“No . . . I just don’t know how to get over him.”
“That’s because there’s no getting over a love like that.” Fleur cupped Kit’s face between lacquered fingers, and bent down until they were touching foreheads. “You just move on anyway.”
“But I can barely lift my head.” Kit’s voice cracked, and Grif’s heart went with it. “I know it makes me needy and really stupid to hold on to a man who doesn’t want me, but I can’t stop thinking of him. I close my eyes and he’s there. I wake and it’s worse. There’s no name for this . . . for this heartache.”
“Sure there is,” Fleur answered, her smile bittersweet as they both fell still. “It’s called life.”
Kit didn’t answer, making Grif wonder if that meant that she agreed or she didn’t. Finally, Fleur shifted. “Come on, we can’t hole up here forever. Let’s get dolled up and go out. We’ll call up some greasers with a hot rod. Go drink rum from a tiki mug. We’ll raise some hell and get tattoos.”
“A tattoo?” Kit sniffled, then tilted her head. “Yeah. Maybe.”
“Something to mark the occasion,” Fleur declared. “Kit Craig’s return to the real world!”
Grif could have kissed the woman for that.
But Kit shook her head. “No. Not that. But something to mark that I’m different. That I’ve changed not in spite of Griffin Shaw, but because he was here.”
“Oh, come on, Kit. You can do better than that.”
Suddenly Grif no longer wanted to kiss her.
“Get some ink as a badge of honor. You survived Griffin Shaw and now you’re ready to start a new life. One without him in it.”
Was she? Staring at Kit, not blinking, Grif realized he was holding his breath.
“Maybe,” Kit said, biting her bottom lip. Then, after a long moment, she frowned. “But only under one condition.”
“What?”
Kit pushed into a sitting position and leveled her friend with a hard stare. “I don’t want anything with damned wings.”
Your knowledge does nothing for me,” Grif told Frank now, his whisper harsh enough to scratch his throat. Suddenly he didn’t feel sorry for the Pure. He damned well should feel it all.
“I know,” Frank whispered, and his eyes were shining with tears, too. It was novel, and it was shocking. It was as unnatural to see a Pure feeling human emotion as it would be to hear a dog meow.
And all Grif could think was, Good.
“Then what do you want?” Because it wasn’t just to reminisce about old times.
“I have a message from the Host.”
Grif closed his eyes. The entire legion of angels. Every order in the hierarchy of Pures, from Seraphim to Rulers to Guardians.
“Your refusal to carry out the will of God as outlined in the agreement formed as a condition of your return to the Surface has angered them.”
“Well. That’s a mouthful,” Grif said at last, flashing again on Kit’s heart-wrenching sorrow. “So what are they taking from me now?”
His wings, he hoped. There was little else left.
The voice struck, clapping like thunder behind him. “We’re not taking, Griffin Shaw. This time we’re giving.”
Whirling, Grif cringed, immediately shielding himself with his arms against the light that flared before him. If Sarge had radiated with light, this being was light. The image that burned itself beneath his eyelids had wings of flame, tips dripping with lava, and a burned-out double negative of blackened holes where eyes should be.
A Seraph. The power emanating from it was unfiltered, raw as a lightning bolt and as sharply static on the tongue. Angels, unmasked, were awesome in the original sense of the word, and reverence, like survival instinct, forced Grif to his knees. He felt his next breath, heated from the flame, shaky in his chest.
I am God’s child, he thought, over and again, trying not to be overwhelmed.
The Seraph knew he was glorious, created of the first triad and the highest order. His mighty wings arched across half the room, rippling with muscle. Sarge, who was of the Cherubim tribe, shielded his true nature by taking on the aspect deemed most familiar by the mortal souls who viewed him. Yet this angel, and the four flared behind him in an offensive phalanx, didn’t bother. That, more than anything, told Grif he was in trouble.
The realization brought forth an abrupt dimming of the blistering light. Grif removed his hand from his eyes and caught sight of a veil being dropped between them as he straightened from his prone position. It was a see-through scrim, likely sewn from starlight and dark matter, and it would keep any of the Seraph’s errant rays from attacking Grif. The Seraphim could never truly hide what they really were.
