Just Imagine aka Risen Glory

by Susan Elizabeth Phillips

  Kit felt a hysterical bubble of laughter rising inside her. How like him it was to behave as if there'd never been anything between them but the most distant of friendships.

  "Thank you, Mr. Parsell," she replied, somehow managing to match his tone. Propelled by her pride, she flawlessly played the role for which the Templeton Academy had trained her. For the next twenty minutes, she spoke of the condition of the roses that grew near the front of the house, the health of the president of the Planters and Citizens Bank, and the possibility of purchasing a new carpet for the church.

  He responded to each topic and never once attempted to refer to any of the events that had transpired between them less than a week before. As he took his leave of her, precisely twenty minutes after his arrival, she wondered why it had taken her so long to admit to herself what an idiot he was.

  She spent the evening curled in a chair in the rear sitting room, her old, battered copy of Emerson's Essays on her lap. Across from her was the mahogany desk where Sophronia worked on the housekeeper's records. Cain would expect her to take over now, but Sophronia wouldn't appreciate her interference, and Kit had no interest in counting linens. She didn't want to be mistress of the house. She wanted to be mistress of the land.

  As night settled in, Kit sank deeper into despair. He could do anything he wanted to her plantation, and she couldn't stop him. He cared much more about the mill than the fields. Maybe he'd decide to slice up the fields to make way for a road. And he was a gambler. What if he squandered the money from her trust? What if he decided to sell off the land for ready cash?

  The clock in the hallway chimed midnight and her thoughts grew darker. Cain had always been a wanderer. He'd already lived here for three years. How long would it be before he decided to sell Risen Glory and set off for someplace new?

  She tried to tell herself Risen Glory was safe for now. Cain was preoccupied with the spinning mill, so he wasn't likely to do anything drastic right away. Even though it went against her nature, she had to bide her time.

  Yes, Risen Glory was safe, but what about her? What about that hot pounding in her blood when he touched her? Or the heightened awareness that shot through her every time she saw him? Was history repeating itself? Was Weston blood calling out to Cain blood as it had done once before in the union that had nearly destroyed Risen Glory?

  "Katharine Louise, why aren't you in bed?" Miss Dolly stood in the doorway, her frilly nightcap askew, her face puckered with worry.

  "Just restless. I'm sorry I woke you."

  "Let me give you some laudanum, dear, so you can sleep."

  "I don't need any."

  "You need your rest, Katharine. Now, don't be stubborn."

  "I'll be fine." She led Miss Dolly upstairs, but the older woman refused to leave her alone until Kit forced down several teaspoons of the laudanum.

  She fell asleep, only to have her rest disturbed by opium-induced shadow-images. Toward dawn, a great tawny lion came to her. She smelled his male, jungle scent, but instead of feeling fear, she wove her fingers through his mane and pulled him closer.

  Gradually, he changed into her husband. He whispered love words and began to caress her. Through the fabric of her dream, she felt his skin. It was warm and as moist as her own.

  "I'll fill you now," her dream-husband whispered.

  "Yes," she murmured. "Oh, yes."

  He entered her then, and her body caught fire. She moved with him, and climbed with him, and just before the flames exploded, she called out his name.

  The laudanum dream was still with her when she awakened the next morning. She gazed up at the pink-and-green silk bed hangings, trying to shake off the groggy aftereffects of the medicine. How real it had seemed… the lion who'd changed beneath her hands into-

  She shot up in bed.

  Cain stood at her washstand shaving before the mirror that hung above it. He wore only a white towel draped around his hips. "Good morning."

  She glared at him. "Go into your own room to shave."

  He turned and stared pointedly at her chest. "The scenery is better in here."

  She realized the sheet had fallen to her waist, and she yanked it to her chin. Then she saw her nightgown lying crumpled on the floor. He chuckled at her sudden intake of breath. She lifted the sheet and stuck her head under it.

  Sure enough. She wasn't imagining the dampness between her thighs.

  "You were a wildcat last night," he drawled, clearly amused.

  And he'd been a lion.

  "I was drugged," she retorted. "Miss Dolly made me take laudanum. I don't remember anything."

