The Price of the Phoenix sttos(n-4

by Sondra Marshak

  “No miracle is involved, Doctor. Merely a useful technique. It will be sufficient. The process will continue at a slower rate.”

  “Pain reading is still high enough to kill anybody.”

  “I am functional, Doctor, and I have functions to perform. You will start on James now, and you will also run the standard identity checks.”

  McCoy’s eyebrows shot up. “I thought his identity was not in question. He said you linked—”

  “His identity is not,” Spock said. “Whether we can conceal or disguise it is.”

  “I don’t follow you,” McCoy said.

  Spock looked at James, then back to the Doctor. “The Enterprise cannot have two captains. But perhaps surgical alterations, special entry to Star Fleet with another background, or a political position-special ambassadorial—”

  “Never work, Spock—records on every molecule of him, voice prints—”

  “That should do it,” Kirk said. “Take the con, firmed. James?”

  James nodded. “Needs to be established. Might also give us a clue to the process. Doctor?”

  “You’re not in much shape for a check. I can’t find the injuries, but you’re hurting as bad as Jim.”

  “It will pass,” James said quietly. “Let’s go. Spock, you rest.”

  Spock sighed and lay back down in the manner of being put upon. Two of them!

  “That should do it,” Kirk said. “Take the con, Scotty. Commander?”

  He led her quickly off the bridge, flashing looks to the bridge crew, again acknowledging their response to his return. Uhura had worked steadily, with tears drying on her cheeks.

  But he couldn’t take time for more. The turbo-lift doors closed and he said, “Sickbay.” And the Commander caught him as he sagged.

  She held him up, then bent quickly and picked him up.

  “Put me down,” he gasped, and considered himself lucky not to yell.

  “Don’t be silly,” she said. “I can carry you easily.”

  “Damn it, not through the corridors of the Enterprise!”

  She arched an eyebrow. “I daresay you’ve been carried to Sickbay before. You mean—not by a woman.”

  “Probably,” he admitted. “What if I do? It’s a tough idea to get used to. I don’t mind if you have muscle-but do you have to throw your weight around?”

  She shrugged as if his weight were not a problem. “Do you? Its a fundamental principle: if you’ve got it, you’ve got to use it”

  A point, he thought with a weary effort at fairness. Didn’t he use any muscle he had—and damn glad to have it? Enjoying it? If the shoe were on the other foot—? He let a rueful grimace concede the point Then—just put me down because—I’m asking. Would you have me carry you through your ship if you could walk—or crawl?”

  She lifted her eyebrows, and her slow smile conceded a point too. “You’ll do, Captain,” she said and slowly swung him down.

  He might have to crawl at that. He fought his knees while she kept her arm around him, and there was no teasing in her support now. “It’s all right,” she said softly. “You have every right. Don’t fight it quite so hard. Surely you can accept a shoulder?”

  He smiled weakly and put his arm around her, leaned on her heavily. Hard to believe such slimness could contain such strength. “Friends?” he whispered.

  “Friends,” she said and stood straight under his arm as the turbo-lift decanted them, her circling arm all but carrying him as he tried to make his feet track.

  But she made it look good, and the odd looks he got in the hall were more Captain-got-the-girl-again than anything else. Or just It’s-the-Captain-welcome-home-sir. He could see that they wanted to run to him, touch him. But they held to discipline and let him move on, never knowing quite how much they had. One day he would have to take a week off and let himself feel what he felt about that.

  “Spock,” he said near the door. “I have to make it from here.”

  Her eyes understood and she let him go, but he could feel hair-trigger reflexes at his side ready to catch him again as he cleared his face and set himself to make it.

  CHAPTER XXI

  James closed his band over McCoy’s as the hand pulled the spray hypo away from his arm. He pointed the Doctor toward the door, and McCoy was there when the Captain came through.

  McCoy shoved the shot home without asking and fastened on the arm. The Captain didn’t protest being steered to the nearest bed, but he hefted himself onto it with some care and sat with an air of unfinished business.

  Spock had turned from the computer to watch, but restrained himself from going to him.