Monsters, Grif thought, lifting his chin.
Though the Seraph had to have heard the thought, he gave one short nod, and Grif stood. With his glory dimmed, the angel was youthful in appearance, with long, dark hair shining and thick and skin as smooth as a polished opal. Yet he was alien in his perfection. But for mankind, all of God’s creatures were.
“What are you giving, then?” Grif said, still blinking.
“More than you deserve, but less than you would like,” answered the Seraph, his voice like a rushing river. “Though that always seems to be the case with your kind.”
“Donel,” Sarge reprimanded. A stone in that river.
“Don’t you presume to correct me!” Donel’s head whipped Sarge’s way, rapids roaring in his throat. “One look at the two of us and it’s clear exactly where righteousness lies!”
Protectiveness welled inside of Grif, and he shifted to shield the Pure behind him with his own body. He and Sarge weren’t always on the same side of the playing field, but he had more history and fondness for this angel than any other.
There was no way to look directly into the faces of angels if they didn’t will it, and even with the veil between them, it wasn’t easy to face Donel full-on. After only a glance that felt like looking into the full sun, Grif wondered if the Pure wanted him to see the contempt that lived among the burned-out embers of that celestial gaze.
After a long moment, Donel held out an arm to the side, palm upright. The limb extended longer than it should have, with fingers that did the same. One of the Pures behind him handed over a scroll. Grif’s heart thumped. An official decree. Holding it straight out before him, Donel unrolled it, then began speaking in tongues.
Grif understood none of it, though he recognized the pattern of jumbled sounds, intonations, and pitches. The heralds trumpeted it regularly in the Everlast, and he’d once asked Sarge what it meant.
“It’s the angelic anthem. It’s a call to arms, a war cry for the Pure.”
“What does it say?” Grif had asked.
“It begins with an introduction to the angelic orders. ‘We are Pure spirit, the mighty who dwell in and of Paradise, we are the Orders charged with dispensing God’s divine Will . . .”
Grif stopped listening after that. To him it was just posturing and posing and politics. All it meant was that the Host was throwing its weight around. Again. The Pure could do whatever they wanted in the Everlast. For now, he breathed a little more deeply and relaxed enough to tuck his hands into his suit pockets. Next up would be a formality, a recitation similar to the Miranda rights, and that, too, mattered little to Grif. As far as he could tell, he was already eternally under arrest. So he tuned out until he once again recognized the English language.
“Griffin Shaw,” Donel said, lifting his voice so the syllables sluiced. “You have been found guilty of violating the conditions of your unprecedented return to the Surface, and failing to actively pursue your true purpose on earth. Therefore, it has been decided after much deliberation that there is no other recourse but to invoke the sacred act of prophecy . . .”
Donel, eyes like banked coals, paused long enough to look up and gauge Grif’s reaction. Apparently the way Grif’s knees automatically weakened was satisfactory.
“. . . hereby ordering you to fulfill additional conditions as outlined by
the Host,” he continued. “These shall commence directly upon utterance.”
Hell, Grif thought. That’s not prophecy. That was an ultimatum. And it was just like the Host. A bunch of winged monsters with nothing better to do than micromanage God’s Chosen.
“That’s right,” Donel hissed, breath roiling as he made no attempt to pretend he wasn’t reading Grif’s mind. “And make no mistake, we will strip down every memory you hold dear and dissolve them in the waters of incubation before allowing you to cause any more harm.”
Grif froze, and not only out of fear. No way, he thought, swallowing hard. Forgetting himself and his past wasn’t an option. He’d come too far. “I don’t understand. What did I do?”
“You mean you don’t know?” Donel said in a voice that made clear that he both did . . . and relished telling Grif. He glanced at Sarge. Grif did the same, a look that told him nothing and everything at once. Because Sarge’s eyes were downcast, his wings dragging on the floor. Grif turned back around, and the Seraph brightened, literally.
“Why, Griffin Shaw,” he said, smile beatific. “You killed Katherine Craig.”