  "Then I guess you'll have to take my word for it. You were sweet and submissive, and you did everything I wanted."

  "Now who's dreaming?"

  "I took what was mine last night," he said with deliberate relish. "It's a good thing that your freedom is a thing of the past. You obviously need a strong hand."

  "And you obviously need a bullet in your heart."

  "Get out of bed and get dressed, wife. You've been hiding out long enough."

  "I haven't been hiding."

  "That's not what I hear." He rinsed off his face, then reached for a towel to dry it. "I ran into one of our neighbors in Charleston yesterday. She took a great deal of pleasure in telling me you weren't receiving visitors."

  "Forgive me if I wasn't anxious to listen to everyone clucking their tongues over the fact that I married a Yankee who abandoned me the morning after our wedding."

  "That really rankles, doesn't it?" He tossed down the towel. "I didn't have any choice. The spinning mill has to be rebuilt in time for this year's crop, and I needed to make arrangements for the lumber and building supplies." He walked to the door. "I want you dressed and downstairs in half an hour. The carriage will be waiting."

  She eyed him suspiciously. "What for?"

  "It's Sunday. Mr. and Mrs. Cain are going to church."

  "Church!"

  "That's right, Kit. This morning you're going to stop acting like a coward and face them all down."

  Kit jumped up, taking the sheet with her. "I've never acted like a coward in my life!"

  "That's what I'm counting on." He disappeared through the doorway.

  She'd never admit it to him, but he was right. She couldn't keep hiding like this. Cursing under her breath, she threw aside the sheet and washed.

  She decided to wear the blue-and-white muslin forget-me-not dress she'd worn on her first night back at Risen Glory. After she put it on, she pulled up her hair into a loose chignon, then perched a tiny confection of chip straw and blue satin on her head. For jewelry, she wore her detested wedding ring and eardrops set with moonstones.

  It was a warm morning, and the worshipers hadn't gone inside yet. As the carriage from Risen Glory drew up, Kit watched their heads turn. Only the young children darting about in a final burst of energy were indifferent to the arrival of Baron Cain and his bride.

  Cain helped Miss Dolly out, then reached inside the carriage to assist Kit. She stepped down gracefully, but as he began to release her arm, she moved closer to him. With what she hoped was an intimate smile, she slid first one hand and then the other up the length of his sleeve and clung to it in a pose of helpless and adoring femininity.

  "Pushing it a bit, aren't you?" he muttered.

  She gave him a blazing smile and whispered under her breath, "I'm just getting started. And you can go to hell."

  Mrs. Rebecca Whitmarsh Brown reached her first. "Why, Katharine Louise, we didn't expect to see you this morning. It goes without saying that your very sudden marriage to Major Cain has surprised us all, hasn't it, Gladys?"

  "It certainly has," her daughter answered tightly.

  The young woman's expression clearly told Kit that Gladys's own eyes had been fixed on Cain, Yankee or not, and she didn't appreciate being passed over for a hoyden like Kit Weston.

  Kit went so far as to press her cheek to his sleeve. "Why, Mrs. Brown, Gladys, I believe you're teasin' me, 'deed
I do. Surely everyone in the entire county who possesses a pair of eyes guessed from the very beginnin' how Major Cain and I feel about each other. Although he, bein' a man, was much better able to hide his true emotions than I, a mere women, ever could."

  Cain made an odd choking sound, and even Miss Dolly blinked.

  Kit sighed and clicked her tongue. "I fought and fought our attraction-the major being a Yankee interloper and one of our most evil enemies. But as Shakespeare wrote, 'Love conquers all things.' Isn't that so, darlin'?"

  "I believe Virgil wrote that, my dear," he replied dryly. "Not Shakespeare."

  Kit beamed at the women. "Now, isn't he just the smartest man? You wouldn't think a Yankee would know so much, would you? Most of them being dim-headed and all."

  He squeezed her arm in what looked like a gesture of affection, but was, in fact, a warning to mind her manners.

  She fanned her face. "Gracious, it certainly is warm. Baron, darlin', maybe you'd better take me inside where it's cooler. I seem to be feelin' the heat this morning."