  And James thought that he himself was, after all, getting the hang of this link-resonance business. He couldn’t seem to screen Kirk’s pain out of his own body, but it was he, by God, who had been tuning the link to a thread to keep it away from the Vulcan. Doubtless Spock was allowing it, to keep his own pain to himself. But it was progress.

  The Commander had stuck with the Captain to the bed, now turned and came to stand beside James. “All clear,” she said in the tone of a report. A singular performance. The conference of delegates was quite impressed. It will be some time before most of them dare to accuse him of honoring the Prime Directive in the breach again. There is talk of an alliance which would open relations with both Federation and Empire. Omne’s people, likewise. A little shell-shocked, but seeing—logic. The delegates will send a commission to verify the facts of Omne’s death, and report back to us shortly.”

  “And Sub-Commander S’Tal?” James asked.

  “Annoyed,” she said, “as is his custom.” She smiled down at him gravely. “He still half suspects that I am a hostage.” She met his eyes in acknowledgement of fact. “He is—my balance. My advocate of—shooting ‘em up. However, I command.”

  So that was the way of it. Tal perhaps more than he had seemed—

  “S’Tal will follow us out to the offshore limit, Captain,” she said in a level tone. “As you suggested, twelve transporter diameters, out of range of transporters and weapons. I suppose we must wait for the delegates’ report. I would feel better if we could head out at warp speed.”

  “How much hell have you bought today?” Kirk asked.

  She turned to him with a little lift of her head. “All there is to buy,” she said. “I must now take the Empire apart and put it back together. The decision of peace or war does not rest in my hands, and I must reach the point where it does.”

  Kirk nodded. “That was what I thought. Will Tal back you?”

  “No,” she said, “But they will have to go through him to get to me.”

  Kirk smiled in comprehension and sympathy. “Still, you will make a time when we can be allies as well as friends.”

  “Yes.”

  “I, too,” Kirk said soberly—and then made a rueful face. “I’m more likely to get talked to death.”

  “A terrible fate,” she said. “On the whole, I would not trade with you.”

  Kirk grinned. “On the whole, neither would I.”

  “On the whole, a satisfactory arrangement,” Spock cut in, “since a trade would be somewhat illogical However, I take it we are agreed that for our part the alliance has already begun, and both Federation and Empire must be taken apart, if necessary, until both can stand against Omne’s threat.”

  “Agreed, Spock,” Kirk said questioningly.

  “I recommend we move on to the other problem while you and James are still able to focus on it. You are not concealing from me the need for medical attention and long rest.”

  So much for that, James thought, suspecting that he looked as sheepish as Kirk. When had Spock ever needed an actual link?

  “For once, that’s—logical,” McCoy said. “Get out of here and let me pack ‘em both in.”

  “I’m afraid that I have to leave before long, Doctor,” the Commander said, “or S’Tal really will conclude that I am under duress—or out of my mind.”

  “Well, excuse me, Commander,”
McCoy said, puzzled, “but I really can’t see that that has much to do with it. You can work out your alliances by viewscreen—later—tomorrow—whenever.”

  “No, we cannot,” she said, looking at Spock

  McCoy thought that he caught her drift. “Oh, well, uh—you and Spock, then, but—

  “No, Doctor,” Spock said. “Commander, Captain, we have checked the identity patterns on James. He is absolutely identifiable as James T. Kirk, to the last decimal, beyond doubt or disguise.”

  Kirk sighed and nodded, looking at James. “What we expected,” he said. “You didn’t have to go through that.”

  “Yes, I did,” James said, but could not quite bring himself to elaborate.

  Spock cut in again. “The implications, Captain. He cannot be hidden anywhere within Star Fleet. Or—except with great difficulty and risk—anywhere within the Federation. I do have one recommendation. With my parents on Vulcan. The Vulcan respect for privacy, the custom of a guest friend—with a sufficient cover story, it would do, and my father would be considerable protection for him. We would have plausible reason to visit—”

  The Commander’s eyebrows were rising dangerously.