CHAPTER THREE
No.” Grif jerked his head. It wasn’t possible. He may have watched Kit when she didn’t know he was there, but he had been very careful to do as instructed and refrained from making contact. For six long months he’d left her alone. Therefore she couldn’t be dead. “No, Marin would’ve called me if something happened to Kit. We’ve stayed in touch.”
He’d told himself it was smart to make an ally of the Las Vegas Tribune’s editor, especially one with a Rolodex for a brain. What she couldn’t remember off the top of her head, she hunted down like a bloodhound in the countless files she hoarded for herself. No bit of information—or gossip—was too small or insignificant to escape her notice. That’s why he’d told her about Evie . . . or at least that he was looking for an old relative named Evelyn Shaw.
And that’s why, Grif told himself, his desire to keep in touch with Marin had nothing to do with her being Kit’s aunt and only living relative.
“Marin couldn’t call you,” Donel said shortly. “Because she doesn’t know it yet.”
Grif almost laughed. If Marin didn’t know about it, then it hadn’t happened. “It’s six P.M. on a Monday. If Kit skipped work today, Marin would’ve known it before nine A.M.”
“Except that Kit did go to work today. She put in a full shift, and stopped for gas on the way home. She prepared an early dinner of salmon for one before she went to a club called Jitterbug to watch her friends dance. She left early and alone, and was assaulted at nine P.M., as soon as she entered her home.”
Grif looked at his watch. It wasn’t even nine o’clock yet. Though it would be in five more minutes. He whirled.
Sarge just stared back with those sunken eyes. “Her Centurion has already been dispatched.”
Grif swayed, and it had nothing to do with the water beneath them. “And we’re just talking about it? On a fake pirate ship?”
Donel shrugged. “We do not interfere in human affairs.”
Grif did. Growling, he lunged for the hatch leading to the deck. He even anticipated Donel’s charge—or maybe he’d been hoping for it—because all the pent-up anger and sorrow and guilt of the past six months gathered and coiled in his left fist and he let it fly even before thunder cracked across the room. The blow careened into a jaw as hard and sharp as lava rock, and vibrated through Grif’s arm, separating joints. Still, a cry like river rapids tore at the air and flashes of images—Donel, strange and twisting, falling back . . . then bright and burning and whipping forward.
Grif cringed, but the returning strike never came. His breath rasped hard in his chest. Of course, he thought. The Pure couldn’t harm the Chosen.
He couldn’t open his eyes, not with Donel’s rage burning up the room, but he fell to his hands and knees. He didn’t mind begging. Not for this.
“Please,” he said. “Please, she’s been through enough.”
A whoosh of air, the ethereal scrim lowering between them again, and Donel merely glowed. But his words now sizzled. “Yes,” Donel said, mouth turned down. “We believe so, too.”
Desperate, Grif turned back to Sarge. All the strange new furrows in his face had shifted, and Grif watched a tear carving a new track in his destroyed cheeks. Yet he only shook his head. “Donel is right. That’s why we are here.”
He flared his eyes at Grif, his words weighted oddly, but Grif was too worried, too grief-stricken, to care. He didn’t want to play games. Not with this. “I’ll do whatever you want.”
What he couldn’t do was shoot the breeze with a bunch of feathered monsters while Kit was attacked, injured. Murdered.
“We already gave you the opportunity to run down your fate, Shaw, and you chose to stroll.” Donel folded his arms inside his robe. “Allowing you the opportunity to solve your own murder was supposed to heal you so that you could move on into God’s presence. Had you truly been working toward salvation, Katherine Craig would not be dying now.”
Oh, God . . . oh, God . . .
He prayed as he hadn’t in years.
Donel sneered. “Instead, you continue to obsess over the past, and things you cannot change.”
“Yes,” Sarge said again, gesturing around. “That is why we’re here.”
Again, that hard inflection. Grif suddenly realized that only Sarge was posted on the aft end of the ship. And he was directly across from the other Pures. Trying to slow his breathing, trying to think despite his instinct to run for that hatch again—for Kit—Grif worked to calm himself.
“How did it happen?” he asked, because he couldn’t say, “How is it happening?”