  The words were barely out of her mouth before a dozen pairs of eyes traveled to her waistline.

  This time there was no mistaking Cain's wicked amusement. "Of course, my dear. Let's get you inside right away." He steered her up the steps, his arm around her shoulders as if she were a delicate, fruit-bearing flower in need of his protection.

  Kit felt the churchgoers' eyes piercing her back, and she could hear them mentally ticking off the months. Let them count, she told herself. Soon they'd see for themselves that they were wrong.

  And then a horrible thought struck her.

  The Conjure Woman had lived in a ramshackle cabin on what had once been Parsell land for as long as anyone could remember. Some said old Godfrey Parsell, Brandon's grandfather, had bought her at a slave market in New Orleans. Others said she'd been born at Holly Grove and was part Cherokee. No one knew for certain how old she was, and no one knew her by any other name.

  White and black alike, every woman in the county came to see her sooner or later. She could cure warts, predict the future, make love potions, and determine the sex of unborn babies. She was the only one Kit knew who could help.

  "Afternoon, Conjure Woman. It's Kit Weston-Katharine Louise Cain now-Garrett Weston's daughter. You remember me?"

  The door creaked open far enough for an old, grizzled head to protrude. "You Garrett Weston's young'un all grown up." The old woman let out a dry, rasping cackle. "Your daddy, he be burnin' in hellfire for sure."

  "You're prob'ly right about that. May I come in?"

  The old lady stood back from the door, and Kit stepped inside a room that was tiny and well-scrubbed, despite its clutter. Bunches of onions, garlic, and herbs hung from the rafters, odd pieces of furniture filled the corners, and an old spinning wheel sat near the cabin's only window. One wall of the room held crude wooden shelves bowed in the center from the weight of assorted crocks and jars.

  The Conjure Woman stirred the fragrant contents of a kettle hanging by an iron hook over the fire. Then she lowered herself into a rocker next to the hearth. Just as if she were alone, she began to rock and hum in a voice as dry as fallen leaves.

  "There is a balm in Gilead…"

  Kit sat in the chair closest to her, a ladder-back with a sagging rush seat, and listened. Ever since that morning's church service, she'd tried to think of what she'd do if she had a baby. She'd be bound to Cain for the rest of her life. She couldn't let that happen, not while there was still a chance for her, some miracle that would give her freedom and make everything right again.

  As soon as they'd returned from church, Cain had disappeared, but Kit hadn't been able to get away until much later that afternoon, when Miss Dolly retired to her bedroom to read her Bible and nap.

  The Conjure Woman finally stopped singing. "Child, you lay your troubles on Jesus, you gonna feel a whole lot better."

  "I don't think Jesus can do much about my troubles."

  The old lady looked up at the ceiling and cackled. "Lord? You listenin' to this child?" Laughter rattled her bony chest. "She thinks You cain't help her. She thinks ol' Conjure Woman can help her, but Your son Jesus Christ cain't." Her eyes were beginning to water from her amusement, and she dabbed at them with the corner of her apron. "Oh, Lord," she cackled, "this child-she's so young."

  Kit leaned forward and touched the old woman's knee. "It's just that I need to be certain, Conjure Woman. I can't have a baby. That's why I've come to you. I'll pay you well if you'll help me."

  The old woman stopped her rocking and looked Kit full in the face for the first time since she'd entered the cabin. "Chil'ren are the Lord's blessin'."

  "They're a blessing I don't want." The heat in the small cabin was oppressive, and she rose. "When I was a child, I overheard the slave women talking. They said you sometimes helped them keep from having more children, even though you could have been put to death for it."

  The Conjure Woman's yellowed eyes narrowed with something like contempt. "Those slave women gonna have their chil'ren sold away. You a white woman. You don't ever have to worry none about havin' your babies ripped out of your arms so you never see them again."

  "I know that. But I can't have a baby. Not now."

  Once again the old lady began to rock and sing. "There is a balm in Gilead to make the wounded whole. There is a balm in Gilead…"

  Kit walked over to the window. It wasn't any use. The Conjure Woman wouldn't help her.

