Jagged Heart (Broken Bottles Series Book 3)
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He truly understood who I really was.
He is the one . . . the one . . . the one.
To be continued…
Thank you so much for reading Jagged Heart. I hope you’ve enjoyed the Young Family Saga and Nicky's journey as she begins to awaken and blossom into an independent woman. If you enjoyed Jagged Heart, please consider leaving a review on Amazon.com or Goodreads.com so others may find this book.
Next, the final book in Part I of Broken Bottles:
AMAZING HEART
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Resources
Books
Dirty Words, Ellen Sussman
Howto Please a Woman In& Out of Bed, Daylee Deanna Schwartz
It Will Never Happen to Me, Claudia Black, PhD
Sexy Words for Writers, Stefanie Olsen
The Emotion Thesaurus, Angela Ackerman and Becca Puglisi
Thinking Like A Romance Writer, Dahlia Evans
The Bald-Headed Hermit & The Artichoke, A.D. Peterkin
The Complete Idiot’s Guide to Amazing Sex, Sari Lockner, Ph.D.
The Romance Writer’s Phrase Book, Jean Kent and Candace Shelton
Organizations/Web sites
www.AdultChildren.org: Adult Children of Alcoholics
www.al-anon.org: Strength for Friends & Families of Problem Drinkers
ncadd.org: Helping Family Members of Friends
www.thecounselingcenter.org: Ten Ways Families Can Help
www.adultchildren.org: Alcohol & Drug Abuse Affects Everyone in the Family
www.AdultChildrenofDysfunctionalFamilies.com
www.sexualityresources.com Information on rape
www.crimescene.com What to expect reporting rape
www.pandys.org: Pandora’s Project
The Joyful Heart Foundation provides information of all sorts, writers, actors, programs, news releases . . . on sexual assault and domestic violence: www.joyfulheartfoundation.org
Acknowledgements
As with any life project, there are many people who influenced my journey. From friends who exist only in my memories, to people who have crossed my path in sweet or dramatic ways, I hold all of you to my heart, even if you’re not mentioned below.
For my beautiful sister, whose life ended much too early—I understand you more now than I ever did.
For my father, I wish I had the maturity back then to have understood. I couldn’t have stopped you, but I would’ve spoken differently. You gave me so many twisted gifts, and I thank you in spite of everything.
Claude, my husband, and Aaron, my son, I love you guys so much that sometimes I think I’m sick because the hurt is so deep and the joy is so mountainous.
Louise—I couldn’t have done this without you.
My sweet girlfriends from childhood—Colleen, Patty, Lorraine, Kathie, Marilyn
TS Babes—(Santo, Spanky, Uno, GG, Wiseone, BL, Nine, Catnip xxoo) you know who you are, thanks for so much fun during my research.
My editors, Catharine Bramkamp, Robbi Sommers Bryant, and Crissi Langwell, you are awesome and have gone above and beyond!
Mom, you still have problems saying I love you. I get it now.
About the Author
PAMELA TAEUFFER, BIOGRAPHY
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My passion is writing books that tell a love story and family saga of leaving old fears behind as the characters embrace intimacy and transition to joy. My first series, Broken Bottles, details those fears of growing up in a family battling alcoholism. Along with the struggle and pain of a parent's rage, I hope to reveal strength, intelligence, and survival. The challenge is to love intimately in all relationships. For children of trauma, it can take years to let another person come close. When they do? It's like rainbows cover their heart.
Slowly, you'll read how my characters become vulnerable, reach for deep, sensual intimacy, and try desperately to let go of their fears. They struggle and risk everything to trust others—and themselves. My stories are about daring to take the baby steps that let them really come alive and in every way, experience and give love.
MAKING MONEY TO CREATE: The property management and vacation rental company I run with my husband and son in Sonoma County, California allows me to have my creative life. I love where I live and work, and wouldn't trade being born and raised in San Francisco. My father introduced me to baseball when I was six. I've rung a cable car bell, driven a streetcar and saw Jimmy Hendrix, The Doors and Jefferson Airplane.
WHAT I'VE DONE/AM DOING – IT'S A JOURNEY OF DREAMS: Broken Bottles is a four part series. Two books, Shadow Heart and Fire Heart are ready. Soon to follow are Jagged Heart and Amazing Heart. I'm honored to have 3 poems in an anthology called The Beats Go On, and a story in Sisters Born, Sisters Found. I have released the first book in a series for introverts called, The Introverts Guide to the Galaxy: Attending Conferences.
My Dream? To create beautifully decorate and custom journals with gorgeous paper that accompany with each book series: The Introvert's Journal, A Family Saga Journal, My Body's Journal, and Trauma: You Can't Stop Me Journal. Journaling was a lifesaver for me. I was in shock. You may be in shock. Don't let that keep your heart frozen!
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Shadow Heart
What if you were afraid to even turn the doorknob to your front door because of the family dysfunction that waited inside: rage, mental and physical abuse, the fear of sharing love, or waiting for the embrace of your mother. What would it take to bring you out of the shadows, breaking out of the numbness you've used to protect your heart? Could you take a risk that might change everything? A sexy, professional baseball player wants my mind, body and heart. All my life I've controlled who's gotten close. Risk means terror. This is the slow, intimate reveal of how I learned to trust myself, let go of my fears and transitioned into joy.
Fire Heart
My heart is on fire. For the first time in my life I am awake and the desires I’ve pushed down are smoldering. The shadows of my youth dare me to step away from them. I’ve just come of age and there is one thing I know—I want to live differently than my parents—an alcoholic father and co-dependent mother. I know I need to forgive them. I must learn to trust myself and take a risk. That means being vulnerable and letting another close. But when we did that in our house, rage and abandonment followed. I have to open my heart and learn to trust myself so I can trust another. I dream of letting go of old fears, daring to be loved, and transitioning into joy.
COMING:
Amazing Heart
It's amazing, but I am filled with the desire to open my heart and love another, a new person, out of the comfort zone of my childhood, not a relative, not family and breaking through every chain of dysfunction I'd bound myself with. Amazing is how I feel, that I seem to have the love of someone who will accept me for who I am, a bundle of insecurities and fears, wrapped inside my body of round curves that I tend to cover in jeans and sweatshirts. Having someone who seems to want me in spite of all my demons—it feels as if I'm set free! I walk with a light around me: bright, open, shutting out the darkness of my youth—the alcoholism of my father, his rage, his violence, my mom's codependence and support of his addiction—I know I can risk everything now. The freedom to ask for what I want; dare I dream of feeling safe enough, trusting myself enough to share my thoughts, wishes, fears . . . dare I actually hope in another person? Won't his promises fall apart? Am I re
ally free? Can I dare to really, really be alive and through being vulnerable, open to deep, sensual intimacy?