home than any house—besides yours—ever will. My life isn’t an easy one alone. I’m not sure it would be any easier with someone by my side, relying on me for stability.” Dane hadn’t told anyone his concerns about his career, and now that the words were out in the open, they scared him.

  “You chose that career. You’ll figure out what’s what. But see that woman over there?” He nodded toward Lacy just as Lacy looked over and smiled.

  Dane held up a glass and blew her a kiss.

  “Stringing her along isn’t the right thing to do, and you know that. You’re a good man, Dane. You’ll figure it out.”

  Nothing like a little pressure. “I hope so.”

  LACY STOOD BESIDE Dane, trying to focus on the jovial conversation between Hugh and Savannah, but she felt like she was drowning. Each thought cried for oxygen, each breath twisted her thoughts back to the boat. Trying to gain understanding was like grasping at straws, and every time she looked at Dane, she envisioned a rope around his neck and knew she was the tightening factor. How could she live a normal life for so many years, go snorkeling, ride on boats, and never once realize that she had such an enormous fear of sharks hidden within her subconscious? I’m really messed up.

  Dane squeezed her hand.

  Lacy looked at him, hoping he hadn’t asked her a question. If he had, she hadn’t heard it. The pit of her stomach took a nosedive. A cool breeze wrapped itself around her shoulders and she shivered against him, wishing it would carry her away.

  “Are you okay?” Savannah asked, looking at Lacy.

  “Um, yeah, thanks. Just chilly,” Lacy lied. I wanna go home.

  Dane put his arm around her. “Actually, Lace and I are heading out for a bit.”

  “Where to?” Savannah asked.

  “I want to show Lacy around,” Dane said.

  “I’ve been here before,” Lacy said. “When I was young, we visited a cottage here a few times.” She thought about those trips with her parents, a weekend here or there over the summers, and while it hadn’t struck her as odd when she was younger, now she realized that they never took her anywhere to swim besides the local ponds. Damn it. Maybe if they had, she could have dealt with this shit instead of repressing it.

  “Yeah?” Dane asked.

  “It was a long time ago,” Lacy said.

  “Well, I bet I know of a few places you haven’t seen,” Dane said, holding her gaze.

  “Oh.” Savannah wiggled her eyebrows. “You two kids go have a romantic night.”

  THEY PARKED AT the Wellfleet Marina. Dane opened the door for Lacy and took her hand. She breathed a little easier, away from the worried eyes of Dane’s family and her sisters.

  Dane flashed a smile. “Come on. Let’s get some ice cream.” He pulled her toward Mac’s Seafood and Ice Cream.

  “I never turn down ice cream,” she said. One night. Just one night.

  “Then we have something else in common,” Dane said.

  They ordered chocolate cones and ate them as they walked along the pier. Lacy couldn’t stop thinking about the panic attack, and as they neared the edge of the pier, she slowed her pace.

  “You okay?” Dane asked.

  She looked at the edge of the pier and felt her pulse speed up. Damn it. This is ridiculous. “Yes,” she managed. She looked back the way they came and spotted a store.

  “Want to go look around?” Dane led her back away from the pier. “Come on. This place is really cool,” he said.

  The Flying Pan was an artist’s studio, which also served as a store. Its floors were made of wide-planked wood, and the same wide-planked boards ran both horizontally and vertically along the walls. Lacy had never seen such interesting metal sculptures, some taller than she and Dane and some impossibly small and intricate, interspersed with paintings of fish, oysters, and other sea life.

  “Every month, the artist features his newest piece on this wall.” Dane pointed to a sculpture that looked alive. Two big metal fish chased a school of smaller fish, fanning out before them.

  Lacy stood before it, mesmerized. She reached up and touched the shiny details of fins and scales, the hole of the eyes.

  “It looks too real to be fake,” she said.

  “Funny how something so cold can look as if it lives and breathes,” Dane said.

  “It does. I can feel the heartbeats of each of those tiny fish, the fear as they swim for their lives.” Her pulse kicked up again. Oh no. Stop it. Don’t think about fish or sharks. “Dane, can we walk a bit?”

  “Yeah, sure.” He led her out the door, and they walked along the side of the road and past a tent, beneath which a small band was playing. “Over here,” Dane said. They walked past the tent to a playground at the far end of the property, where Dane climbed up the colorful play equipment to a big square platform a few feet off the ground and patted the seat beside him.

  Lacy smiled at his offer, then joined him on the playground equipment. “It’s been years since I’ve been at a park.”

  “Me too. I spend most of my time on the water and as little as possible on dry land,” he said.

  Lacy’s stomach twisted again. What am I doing? I can’t have just one more night. One more night would secure his spot in her already swollen heart. He was too damn sweet to just break up with. She couldn’t do it. I have to do it.

  They listened to the band, and Lacy tried to imagine a future with Dane. Every time she thought of being on his boat, her throat tightened. She gripped the cold metal of the playground equipment. She had to end things and she had to do it now. She’d never be able to do it if she spent one more night in his arms. She looked at his profile, the smile that had first attracted her to him and those honest eyes that had stolen her heart over Skype and FaceTime. She hated herself for what she was about to do to him—and to them—but she knew he wouldn’t let her go if she told him the truth, and then she’d feel guilty and his life would be ruined. She steeled herself to ask the question whose answer she didn’t really care about.

  “Dane, what was the real reason you never came to see me?” Lacy asked. “I don’t want a pat answer. I’d really like the truth.” Stop. Stop. St
op. She hated baiting him into a fight he couldn’t win.

  He looked at her then, his brown eyes warm and alluring. His hand moved to cover hers, and then he turned to look in the direction of the beach.

  “Never mind. I…I get it.” What am I doing? Anger tugged at her belly—anger at herself for having the goddamn panic attack, anger at Dane for being so flipping perfect when he was with her. Fear wrapped around the hurt in her heart and squeezed tears from her eyes. She was throwing their relationship away, and it was killing her.

  “I get it,” she said more forcefully, pulling her hand from beneath his. “I don’t know what I thought was happening between us or why I thought it was okay that you didn’t see me because of your schedule or whatever, but…” Stop it! I can’t stop. I can’t. I have to break it off, so why not lay it all on the line?

  “It’s not what you think, Lace,” he said.

  She jumped off of the equipment. “Right.” She turned away, then heard his feet land with a thump behind her and felt his hand on the small of her back.

  “Lacy, I don’t have a good answer,” he said.

  “That’s what I thought.” She twisted out of his reach. Walk away. Just walk away.

  He grabbed her hand. “Lacy, wait. Please.”

  He looked into her eyes, and her tears momentarily blurred his image.

  “Lace, when we talked, I wanted nothing more than to run to your front door and see you. To date you, take you in my arms and woo you like a queen, but…”

  “But?” she huffed.

  “But every time I started thinking of doing it, something held me back. I don’t know if it was fear or what, but I knew that once I had you in my arms, I’d never want to let you go, and…” He shrugged.

  It wasn’t an I-don’t-care shrug. It was an I-don’t-understand-it shrug. Lacy sighed. Part of her wished he’d have told her something else, even if it were a lie. Something that would make it easier to walk away. Another, bigger part of her melted by the heat of the sincerity in his voice, the hopeful look in his eyes. She knew what he was trying to say, because as much as she wished he’d swooped in like a knight on a white horse, she’d been scared of what would happen if he had.