  "That Yankee man. He got the devil in him, but he got goodness, too."

  "A lot of devil and very little goodness, I think."

  The old lady chuckled. "A man like that, he got strong seed. Ol' Conjure Woman needs strong med'cine to fight that seed." She struggled out of her chair and shuffled over to the wooden shelves, where she peered into first one container and then another. Finally, she poured a generous supply of grayish-white powder into an empty jelly jar and covered the top with a piece of calico she tied on with a string. "You stir a dab of this powder in a glass of water and drink all of it in the mornin', after he have his way with you."

  Kit took the jar and gave her a swift, grateful hug. "Thank you." She pulled out several greenbacks she'd tucked into her pocket and pressed them into her hand.

  "You just do what ol' Conjure Woman tells you, missy. Ol' Conjure Woman, she know what's best." And then she let out another wheezy cackle and turned back to the fire, chuckling at a joke known only to herself.

  16

  was standing on a low stepladder in the library, trying to retrieve a book, when she heard the front door open. The grandfather's clock in the sitting room struck ten. Only one person slammed a door like that. All evening she'd been bracing herself for his return.

  That afternoon, on her way back from the Conjure Woman's, she'd caught a glimpse of him in the distance. Since it was Sunday, he'd been working alone at the mill. He was stripped to the waist, unloading lumber he'd brought back from Charleston.

  "Kit!"

  The light from the library window had given her away, and from the sound of his bellow, he wasn't in a good mood.

  The library door flew back on its hinges. His shirt was stained with sweat and his dirty nankeen trousers were tucked into boots that had undoubtedly left muddy tracks down the hallway. Sophronia wouldn't be happy about that.

  "When I call you, I want you right away," he growled.

  "If only I had wings," she said sweetly, but the man had no sense of humor.

  "I don't appreciate having to look all over the house for you when I come home."

  He was being so outrageous that she nearly laughed. "Perhaps I should wear a bell. Would you like something?"

  "You're damn right I would. A bath, for one thing, and clean clothes. Then I want dinner. In my room."

  "I'll get Sophronia." Even as she said it, she had a fairly good idea he'd take issue.

  "Sophronia isn't my wife. She isn't the one who made me spend the last six hours unloading lumber I wouldn't
have needed if you weren't so handy with a match." He leaned against the doorframe, blatantly daring her to defy him. "You'll take care of me."

  She did her best to prod his ill humor by smiling. "My pleasure. I'll see about your bath."

  "And dinner."

  "But of course." As she swept past him and headed for the kitchen, she played with a fantasy of jumping on Temptation and riding away forever, but it would take more than an evil-tempered husband to make her leave Risen Glory.

  Sophronia was nowhere in sight, so she had Lucy get Cain's bath ready, then looked for something to feed him. She considered rat poison, but finally settled on the plate of food Patsy had kept warm on the back of the stove. She removed the towel so everything would be as cold as possible when he ate it.

  Lucy appeared somewhat breathlessly at the door. "Mr. Cain says he wants you upstairs right now."

  "Thank you, Lucy." As she carried the plate upstairs, she blew on the warm roast and potatoes, hoping to cool them off even more. She thought of dumping extra salt on top, but she didn't have the heart for it. He might be the devil incarnate, but he'd worked hard today. Lukewarm food was as far as she was prepared to go.

  When she entered the room, she saw Cain sprawled in a chair, still fully dressed. He looked as grouchy as a lion with a thorn in its paw. "Where the hell have you been?"

  "Seeing to your dinner, dearest."

  He narrowed his eyes. "Help me off with my damned boots."

  Even though his boots were mud-encrusted, he could have easily taken them off by himself, but he was spoiling for a fight. Normally she'd have been happy to oblige him, but since a fight was what he wanted, she chose to be perverse. "Of course, my lamb." She crossed over to him, turned her back, and straddled his leg. "If you brace yourself, it'll come off easier."

  The only way he could brace himself would be to put his other muddy boot on her bottom. As she suspected, that was too much, even for him.

  "Never mind, I'll take the damned things off myself."

  "Are you sure? I live to be helpful."