“The way it was meant to the first time she was destined to die,” Donel said. “In her home, in her bedroom.”
Grif fought off a wave of nausea by locking eyes with Sarge instead. The Pure narrowed his eyes at Grif. Marble churned.
“There is at least one silver lining for you,” Donel continued, voice again flowing evenly, again in control. “Katherine Craig will no longer distract you from your salvation.”
A snarl rose in his throat and Grif was about to lunge again when Sarge was suddenly there, standing between him and the arrogant Pure. “Donel is right. You must brook no distractions.”
Grif gritted his teeth before catching Sarge’s eye. What the hell was he going on about? Then he realized Donel was also looking at Sarge. Looking like he’d never seen him before.
“What are you doing?” Donel asked. The Pures behind him moved for the first time, edging closer, every eye narrowed on Sarge. Grif took the opportunity to scan the room with his celestial vision—softening his gaze so that the meager light blended, the shadows melting into each other, the ions of every surface shimmering as they shifted. “Oh,” he said, and that’s when everyone turned to him.
He rose to his feet, and stood shoulder-to-shoulder with Sarge. “We’re not really on the Surface.”
Donel growled.
They were in the Everlast. That’s what Sarge had been trying to tell him. He clearly knew what Donel had planned, and he could feel what Grif and Kit felt, so . . .
“I had Nicole Rockwell bring you back to the Everlast while you were unconscious.” Sarge waved at Donel, as if presenting him. “It’s easier on the Host that way.”
“So why make it look like a real place in Vegas?” Grif asked.
The other Pures remained still and silent. They knew something was going on, but Sarge was standing between them and Grif, blocking them from him both physically and mentally. They were as lost as he was.
“Because I knew that if you realized you were in the Everlast you’d immediately try to return to Kit.”
That was it. He could reappear at any time or place he wanted on the Surface, as long as it was the future. He just had to get to Kit before . . .
“Too late,” said Donel, not even needing to read Grif’s mind. His thoughts were plain on his face. �
��She is even now being relieved of her mortal coil.”
“Then what the hell are we doing here?” Grif yelled, and had the pleasure of watching the Pure cringe at his curse. “Why are you telling me this now?”
Sarge appeared in front of him so suddenly that Grif jumped. He jumped again when one dark hand gripped his shoulder, fingers tense and digging, demanding Grif’s attention, his eyes swirling with emotion that threatened to pour in rivulets down his ruined face. “Your time is short, moving forward—”
“Prophecy now bears down on your head like an anvil!” Donel added for good measure.
Sarge glared at him from over one destroyed shoulder before turning back to Grif. “No, prophecy is a gift. It’s a message from the Divine.”
Grif glanced at Donel. Then why did it feel like a threat? Sarge moved aside.
Donel lifted the scroll once more. “Time to earn your fate, Griffin Shaw.”
“Just read it,” Grif said, because he didn’t care. Kit was dying. Or dead.
Kit . . . God, Kit.
Donel opened his mouth. Teeth like daggers winked as he drew in a deep breath.
“Of course, you should give him his miracle first,” Sarge said.
The room froze over. Arctic wind rushed in, numbing Grif’s limbs. He looked at Donel and trembled, but not from the cold.
“What?” Sarge said innocently, like nothing had happened. He blinked at Donel. “You’re giving him prophecy. The scroll states he’s equally entitled to one miracle.” When no one moved, he shrugged. “Didn’t you read the fine print?”
Donel’s eyes narrowed into slits. “That option’s only exercised if a Pure is willing to grant one from his personal coffers . . .”
And for the first time, Sarge smiled. Grif smiled, too. He already knew what he . . .
Donel roared, and light rippled from his skin. Grif cringed as it stabbed at him, rays like swords, the sound threatening to rupture his eardrums. It was no use. Donel’s anger infused the room with infernal heat. The world was afire. Suddenly, the air twisted and a cooling balm of shadows encased him. Grif blinked the haze from his eyes and saw that the heated rays were still trying to reach him, but he was enshrouded in black feathers and arms—shielded by Sarge’s wings, he realized—though Donel continued to roar.
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