  “My God,” Kirk said, and his shoulders slumped as if a weight had finally broken them. He looked at James with a terrible vista of loss opening before his eyes. “He—can’t. You can’t, James. I—couldn’t.” He caught his breath. “I—can’t. What even makes it-James? By what right? I can’t name one. No difference. But—I’m not willing to give this up.” His hand indicated the ship, perhaps the stars, Spock, McCoy… “How could you be? You couldn’t. He looked at Spock. “There has to be another way.”

  “I see none,” Spock said. “The problem is insoluble, and must be solved. Where there is identity, there is not, in logic, difference. And yet there is difference here. Perhaps there is no right, but our assumption—I believe even James has shared it—has been that there must be some right of—the original.”

  “You don’t even know about that.” Kirk said suddenly. “You have only my word that I didn’t lose consciousness. You haven’t linked with me.”

  Spock’s face softened and James felt the sudden surge of pride. “Not necessary, Jim. No identical Kirk would lie about that. I doubt the same could be said of any other man.”

  Kirk smiled painfully. “I could name one or two. Although—I’m not sure that any man is proof against this. With time to think about it—” He shook his head. “I wouldn’t trust myself.”

  “You trust James,” Spock said, his eyes pointing James out, underlining that he had been free on the Enterprise, was now dressed identically with Kirk.

  Kirk grinned as if caught. “Yes, I guess I do.” He flashed a look at James. “Didn’t occur to me. I guess it didn’t have to. But the fact remains—”

  James nodded. “Given time, possibly. And if there were no difference.”

  “But there is a difference,” the Commander said. “Listen to you, proposing to dispose of his life. As if he belonged to you.” She faced Spock with fire in her eyes. “He does not, you know. Vulcan, indeed! Is he to grow quivas? Dabble in trillium? Sit on daddy’s knee? The first fighting commander of half a galaxy? The first in war—and peace? A man who was willing to sell his freedom for yours—to lose his? The freedom of the stars?”

  “If he does not belong to us,” Spock said, “to whom does he belong? To you? “

  The Commander threw back her head and locked eyes with Spock. Yes!” she said.

  “What?” McCoy interjected, and Kirk looked at her, startled.

  “I claim him,” she said, facing all of them. “I fought for him. I saved his life, and more. By the custom of my people, he is mine if I want him. I want him.”

  “You mean—” McCoy said, “—you don’t mean—you own him? Not literally.”

  “Why not?” she said. “I challenged for a captive. As it was in the time of the beginning—so is it now: the property of the victor.”

  “I thought—Spock fought Omne?” McCoy said.

  “Once, she said, “—and only because I allowed it to keep this one safe. That was my victory, and it makes Spock’s victory mine, too. And—I saved this one from damage earlier. I consider that Spock fought for the original. I did, too, but I will not be greedy. It could be an embarrassment of riches.”

  “Well, that’s something,” McCoy sputtered. “But—you’re not serious—”

  “Never more,” she said. “Spock, can you dispute the right by the custom we share from before the beginning of the division of our peoples?”

  “Not by that custom,” Spock said grimly. “But I do dispute it.”

  “Then where is your Prime Directive?” she said. “It is my custom.”

  “It is his life,” Kirk said flatly.

  “I was wondering if that would occur to anybody.”

  James said. He stood up and whirled the Commander to face him. “Don’t you think that you ought to ask me about that?”

  She arched an eyebrow shamelessly. “Only if you will give the right answer.”

  “Otherwise, just pack me off to your ship?”

  “Very possibly,” she said. “My people would object to you a good deal less as my captive than as my companion.”

  “Which place did you offer?” he asked.

  “Neither,” she said. “There is not a name for the place I would make for you—or for the place you would have to make for yourself. Except as my Human captive—and bed warmer—you could not be with me except as a Romulan, with no man to know what you are, or what you are to me. You would have to rise on your own merit—without benefit of muscle—for you have no muscle there. Not one fight—for you would not only be smashed, you would be discovered, and I with you. I can create an identity for you, but the cover would point to me if you became known. It would have to, but also I will see to it. That would be my protection against your impetuousness. You would risk yourself. You would not risk me.”

  James felt that his breathing was not quite in order, that there were held breaths in two other bodies linked with his, reverberating in his. “You assume a great deal,” he said carefully.

  “Am I wrong? Illogical? Presumptuous?” She shook her head. “You want it so badly that you can taste it. The fight. The challenge. The galactic cause cut out to be your size. Rebuilding the Empire at my side. Forging a link to the Federation—creating a peace you could not build in any other way. The continuation of your chosen job. The stars. Your place, your job, your life. Even Spock and Jim from time to time, and not as a—pensioner. Of equal stature in the fight we must all undertake. A chance at Omne—and a chance to present a moving target.”

  “Out of the frying pan,” McCoy said. “Are you both crazy? He can’t pass as a Romulan. An hour maybe—with a lot of luck, a lucky punch. Crazy even then. But we didn’t know about Romulans then. Couldn’t be sure they had Vulcanoid strength. I found that out for sure when you were our—guest. Different molecular structure, bone, muscle—heavier, stronger. A whole different ball game. He wouldn’t last a minute—even against you.”

  “He would last considerably less than a minute,” she said.

  “I’ve lasted with Spock,” James said, not bothering with the difference.

  “Even Spock is not a Romulan Commander in full training,” she said. “More muscle—not so much more as you would think. Less technique. Too many centuries of peace. A certain softness even in Star Fleet.” She shook her head. “But you have lasted for the same reason you would last with me. He has never fought you at full strength—and he has pulled you out of more fires than you can count.”

  “He has that, ” James said.

  “I have not had to try to keep him alive in the Romulan Empire,” Spock said. “And not as a Romulan.”

  “You were willing to try, when Omne proposed it.”

  “No option,” Spock said. “But I would have made one, at some point. The prospect of years—decades—of that— It would be beyond my capacity—and y
ours.”

  “It is not beyond mine, Spock. I kept the trust. I will keep it still. I got him to accept my command. He will again—and I will keep him safe. Train him. Guard him. Comfort and keep him. Bend his stiff neck for him when he needs it.” She turned to James and smiled up at him. “It will be hard on you, harder than you can imagine. The alpha male of half a galaxy, to accept command, and mine, and to walk softly? Bluff, perhaps. Never fight. Know the difference—and never let anyone else know it. Know—me, and never let anyone else know that—for they would have you for breakfast and use you against me, if they knew—my price.” Her smile was open confession now, and open challenge. “The man hasn’t lived who could do that—but I think he was born today, and—not born yesterday. You know that it will not work if you want only the place, the fight. I do not offer you refuge. But if it is not that-“

  “I do not need refuge,” James began.

  “Wait,” Kirk said urgently and came off the bed, shakily, but came to them, came and put his hand on James’s arm. “Before you say it—Hell, I can see it. I can see her. But your life is here, your friends, family—more.” He looked at Spock. “We can’t do this to him.” He looked back to meet James’s eyes. “This is the real crunch of the premise of identical doubles, identical real men. It’s a problem even of metaphysics. I don’t even see that there’s a right of the original—and I want to claim that right so badly that my teeth ache. But you have every right to everything that is mine—life, property, place, command, friends, family, more; to my—memories: yours, ours.” He straightened his shoulders as if they would break. “No difference. Yet, I know I can’t offer to—go off into the night. How could you?”

  James drew a breath to the bottom of his lungs, feeling suddenly that the recognition of the right was a sanction and seal of acceptance, and the straight answer a form of respect which somehow lifted a weight. “I can’t,” he said with the same respect. “But for me it would not be—night.” Somewhere he found a smile, and he touched the Commander’s arm. “That has to be the answer,” he said, feeling his way. “From the moment of—division—there is a difference. A man is his memories. Omne died before he would give up the memory of this day. And I would, too. It is mine. Whatever the pain, it is a part of me now—the only part which is entirely mine. As yours is entirely yours, whatever we have shared. There are things we have not shared: Spock’s acceptance of me, his refusal to regard me as expendable, even after he knew that you lived. The Commander, and how she kept the trust.”